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#bc as a 1st year grad student ppl around me r like: it must be hard being away from ur support system or ive left my support system when i
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#im still procrastinating so bear with me
#ive just been thinking abt something. like the idea of a support system
#bc as a 1st year grad student ppl around me r like: it must be hard being away from ur support system or ive left my support system when i
#moved halfway across the country. and like i dont really feel that way bc idk the idea of a support system is sorta odd to me
#like for me i guess it would just b my parents who i kno love me but im just so weirdly asocial that i never really talk to them
#like i hardly ever text them. we talk maybe every couple months. so like i guess i theoretically have support but its a bit abstract
#and like i have friends i guess but again im a bit weird and dont really feel connected to ppl so i dont feel that close to anyone
#surface level friendships i guess. i dunno. i just feel weird not not having a support system but also having it b hollow
#i guess i cant feel it more now. like i feel like getting diagnosed as bip0lar made my problems seem more realized to my parents
#like i dunno i just assumed they knew i was doing awful most of the time but maybe that wasn't the case
#its such a weird thing to b diagnosed with. like the conotations feel a lot heavier and i feel like im not supposed to talk abt it to ppl
#bc theyll think im unreliable or something. like it wouldnt b that big a deal if i was just depressed but the sometimes buring out of my
#skin makes me somehow scarier. and i still feel conflicted bc i do have a bip0lar mood profile but i have very very high impulse control
#and even when im going high my mind is still super rational about it. which seems weird bc low impulse control is common with
#the diagnosis. its also y i dont fit an 4dhd profile. not that it really matters. i fit the criteria enough to be on the bip0lar spectrum
#its not like someone's gonna come yell at me for not being bip0lar enough. i just feel odd about it is all
#still feels fake i guess. hard to imagine feeling any different to how i feel now. which is weirdly stable. so i guess the meds r working
#sigh... ok enough i need to go to sleep at 7pm so i can get up at like 2 to finish reading a paper. for some reason my god forsaken brain
#works better in the early morning rip
#unrelated
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