#anyway am sadd

[chaosmultiverse]

@dementedspeedster

Bart had a deep frown, his glare at Thad wasn't quite hateful and it wasn't pitiful either, he didn't pity Thad... No that wasn't the right word.

"It isn't pity. You can think whatever. I just... It's unfair, it was unfair for you and it sucks ass for me." Bart crossed his arms and his body turned so it was facing the side, not really away but not facing him, though his head was still very much turned to look at Thad, he knew very much better than to turn his back on Thad.

"So I'd say it's pretty sad, but whatever. I wasn't really expecting a... I dunno, a constructive conversation, it's sorta like screaming at a brick wall with you, ya know?" Bart hadn't really meaned to run into Thad, but... Admittedly dealing with Thad be it fights or these... Going no where conversations it was a decent way of venting some anger.

#dementedspeedster #Bart Allen ☆You Spend Half Of Your Life Trying To Fall Behind☆ ☆Main Verse☆ #Bart Allen ☆I Am A Collapsing Star With Tunnel Vision☆ ☆IC☆ #Bart coping via only expressing intense anger around Thad is not a good game plan #Some of his anger comes from how like he can sorta relate to Thad in some ways like when it somes to prisdent Thwane but like #He can't really trust thad or really let himself think about that stuff because it just makes him really sad #Cuz when he first met Thad pre-falling he was excited for there to be someone like him but no #He doesn't really have that somebody like him and it is in part due to the same man whose why #Bart ain't with his mom #So saddness about Thad kinda also just crossess over into some of Bart's loneliness #Either way it's unfortunate that Bart is at the point that he doesn't really know how to approach Thad so just sorta #Goes at him with anger and hate because that's onw of the only places batt feels okay showing thay #& feels like it's justified by his past with thad #Anyways hope you enjoyed the meta in the tags about the way Bart mentality tries to 'deal with' thad

[ladysophiebeckett]

when i dont spend a lot of time here and i come back,,,its like i forget how to blog : \

#i am depressed lol #literally going fm summertime saddness to possibility up in here #just straight up not having a good time #that being said--i watched the funniest hallmark movie the other night #this woman loses her memory of last two years #and thinks shes engaged to her ex boyfriend #ex is like 'no we broke up two years ago' #and the whole time the woman thinks she broke up with him and doesnt know why #all the while she is engaged to some other guy #anyway not the point #shes trying to get her memory back and the ex is trying to help her #until they go on a sleigh ride #(yeah its a christmas movie im down real bad over here pls dont judge) #anyway after the sleigh ride theyre walking in the snow #and shes like 'oh my god is this where we broke up??' #and he's like 'wait--' #and then it hits her #gets her memory back asap and it turns out she never broke up with him--he broke up with her #and she's like 'i have been feeling so bad this entire time. and you didnt say a thing.' #i know ur like 'alma how is this funny??' its the way it plays out that made it hilarious to me #anyway she's like 'im leaving and im not coming back' #the entire situation is so funny im sorry #and his excuse is dumb bc he was like 'i broke up with bc i felt like i was holding u back' #which is dumb and also he doesnt grovel enough #the ending was meh #but srlsy the reveal that he dumped her was really funny

[life-of-a-rat]

JUST SPEEDRAN THRU YOUR REVERSE TIMETRAVEL AU TAG ANYWAYS I'M THINKING MENTALLY UNWELL THOUGHTS.

Specifically just. Hold on I need to get in story teller mode *ahem*

So. It's quite obvious, the missing space where the future Tim and future Sasha should be. But they aren't. For awhile it was simply thought to be because this was the house of future Martin and Jon, not the house of the missing future Tim or Sasha!

But that empty space quickly became VERY aparent. Especially when noting how the future pair acted towards the past Sasha and Tim.

