#anyway living in late capitalism and knowing you dont have the mental fortitude to go thru any more schooling for even a chance at upward

[pricemarshfield]

god i GOTTA stop thinking about the future outside of like. specific, actionable, immediate goals. anything other than that and my brain goes full ghost of hanukkah future (im jewish) and just tells me i’ll never again be as uncomplicatedly happy as i used to be

#which is dumb bc my life as a kid was unquestionably worse. like on all metrics. things r better. but ugh #anyway living in late capitalism and knowing you dont have the mental fortitude to go thru any more schooling for even a chance at upward #class mobility cheeeeeck #like. i think about finishing my degree? burst into tears. think about whether i’ll ever own a home? panic attack. i hate having grown up #poor! i am Never gonna live the easy life that rich or even upper class people are simply born into! i have to work my ass off for even a #chance at STABILITY let alone COMFORT! #negative #sorry lmao im just having a bad day. was forced to spend time around ppl who talked about all their cruises and trips and then had to be #like. well i have two shifts tomorrow from 3:30am-8:30pm w/ a break in between. i will make less than $200 and that Is with tip #my life rn