#back to the present.... i am not ready

[hauntingblue]

21st century "et tu, brute" moment

#and still WHAT ARE THOSE GIANT BLACK THINGS!!! #TELLING HIYORI TO PLAY THAT SONG ON HIS FUNERAL. HE KNEW. i was just kidding my ass!!! #TOKI AGAINST KAIDO???? FUCK OFF!!!! kaido wanted to fight momo i guess??? thank god he left #WHAT IS TOKI DOING??? SHINOBU??? WHAT IS HER PURPOSE!! SHE CAME LOOKING FOR LUFFY??? HE KNOWS BC OF LAUGHTALE AND HE KNOWS HE WOULD DIE #why is she running from the past??? omg toki.... chills..... full body chills... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 975 #at first i thought oh we know this whatever.... but damn. godamn #back to the present.... i am not ready #nvm. denjiro jesus...... ITS THE FUCKING GUY??? THE BKUE HAIRED GUY??? KYOSHIRO???? THATS FUCKED UP. WELL AT LEAST HE IS AGAINST OROCHI #that was good. and he still is ushumitzu kozo.... my guess is he took care of hiyori but MAYBE DON'T GIVE HER THAT JOB IDK #he got so angry he changed faces. iconic #this traitor reveal is so cool.... being an actor SO GOOD you are willing to die... damn. he be waking up real early to be a hater #luffy's one sleeve off kimono with the armor looks so good.... style king.... #episode 976 #kanjuro..... i got spoiled bit choosong to reveal that in a boat in the middle of the sea when he has devil fruit powers... well.... #KIKU!!! EXECUTE HIM!!! SLAY!! HIS ASS!!! #kinemon omg.... well deserved. goodbye 👋🏻 #OH NO!!! WHO IS THAT???? HE DREW HIMSELF???? NOW HE KNOWS HOW!!! #THE SUNNY!!!!! THEY UNDERRATED FRANKY'S CARPENTRY SKILLS!!! #LAWW!!!!!!!!!! OH WHAT A FIT!!!! KID TOO?????? OH HIS SHIP SLAYS!!! NOW GO SAVE MOMO!! SOMEONE!!! #luffy has a cape..... hell yes..... #omg....... finally................ #episode 977 #i am so hyped.... now i need to go back to work ajdjakks

[aprilblossomgirl]

AkkAyan in Our Skyy2 Official Trailer

#our skyy 2 #official trailer #our skyy 2 x the eclipse #the eclipse #akkayan #firstkhao #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #i take this as my birthday present #i am ready but also not ready #i miss them! they're really coming back to me! #*cry* #*no words* #this looks so much of akkayan boyfriends era. they're sooo....

[miserye]

i'm procrastinating again LMFAO someone please make me productive this is gonna take at least like 1 hour i think

#chatterye #i got everything else done #i just need to crank this out #and practice it #this is my presentation btw #that's why i'm pushing it off #i need to have it down by tmr (mon) so i am ready for tuesday #someone send me help #i don't know anything #also someone manifest that my schools get back to me #they're pissing me off #and i don't know when i'm supposed to email back the first people because it's been a while #but also i need to know funding WAH but i haven't gotten the official letter so i was waiting for that #but idk if it's gonna come anytime soon

[hellheld]

harlot having naughty thoughts.

#thoughts left over from last night when i was trying to sleep #but as i write them more and feel them out more i think i am getting more of an idea of how they feel about sex in general #and how much they want to participate vs wanting certain things vs how comfy they are w someone #ig if i had to put a simple label they're a dom that would rather be present for their partner's pleasure #and do stuff for them but not have to be. involved ig? #i think the most they'd get involved is using a strap #but unless someone really peels back their defenses they're not getting naked #anyway. time for me to get ready to leave enjoy this IUWRHGNEJKT #* ooc: let's go lesbians! #tumblr remember my tags challenge

[justinefrischmanngf]

i need something 2 snap me out of the funk i've been in since saturday like i just need to be snapped back into gear yk those slap bracelet things that were a danger to anyone in the vicinity ? yea i need something to do that to me just a little bit so i can have a functioning brain again

#i'm not even tired i'm just not Present #like i am tired but i won't be when i start doing things mostly i'm just not really Here and it's fucking annoyingggggggggg #it's okay though i'm a big girl i'll sort myself out #i feel like i know a few ppl who are in this kind of mood atm though which is a bit weird like why r we aligned and can we be aligned in a #better way pls and thanks #anyway i need 2 get over myself and get ready 2 leave the house bc i am pushinggggg it for time which who knows maybe if i sprint #to uni i'll be forced back into gear

[tj-crochets]

Crafting update! - I’m working on a crocheted cat. So far, I have all the pieces except the tail crocheted, and then need to assemble and needlefelt them to make them look like a specific cat instead of just generic cat - I’m assembling the box to ship to my mom, which means getting the presents for my sisters together as well. Since they are all going to be in the same box, I’m making little gift pouches so they know which thing is for who - I had a fairly severe allergic reaction two days ago (I didn’t double check ingredients in a pie and ate two slices before I noticed) so I have not crafted as much as I wanted to recently, and haven’t taken any pictures of the progress I have made on various crafts. Photo updates will be soon!

