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strawberryvanillafrosting · 3 months

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success life story ♡

heyy i'm here to share about my success story, the beginning is only before i started manifesting and about when i just started, all my success are on the very end of the blog, so feel free to skip directly at it if you're not interest by all the rambling !

have a good read ☆

michiko is so pretty, i've literally been told so many times i looked liker <3

the old story that i don’t live in anymore

okay so before i didn’t hate my life, at all, but i just found very dull and so poor of entertaining like it was just too fucking regular and repetitive.also a bit depressing. i thought of myself of such an unlucky girl before and i was like affirming all the fucking time that i was unlucky and guess what? everything really used to go the way i didn’t want it to go every single damn time and i’d be like i knew it im so unlucky boo-hoo.

same for the money i would just go every single fucking day rambling to my friends how poor i was and how i wanted money so bad and the same story every single fucking for days, weeks, months.

i really wanted a new appartement and my own room cause i used to share same room as my sister and it really was getting on my nerves, i had no privacy and place for myself. the apartment was small, my mum always kept complaining about it and then she would argue about my dad about it but the reason why we couldn’t move out despite trying for several months was cause my dad had whole lotta debts and my mom had a really low paying and hard job she was exhausted and, it was quiet hard to see them being this unhappy and they still tried their hardest to make us happy so i really wanted to get back at them.

about social life i had very few friends and barely went out, i'd say probably one time a month. and i really wanted to get that life of the party, and those big ass friends group and also i was crazy desperate about having black friends cause i am black and literally the only black out here without none of black friends and i felt pretty left out like wtf am i the only black girl with no black friends cause all of them (that's so dumb tho.. ) were friends and gets invited to the most fun hangouts and i was embarrassingly jealous of that and also complained a lot about it…and kept asking tf was wrong with me.

STRONGLY on this one : i wanted a relationship so bad and i kept hating and being sad to those couple on tiktok’s. one time i actually cried cuz i wanted a boys’s love so bad like i was craving it so bad. i was in such despair state before..cringy ahh ☠️

i used to be rlly insecure about my looks too even tho at some moments i felt more confident, i kept comparing myself and waisting dozens of minutes enumerating my "flaws ". i knew about manifestation but not really about law of assumption , for me manifesting was really all about listening to subliminals, method and scripting. we all once knew that phase yeah? i used to manifest from time to time but then would just give up again,since i was not seeing results and so on. so useful wow.and then there’s the others things like mediocre grades, poor family health, just constant tiredness and fatigue feeling,

tw : mention of being depressed,sh,ed, : felt empty like life had absolutely no meaning, suicidal thoughts, tried to end by over-consumption of medication, self-harm and bulimia, constant complaining and NEGATIVE ONLY mindset.

but now, NOW i tell you ever single thing i’ve just listed changed completely like every single damn thing i’ve just listed is no more, it’s out of the date, dead, buried and no longer existing !

it clicked

then at some point at my life i was just like. yk what? fuck i just wanna change it all. then i really like really got into it all over again and for good. no more 1 week i try then giving up cause i ain’t seeing no « results ».

i watched hours and hours of ppl talking about loa (i’m not saying you should do this at all it’s just that i was very under-informed and wanted to know everything about loa)on youtube, shoutout to rita kaminski and hyler who really put me into it and informed me. then i started reading neville’s pdf books, and tumblr blogs, kinda overconsuming but i liked getting myself informed.

and then that’s where everything started and that i got aware of all the power i actually hold. all the things i actually can do just cause of my mind. i wrote down all my wishes in present tense ,like every single aspect i wanted to change/have in my life. and i started fully living in the end like really got myself into and at first of course, wavering from time to time in the beginning. it was pretty easy for me since i was used to manifestation.but what i didn’t do before is persist no matter what and that’s what was really tricky for me in the beginning to persist no matter what and not just give up to bullshit 3D. but when i kept moving forward no matter the 3D and made it facts the only my 4D matters and everything has already happened, ALL and every single wish down to the last one flowed into my life. ONE by ONE every single hour of the day i would get my manifestations down to the last letter i wrote in my notes.every single thing

success storyy

in a matter of few weeks like really 3 week-ish like- 1 month max.

starting off LUCK i’m extremely lucky now every single time i play gambling activities i win. i’ve won insane amounts at scratch cards i think i’ve won in total more than 5’000$. JUST FROM SCRATCH CARDS.and before i started i NEVER EVER WON. now whenever i play there’s not one time that i’ll win absolutely nothing even just a small prize

won huge lottery prize (from 200 to 12k the biggest i’ve won yet)

winning a gambling games, either online or dice rolling luck,bets, bingos etc.. its literally insane every one keep telling that i literally has got god’s blessing (i’m the god guys🥰)

financially freedom, my parents upgraded jobs and i’ve got lots of incomes + the money my parents give me

all the debts my dad had, he got rid of ALL of them and when i tell you mf had a lot of em☠️

move out in a new huge ass condo which is a duplex (like really like i wrote it it’s actually scary how powerful we are..) I’VE FINALLY GOT MY OWN ROOM and we’re getting my desired furnitures and decorating the house i’m so grateful

friends and popularity i think biggest shock for me is really this. like my social life has gone from very paisible to completely fully booked and passioning life. like seriously i’ve been to more parties, concerts, birthdays, and hangouts during the last 2 weeks holidays than in my entire life

got lot of new friends, healthy relationships and quality time passed on lots of fun activities and sm memories

black groups friend. WITH AN S.so thankful to myself to be this good a manifestation i litteraly got into a black friend group of girls and i’ve never felt more at my place and understood this much. and these girls know the black group boys (when i tell you that 2y ago they were the person that i wanted to be close with so bad..also they’re really hot and funny lol)so we hung out with them and i was literally so highlighted and became pretty much friends with all of them !!