The future Jon was cagey, more cagey than what could be excused as "well it's abit awkward to be around a past version of your friends" and instead more the level of "I did something awful but you don't know what that awful thing is yet"

Future Martin was not nearly as shakey but with Sasha he acted as if she was more a friend of a friend of a friend of a cousin than someone he actually knew. With Tim he still had a familiarity but also a level of sadness- not that guilty saddness that the future Jon had but more the one of- mourning? He was good at not showing it but Sasha was not daft and Tim was the kind of fellow who paid extra mind towards others and how they felt- especially when those emotions were related to him

So, yes, the pair did notice the fact their future selves were not around.

AND SCENE. Insert clapping.

So uh yeah I am intensely thinking abt Tim and Sashas opinions on their future selves absences <3 and how future Martin n Jon feel about the past versions of their gone Coworkers <3

People keep sending in these amazing things but I can only offer these silly comics.

(I’m not saying that you should stop, I love reading these)

#tma reverse time travel au #the magnus archives #the magnus archive fanart #tma #tma podcast #tma au #tim stoker

[matan4il]

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

And also:

okay okay so i had this dream last (happy new year btw alice) and it is chaotic so bear with me people! it was like a promo for 911 and our beloved 118 were at a conference somewhere or something, whatever, it was a hotel thats as far as i remember, so in this promo there was athena and bobby being cute, chim and hen having fun with some bachelor auction (IDK DON'T ASK) and then a scene where buck and eddie were standing in the same room and eddie went 'we should probably do this right' AND 1/2 AND HELD BUCK'S HAND & BUCK BLUSHED & DID THAT SOFT SMILE OF HIS & THEN THE PROMO ENDED RIGHT & SO I WAS FREAKING OUT ABOUT IT IN MY DREAM & WENT ON TUMBLR & SOMEONE SAID 'I WAS SAD THERE'S NO BEAUTIFUL META FOR THIS PROMO BUT THEN I WENT ON MATAN4IL AND MY SADDNESS WENT AWAY' & I LOOKED ON YOUR BLOG AND IN BETWEEN ALL THE HORRIBLE THINGS THAT ARE HAPPENING IN THE REAL WORLD YOU PINNED A POST THAT HAD BUDDIE TAGGED & SIMPLY WENT 'I am so happy!' AND AAAAAAGH, anyways that was my dream 2/2 :D

Awwwwwwwwwww, Dom! MY LOVE! That is such an adorable dream, I absolutely love it, thank you so much for sharing it with me. I can't even explain the joy I got from it, I'm smiling like crazy over here! :D I cann't believe I was in the dream, and in the context of my Buddie meta! lol I love that! And NGL, now if Buddie go canon, I may just do a pinned post like that, for you! ;D :***

And thank you so much, I hope you had a great celebration for NYE, and that 2024 has been lovely to you so far! I'm so sorry I didn't get to reply before, but I hope you know that you ALWAYS have all of my love! Sending you even more for the new Gregorian year! xoxox

#fandom love #kindness #thank you! #<33333 #buddie #buddie meta #evan buck buckely #evan buckley #eddie diaz #edmundo diaz #911 meta #ask #dominikadecember #buddie headcanons #911 headcanons #911 on abc #911 abc #911abc

[burthummels]

ok i changed my mind about drawing all the hair colours bc that's actually a lot of work that i don't have the energy for rn (silly art block and whatnot) and i don't wanna make u wait forever bc i'd forget etc etc i'm so sorry i'm a massive mess rn