#the person behind the yarn #crafting updates #I am okay but I had to take three children's benadryl #I usually only have to take one for allergic reactions #I mean. the adult dose is 4. so three is still not a lot #but daytime benadryl eats my words and makes it difficult to organize them intelligibly #and all my words spoons have been going to work #but the benadryl fog has lifted and I am back! ready to craft! #also my christmas present to myself arrived #I got myself a dollhouse!! just a basic one #but I finally have a place to put all the doll furniture I made #the hypothetical dollhouse is less hypothetical now!! :D

[itspileofgoodthings]

just heard coat of many colors by Dolly Parton for the first time I’m so sorry I’m going to need a minute or several days——

#😭😭😭 #you know #we’re watching the shania twain documentary right now and I am having so many thoughts on Pop (country) Stars #and Dolly and Taylor—they do such different things they have different ministries #but in my (admittedly) limited knowledge of the pantheon of music superstars they’re the only two where I feel like I can compare #And they’re not the same at all. Taylor’s core is romance and Dolly’s is almost just the warmth of faith and love #but the humanity striking so deep and the impact spreading so wide #and this core that is so so solid and doesn’t depend on the (very different) aesthetics to exist #those are the SAME in both #anyway I just #present day dolly parton used to scare me because of the aesthetic and i knew nothing about her #but so many people said they loved her with such warmth and then once I started reading about her/listening more #there’s just this power and this voice and this love #that just. It goes so deep! Strikes deep into the roots of things #I am feeling a lot of things in this Chili’s tonight about female superstars #with shania apparently just being the catalyst (I don’t know shania. I’ve only heard like one Song) #Text posts brought to you by Maria needing to go back to school but not sure quite being ready #thanks 4 listening

[8aji]

im a lil embarrassed that most of the posts ive posted (duh) as of late were text posts abt me being sick LMFAO n it feels silly to write this but i think i may log out of this acc for a lil while at least on mobile <3

#not being able to write is making me feel a lil dizzy dizzy #a lil embarrassed a lil 'i do not belong' ya know??? #hm yeah i also need to get off my phone bc i start uni next week and i need to wake up early and im soooo stressed bc of another uni thingy #so...i will be deactivating 😔👊 #im joking im joking #ofc i wont deactivate i think my shrink would kill me if i did anyway /hj #she was the once that convinced me to make the writing blog #but rn the internet doesnt feel good to me and i need to be more present and more real and prioritise other aspects of my life #i wanna be more stable and journal and move my body and read books bc i like the feeling of the paper and and #i had the sweetest ask ever about my book recs and i was also a lil embarrassed to respond bc im not much of a reader but i try TT #anyway !! aside from this mildly incoherent ramble which i loved writing ngl #i havent been writing a lot and i think ive lowkey un-hyperfixated on tr and jjk so the inspo isnt inspoing #and tbh that feels a lil awful to say bc tr has taught me so many things and helped me grow and im so painfully in love with shin but idk #idk what happened i think i just hit a lil bump in the road of life and the stress has me focused more on real life and other things than #my darling beloveds. and im sure itll pass like most things in life i will feel good again #but rn it doesnt. i havent even caught up with the latest ep of tr :') but nonetheless writing is one of my truest loves as well #so i will comeback hopefully with a few stories mapped out including a lil gojo series and all that fun jazz :D #i have shin naoto izana gojo and toji in store !! and tbh im not ready to just leave them all behind #ANYWAY OKAY this' gone for too long LMFAO but thank u if u read till here i think i needed to rant #that means ill probably be less active than im already am but ill be back !! #still i dont think this exactly qualifies as a hiatus so i wont mark it down as such wait is this a semi-hiatus??? lmfao idk but eh 🤷‍♀️ #i love love love love love yall so so so much and forevever and always will #MWAH #<3

[horrible-oracle]

theres some fucken crazy days/weeks ahead of me. let's go motherfucker (ig)