my man. HELLO I LITERALLY MANIFESTED MY DREAM RELATIONSHIP? when i met him i didn’t actually realize right on the spot that he was exactly how i wanted him to be and reading back to when i scripted out all the things i wanted at the beginning, everything matched. he’s literally physically and mentally the man of my dream LIKE REALLY. we’re no bf and gf YET cause it’s just a little soon but we see each others super often and we have the best relationship ever i swear it’s giving wattpad. the flirting is crazyyy.

dream bod.from head to toe my desired body. heavy on the lower body all for that azz and wide hips.ive got smooth and clear skin and smell good all the time!! litteraly flawless face + got my braces which suits so much and dimples

plenty of vacations (went to ibiza, usa and dubai )

lenient parents they use to be so strict before i swear its crazy they let me go so easily now, i can hangout without asking 3 days ,like they accept even if i've gotta go in the next hour or if wanna go on trip that's in another country. i can come back home so much later too

attractive & magnetic aura + being really charismatic (everyone i met keep telling me i’ve got this thing that really makes them want me, get closer to me)

good grades without doing much

perfect self-concept - as i kept living 24/7 in the state of wish fulfilled, my self concept only got better making me really know what i’m worth and never wavering/ going back to the old story

whole ass pc set up

all of my desired skincare/makeups/shoes/clothes

and so much more...

outro

i hope y'all liked my blog and that it motivated some of you to NEVER GIVE UP cause y'all are reallyy some powerful mfs and y'all already got all of yours desires !!

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ honey kisses, shayama

#manifesting #law of assumption #sucess story #loa success #loa blog #loassumption #neville goddard #self concept #nondualism #void state #state of the wish fullfilled

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twbutterfly-milk · 14 days

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Tw: Taking care of your hair w/ an ED. This mentions nutrient deficiencies and eating disorders so if you think this will trigger you, please scroll to something else (or get off your phone/go to sleep, if you needed that reminder)

Look, a cute whale shark :)

Note: I still need to edit this with examples of foods that include these nutrients but if you're okay with just researching those foods yourself go ahead. I keep seeing people struggling with their hair cuz of it and i feel like i can't wait too much longer to post this so yeah i'll just edit it with examples since the nutrients you need are already here. Also, a disclaimer, i'm not a professional, just a nerd.

It's no secret that often people with ED's will begin to lose hair strength/experience hair loss as a result of several nutrient deficiencies. It is not ,however, scientifically supported that vitamin supplementation can, on it's own, reverse these effects(and,with the very important exception of vitamin C and iron, i can't find anything stating that vitamin supplementation actually does anything at all). Here's some hair tips that will hopefully help(i tried to find some that will work for kinky/curly hair too; these seem to be mostly general rules for all kinds of hair in general rather than any specific kind)

General hair care:

🩷 Oily hair can benefit from more frequent washing.

🩷 Washing every other day should be the most frequent your are washing your hair, washing every day is gonna make it weak and fall out, you can leave for longer depending on your hair too

🩷 Concentrate shampoo on the scalp.

🩷 Use conditioner after every shampoo. Leave it in for around at least 5 minutes before rinsing it out (it can depend on the conditioner, some say 10 minutes so you can just check the back of the bottle ig).

🩷 Use a swim cap when in the pool to protect your hair from chlorine.

🩷 Choose a shampoo and conditioner formulated specifically for your hair type.

🩷 Protect hair when swimming.

🩷 Reduce Stress. Your emotional and physical well-being may impact your hair.

🩷 Limit Bleaching or Coloring Your Hair.

🩷 Avoid Excessive Heat Styling.

🩷 Be gentle with your hair

Nutrients (scroll down to find examples of foods where you can find them):

🩵 Protein, especially lean proteins(aka, white meats and any plant based proteins, although greek yoghurt is also highly reccomended as it contains vitamin B5 or pantothenic acid, which may help combat hair thinning and loss)

🩵 Iron and Vitamin C (supplementation is reccomended, most other nutrient supplements don't seen to be proven as efficient enough for me to reccomend to take them, supplementing iron and vitamin C doesn't mean you shouldn't have it in your diet alongside supplementation aswell)

🩵 Biotin

🩵 Zinc

🩵 Vitamin A

🩵 L-cysteine

🩵 Keratin (a protein and one of the main structural constituents of hair)

Foods that are rich in these nutrients: (in need of completion)

Thank you for loving yourself enough to take time out of your day to read this. Remember it's okay to prioritize yourself and your health. You are important (even if you don't think so).

@bambi-black4ever bcuz u said u needed it

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nikkiiiscute · 4 months

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Eddie Dear Character Analysis TW: Mental Health, Sharp objects, Mentions of war, Death of parent.

Y'all better thank me for this analysis cuz I can feel the Carpal Tunnel comin'

He's clumsy to the max - He says it himself that he ran into 3 walls (FOURTH WALL REFERENCE!?) not to mention there's a gag where sometimes He and Frank bump into each other 😏. His Clumsiness has caused his Mail Contents to spill, many times: a Picture shows Frank Frankly using his Butterfly Net to help collect Eddie's dropped envelopes.

