#as prepared as they could be and when millen found out that nearly the entire crew had been fleet he panicked and a couple folks got scars

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Ok horns brain cancelled I’m thinking abt millen and resile and their alternate ways to deal with the stress that comes with the certainty that they’re staring their mortality in the face and ending their days to hold onto each other because they’re a remnant of home and-

#resile distracts himself. always. and sometimes he’s overly careless with his own well being #and millen tries to plan and plan again and go over the details where he can and #holds them gently #also overanalyzes them but. it’s a lot of topic revolving around death so I’m just gonna sit on it for the time being Bc. idk if that’s a #bit too grim rn. but. thinks about them so much #thinks abt how they grew up together and their matron kept resile tucked away in the caverns and he and millen would look out at the stars #sometimes and resile would get so excited that millen had to get excited too and she didn’t even think twice about it until he said that he #was going to join the fleet and their little bubble that had lived in that room where resile was just as jade as anyone else living there #came crashing down and she was panicking by the time he left and he wasn’t going to do anything yet but she didn’t know what to do for a lon #time and it was an impulse decision to stow away on a smuggler’s ship anf it was pure fucking luck that they got away with it and the troll #heard them out and laughed and sent them off to another ship because the captain there seemed determined enough to make sure folks would be #as prepared as they could be and when millen found out that nearly the entire crew had been fleet he panicked and a couple folks got scars #out of it but things got settled down easy enough and now when millen stresses they pace the ship looking for flaws and they run through #routines and they check in on the crew and it’s the details that can be ones undoing so he focuses on the details where he can and she #trusts her crew where she can’t and it’s a small ship and it’s a small crew and it’s just enough to be able to handle without getting #overwhelmed and resile has reached the point where it’s simply just easier to let the universe carry him more than not so he’s more than #happy to (mostly) just do what he’s told and ignore the why because that’s for somebody else to figure out and #millen fisvet #resile argent #gnaws on them like rock candy