#got a group presentation due to monday an essay due to sunday both of which i only today and am not really sure how to go about #then sat is my 18th bday and ive got an online class and then that night im going to a party and then like 7 hrs later meeting my mother #at a cafe and im gonna come out to her and also get an appointment to a gender clinic #and then next week ive got a test on a subject whose lectures ive never even been at cos the lecturer is unbearable #and then on the last week of march i have no classes but one exam for which im not ready at all #but the rest of the week ill use for the gender appointments which are. at a different city #and then ill come back and can start transitioning and change my docs. cant believe im so fucking close #and then i have another 2 weeks to write an intro for my research paper (should actually start sooner than that) #im hyped but also so worried #the months w the exams are always so crazy #evgesha's thoughts

[remedialchaoticscreaming]

jesus fuck i just realized i have school in 33 hours

#i am not ready to be presentable to society #on the bright side my friends are coming back #so that's something

[orangerosebush]

Gotta say, absolutely love the fact there's so much public transport and that cities are structured to be so much more walkable in the part of France where I'm staying. Currently at a place with #brain weirdness such that I know I do not have the attention span necessary to be a good driver, so it's nice to not have to be like, "fuck, I gotta recruit one of my friends who can drive to take me to the pharmacy since it's more than 2 miles away" lol

#My dad who has only recently come to terms with having adhd is always like 'uhhhh why should that matter I drive and I can't pay attention #to the road lol' as if I don't have to act like the passenger in a horse-drawn carriage who is seated next to the driver ready to dispatch #ne'er do wells (read: tell him when he needs to get his eyes back on the road because he is constantly looking at his phone and getting dis #distracted lol) #Definitely will have to work on the whole Being Present and not fading in and out of the moment when I graduate but for now I am a passange #passenger prince :-)

[neverendingford]

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#tag talk #I've started using music to fall asleep to. because if you watch a video and start to feel sleepy but then stop once you close the video? #the answer is to leave the video running while you fall asleep of course #I'm using music not talking so I don't dream funky and sleep restlessly. #it probably says horrible things about my ability to calm down. rest. and not need distraction. but anything that helps right? #idk. the brain's inability to sit with any sort of quiet. any sort of space to think. #I can't stand when nothing is happening because then I have time to think my own thoughts. #I'm just high school again. which... yeah I'm stressed to hell so it makes sense. but it's annoying and a little disappointing #disappointing that enough stress can just revert me back. I know I'll bounce back faster and more healthily because of the work I've done #but it's still annoying to be back in this same place #how can you move on when you're constantly visiting your old self? #is it nostalgia? trauma? a secret other thing? perhaps all of them at once? I don't know. #I can never be estranged from my bio sex because I'm him all the time. #things get bad and I'm just that terrified little kid who's convinced everyone can read his mind and hates him and wants to hurt him. #and then I'm older me. angry and ready to hurt anyone who touches us. because I'm fucking done with getting pushed around #but I want to get back to me. I want to get back to smiling and laughing so hard I have to lie down on the cold kitchen tile to calm down #one of my minecraft kids told me yesterday that his face hurt from smiling so much while talking to me. that's the kind of person I am now #and I want to be that. I want to be her. I want to be me. I'm so tired of bouncing between past and present. #what does it say that my protective mode is a man and my emotionally honest mode is a woman? idk #trans men often live more emotionally honest and authentic when they transition. obviously my experience will be limited data #I don't think it means anything except the inherent fear that is perhaps characterized so often in trans-women experiences #the fear that becoming myself is somehow reductive of gender roles. the fear that I'm confirming some deeply held bias #which is bullshit. I can be who I want. and I certainly can be who I AM. I just. I want to be me. I want to lose the pressure #because sharing my experiences with others in a way that improves other people's lives is what I want from life. #hmmmm. just had a thought about how minecraft allows me to express whichever side of me I want. #the eager insufferable know it all kid who just wanted to create the world in his own image. #the paranoid and nervous maniac who just wanted everything ordered properly and for it to stay predictable for even just two fucking minutes #and me. the one who wants to create things with others. to engineer collaborative experiences and to build others up and make them happier #idk. I vibe with a lot of stuff I read about did but I really don't match so none of this is trying to pretend or co-opt identity. #but idk. I'm so tired of being split between these eras of my life and getting thrown back into one of those people when things get bad