Mail Courier is a government job? - Prepare to be hit with a bold hypothesis but what if Eddie was isekai'd into Welcome Home? I feel like you can go in and out of the Puppet World so, everyone got isekai'd here? Look, I feel like some dude in / outside the puppet world is paying this dude and probably everyone that has a Job.

Nice skill set dude - Eddie solos the Arts & Crafts segment, meaning he has the best Hand Coordination and Dexterity to handle delicate paper and sharp tools. It's worth theorizing over that Eddie is always there when an obstacle requires manual labor to overcome (according to his bio). So we have a Government Employee that doubles as a Day Laborer, BUT he is also a specialist in Communications Technology - The Restoration Project News Page jokes that if Eddie Dear was with them, he might be able to help program the Website better. So an IT Technician as well? Well damn Ed, Nice Skill Set bro.

Eddie has PTSD? - Okay let's go back to the theme of Mental Health, Eddie might have undiagnosed PTSD (recognized as a mental disorder only in 1980), and possibly is suppressing his own memory, why tho? A bit of a stretch TBH, but if we can see what kind of Person he was, as in a Human Being, not just a mindless puppet he might be something else, but maybe we can guess why.

Ethnicity Analysis Time!!! - Eddie is the most Humanlike in body Proportions, the dude is built like a Marine like damn no wonder he has simps! He also has the most realistic body colors: Ruddy Orange Skin and Red Hair. kinda like the NPCs in Gerudo Valley from Breath of The Wild. For y'all who don't know, Ruddy Skin basically means that you look like ya got sunburned. Ruddy Skin and Red Hair are Traits of Orient-African Descent, or Afro-Irish Descent and y'all already know he has a Southern Accent.

Eddie's Story - Eddie Daor was born in 1942 but due to him having ruddy skin, His mother unfortunately died at birth, I have a headcanon that maybe Eddie blamed himself for his mom dying. Skipping to 1953, at 17 he enlisted into the military as a Communications tech to leave behind his memories about his mother. 2 years later, he reunited with his childhood sweetheart Frank Franklin who was working as an entomologist at a university (Analysis on them later) then in 1969 (before the show debuted) He married Frank in secret. in October 11 1969 He, Frank and some friends you know were isekai'd into the show by the Creator Ronald Dorelaine, transforming into their puppet counterpart with his real name switched out to Eddie Dear instead alongside everyone else, It was covered up as the cast being hired to puppeteer the iconic puppets. On ????? 15 1974, welcome Home abruptly ended along with the cast as the crew and the cast were found dead and an even bigger problem, Ronald Dorelaine was reported MISSING and presumed dead.

Wooooooo! Eddie had it rough tho :( but good thing when it comes to friendship he always deliver! Thank you for reading this character analysis :)!!!!

#welcome home #eddie dear #welcome home theory #character analysis

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sleepdeprivedsimp234 · 9 months

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~so I’m still toying with the idea of Cryptid/Animal!States, so I made a small fic for it and I thought it was kinda cute so here~

⚠️TW⚠️: mentions or references to 9/11, hurt/comfort, FLUFFINESS- so much soft mushy fluffiness, the characters may be OOC, and me over-explaining NY’s animal/cryptid form lmao.

For some "slight" context: NY is some blend of a cat, a blue jay, and LA is a blend of wolf (cuz the Rougarou) and gator (cuz why not-)

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Florida and Louisiana were sitting in the living room together one peaceful evening. Or as peaceful as it could get in the statehouse. Loui laid in Florida’s lap as the taller gently played with his wolf-like ears that he had decided to let out, his wolf-like tail gently thudding against the side of the couch making a calming little sound amidst the silence. He suppressed a slight giggle when Florida decided to be a little mean and gently scratch behind the Pelican State’s ear. His ears perked up slightly when he heard footsteps coming into the living room. He sat up slightly and saw that it was just New York walking into the room and sitting on the opposite side of the couch.

"Hey Loui?" Florida whispered to him.

"Yea sha?"

"Have any of us ever seen what kind of animal-thing New York is?" Asked the Sunshine State.

"Uh….-" Loui paused to think. He doesn’t remember ever seeing York have any animal features. I mean, sure he purrs like a damn cat and has the claws and fangs of one, but otherwise he hasn’t seen anything. Not even when he had first met the Empire State. "Come to think of it sha, no, I don’t think we have."

"Whelp. Tonight’s the night to find out what he is." Exclaimed Florida. He waited for Loui to get up before tiptoeing over to the other side of the living room where York was completely lost in his book. "Hey New York!" he shouted slightly.

The Empire State jumped a bit before glaring at the slightly shorter state. "Jesus Christ….Whaddya want Swamp-For-Brains?"

"I just had a question for you." Florida said with a smirk.

York sighed a bit. "What is it?"

"So I just wanted to know, what are you?"

"….What?" Asked York, who was visibly confused.

"Well y’know how Loui is a weird gator-wolf thing, and Human Torch is a bear?" Florida asked.

"Yea…?"

"I was curious as to what animal-thing you were." Florida stated.

"Nope."

"Cmonnnnn please?"

"Hell no."

"Why are you so boring…?"

"Don’t care."

"Pleaseeeee??"

"F*ck off."

