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polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup · 1 year

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hi hello im back after rereading glaze defects for like the twentieth time at like one am and just!!!! just. this line really struck me: “Stick was a huge dick. He did what was expected for someone who found a kid with no family and superpowers, and he took advantage.”

something abt matt thinking this is expected. not just that if someone knew abt his powers they would exploit him and use him but that it’s something to be expected. from anyone. not that stick was uniquely abusive and terrible but that anyone would do it. i!!!!!! hhhhhhhrn i continue to be So Insane abt this character study apologies for coming here to scream abt it so often. ANYWAY anyway merry christmas if you celebrate that and I hope the end of the year is kind <333

So, you actually pinpointed one of the things that I think is a core trait of Matt Murdock, and one of the biggest distinctions between him and Foggy.

Whenever I'm writing characters in the same story, I always pick a few like, baseline perspectives that are different and filter their world through that. I'm not even gonna take credit for this, because I'm so convinced that it's fundamental to the characters of Matt Murdock and Foggy Nelson that it's all already there.

I think the difference is this:

For Foggy, people are good until proven otherwise, and for Matt, the opposite is true.

And I want to be clear—this isn’t about naïveté, or about trust issues. This is the most base, default world approach as you can get.

It’s like this:

Foggy's a good person who grows up in a family of good people. They don’t have a lot, but they have each other. The Nelson clan is a big, and they’re people who take care of other people. So, Foggy probably grows up watching his parents give people breaks when they can’t afford full price in the store. He grows up with siblings cousins who probably cover for him when he’s in trouble, who lend him money when he needs it, and who grow up to be the kind of people that he can call up to give free repairs to Karen Page when her apartment is broken into.

There’s a lot of little moments in life where you can pick to help people, usually at some kind of cost to yourself. Foggy is the kind of person who says “Yes,” to helping those people time and time again. He grew up surrounded by examples of people who did the same.

Of course, he’s met plenty of people who don’t help people out. But those moments aren’t the expectations. It’s just a day where you ran into one of the assholes of the world. Having people who hurt you, who take advantage of you, who just suck--it’s exceptionalized, in that sense. It’s not rare, but it’s out of the natural order. And they prove it to you that they’re the assholes of the world, so he can take them out of the default pool and into the asshole pool.

And, again, that’s not to say he’s naive. He’s not. It’s just the mindset at the first meeting. All things being equal, the first time Foggy mets you, he assumes you’re human, and that human beings are people who give each other a hand when needed. Distrust is a learned phenomenon. You have to give Foggy a reason to not trust you.

Matt, meanwhile, is shown to already be afraid of making rent while he’s growing up. He has no expectation of being given a break. We don’t know the details of what happened after his accident, but we know that his Dad is still worried enough about money that he literally dies putting away money to send Matt to college, so they absolutely got fucked on any settlement. And then, growing up, he gets a front line scene to a bunch of uncomfortable, private moments where people are not their best selves. Matt lives in a world where people don’t give each other breaks. He has people who do, of course--but they’re the exceptionalized ones to him. I think Matt grew up in the kind of world where people had to look out for their own interests, which were never your own. All things being equal, the first time Matt mets you, he assumes you’re human, and that human beings, at the end of the day, look out for their own interests. You have to give Matt reasons to trust you.

And that’s not to say that Matt thinks people are inherently bad or he’s less kind than Foggy. I think canon shows again and again that, out of the two of them, Foggy considers Matt the soft-hearted one out of the two of them.

There’s that scene, right? Season 1, Matt and Foggy are walking home having just started their practice, and Foggy’s talking about how he thought it’d be different from bailing out guys who get drunk and burn down their own house, and Matt’s talking about how his wife just left him, right? And later, Foggy’s talking to the guys in the hospital who are about to knife each other, about how not even his soft-hearted partner would take their case.

If Foggy had to pick a rule of thumb of the universe, he’d say that people generally do good things but sometimes have fuck ups, and he wants to help them in those moments. Everyone has those moments that they regret, right? The bad choices. For Foggy, those are out of the ordinary. The little blips in people’s lives.

For Matt, I think that’s how people are, and sometimes it’s interrupted with good choices. And he wants to help them anyway. Matt Murdock has incredible anger, but he’s also got an unimaginable amount of kindness to him. He wants to help people, and I think at the same time he does not trust them an inch to not hurt him.

He’s the billion dollar payout, is the thing. Like, I am so convinced that government agencies would kill for Matt Murdock’s power set. You could pour in thousands of hours of manpower and millions of dollars into an espionage operation, and it’s less effective than having Matt Murdock sit on a park bench outside of the Capitol building. That’s not even taking into account his fighting ability.