[drewsaturday]

my extremely sad celeste stats

#txt #jflk;slkjdf i thought chapter 8 was like.... contained within the present was not treating chapter 7 as the last narrative one #i dont wanna go back and get the hearts i didnt know they were important j;lkLKJ i only got one of them lol #as soon as something Extra took me more than 2 tries i noped out #glad to be done with the game (affectionate) but i am mentally not ready to now be done with it since... #i very much doubt i'm going back j;lks #oh my god also also also i had to get a whole usb controller to play this right #and it's the kind where the flat arrow keys are on a pad #and i did not realize holding it horizontally would basically gurantee i would hit diagonal #instead of a normal up arrow #so i only just now realized it halfway through chapter 7 that i need to hold it differently . #that maybe contributed to me being so bad at this but also i am just bad at these games

[yourneedylilpup]

thinking of having a roommate who loves seeing me walk around in an oversized shirt with no bra and pj shorts that make them question if i’m even wearing anything underneath because of how thier hidden by the shirt.

i want them to be a little creep who gets off on how trusting i am towards them.

who sneaks into my room when i’m out to steal my panties and use them as a cum rag before putting them back in my closet. knowing i’ll wear them even if i see the stains cause i’ll just assume i ruined them myself and decide they’ll work until i get some new pairs.

who watches me put on location after i shower, seeing me rub the white cream into my skin and wishing it was their cum covering me instead, taking my half empty bottle of cream and adding a couple loads of thick cum to it, loving the way i don’t question why the bottles are little fuller now, nearly creaming their pants seeing me cover myself in the cum filled location, it’s almost like their claiming my body marking it as theirs.

who can’t take it anymore and sneak into my room while i’m asleep, find me sleeping in those ridiculously short pj bottoms, moving them to the side, seeing my pretty pussy presented just for them, getting me nice and wet with their tongue while stretching me out with two fingers, adding a third to make sure i’m nice and prepared, finally getting to fuck me all nice and gentle like a cute princess, so blissed out finally being able to touch me in the the depraved ways they’ve been craving and hearing me make those sweet sleepy moans that bring them so close to the the edge that they don’t notice how rough they’re getting with me, pausing mid thrust when they hear me whisper their name, looking down to see my half awake and unfocused eyes, slowly starting to thrust again while cooing at how cute i am to be having such a depraved dream about my roommate, lulling me back to sleep while still fucking into my wet cunt, cumming harder than they ever have before right into my pussy only to pull out and watch it leak out of my hole, using thier thumb to push it back into my cunt before wiping their hand in my hair and fixing up my shorts, going back to their own room completely spent and ready for sleep.

who wakes up the next morning to see me act like nothing happend and i don’t have dried cum covering my thighs and making my bed head worse.

maybe my lovely roommate will decide to start making nightly visits to my room to test just how oblivious i can be.

#r4p3 kink #r4p3 m3 #r@pe threats #r@pe #r@pe kink #rap3 fantasy #send asks #somno breeding #somno fantasy #tw noncon #cnc somno #cnc stalking #stalker #stalking fantasy #tw somno #tw cumplay

[infizero]

oh im gonna throw up all over myself HOW DO I ALWAYS FORGET EVERY TIME THAT FRIDAY = LIMITED LIFE

#AND ITS THE FINALEEEEEE FUCKKKKKK (EXPLODES) #i cant fucking take it. im not ready. FUCKKKKKK im not ready #OK OK BEFORE IT HAPPENS #SCAR WOULD BE AWESOME BUT HES GOT SO LITTLE TIME HES PROLLY NOT GONNA WIN :( #UMMMM ROOTING FOR EITHER MARTYN OR BIG B EITHER WOULD BE SICK #(any of them would be sick obvs but yknow) #if the winner is a previous winner that'll certainly be interesting bcuz. well that'll be the first time that's happened #if you count double life as just being pearl's win and not a joint win with scott #even tho i havent been watching martyn's pov i kinda rllyyyy want him to win hes had super interesting stuff going on with his loyalty to #scott and everything.... he'd be sick as a winner #i love big b dearly but. i dont know. i like when the winners were like rlly present and memorable that season #and this season big b and pearl both kind of hung back and just kind of watched from the shadows the whole time #which is awesome and that could be made interesting in the context of one of them being the winner too #but yah idk martyn feels a lot more compelling this season ig? again it'd be cool either way but i think it'd be cool if he won #anyways IM GONNA LOSE MY MIND TOMORROW ^_^ #whatever happens. i can rest assured it will bring me more peace than watching the end of double life last summer #dawg watching grian die to the warden and just sitting there watching his little credits i was like numb ToT I WAS WANTING HIM AND SCAR TO #MAKE UP SOOOOOO BAD SO WHEN IT JUST ENDED WITH NONEEEEE OF THEIR ISSUES BEING RESOLVED I WAS JUST LIKE. WELL #guess i'll go walk into the ocean now #no matter what happens i am confident i will feel more fulfilled since i am more conscious of. all of this #dont go in expecting things to have a nice little conclusion LOL. sometimes that happens but a lot of times it does not #serena.txt

