#anyways i need someone to give me permission to id as butch so i dont make myself insane about it

[tackysapphic]

currently doing that thing i tend to do where i know something about myself deep down but keep pushing it down and coming up with a million excuses of why it can’t be etc etc.

#in other definitely not related news i dont think nonbinary quite fits me anymore #i feel like butch suits me best. it just feels *right* in the way that like lesbian feels right. #makes me feel warm inside #but bc im me my brain is like well you wear dresses like once every 3 business months so you cant be butch #even though. clothes have no gender. and even if they did: i wear dresses and skirts in the way men do if that makes any sense at all #like i'll make an outfit but it doesn't make me any less masc....its just a different way of performing my masculinity #this is complicated and confusing #and like i can't find exact definitions on what being butch means aside from clothing everything is just a vague its a feeling #baby girl what in the ever loving fuck does that mean #i need 100% concrete answers. which is impossible for a topic like this and that makes me want to gnaw on a tree and thrash about #<- autism mome #anyways i need someone to give me permission to id as butch so i dont make myself insane about it #kj.txt