Matt’s in the uncomfortable position where people have a huge incentive to fuck him over, and not a lot of cost at doing so. All it costs is hurting him, and he’s someone with no resources, no family, no one to miss him--no consequences. And we know from Stick that it wasn’t exactly hard when someone tried to actualize it. Like, you have people in his life, normal people, people who are poor and middle class and rich, and he’s someone who could be a pretty spectacular golden ticket if they figure out the right person to make the payout. And he’s the problem child. The troubled orphan, always fighting, always in trouble, never with a place to stay. Disabled, poor, drain on the fucking system. It’d be so much easier for people to sort of allow themselves to do this bad thing, justify it to themselves as not that bad, and take the big bag of cash and walk away. No one’s looking, because no one’s looking out for Matt.

Again, this isn’t about whether Matt and Foggy think people are inherently bad, or whether one of them is kind--it’s just the default they start from. Foggy’s waiting for people to give him a reason not to trust from. Matt’s waiting for a reason to trust them--and the bar is just as high as the stakes. They’re several paradigm shifts away from each other, and I think that’s one of the reasons why their love for each other is so radical, and why they clash so much at times.

I think that’s one of the reasons as to why Foggy was so betrayed by Matt, not telling him all those years. It’s not that he doesn’t understand the importance of not sharing this around--he’d get that the stakes are high, it takes some pretty understandable caution. But Foggy’s known Matt for years, and he’s secure enough in the kind of relationship they had to know that he hasn’t given Matt a reason to distrust him. Matt, meanwhile, just gave him a reason to distrust him.

Anyway, I think it’s interesting, anyway. The idea that Foggy walks up to people and like, finds them generally trustworthy until they do something two-faced, and Matt probably needs to find a really fuckin’ good reason to start trusting them. It’s one of those really basic ways of viewing the world that people probably don’t consider as something they may be at odds with others about.

And Foggy’s started to realize it, in glaze defects. Like, there’s this bit about him talking about how horrifying it is that matt grew up waiting for a windowless van to take him away--like, he’s just now realizing that that’s how matt’s always lived. He looks at the world, and he expects people to hurt him, and he doesn’t even particularly hold that fact against them.

#glaze defects #pottery shards verse #daredevil #matt murdock #foggy nelson

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gurorori · 10 months

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The Seed and Queendom were so powerful whwhwbwhsjjdd i'm🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 i love. Cure for me was also verrry fun i love her choreographies, she's such a skilled and fluid dancer !!!

And exist for life is so🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭 beautifulllll i'm wjqbwnnsns <333 in love. I love. A lot . Mwah thank you for all your recommendations it is. 3:15am and i have to call it a day but !!!!!! Wah

da seed always gimme chills cuz i love da message & its nawt jus a figure of speech either, aurora fun fact is dat shes grown up in very close proximity 2 nature n clearly has so so much love n respect 4 it an i think it show wonderfully nawt only thru her music but thru her entire energy. she bcome one with it!! there a reason every1 calls her a forest nymph / elf n so much more in da comments aha

tho i think 2 call her anythin but human is a bit unfair, i think shes very human in da most beautiful of ways. unironically

queendom is suhc an anthemmmm... n it warms my heart when i see live performances of it cuz it really feel like one big hug with every1 given da lyrics n jus da vibes it creates. luv it so much, n i love da music video n_n women....

cure 4 me is very special 2 me even tho it a bit sillier soundin than most of her songs (along w the chorus blowin up on tt) readin more ab it from aurora herself tho, it turn out da inspiration came from sumthin dats a very loaded topic & after dat i cudn look at it da same & grew even closer 2.. THE SONG? idk why im talkin ab it lik a human but. word from miss aurora:

"Like always, I got inspired by a really huge, dark and horrible thing that happens in the world. The first seed of inspiration came from thinking about the countries where it’s still legal to do conversion therapy for gay people and lesbians. I just thought that’s so pointless. The first idea was me saying, ‘I don’t need a cure for me – just let me live, man!’”

“Why is it so difficult for people to just let others be themselves? Then I thought that it could mean many other things. People tend to believe quite quickly that something is wrong with them if they’re not like the people they see in front of them. It’s so sad that it doesn’t take much for us to really doubt ourselves.”