[luveline]

i have a request for roommate!spencer where he's just miserable that no one remembered his birthday at work but when he gets home his roommate just welcomes him with the most thoughtful gift and a warm hug PLEASE

thank you for requesting! <3 fem!reader

The lights are off. The air conditioning blows a shade too cold. Spencer shrugs off his jacket and acknowledges that, despite his awful, aching day, it’s nice to be home. 

The living room is clean where it hadn’t been this morning when he left. If he had to clean it by himself, he’d die. It must’ve taken a good hour or longer, even the floor shines sparkling clean. 

“Hey?” he asks into the open air, wondering where you are. 

“Spencer!” you yelp from the kitchen, “Hey, what took you so long? It’s almost seven!” 

He sighs to himself with a great dash of self-pity. “I know. Had to stay and finish something. You cleaned?” 

“I had to! Quick, come in here, I need your help with something.” 

He doesn’t want to help, he wants to lay down in bed. Spencer wonders how a normal person, a normal boy, would feel after a day like today. He wonders if Morgan would go home and lay in bed and cry. He wonders if it could ever be possible for everyone to forget Morgan’s birthday. 

Spencer hangs his jacket on the rack and puts his bag by the shoes. He’s tempted to go to bed and pretend he hasn’t heard you, but he supposes he shouldn’t. He’d sort of been hoping you’d text him happy birthday, and but that never happened. He doesn’t think anybody in the world besides his mom knows what day it is today, and Spencer had to remind her, so. 

“Spence,” you say, your smile of a calibre he’s never witnessed, standing in front of the kitchen island with your hands behind your back, “I hope you know I’ve been waiting two whole hours for you to get back. Actually, I’ve been waiting all day, but you can’t be blamed for working. Okay. Are you ready?” 

“Am I ready? What did you want help with?” 

You step to the side, grinning, the sleeves of your nice blouse like big, soft petals around your wrists and against your thighs. “Tada!” you say, guiding his attention to the silver platter on the countertop, a chocolate cake at centre stage and stuck with candles, flames aglow. “I rushed to light them when I heard the door,” you tell him, and he can hear your breathlessness now, your excitement for him evident. “A lot of candles, you’re getting old! Too old for chocolate sprinkle. I should’ve got you something sophisticated.” 

“You got me a cake?” 

“It’s your birthday,” you say happily. “Happy birthday, Spencer. I got you some presents, too, but the cake is the best, it’s from the Leaven. How fancy is that?” 

“Will you sing?” he asks. 

He doesn’t know why he asks. He’s mostly kidding, but you smile shyly and beckon him toward you. “I’ll sing. Come stand over here.” 

You sing him happy birthday, and he blows out his candles, only ten candles altogether but enough to feel like a kid as the heat kisses his chin. 

“Okay, and I got you this,” you say, finally pulling both hands from behind your back, seemingly eager to move the focus from your performance.

It’s a bundle about as thick as an average novel. He knows it’ll be books before he opens it, because you know him, and it’s in your nature to give him your everything. 

He doesn’t look at them. He takes the package blindly and shoves it onto the counter, wrapping you in a hug so hard it makes your back click. “I’m sorry,” he says, but he doesn’t let go. You don’t make him. “Sorry, I just– I–” You’re the only one who remembered. “Thank you for the cake.” 

You hug him not quite as hard, but tight. “Hey, it’s okay. I love you, you’re my best friend ever, you can pop me like a roll of dough any day of the week.” You might be exaggerating. Spencer doesn’t know. “But especially today, you know. You can have anything you want.” 

Spencer should let go. Anything you want, you’d said. He hugs you until he’s sure you’re sick of him, your thumb pressing little circles into his shoulder, his arms tucked up under your armpits and around your back. “Thanks,” you murmur.

“What?” he asks. “For what?” 

“For such a good hug. And being a great roommate. And for not complaining about the candles.” 

“The candles are perfect.” 

You lean back in his arms. “Thank you. Now what do you want first, cake or dinner?” 

Spencer really wants another hug. “Um. Cake?” 

“Good choice, handsome.”

His cheeks are pink by the time he gets a slice, but it’s the best birthday cake he’s ever had.

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