"C’mon Yorkie~~"

"Ughhh…. If I show you, will you leave me alone?" York said, sending a death glare the Sunshine State’s way.

"Uh-huh!!" Florida promised, though NY knew that it was probably a half-a$$ed promise.

"Fine…." NY said. He motioned for Florida to back up a little so he could stand before standing up in front of him. He closed his eyes and about five seconds later, a bunch of firework-like flashes filled the area surrounding him before there was a bright flash that temporarily blinded the other two states. When the flashing subsided , the two smaller states eventually regained their vision, and they were not disappointed with what they saw….

There the Empire State stood. He was at least a few inches taller. He had feathery-elf-like ears, and a pair of what had to be cat ears on top of his head along with some more blue-jay feathers running down the sides of his neck and shoulders. New York also seemed to have some feathers on his forearms as well as some claws where his fingernails were. He had a long tail that came out of the small of his back and looked like a cat tail at first, but started to look more like a blue-jay’s tail feathers. And lastly, this part was a bit concerning. Why was it concerning, you may ask? Well, he also had a beautiful pair of large blue-jay wings, but they seemed to be beat-up and broken, seeing as they drooped pathetically close to the ground near the Empire State’s feet and looked like they could be injured with a single touch….

"Oh my god you are so CUTE!!!" Florida squealed loudly, looking at the Empire State with the same look you would give a kitten.

New York blushed brightly and his feather-ears pinned back slightly as he glared at the Sunshine State. "No I am not!!"

"He’s right, sha. You are pretty adorable." Loui said, though secretly his main focus was on York’s wings. He was trying to think of what must’ve happened for them to look so- broken and delicate….

"Not you too 🥲" York groaned slightly. Suddenly he felt himself get tackled onto the couch. He opened his eyes to see Florida on his lap before feeling a soft touch of the Sunshine State’s calloused fingers playing with his feather-ears. "Really?"

"They’re so fluffy!!" Florida exclaimed.

"Yea I know. Ya coulda just asked instead of tackling me duma$$."

"Yea but you would’ve said no."

"Fair enough. Hehehehey cuhuhut ihit out!" York giggled when Florida decided to be mean and gently scratch him behind the ears like he did with Loui. A few seconds later, Florida stopped torturing him. The three states sat in silence until it was broken by a squeak coming from the Empire State when he felt two gentle fingers run across one of his wings.

"Oop- sorry sha. Did dat hurt?" Loui said as he retracted his hand from where it was over York’s wing.

"N-not really you must surprised me a little." York said quietly. He tensed up slightly when Loui went back to touch his wing, this time to straighten out a few of the feathers as gently as he could.

"If ya don’t mind me askin’, what happened to your wings sha? I’m sorry, they’re beautiful but they also just look so….broken and fragile." Loui said, concerned for his friend. At first, York thought it might’ve been meant to be a slightly teasing remark, but with the way the younger’s ears and tail drooped, he knew it was genuine concern.

His own tail and ears drooped slightly as he gave a small sigh and felt a few tears fill his eyes but not fall ."I-I’d rather n-not get into the details, but it was from….That. Event. In 2001…." He paused for a minute before looking at the two other states, who had not pity, but genuine concern in their eyes.

And so he continued to explain."F*ck it….I was flying around the towers and sh*t looking for anybody that I could save in the air if they were jumping out a window so that maybe that would possibly have a chance at continuing to live and and-"

"Shhh it’s ok, slow down sha. You need to breathe at some point." He heard the calming voice of Louisiana say. He hadn’t even noticed that his breathing had quickened, but he eventually slowed down and relaxed when he felt a gentle hand over his.

"Well I was looking for people to save in the air and I saw this guy that was nearby me about to jump and I flew over to save him as quick as possible before the towers fully collapsed. I managed to catch him, but unfortunately I hate to it this way, but he kind of a bigger guy and my wings got hit with a f*ck ton of rubble. And to add insult to injury, I already had a gaping wound across my entire back. I managed to save him along with a few others, but at the cost of my wings."

The two smaller states stared with concern and sorrow at their friend’s story.

"I-I have no words for once…." Florida mumbled. For once, he was rendered speechless.

"T-that’s terrible….Im sorry dat happened sha…." Loui said, his ears and tail drooping even more.

New York gulped slightly as he tried to hold back tears. "It’s n-not that big a deal, what matters most is the fact that those people survived." he said quietly, his voice shaking a bit. Out of nowhere he felt two arms wrap around him in a tight embrace. He could smell the slight scent of daiquiri and strawberries, so he knew that it was Loui that had hugged him. He buried his face in his friend’s shoulder as he let a few tears fall down his face. "Dammit why do I have to be so weak…." He mumbled to himself, but it was loud enough that the other two heard him.

Florida moved a little closer to him and gently wiped a tear from his face. "It’s not weak to need to cry, New York. Everybody needs a good cry once in a while, it’s completely normal. It’s also completely normal to need some form of affection too, so don’t start beating yourself up over needing it. I will not hesitate to do what I did to Tennessee and send the meth gators."

That got a small chuckle out of the Empire State, even though it sounded more like a smoker’s cough (probably from all the smoke—). York allowed himself to get pulled into a laying position by Louisiana, and just buried his face in his chest with a deep contented sigh.

