#anyway in other news i went to the gym and compared my body to loterally everyone else who was there

[whsprings]

my new dbt therapist irritates me with her niceness and really the overall concept of being in dbt iop irritates me but what can a gal do. very much want to just like. quit. but pretty sure my ed therapist would murder me. I very much need a team that calls me out and doesn't let me get away with shit and knows that I can and will withhold important information from them if not directly asked and new therapist is so. nice. that I am not sure she will be direct enough for me.

#also i have to process my ~breakdown~ from the other day without self harming and idk how to do that???? #oh also remember when i thoight i needed stitches? yeah that left a nasty scar haha wonderful #anyway in other news i went to the gym and compared my body to loterally everyone else who was there #and got frustrated with myself for being so weak and unfit #and remembered how strong i used to be and now i am just. flab. #haha wow! i hate myself! #cw// ed #cw// sh