^ lil context 4 dat is, aurora is definitely queer as shes talkd ab her attraction 2 ppl in da past & shes had a girlfriend be4 too. i think she mentions dat she feels different romantically in regards 2 men n women. but also she doesn label herself really, but i think this gives more insight into this song. as well as ive noticed ppl talkin ab her includin some of her own more 'weird' mannerisms n well. the dance is weird n silly too (/affectionate!!! its gettin added 2 sky soon like i talkd abt in dms, n im boutta spam it everywhere) n i think it an incredible move too.

i think cure 4 me can also b related back 2 auroras neurodivergence, which she has talkd ab before. she mentioned bein made fun of @ school 4 bein autistic (altho i don think she was ever diagnosed w it) n also bein put on adhd medication in da past - pretty sure dats her official diagnosis. but yeah. honesly, jus from watchin the way she carries herself n moves n talks in interviews & lives, she was always so clearly different & felt closer than other artists 2 me. like nawt in a 'wow shes so weird' way like sum ppl say. idk theres an inherent sense of belongin w dat person cuz shes so much like us too. man i started cryin but anyway i luv her lots she really mean lots 2 me.

exist 4 love is very beautiful too.. i luv da reference 2 the birth of venus, i love da influence of 1920/30s music too like many mentioned.. it make me melt into a puddle sumtime. we rly do exist 4 it huh.!!!!

but yah n_n thank 4 goin on this aurora journey wit me!!! am glad it was fun & am glad 2 infect ya so @/meowyoi, ya n i can all grow a bit more insane togethr <3

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berryblu-soda · 1 year

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I'VE BEEN BINGING SPACE BOY FOR LIKE HALF AN HOUR AND IVE TEARED UP SO MANY TIMES BUT AS SOON AS AMY WENT AHEAD AND CALLED JEMMAH I STARTED BAWLING MY EYES OUT

anyway tysm for recommending this to me, this is the first piece of media I've actually like... really really connected with (my parents are planning on moving our family across the country), and I honestly think I really needed it. I love it so much.

Highlights so far:

-I really like that there's no mean characters. I keep waiting for a bully or smth but everyone she meets genuinely has her best interests at heart. It's honestly so refreshing

-The fact that Cassie didn't immediately get suspicious and defensive and overprotective when she saw David hanging out with a new girl was again, super refreshing compared the all the One Chicago I watch lmao. i love it but im so tired of the overreactions

-Oliver's notes are so cute, and the way he cherished her little doodle on his hand and copied and put it in the notes 🥺🥺🥺

-"I'm glad you exist." 😭😭😭

-THE CALL TO JEMMAH KILLED ME IM LITERALLY SHAKING IM CRYING SO HARD

anyway i love this with my whole heart, ty again for the recommendation, and ily <333

and sorry for the long ask lmao

Right?? it hit so freaking hard 😭😭!! Literally saw the first panel of the chapter and tears are already forming, Something about how the author writes gives it a touch of familiar relatability that really cuts deep, but in a good way yk?

Aaaaa I'm glad you liked it and that it been able to help a bit, moving must be scary and isolating, even if it's still with your family :( , much love friend, my messages are always open if you ever wanna talk ❤

And abt the highlights, !!!!! Literally!!! The characters and their interactions are all so tridimensional it's actually insane!!, I'll always get a kick out of shows like your chicago ones haha, but characters being written in such a mature and complex way and not really being put into boxes is *chefs kiss*

Also aaaaaaaaaaa Amy and Oliver, they make me so ill 😭❤!!! I'm usually mild about shipping but not with these 2 adshsgsgwhsgwgdg, I think it's bc instead of going 'hey don't these 2 look pretty together? 🙂', the author fleshed them out as individuals and had them establish an actual friendship, so the audience ships them but the story itself takes it's time building up to that :') <3<3<3

Really really glad you're enjoying the story <3!!! Just started a re read bc its been a while, so you can send asks and It'll be fresh in my mind ^^, we can be insane together hahaha (Also never ever apologize for a long ask, yk that's how we vibe here <3<3<3!!!)

#i confess it took me longer than i wouldve liked to answer this ask bc i kept stopping to read the comic ahaha #also feel like im forgetting something i was gonna say in the tags uhhhh...#yeah ill just rb this if i remember ig lol #beemail <3 #sending big hugs; love ya friend ^^<3!!!!#ask

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irabelaswriting · 2 years

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For the emoji asks! <3

🤩💔🛒

thank u kate<333 mwah mwah

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write?

i really do enjoy writing Jinx, her dialogue is always fun to work on!

🛒 What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.

already answered this one here!<33

💔 Is there a fic of yours that broke your heart?