Florida managed to get on the other side of them, and started gently petting NY’s cat-ears., and in response York started purring and his tail started swaying gently. Florida laughed to himself a bit. No matter how much NY said he hated this kind of affection, anybody that knew him well enough knew that he did in fact enjoy it a lot, just at the moment there was a tail to prove it :)

And they all fell asleep the end :)

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@simpyfrog I did it :D

And @literallyjustexistinghere cuz you seem to be just as obsessed with NY as I am lmao

#welcome to the table #welcome to the statehouse #ben brainard #wttt #wttt new york #wttt louisiana #wttt florida #soft boi hours #I like making big tough guys soft just for the hell of it #cat-bird!New York go brrrrrr-#gator-wolf!Louisiana go brrrrrrrr-#my last two brain cells go brrrrrr…..

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traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors · 7 months

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TW: low self-esteem, self-harming/self-punishing ED, anorexia, loneliness. between therapists. seeking reassurance. i’d like to label this with a pseudonym so i can recognize it and add onto it if needed, but i can’t think of anything. thank you for your work.

i have a restrictive eating disorder. the central driving force is the desire to hurt myself, to make myself sick, to make myself vulnerable. i fantasize about weight loss because it’s such a dramatic, tangible sign of sickness. in that sense, my eating disorder is aimed at losing weight, but i don’t think it’s anorexia, because my weight doesn’t have a dramatic influence on my self-esteem.

but… if it’s not anorexia… there’s only ONE diagnosis for EVERY OTHER POSSIBLE RESTRICTIVE EATING DISORDER. i don’t relate to the way people talk about anorexia, but i relate even less to the way people talk about ARFID. people only ever seem to talk about completely avoidant presentations. it’s as if non-anorexic restrictive eating disorders just… don’t exist.

i can’t be the only person suffering like this, but it seems like nobody else even thinks it’s worth considering. i feel so alone. i feel like i’m just broken. all of this makes me want to get sicker, cuz it feels like whatever’s wrong with me now just isn’t enough. nobody seems to care. nobody seems to take my kind of sickness seriously. i’m just so tired of feeling so lonely and worthless. i want to feel like i’m not alone, like what i’m going through matters. i want to feel like i’m worth something.

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry about what you've been going through. Struggling with an eating disorder is incredibly challenging and potentially life threatening, and to not be sure what kind of eating disorder you're dealing with can certainly make things harder. Please know that it takes a lot of strength to attempt to discuss what you're going through, and also know that you're not alone, you're not broken, and you are seen.

It sounds like you're self aware in the sense that you can identify that your ED stems from a feeling of masochism or self-harm. It can be incredibly useful to understand these things as you move forward in looking for treatment, because I think that sometimes certain treatments could address the ED specifically without addressing the underlying causes, when addressing those underlying causes could potentially be more effective.

Admittedly I'm not that educated on eating disorders but just because you may not be struggling with anorexia necessarily doesn't mean it's ARFID. There are also diagnoses such as bulimia and EDNOS that you could discuss with a professional. Here is a list of alternative ED diagnoses.

I know you briefly mentioned being "between therapists" so I just wanted to mention that seeking out the guidance of a mental health professional like a therapist can feel intimidating, but know that seeking that help is a great first step. Please remember to be as kind and gentle with yourself as you can.

I hope I could help and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw self harm #tw sh

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puppyyboyy · 28 days

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i love my bf also i love yaoi thats also pretty great.

errmmm yeah guys idk im super cringe but also heres a fun rant /sar

tw for ED and transphobia mention!!

so its easter today right and i gtg to my grandparents house wirh my family and "celebrate" easter even though my family is atheist and im pagan and my grandparents dont believe in god (i think??) its so weird. anywayss! i also am dreading going because i dont have any nice 'easter clothes' to wear (like light colored clothing) only blacks and greys and grapic t-shirts and 1 hoodie. so idek what to wear! i rrlllyy wanna ask my mom if i can just stay home and she can tell my grandma that im sick and cant come or something but im not gonna do that....... also i lost one of my ear buds and that sucks. also its like 3am rn and im not thay tired im gonna regret staying up this late cuz we have to leave my house at 11am to get to my grandparents housseee does anyone even read these? im just rambling at this point because im very bored and also a little hyper but thats maybe cuz i had 2 cans of coke zero before getting in bed and the caffeine is making me hyper!!! OMG and also my uncle, aunt and cousin will be there and they are all conservative weirdos and i dont like them and my aunt is an alcoholic and i hate her!! well actually shes my step-aunt i think....? idk how that works my brain is too small but yeah and also my cousin has an eating disorder and she got super skinny in less then a year and she literally always is talking aboutt it and BRAGGING that she has an ED.. like thats not smth to be proud of! im sorry girl but seek help! (to my ppl reading that have an ED ily /p and i hope you stay safe🙏🫡) also the fact that she is transphobic but then acts all nice to me.!! that pisses me of so so much!! also my grandparents misgender me but ugh im so.!!! 😪☹️😒 idk im hyper i wanna bounce aroujd my room like that one pic vvv

yeahh that one. thats me.

#leos rants #ARGHHH #the yaoi gets wholesome around here #not toxic #🙅‍♂️🙅‍♂️#i love my bf

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h3roinchicmodel · 7 months

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reports and plans for my body🔹

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hello everyone!

This week wasn't one of the best, I started doing 24-hour NF from Sunday to Tuesday (3 24-hour NF days) so far so good until Wednesday, which was the day I had a binge.

Thursday was my rest day from my exercise routine and I couldn't do NF cuz I had classes in the morning and afternoon and as I was going to walk (6.3 km) to make up for the day without exercise, I needed to eat "normally" to don't faint on the way.

