#anyway going crazy anyone need anything <3 need to have the bimonthly vent about the way my life is devoid of even a hint of romance

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Sometimes I go a little crazy bc I just think I'm doomed to end up alone 🤪

#dont like the idea of dating apps and im just as shy about texting people idk as i am about talking to them dont go out bc i have #0 interest in it and honestly the thought alone makes me uncomfortable and even if i did again i Cannot talk to people dont even have a job #where i could meet someone (tho i do actually want to be employed so. who knows) and again the crippling shyness will kill me + even if i #was social i dont think anyone would ever find me pretty or be interested in me so 😭😭 a dark future #and like you can call me pessimistic but also i have been on this earth for 23 years and its not like ive been sequestered away #and prior to college i was shy but i was more outgoing in hs bc i Knew people and guys only ever liked my friends not me 😭😭 #and eventually no one ever liking you does take its toll on you sorry to say or not even liking but no one thinking youre pretty #or anything like that... i in passing mentioned to my sister that it was implied that i was the ugly friend and she was like thats so mean #but like it was also true so i couldnt even be mad about it 😭 maybe i shoot to high bc like i also have eyes and i tend to like dudes who #i would consider to be out of my league but i look pretty guys and i cant settle on that sorry </3 😭 #anyway going crazy anyone need anything <3 need to have the bimonthly vent about the way my life is devoid of even a hint of romance #and also how i dont like a damn thing about how i look so i dont blame other people for not liking it either 😭 self esteem is nonexistent