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pickledeyes · 4 years

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god i have SO MANY THOUGHTS on episode 7 im putting them in one post. BTW TW for like, child molestation mention.

1. I cried. Thx Rami Malek, I cried.

2. I kinda hate that this weird therapy session was with fucking Vera like ??? This guy ?? Season 1 killed whats her name and then let Elliot open the trunk to find her body like whys he here like “Oh Elliot I know how you feel my life was difficult too” I dont WANT to feel sympathetic towards him Sam Esmail I hate his guts hes disgusting lmao.

3. The MINUTE they started focusing on the window incident like the minute Krista was like “Do you remember that or do you just know what Darlene told you” I was like Oh boy. Here we go. Elliots gonna end up finding out he developed DID because his dad abused him. But like, god it still got me when they finally got to it just because thats... so awful I mean he threw himself out of a window rather than face his dad because he was so afraid at 7 years old thats... so awful for anyone to go through just in general.

4. Even tho I hate that they tried to give Vera a sympathetic background, I did like that he didn’t start calling Elliot a pussy or anything for crying bc like,, god I dont think I could sit thru Elliot having a genuine reaction to something traumatic w this stupid ass gang leader calling him a wuss for crying. Also just in general like, let men cry without being labelled as weak n stuff. Veras little speech was pretty okay up until he got got.

5. I was so afraid that they were gonna try to do a flashback scene.. lol I was so scared bc I really didnt want them to do any sort of flashback scene just bc to be honest alluding to molestation... is ENOUGH. I dont need to see anything more. They might do that in future episodes tho so I’m not gonna pat Sam Esmail on the back yet :/

6. I like that they didnt interrupt that moment w any flashback tho and I like that Mr Robot completely left right before Elliot like, came to the realization. I think it was a good choice just from like, director/writer standpoint.

7. THANK GOD FOR KRISTA. THANKS FOR FINALLY STABBING VERA I hope he stays dead I dont want his ass showing up again anymore smh.

8. Lastly bc I wanted to end on an even number, I’m really glad they made the window scene make sense. Tbh I thought they were never gonna make it make any sense and were gonna leave it at like “Lol Elliots just always been soo crazy he threw himself out of a window when he was 7 for no reason!!” n like, that woulda sucked. I like that its one of the storylines thats carried out through the seasons and has just been added on to.

Those are my thoughts anyway I’ll pick up tomorrow to catch up before the two part finale n I’ll use the mr robot tag again

#mr robot #i just AAAAAAAAA i hate the background story but like at least it makes sense for a lot of elliots... self

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jake-ames · 7 years

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I saw that you answered an ask with 'jeans because of what happened'? Can I ask what happened? Love your blog :)

i’ve mentioned the story once or twice actually

trigger warning: molest

i was 14 and i was followed home and molested in a lift/elevator. i was wearing shorts, and it wasnt anything provocative. i was wearing a sports shirt, shorts and slippers but oh well. it was still very traumatic for me, so i kinda stopped wearing shorts for a while. i still wear them, but i’d pick jeans over shorts any day. also the guy who molested me was never arrested so i still feel really angry when i think about it bc he fuckin got away with it. there was a security camera in the lift, the police saw the tapes. but i guess it wasnt “serious” enough for them to arrest him. fuck the police. (this was 4 years ago)

then last year an old man purposefully pressed his arm against my breasts in public, but he walked away so quick we didnt get him. i thought it was by accident, but my dad saw him walk away with a pedophile/cheeky grin on his face (my dad didnt see what happened and he thought the man was being weird) ,,, only then i found out it was on purpose. again, he got away with it. now im just hyper observant and sensitive all the time because i dont want it to happen to me or to anyone else ever again

#anon #answers #tw #molest

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helpgwen · 4 years

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Lol so I can’t get a restraining order against someone I was in jail with cause I wasnt stalked yet (though I was promised this upon dudes release) and also my county’s language abt ex partes is biased in that it reads as though only women are victims of abuse and thats kinda wack but whatever, i hate this state and i think ill just murder dude if he ever finds me like he promised he could/would

Also this dudes face haunts my waking thoughts and i never really hate people or things but im fairly certain i hate him. Ive never had someone make me feel so fucking dirty, and i had to share a cell with this fucking bastard. He talked about raping me a lot and molested me abit but never seriously because “itd be better if (i) did it willingly” but played a lot of mind games or at least tried to manipulate me any time he was awake, saying stupid shit like cmon just try sucking my dick and if you dont like it after two minutes ill leave you alone, if you did id go to prison with a pep in my step, its completely ordinary for this to happen, if you go to a different part of the jail theyll be worse than me there, youre so selfish and mean(this one bothers me a lot), id never try to rape you i actually like you its just like this in jail(its not, but prisons institutionalize people into thinking that way also it very much is like that in prison, youre not getting around coming off some ass if youre not a fucking monster at fighting or at least really, really strong), youre probably not actually gay and youll have to prove it(something like this, i actually had a kinda cool celly before him that was gay and i talked to a lot for the few days he was around until chris showed up which is how chris found out, also he beat the shit out of my former celly because chris wouldnt get out of my bunk one night and trying to cuddle with me despite me making it abundantly clear i wasnt cool with it but not being physically capable of changing it and this homophobe gd down the walk saw and started tripping and waking everyone up then it became a giant drama and all the gds had to have a meeting to decide what to do bc not being gay is like the second law and a lot of stupid prison politics i dont care to explain played out where it ended up being my former cellys fault for letting it happen in the cell which is basically just the excuse they gave so nobody would have to beat up the 17 year old gay kid which is a hate crime and child abuse charge on top of assault in whatever degree also most of them i caught in the shower jacking off to me so their rules were fucking stupid anyway but so any chris beats the shit out of dude and he gets kicked from the pod and chris took his bunk), id leave you alone and youd never have to deal with my harassment if you did just once, he’d always compliment me and pretend to care about my well being or maybe actually care, im not certain how his demented mind works, and a bunch of other shit that started when he woke up and ended when he went to sleep and went on until i finally took probation with a twenty one year backup the first chance i was given just to get away from him because id had my 18th birthday during my incarceration and i wasnt anxious for his patience to run out now that the threat of a lot of charges was gone, also he said that i wouldnt be able to say he raped me if i did snitch (which i never did and only now consider doing because im frl traumatized i think) cause if they checked the cameras theyd think it was just some weird jailhouse boyfriend thing gone wrong and me being spiteful based on his constant proximity to me and me not checking out or moving cells which i shouldve done but kind of lost the opportunity to do after awhile. But the jailhouse bf thing would definitely fly i think just because the correction officers at the facility had a cumulative iq of probably around 70 or 80.

#haha sorry internet

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