ANYWAY i wanna preface this list by saying that i think black is a great colour on all of them! thinking specifically about that time jimin got compared to prince eric <3 and tae's recent pretty black curls (gone but never forgotten) but they all look good with black hair and i will not hear otherwise 😤

joon:

i think joon looks really good with light hair in general but i am particularly weak for grape!joon <3 his spring day/not today soft purple hair is everything to me

jin:

u are so so right about purple jin but may i offer u blond and pink jin as well! i think that almost platinum blond makes him look so ethereal and it very much fits the way his voice sounds to me. and shoutout to the pink for being so pretty on him

yoongi:

ok tbh i think black is his best colour however!! this ashy brown hair is super pretty

and shoutout to platinum blond agust d bc this was a Look he is so iconic for doing this

hobi:

i second the reddish brown tbh that is the colour i wish my hair was rn but i am realising very quickly that i can't pull it off quite like him ksfjhgkfd </3 anyway i also love whatever is going on with his hair in the spring day mv i think that should be an honourable mention

jimin:

jimin is a natural blond to me too tbh. especially when it looks all soft and fluffy i think he looks so cozy and gentle and huggable!! i'm also very weak for the pink tho like spring day jimin is everything to me and i was so happy when the pink made a comeback

tae:

tae looks good in literally every colours it's so unfair to the rest of us </3 out of the really bright colours my faves were red and blue tho! tae in the save me mv really imprinted on me in ways i can't describe dkfgjh and then when he had blue hair and jimin had pink hair 💞💞💞 looking so bright and colourful together i love them sm <33

but also!! this fluffy curly brown on him!!! when people were saying he looked like a poodle!! so so soft i fucking love it i want to play with his hair

jungkook:

i think i'm mainly used to seeing black/brown on him bc he had those colours for so long but! cherry kook or even just the red tips that i don't remember but found when i was looking up his red hair <3 idk there's just sth about this look that really hits to me

omg grape!joon how could i ever forget !!!! the sweetest angel anctually !!!! i love light hair on him :( it's just so !!! aah oh wowowow he's so my everything shaped and these pictures just prove it actually like i'd do anything for him

oh yes i am so glad you offered up blonde and pink jinnie !! he is so ethereal and soft and he just looks like he should be a prince somewhere like ,,,, he's so right when he calls himself worldwide handsome like he KNOWS he's so pretty and he's right

ASHY BROWN WITH THE HEADBAND LIKE I THINK IM GONNA SHORT CIRCUIUT !!!!!!! AND THEN PLATINUM AGUST D?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!!!! LIKE ARE U TRYING TO MAKE ME EXPLODE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOOOOOOOOOOD no yoongi just ,,,,,,, og i become insane any time i look at him actually like there is something inside of my body that just insantly gives me the feeling of wanting to bite on glass and scream like ,,,,,, GOD min yoongi

my best friend hobi my best friend !!!! the red hair !!!! ooooh that hobi is just has such a special place in my heart like idk i look at him and i am simply filled with joy and happiness and my saddness melts away (that's any hobi but red hair hobi just <333 baby boy) and yes !!!! the spring day hair w the red streaks !!! aaah he looks so cute in it 🥺 and his eyes look so pretty in that photo too and that choker of im 🥺🥺🥺

NATURAL BLONDE JIMIN STANS RISE !!!!!!!! yes when it's soft and fluffy !!!!! oh it's perfect and i jsut wanna give him all the hugs !!! and you're sosososososo correct about pink jimin like that is also just a precious huggable angel sorry and i think i'd love to see a pink!jimin comeback again i think it would bring world peace

the fact that tae just...... looks good in everything... im sick to my stomach.... how is it FAIR !!! OH BLUE AND PINK JIMIN !!!! MY COTTON CANDY TWINS !!!!! THEY JUST !!!! OH THEY JUST LOOK SO PERFECT TOGETHER !!!! (maybe they're more jollyrancher colored but it doesn't have the same ring) but oh tae in the save me mv is imprinted in my mind and i will rewatch it jsut for himsdkfjhlsd but poodle!tae !!! oh what a sweet boy !! that live where jk was just putting forks in his hair sdjkfhaldskfh

OH JUNGKOOK MY SWEET BABY STAR CANDY JUNGKOOK WHO IWOULD LITERALLY DO ANYTHING FOR !!!!! i look at him and i am instintaniously the heart eyes emoji like i can't help it that just who i am and jungkook is my babygirl that's how the world is !!!! but yes the reeeeed cherry !!!! it's so good !!! i love when you can still see his roots but there's color there i think that's the best way to do color for his hair !!!! oh it's just <33333 wow,,,,, im looking at those photos and im simply just here to be a in love w jungkook like i think that's what im put on this planet for (also soobin behind jk in the first photo made me giggle a little sdjhfakld)

!!!! spring day bangtan is just something that can be so personal and so full of love and emotion like.... wow.... !!!

