being spiritual while also being mentally ill is really stressful, and you cant like talk to someone whos athiest bc they'll just call you crazy and you cant talk to a neuroptyical spiritual person bc usually they're more comservative than you and they think for some reason their connection to their beliefs/religion/gods/whatever is more normal than yours. someone else said this that i didnt think wanted ppl to rb but its like. how do you know if you're not just like seers of yore who saw "visions" relevant to your spirituality or if you're just someone hallucinating?? at what point is the boundary made between how we communicate with our gods or spirits and who can and cant communicate with them? at what point do we decide to distrust the voice in our head we've been assinging to this entity? does he only speak to us in simple, formal phrases? is that more normal than me wanting to talk with him like a friend? do i pretend im not hearing and seeing the things i am bc its different to people? do i just assume im insane and im just going insane? what if its all real, what if its all fake, and how tf am i supposed to find out? how am i supposed to navigate everything thats happend and everything thats been happening and all of these *coincidences* in a "normal" way when nothing im seeing seems to be normal, but obviously trying to talk to anyone about this feels impossible. it just feels like people will always use the fact that im mentally ill to dismiss me and my connection to my beliefs but then its weird to me when its other spiritual or religious ppl dismissing me bc how can they say they're more normal about it anyways, like babe either way athiests think we're crazy lol, shunning me wont change that.
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