YES. there is. it is no longer with us, i regretfully discovered earlier this year as it has been completely deleted off of ao3.

but it was an amell/loghain dragon age origins fic that was just. UGH😫 an AU where if everything went to shit and everything the warden had been through was for naught. it was from 2011😢 and i miss going to re-read it ever so often

there's another one tho. one which’s first chapter had me legit tearing up a bit as i read it. it's a midnight mass fic and i recommend it to you all<3 it gave me catholic guilt and i'm not even catholic, has never been, will never be, probs, but-

it's heart-shaped box by cakecakecake on ao3

and just. OH MY DAYS. the entire first part got me in my feeeeels. and like. i know. i know. you’ll see the tags and think oh no but like—

fuck it i'm adding the part i really liked under cut

“I don’t know if you remember my first confession,” you go on, off-handedly. “I was so little, then. Maybe eight or nine. I think I told you I lied to Mrs. Greene about kissing her daughter on the playground. I lied because I didn’t want Erin to get in trouble, but she did anyway. She was going to whether I told the truth or not. And I knew that, even back then I knew that. And I was confessing that to you because I wasn’t sorry about the lie. A venial sin, or whatever you call it. The minor ones that just get forgiven in passing, or something. I wasn’t sorry about that. I was sorry that I kissed her. I thought I was going to Hell for it and I was scared, but not because I would go, but because I thought Erin would have to -- because of me.”

The small space should feel threatening -- like it’s closing in on you. But it doesn’t.

“And do you remember what you told me, Father?” You ask him, even though you’re unsure that he’s there. “I don’t, not verbatim, but I know you calmed me down so fast. I was crying right here, in this same box, kneeling on the same bench. I started picking at the seams in the cushion. You smiled at me through the little holes in the window here and told me something like, ‘you will never go to Hell for loving someone, or showing someone that you love them.’ And it made me cry even harder. It just moved me so much. I never forgot that."

like DO YOU SEEEEEEE THIS??? insane abt this. INSANE

#thank you for the ask kate<333 mwah mwah!!#ask game #please let me know if you end up reading heart-shaped box i want ppl to be insane about it with

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itsjaywalkers · 4 months

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hello laurie<3 the two hour class route anon here and i wanted to tell you that i just finished reading nothing happens. and oh god. oh gOD?? OH MY FUCKING GOD JAMES ARE YOU OKAY??? I CANNOT BELIEVE THE MAN WHAT IS HE DOING WTF???? but also like... get it tho i hope u stay delusional as long as possible bc ohh he's gonna get so hurt😭😭 also him just casually saying 'we're such bros<3' abt reg after haviNG HIS HAND DOWN HIS PANTS HE'S SO UNSERIOUS ONG😭 and reg is just like '🧍‍♂️is this bitch fr-' bc wHAT is the meaning of platonic for these two

but. also. james just feeling sm love for reggie from when they meet that he doesn't even suspect he has romantic feelings for him bc he's just. always felt that way???? oh my GOD IM ACTUALLY GOING INSANE

also emma😭 she's just going through it bc what kind of shit is this man pulling w her i was actually flabbergasted reading how james justified that damn kiss ong???

honestly just really looking forward to sirius' reaction to all this when he figures it out. i mean he spent like 3 years having his bsf and brother be jealous of each other for having to share him and now they're just doing whatever it is that they're doing and he cant even get mad at james bc the man doesn't even know‼️‼️ he's actually gonna go bald over these two omg

absolutely love them sm will be thinking abt these two on the route tmrw they're so so precious and silly i love them hope they get their shit together, even if its just for the sake of sirius' hair💗 thank you soo much for writing and sharing them with us i hope you have a great week<33

(also- didn't manage to complete the paper but the deadline hasn't passed yet so i'll just complete it tomorrow)

OMG HI BABE <333 genuinely don't know how u can deal with such a long commute, it takes me like . 45 min to get to work and that's already painful enough..

anyway HE IS NOT OKAY THAT'S THE PROBLEM and yes he's gonna get quite hurt, both he and reggie will be suffering A Lot and it's mostly bc they're dumb . and ridiculous . and also obsessive and toxic and don't know how to maintain a healthy dynamic. the make out scene is HILARIOUS to me, i couldn't keep a straight face while writing it, james is not real he really isn't. reg is at his fucking limit ngl. and also . quite confused

HE LOVES REGGIE SO FUCKING MUCH LIKE IT'S LOWKEY CONCERNING ATP but yeah if u stop and think about it, it does make sense, why james is unable to . distinguish between platonic and romantic when it comes to reg