#and yesss i agree their black hair is so !!!! oh they're just all so pretty wow !!!!!! #anyone who disagrees i will fight !!!! #and don't ever apologize for being a mess !!!!!!!!! >:( im literally right there w you being a massive mess rn so don't worry <3 #mdverse #ask #not glee

[0nl0n]

Alr just a scenario in the venus angst au rq prepare for angst :D👊

( and plantonic venus and mercury stuff)

Venus: * in the kuiper belt* ugh...

Venus`s mind: im so stupid.. why am I like this -

Mercury: ( just came to look in the kuiper belt) uh.. Venus?

Venus: AH!-

mercury: sorry.. Uh-

venus: why are you saying sorry for?-

mercury: you look so tired.. Are you ok..?

Venus: uhm... Whatever i guess..

Mercury: anyways.. why are you here..?

Venus: none of your-

mercury: i know! None of my business.. but i just wanna know. I haven't seen you with earth and mars lately, what's up?

venus: ... Uhm..

Venus: fine.. So you know when i got angry and charged at astrodude?

mercury: *nod*

venus: ugh.. Well after that. EARTH JUST WON'T LEAVE IT BE! AND MARS DOESN'T DO ANYTHING NOT ANYTHING TO STOP IT. ITS SO ANNOYING TO BE YELLED AT EVERY FRICKIN DAY!

mercury: i... Oh.. I didn't know earth was like tha-

venus: YEAH I KNOW!

mercury: ok calm down now.. I wish earth wasn't so rude..

venus: YEAH, I WISH!

mercury: well whatever hes saying, ignore it. Hes just tryna make you feel bad. It's gonna be alright venus.. Anyway, you're my friend

Venus:

( THIS IS PLATONIC I SWEAR DONT ARREST ME)

This is wholesome 😭

Mercury and Venus having a friend ship when Venus is sadd and Mercury is concerned for him is just wholesome lol—

[atrixfromice]

People who love you would never want to hurt you.

When I was a kid, I remember there was a time where I wanted to be accepted by my classmates when they got reunited in groups to chat, and I always felt sad if they didn't....until I learned that if they didn't, it was because I was too nice with them that they took it by granted and then they started to use me and abuse of me. I learned that this is the tendency of most human beings, that when you give them all your love and admiration they tend to give it for granted and don't appreciate it. Even if some of them don't do it with bad intentions. However, there are some people who are mean by heart, they even can blackmail you and use you, asking you doing things for them they want but they know they are unethic. Most of my time I was clever enough to get that people trick me to do something like that to be friends, cos I realized that friends don't do that!   Friends, and people who love you in general, would never want you to be hurt or to get in trouble doing something than you know and they know it's morally/ethically wrong, illegal or that will hurt you physically or emotionally. So many times I preferred to lose a fake friend than to get in trouble for a bad prank or something like that. Now I am older, I realize that was the best decision cos those weren't good people anyways. Once I did get blackmailed into doing something for someone I loved tough...because love can blind you, and manipulative and abusive people/boyfriends/girlfriends can play with your mind, and take away your self-confidence and self-steem. Here is it if you would like to see:

https://atrixfromice.tumblr.com/post/703143258780516352/the-terrifying-truth-of-

I'm still dealing with the sequels of this painful and traumatic experience. And guilt still haunts me, I still regret of that...