Friday (today) I also couldn't do NF cuz I was away from home all day again. Due to the NF of 3 days this week since Sunday I only went to the bathroom today.

Now, as I mentioned in another post here, I'm going to restructure my exercise routine, "eating healthy" and NF's this weekend and starting again.

I think I'm going to do a flushing to release everything else and stay clean. When I had the binge on Wednesday, I had a swollen chest and A LOT of pain, as well as feeling like a dirty pig. Today my body is less swollen because it's been 2 days since I've done workout just cardio because I didn't have time.

I will weigh myself on Monday in NF and start recording my weight loss. This was my report of the week, if you have any questions, you can ask or DM me.

CU on Monday :)

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naughtynoodle056 · 11 months

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TW: heavy heavy mentions of disordered eating/ ED habits / maybe implied dieting? Idk proceed with caution

yeahhh I'm back to lowkey not feeding myself again because oops I feel guilty and disgusting eating after one (1) well intended conversation someone had with me but maybe drawing stuffing art will snap me out of it. Or maybe I won't and I'll just be stuck in "Yeah its hot when everyone ELSE eats a lot but me cuz I don't deserve it" hell. Guess we'll have to wait and see 😙✌🏾

Also the cruel irony of being brought McDonald's not even 12 hours after a "Hey dude can you maybe relax a little eating like a fat ass i dont want you to be fucked up in your 30s and 40s getting too comfortable eating whenever 🥰" type conversation,,,,,,, I want to yeet it out of my body so badly but I guess this is one of the rare times being a little emetophobic is a good thing. Either way I both feel like shit but also am still VERY much so in Feedism Mood so I guess at least the Kink Gult wasn't triggered at the same time as the little Ed I may or may not have

#i am literally barely 100lbs I should NOT be having 'oh no i am gross' thoughts #Because i DON'T feel that way about anyone else bigger than me #tw vent

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miaheartscove · 11 months

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south park headcanons

random ❀ 4:57PM ❀ south park ❀ tw: mentions of sewer slide, major spoilers, slight nsfw, mentions of pedophillia/rxpe, mentions of ed ❀ teen au a/n: im so bored :P i have like 30 pending assignments lol

STAN MARSH

has average grades. b- minimum!

stan's a very jealous kid, kind-of. he has an "idc mindset," but sometimes when people close to him drift away, he really starts feeling anger and jealousy.

bisexual (HEAVILY IMPLIED!!)

can't handle the stress of pimple/acne, hence, a ton of acne scars on his face.

his voice cracks oftenly.

KYLE BROFLOVSKI

perfectionist. doesn't handle failure very well. doesn't handle disappointment well either.

closeted queer. (very heavily implied!!) kyle would always wonder why he never felt a spark with girls. they were cute and all but there was something about them that felt… off. not that there was a shortage of cute, pretty girls in his class, or even the whole school. eventually, he just searched it up online on a search engine and it gave him one answer : gay. it's also canon he's asexual !!

hates crying. thinks it makes him seem weak. (I READ THIS SOMEWHERE IDK WHERE THO)

bought spotify premium with his chores earnings.

kyle deeply cares about ike! they play video games together.

sarcasm is his language. will try to stretch out a sarcastic comment for as long as he can.

ERIC CARTMAN

does horribly in school. straight f's. but liane convinced the school board with her special tactics to let him stay in school.

moans in class.

has a narcissistic disorder.

somehow knows how to doxx. eric usually doxxs people when he loses an arguement.

knows how to speak german. (iykyk)

KENNY MCCORMICK

gapped teeth + missing tooth.

gives himself piercings! whether it be on his ears, face, or even down there... (actually got an infection when he did his penis piercing 🙁)

omnisexual (pref for women).

decent temper control!

kenny will help his friends with whatever they need!

he's funny when he can be, serious when he needs to be. a good listener too!

has ptsd from all the deaths he suffered. sometimes dreams about them. (semi-canon)

BUTTERS STOTCH

obviously a very bad relationship with his parents. so distant and unsupportive. butters sometimes believes they'd be better off without him, but doesn't want to die.

attachment issues.

sees mr. mackey as a father figure. butters goes to his office very oftenly.

has the most intense, violent, and fucked up intrusive thoughts..

really liked the whole marjorine thing and sometimes goes out with the girls in disguise.

plays roblox tycoons.

butters has a nintendo switch lite!! he plays animal crossing and his island is so cute and nicely decorated<3

panromantic, he/she.

CRAIG TUCKER

autistic. probably one of the most popular craig hcs out there.

craig's adopted. his parents thought they couln't have kids but then had tricia a few years later. (AGAIN IDK WHERE I READ THIS :(( )

has braces. another really popular craig hc.

peruvian. ANOTHER REALLY POPULAR CRAIG HC. cuz think abt it, how did he appear of a peruvian wall that peruvian people drew if he isn't peruvian. 🤔🤔

pulls on the strings of his hat when he's in distress.

CLYDE DONOVAN

he's queer except idk how to prove it...

clyde has a really bad relationship with his father. his father holds a huge grudge against him for killing his wife.

he's the real homie that kisses his homies goodnight 💋

developed bulimia (an eating disorder where one forces themself to vomit) when he was in middle school. poor bb became really self-concious though made it seem like people's comments didn't get to him. often didn't eat much, when he did eat, he'd just throw it all up.

has trouble expressing his emotions, or thoughts in general.

