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neo’s lead rap raewon

neo red’s lead rap & sub vocal mobius entertainment; variety, modelling 07 vocal / 08 rap / 05 dance

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it isn’t a good sign that it’s in the set of his debut mv that raewon seriously considers, for the first time, he might have made a mistake in his career choice.

his mind ran on a single track all his life, taking the world at face value – if something there’s an undoubted truth, that would make the opposite either impossible or a lie. raewon wasn’t a particularly tenacious boy by nature, but he was decidedly stubborn, prone to excess. his childhood would be best described as extraordinarily average, nothing of note to his middle class upbringing in ulsan as a middle child. he did fine in school, preferred p.e. class like almost every one of his friends, and even his interest in music class was far from peculiar back at the time. he didn’t have dreams to pursue or any inherent desire for fame.

he reads about those in his field that only knew a yearning for the stage from a young age. they always elicit a sense of awestruck wonder, and then the vaguest hint of dread. barely there, sitting odd under his skin, seeping into the infinite twisting crevices of his brain – barely, and yet definitely there.

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the silver letters engraved onto fine paper shimmer dully when he tilts the card at a steep angle. when he came into the arcade to meet with friends, he hadn’t expected to be approached by a soft spoken woman complimenting his appearance. strangers had commented on his good looks before, but usually they addressed him and his siblings collectively, during family reunions, and they sort of paled next to one another. this stranger talks of opportunities far beyond his wildest fantasies, she suggests he might be cut out for a world aspired by many, but belonging to few.

naturally, his head rings with alarms of stranger danger right then as he excuses his way out of the encounter with a hesitant smile, but it’s impossible to ignore the flattery of the gesture. he never finds out just how legit the offer was. the card is crushed by the weight of his books in the bottom of his school bag and eventually is tossed into the trash bin without a second thought at the end of the school year.

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“do you remember why you wanted to join the company in the first place?”

he gets it, he really does understand. instructors are paid meagerly wages to handle the workload they brave through every day, and they recycle their pep talks because it’s all they can do when the 12 hour days are getting to them, too. raewon fights the urge to roll his eyes when he notices yet another rendition of the same old sentimental speech form at the tip of the tongue of his coach. the order of the talking points change, but he always circles back to the origins. what brought you here, what dared you to want, what made you chase first. rookie mentality, he punctuates breathlessly with claps before the song loops back to the beginning.

rookie mentality, raewon scoffs. he hasn’t even debuted yet.

he hates saying he is only there because he was bored and curious. he was 16. he was gullible. the memory of his younger self being scouted by another agency came back before high school, when the pressure to decide what he’d dedicate himself into becoming started weighing in on him. raewon hadn’t actually expected to be accepted into mobius entertainment when he he auditioned before the school year started. he hadn’t know the sacrifices before they were already made. he doesn’t know how to explain he only wants in because it is too late to turn around.

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it’s not to say he is helpless. competitive by nature, once raewon is in, he is all the way in. sometimes he believes the training environment is designed to ensnare the least convinced of the trainees until they’re consumed by the idea of debuting, and it works on him. he hates slacking behind other trainees, hates having his weaknesses exposed for others.

they say he got admitted for his rapping, but he believes it was the idol look plastered on his face, the mobius look. he isn’t horrendous – he had been always big into hip hop and rnb as a child, so developing a rapping style came natural. it’s tough to adapt it to a trend savvy audience, and he becomes less and less confident with his flow after each training lesson. it’s during one of the slumps watching other rappers in the company bypass him without breaking a sweat that he chooses to pursue his secondary skill and tries to make up for his outdated flow with a solid vocal performance.

he really only wants to debut. with the only solid project of a group set to be released by the label after orion presenting itself for the first time since his training began, all things blur into the background of his single ambition. being seen, being picked, having a plan laid out for him. it’s great to be a trainee in high school, to have a plan b to fall onto when the frustration clamps in on him. but when he leaves his teens, the idea of a debut is no longer a luxury he gets to consider, but the only resort.

he plays up to his strengths and glosses over weaknesses, clings to the facts of his condition. dancing is great, but dancing gets few people ahead. it’s a requirement, when all the trainees worry over the angles their limbs form at any given moment of a routine and can absorb choreography like breathing in air. what he needs is to showcase adequate rapping and decent vocals that turn him into an asset for the company.

and he does.

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if only raewon were a little more intelligent. he has wits on him, it’s part of his appeal in the first place. his ability to disarm people, the shameless edge to his every move, the sharp tongue made tv-ready during his training years. but he’s quick to learn that charm alone won’t keep him afloat as an idol, let alone in a group like neo where the attention is so oddly split and the distractions never end.

if only he were a better vocalist, more charming as a performer, funnier on camera. he has a returning anxious dream about his mother with a hand on her hips, the other tending to her forehead as she tells raewon to just be like his brother, and tells raewon to just be like his sister, and tells raewon to just be nothing like himself. wrapping up filming without the overwhelming feeling he isn’t doing enough only adds up to the foreboding, spotting all the things his group mates do better every time he looks over his shoulder.

it’s hard to get a full night of sleep with his schedule, but the metaphorical ache in him turning physical at the end of a day doesn’t help either. his skeleton is at unrest inside him, pushing at his muscles and skin, trying to get itself out of the torture raewon chooses.

his sister tells him he’s being paranoid. her laughter rings natural through the speaker, although she sounds tired, likely due to the odd hours. she watched his interview and she thought he was really cute, her roommate says she likes him the best in neo. she isn’t bullshitting him, she had never lied to him before.

raewon doesn’t know what to think now that he realizes there are few truths beyond doubt left.

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next: neo’s multifaceted talent, neo:red’s x factor, mobius visual standard. kim raewon.

raewon is known for his dazzling vocals and a sharp rap style that has fans’ hearts swooning every time neo hits the stage. though he only just debuted, he has shown some variety chops that leave the audience wondering what the future holds for him. he shows his members a lot of love as a supportive hyung, but trinity are the biggest winners of his unending affection.

please look forward to our pretty raewon’s steps in the future!

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