I KNOWWWW i'm team james always that's my boy but also . i totally support emma, she should've punched him imo, bc what was james even saying HE WAS SO FUCKING INFURIATING DURING THAT WHOLE CONVO I SWEAR

oooooh i'm also looking forward to writing sirius' reaction, it's one of my fav parts of nothing happens, bc he does . go insane . although probably not for the usual reasons. but it's a very complicated situation and sirius is kinda . conflicted considering who are the ppl involved. IT'S SUCH A MESS he will go bald at this rate

i'm so very happy you like them so far and that ur loving this series this much <3 ESPECIALLY CONSIDERING YOU'VE BEEN BRAINROTTING ABOUT THEM (me too btw ur so very real). and they will get their shit together i promise!! it's gonna take quite long and i can't promise they'll have a healthy relationship by the end of this but !! they'll sort things out <333

(good luck my love, i hope u finish it in time for the deadline, i'm rooting for u and sending u a very big hug LOVE U <3)

#asks #insane commute nonnie #fic series: nothing happens #i hope u know this ask made my whole day #single-handedly pulled me through work i'm so serious

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cassyapper · 2 years

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thoughts on part 4 jotaro?? i love hearing your thoughts in general but i so desperately want to hear them on this iteration of jotaro

VADE ur so sweet thank u so much for asking i owe u my entire heart and life <333

yes.. PART 4 JOTARO my pathetic little meow meow <333 ultimately my favorite iteration of jotaro

he's so maladjusted that it's hilarious. bro socks a 16 year old right in the jaw because said 16 year old's stand looked like the world. he is so totally not normal but he tries to be oh god he tries to be <3 he's like i am a normal man yes i have a wife and child and a degree i am So Totally Normal but then he stops time periodically and gets his ass kicked by a rat UGH so funny the flavor of part 4 jotaro is so fucking funny

um so speaking of part 4 jotaro;;;; i do think that before part 4 jotaro was actually a good dad. he and jolyne's mom still divorce like one year before diu begins cause this man is so gay and he cant stop lying to himself and jolyne's mom (well it's less he comes clean abt being gay just yet and more that he comes to admit that maybe panic marrying his friend when they found out jolyne was a thing happening to them wasn't the best idea but) BUT he is still involved and he loves jolyne and he and jolyne's mom are good tagteam parents they still lived w each other when jotaro left

but part 4 is where araki brings up the "standusers attract standusers" idea for the first time and thus it's the first time jotaro is faced with it...and he sees how it culminates in the deaths of a 13 year old (shigechi) and of a capable adult (aya), he sees how just being near standusers drags you in (hayato and shinobu, tomoko in the july 15th arc, etc)...and he realizes oh no it's not enough to be emotionally distant i need to be physically distant as well. and thus only after part 4 is he a shitty dad. which is part of why jolyne is so bitter; she was old enough to have solid memories of jotaor being a good dad and old enough to see that all suddenly go away. god dammit jotaro

anyway but beyond his parenting history i think too much about, i love part 4 jotaro so bad <3 insane grad student struggles. i know for an absolute fact hunting down kira was a destressor from working on his thesis cause 1) jotaro's priorities are insane 2) thesis work is fucking insane. esp cause I'm p sure jotaro was doing an accelerated program course to make up for the time he took off of school when jolyne was growing

god he's so fucking funny too. UGHHH okay this isn't related to the funny claim but fuck so many good fuckign character beats for jotaro happened in part 4 and it drives me absolutely fucking NUTS okay okay okay just being so kind with josuke showing he's learned how to be gentle even if he cant be soft and sweet about it like holly (his comforting words to josuke about his stand power for instance) arghh him learning how to tell people he cares for them verbally even if he'll never say it to their faces (like when he tells koichi he's a good kid when koichi is bleeding out lol). he's learning and it's foreshadowing for how he eventually is able to tell jolyne he loves her above all else ARHGHGHGH head in fucking hands

god i love part 4 jotaro so much also i. sorry I'm embarrassed. I've got it so bad for part 4 jotaro I'm not even kidding i want to smack him repeatedly but at the same time i want to dip him (yes he's taller than me by over a foot i still will dip him) and then kiss him so sweetly it's insane there are bugs in my brain. i KNOW jotaro would be a shitty partner to have i KNOW i wouldn't have the patience for his ass at all but part 4 jotaro with his desperate yet fruitless attempts at being Normal and his sense of humor and his learning how to verbalize what people mean to him just gets me so bad. i could fix him if i had a little more patience but as it stands i would want his ass in therapy right fucking now before making any moves on him. <3

anyway. thank u for asking vade i love jotaro specifically part 4 jotaro so so so bad <3

#aughghuhAUGHGU jotaro. jotaro. jotaor in my fucking brian #cass cries

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