#anyways it’s kinda insane. it’s been like 4 months since victoria died and i still feel like i just can’t trust my own judgement

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ughhh i cant sleep :(

#i wish i wasn’t sad. i rly rly do #rgaggrhrgg at least i’m seeing rama next week #it’s gonna be really nice. and i’ll get to rest a little again #slightly oversharing here but what’s tumblr for if not that #anyways it’s kinda insane. it’s been like 4 months since victoria died and i still feel like i just can’t trust my own judgement #i’m erratic n anxious n scared in ways i haven’t been in YEARS #and i know it’s been affecting my relationships and i’m just. afraid i guess #i wanna b better again #arambles #probably delete later if i’m being fully honest good lord