TOLKIEN BLACK

his parents are pretty religous, feeding tolkien a lot of their religous beliefs, or how their god blessed them with wealth and whatnot. (leaving this open, idk much abt religion so hc whichever religion ^^)

feels pressure to be the best, both academically and physically. he joined the football team and the debate club at school, always turns in his work, and even completes any extra work even if he doesn't need it.

likes buying all of his friends expensive gifts. his parents always wonder why he's wasted his weekly allowence in one afternoon. (bonus: his love language is giving gifts<;3)

contrary to belief, tolkien isn't good at comforting. sure he has a way with words, but doesn't know how to handle with other people crying and freaking out. he just kind-of pats their back.

enjoys oldies<3 like frank sintra, perry como, bobby darin, etc ...

TWEEK TWEAK

thinks his whole life is a joke. (it kind-of is. his parents thought it would be funny to name him tweek.)

crusty lips.. also bites his lip a lot which causes a bunch of lip blisters.

loves iceberg videos. but creeps himself out with them.

cat person, but his parents don't let him get one.

tweek has a pretty diverse music taste and owns various t-shirts of his favorite bands.

his hands are always cold.

tweek has the darkest eyebags ever.

is scattered with freckles: nose, back, shoulders, everywhere.

JIMMY VALMER

unironically makes dad jokes.

heteroflexible, he/him.

unirronically, jimmy's favorite movie is the bee move.

owns a weiner dog!

voice cracked every 2 seconds during puberty.

has pulled lots of all nighters due to his god-awful writers block for his comdey routines.

WENDY TESTABURGER

bicurious + genderfluid, she/he. wendy thinks her friends are really pretty and finds herself questioning if she likes or like-likes them. she's also scared to come out.

mole under her right eye.

has a white cat!!

wendy has rather slender fingers, perhaps the influence of playing the piano.

president of the debate club!

BEBE STEVENS

slut shames girl when she loses an arguement/when she's jealous. (ALSO READ THIS SOMEWHERE DK WHERE)

101% pinterest girl. has the most organized page ever.

loves wearing skirts!! standing at 5'7", bebe has pretty long legs, which she loves to show off!

used to wear her mom's heels a lot as a little girl. now, she's a whole professional at walking in heels! probably could run in them too!!

hoop earrings are her fav!

bebe is photogenic af, and she knows it!!

SHELLEY MARSH

true crime lover<3

unhealthy attachment issues + daddy issues + anger issues.

shelley gets really jealous of stan because of all the attention he gets from their parents and takes it out on him.

MIXED HEADCANONS

kenny shares his playboy magazines with clyde.

shelley and kevin are dating! bonus: shelley gives karen all of her old barbies to her. it makes her so happy to the point karen nearly cries.

wendy and bebe have kissed once for the fun of it.

eric forces the boys play among us with him.

kenny has really greasy hair. butters oftenly invites kenny over to his house to take a shower and sleep comfortably for at least one night.

kenny is the only person butters told about his uncle, who rxped him. that night, butters cried so much.

tweek and craig love playing minecraft together<3

clyde invites himself over to craig's/tolkien/jimmy's house oftenly. he's scared of tweek's parents so he avoids going to his house at all costs. ALSO WALKED IN ON CRAIG AND TWEEK MAKING OUT..

cartman calls craig "metal mouth" as an insult. eventually became a nickname for craig.

kenny has no idea butters is marjorine. he has the biggest puppy crush on her bro.

bebe and clyde have an off-and-on relationship. whenever bebe needs new shoes, she comes back to clyde, knowing he'll glady accept her with open arms, then gets dumped a week later.

(in reference to tolkien's 2nd hc) tolkien feels as though craig, tweek, clyde, and jimmy are the only people who he can be himself with. he's very carefree with them ^^

tolkien accidently crashed craig's car once.

the strain of sharon and randy's divorce makes stan go into another deep depression, where he picked up his drinking habit again. he hates siding on their custody so he stays at kyle's house sometimes.

(in reference to bebe's 6th hc) clyde has taken a ton of pictures of bebe, and in each and every one of them, she looks absolutely stunning.

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hershey-the-person · 1 year

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AHHH IM SO EXCITED FOR HEARTSTOPPER S2 ESPECIALLY TO SEE ISSACS STORY !!! ACE REPRESENTATION !!! and...

TW⚠️mentions of ED and mental health !!! read at ur own risk bestie <3

I also really wanna see how they are gonna portray Charlie's ed and mental health . as someone who has suffered from one and still has a few episodes , this comic and show means a lot to me cuz I can heavily relate to the characters and seeing how supportive most of them are makes me happy and feel the love and support my "family and friends" couldn't give me.

I dont know if I can handle seeing it but I already have a mental breakdown every day , so why not have it over a show?

#heartstopper #charlie spring #alice oseman #heartstopper season 2

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snapped-in-half · 22 days

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Trolls characters as me and m friend's damn shenanigans

part 2

TW: Mentions of death and personal intimate shit, swearing and ED. also arson mention be warned

John Dory: If I'm not on deaths door, I'm fine. actually even if im on deaths door, im simply not going to deaths living room, im staying on his front porch, sitting on the welcome mat.

Every single whack ass troll he knows: BRO THATS NOT HOW IT WORK

(insert border here)

(one of the trolls or bruce's kids): Are yo cereal?

