#and with all that said. idk. take this as you will. tumblr user quaranmine also explained this really well

[darubyprincx]

Can I ask for a 🍉 in the ask game?

you may indeed!

*exhales* okay. this one's gonna be terrifying to elaborate on but here we go anyways.

there is no art without the artist and there is no artist without the art. they are, in a lot of cases but not all of them, one and the same. every detail you write into these little stories is probably revealing a small patch of your soul without your even realizing it.

this goes double for some of our longer works, for example- take twice., a story that was written during one of the worst times of our life. there was a situation with a guy, you know how it goes, and we literally threw ourself into working on it as an escape. that one's got a lot of themes of healing and how one mistake can cause horrible outcomes. actually now that i think about it a lot of our works deal with hope and healing. i guess it's a mirror

(btw whoever said that your teens are your golden years can die of a thousand tiny papercuts. i am NOT thriving and it is NOT my fault)

ashes is... a long and complex thing. it's faceted. it's messy. to be completely honest we absolutely hate some of the chapters we've posted. but it's been an exercise of honesty- both with ourself, and with our readers.

the characters in it, they fucked up SO bad. most of them are dealing with some serious shit. but there's still hope for them. (i'm not gonna lie, i finished chapter 7 and read back through it like "huh. if anyone ever thinks for half a second about us the author writing that in such staggering detail, we're toast")

there's a lot of projection. like a lot. i aint gonna say where but it's there. it's such a personal thing to be doing this for free and of your own will, both for your own good and others.

life is fuckin tough, and as writing is a reflection of life, the things expressed there will also be fuckin tough. i keep on, though because 1. if i ever stopped writing i would literally explode and 2. i've already promised myself to NEVER abandon a work. (breaks are allowed, though.) i have a commitment here both to the story ive started and to the readers

#ray's tag #answered #this is incomprehensibke because of out of the things we're good at explaining #one of those things is NOT the big picture #everything is connected everything is intertwined and we have zero ffucking idea what our own wtiting process is #i have to be extremely vague and dance around the point in order to draw peoples attention to it #there's no other way to do it. and every time i look at the moral directly it dissapears. its always there in the corner of my eye #that's what stories are to me. the vague painting out of the corner of the artists eye. #anne carson said it best in nox: you turn back to the page you were trying to translate and the lights remain in your mind #the great big barking web of them #that's what drives me insane about writing and why i can never stop. it's a paradox; a study in desperation #someone told me once that they knew i really liked honeysuckle tea because that was the tea i mentioned the most in our fics #it took me out. i didnt expect it at all. #and with all that said. idk. take this as you will. tumblr user quaranmine also explained this really well