But thanks goodness it's been almost a year I've been almost a year I don't see my ex, and I've learned a lot from that experience. I've learned that find real friends (people who truly loved me and cared about me, and always want the best for me) I need to be myself, and be loyal and firm with my morals and ethics. And to love yourself fist, so others can love you. So, don't let others change your moral ideologies! And give yourself love, and give your love, respect and admiration only to the people who deserve it; the people who treat you with the same love, respect and dignity you give them! That's what I've been doing since a good time, and it has worked exceptionally. Since I started to do that, I wouldn't say that all, but most of people I've met have been nice to me so far.

And my best advice to identify rea great friends from fake or toxic ones is, friends would never want to hurt you! 

* will never want to make you do something you think it will hurt you (either physically or emotionally) or that it's againts your moral values, or that will get you in trouble with someone, or that will get your in danger.

*Will never be jealous of your sucess. If something cool and amazing happens to you, they’ll always be happy about it. They will always help you to achieve your dreams, and you’ll do the same for them.

*They will give you your personal espace. They will never want to absorb all your attention or being jealous cos you spend time with other people. And if someday they feel left aside (cos sometimes humans tend to give good friends for granted so it might arrive) they will always struggle to let you know how they feel in a gentle and calm way. They will never search to get nto a fight with you.

*They will be there in the good and the bad times. If they only come when things seem cool and nice for you and flee and never comfort you on bad moments, or only comes to you when they’re having a bad time or to ask you money/favors, then that’s not a real friend. A real friend loves and cares about you the same way they love and care for themselves. So they’re with you in all your moments, the good, the bad, the scariest and saddest ones.

* The relationship will be uplifting for both of you.They will enjoy to talk about stuff you both like, but you both also have to be open minded to try the hobbies and likes of each other from time to time. Your friend will give you energy and happiness, and vice-versa, they’ll also feel happy and fullfilled when you’re arround. 

This also applies to your family, boyfriend/girlfriend, and all your relationships in general.

#friends #psychology #reflexions #life learning #life lessons #an advice from an abused woman #abused woman

[indie-brokenarm]

No one will get it cause I can't explain but last night was like a reality check for some reason I don't know why. Not even like it was so awful or bad but it was like a bubble burst for me actually I do know the reason but I'm not telling cause it's personal. Anyway it's weird when feelings wake up that U haven't felt Ina long time and hownstly I've been almost manic these past few weeks and I said to Yuval when you've been depressed for so long you get happy and think Ur manixc.. pretty much but it was true but no there was a little mania to it to be quite honest but also I don't believe it's improper to go like that once on a while it's weird this feeling it reminds me of younger years just the impulse to be obnoxious and or something this impulse to be so over the top and out there like explosive basically and there's a come down that gets U embarrassed but anyway. The wake up call has been heard and will be answered. It's not even about the obnoxious thing that's literally not related. But now I feel a kind of heartbreak sort of from this whole experience. Am I the only one who got seriously saddness vibes front he party last night? It just reminded me to be healthy a d stop over indulging always, or to let it ride out. But I think I was getting lost in it or almost. Anyway. At least I love people each and everyone of you.

[onlyjaeyun]

Did you ever question yourself like, "how tf am I so good at writing? Or, How tf am I so talented????"

Cuz like wow, just wow.

38th chapter was everything I didn't knew I needed, it was so well written I felt like everything was happening irl in front of my eyes.

How do you do that? Like hoooow?

I'm obsessed w ur writing, and I'm obsessed w you💘💘

Aaah, I loved this chapter sm, and yes it was worth the wait. It always is when it comes to ur writing😻😻

Anyway how are you doing?? Are you doing well? Pls tell me ur taking care of urself?? If not I'll be sadd.

Anyway I love you, and take caree💘💘💘

this ask made me smile and giggle and kick my feet, i love you so so so much!🩷🩷🩷 thank you for your sweet words my angel love, i've been well and i promise im taking care good care of myself baby! hbu?? hows life been??💐🌷🌷☀️

#; mailbox 📬 #; cold hearts

[universeofsadness]

UniverseOfSaddness - Ep. 5: Letters

I always remember how I used to sent you letters. Letters about my trips to Italy or France. Or letters just asking how you were. Or just small notes in class. Or I would sent you random letters about how my family is. You would never respond to them, not even the class notes. I don't even know if you ever read them. I sent you letters cus I think phones are to addicting. Anyway, today I was at an old radio station so I decided to sent you a letter, about how I am, about how Universe Of Saddness is, and I promise you I'll come back and see you again. Mabye you'll respond to this letter or mabye you won't even get it, or mabye you're letter won't reach me. You know, sense I'm stuck in Universe Of Saddness.

[kornkobeni]

having any sort of relationship with people is so fucking hard for me i wish i didnt get jealous or mad at everyone for simply existing and doing stuff thats not 100% in line with what i wanted to do. im so tired of feeling like a bad person moslty because i totally believe that i am one. its not a nice feeling i want to expience a better life i want my brain to be fixed and i dont want to expirence all of this negative shit. i know being alive comes with feelings and not all of them are positive but i dont think what i feel is normal. its not just regular saddness that comes and goes and connects to hardships happening with life. im just fuckin sad im empty and im angry. and even if all of my emotions come from hormonal shit caused by my period i dont want that anyway. i dont care. why do i have to suffer because of biological function in my body needed to make babies. i dont want kids. i dont want to suffer for a human life that will never be

[wattabeautifulmess-blog]

Welcome back.

Wow I havent touched this place in ages. Actually I havent wrote in ages. I used to like writing my thoughts down and read back on it when I am bored. When did that die?

I came back today because I have a core memory that I want to remember. I am making a record here.

Today was one of the hardest days I had gone through in a long time. My heart aches more than my last break up that I remember.

Two weeks ago I started fostering this puppy. I named him Hazelnut. He was the cutest thing ever lived.

I remember he was so small when I first held him, just a bit bigger than my palm. His belly so plum and legs so soft. He was very shy. The first night I brought him back he hid under the shoe rack and slept there the whole night. I remember him being afraid and I told him "its ok little guy. I will love you!"

And I did. He had gotten comfortable quickly and he is super playful. I bought him squeeky toys and he loved them. He was such a smart puppy. He learned to go on the training pad right away. He never missed. I wanted to keep him but I couldnt make the decision right away. The reason being our three seniors were agitated around him. He wanted to play but he plays too rough. His little baby teeth digged into their bodies and made them bleed. I had to keep a close eye on them at all times. Even when we were out, we left him alone in the bedroom away from the seniors.

But he was so good at being alone. I remember seeing him sleep on Johnny's pants in the camera. He wouldn't sleep on his pillow, he chose to sleep on his pants maybe because it smelled like daddy.

I couldnt make the decision until a meeting with a couple that were interested in him were made. They told me he got the most applicants and that day I cried like a baby. I knew leaving him would be hard. I asked the rescue if I can keep him but it wasnt allowed.

So it was destined that I had to give this little baby away.

Seeing his adoptive parents comforted me a tiny bit. I knew he was going to be loved and spoiled rotten. I knew he was better off in their household where they have a young dog with similar energy to his, would be his play mate. I know they have a bigger place for him to run around and live a better life.

I was brave and acted like nothing bothered me. I cried in the car after the meeting. And again once I got home. And again during dinner. And now as I am writing this.

I kept asking God why did he take him away. Even though I knew it would be the best way for both of us.

I guess sometimes things happen so we can be sad. And it makes us sad so we can feel. Not everything can be happy in life. And I don't want to be cheered up in anyway. I just want to submerge myself in saddness for a while. I just want to cry for a while.

I feel like this is one of the hardest thing I ever did. I have given up crushes to close friends before and this was even much harder than that...

Be happy Hazelnut. Mommy will always love you. <3