Bruce: no I'm a troll.

(I actually said "no im human" btw)

(border)

Bruce: YOU LITERALLY SENT ME A PRO ANA VIDEO???

Creek or Satin and Chenille (tdau ruined my canon): Me and who?

Floyd: ummm it was a joke

(in order: a friend who had anorexia recovered, me still having an ed tryinh to recover, and the one who sent the vid who got hospitalized for an ed possibly healed too)

(fuckass borders)

Nova Swift: Ur cunt energy is so mother it impregnated me

Branch, Satin, Chenille: cunt so cunt it bred you?????

(bro has no ideas for borders)

John Dory's single, lonely, 50 year old virgin ass: 8 hrs of sleep? more like 8 hours of masturbating!

(10 pm to 5 am, a record.)

(Border)

Any of the brozone brothers: who would win in an oiled up twerk off? Dr Josef Heiter or John Dory, lets discuss. So two old men, one in his 60's one ageless but still very old, ones a doctor, the other a survivalist. Ill be super honest, While john dory has boy band dance knowledge, amd can twerk, dr josef heiter's bones are doing quite well, better than dory's actually, in the movie john complained about a bad back and legs, he may have twerk knowledge but he would crumble and cry in pain once he shakes that behind, with a little demonstration, dr josef heiter befor he died wouldve learned to twerk but refuse to do it, with enough convincing the doctor finally twerks and god he twerks well, but honestly he's an old man, he won the oiled up twerk off and sacrificed his dignity, John Dory lost but god he wins in never giving up because even with his arthritis and old age, he still managed to twerk atleast 5 times to be generous

John Dory: How the fuck did heiter win???

Clay: he has better bones and posture

Floyd: Heiter is older than John Dory?

Branch: obviously, but he has better bones. John Dory is practically gonna crack, like "augh my back" every 5 twerks

(border is so easy to think of)

Barb, cuz ik her ass bullies ppl in comment sections: if u were a pedo w a small dick, fucking kids wont be rape cuz it didnt even enter.

Riff: WHAT THE FUCKKKKK

Barb: I'm sorry rape joke, forgot that was an ick.

(guys i got a border idea)

Cooper: in our cores, we are pop trollcore, since we got colonized by the Pop Tribe

(the real message i sent: in our cores, we are americancore, since we got colonized by the U.S of A)

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Branch: i think the reason why jenny died is bcuz of hunger and sickness, the shit out puke back thing 1 and 2 r doing is like only w them the 3rd spot gets nothing

Creek: that is until we starve them all and do a more fucked up human centipede... a human wheel.

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Branch: its like if a trainwreck could go into a vagina but it actually went into a butthole but the butthole was actively having diarrhea and the train is on fire and the vagina is waterfalling

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Poppy: I had a dream i gave ed sheeran head w someone else

Branch: what?

Poppy: he got some head sheeran.

Branch: WHY DID I KNOW YOU WERE GONNA SAY THAT???

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Rock and normal poppy: I wont care if we get caught, I'll tell u to run so ur safe while im in death row. I'll let u live cuz we're buddies.

Barb: genuinely id much rather die with u cuz whats the point dude?

Poppy: true.

Barb: life wont be fun anymore

poppy: Well, when or if we get caught, I'd jump into the fire and wait for u whenever ^w^

#trolls band together #trolls world tour #trolls #incorrect quotes #trolls incorrect quotes

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babybunnydexterloveselvis · 2 months

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vent (tw! ed mentions, s/h mention, self depreciation and being scared to come out as trans)

oh no what am i going to tell my girlfriend if she ever finds out i age regress?? i haven't seen her since like november 2023 since i moved to a different town. i have no way to get in touch w/ her because i lost her number. another bad thing is i haven't come out to her as trans yet. so she would have two reasons to leave me already. the fact i act like a child sometimes to cope and wanting to be a guy. i wanna cry right now but it's also 5:30am as im writing this. i stayed up all night scrolling tumblr when i should have been sleeping. i have school tomorrow and none of my essays are done. im not that tired for some reason too. i wanna start gorging on food again but im scared my grandma is gonna yell at me for eating all the food. i've stopped that and now i have urges for it again. no one actually knew i did that... everyone just thought i was a fatass and i am, honestly, but i did it for comfort. goddamn, i have to try every single method to cope, and nothing still works or is "acceptable". tried overeating, tried age regression, tried talking to counselors, tried s/h, tried a whole bunch of things actually and im still depressed and a failure. i really try at school too but my teachers hate me and that's why in four classes i have an F. i wish i wasn't like this. i wish i could be someone else, who is comfortable in their gender and body, eats normally, and isn't autistic. why do i have to be like this. btw elvis and the beatles cartoon has been, like, my only source of comfort and im always on the verge of crying when im infodumping about him with one of my irl friends and they go like "tbh i don't really care" but they have worse problems and they're valid cuz really bad things has happened to them. im probably gonna try to lie down now and then wake up at 4pm again like the loser i am. gn y'all

#vent #ed vent #sh vent #self h4te #transphobia #trans issues #elvis #the beatles cartoon

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the1975attheirverybest · 1 year

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That blurb/concept about ED made me feel things✨ haha

Tw: mentions of Ed

Before I say anything, I assume I don't have and ED because I never been diagnosed, but I always had struggles when it comes to food. When I was a little girl, I used to cry because my parents tried to force me to eat everything from the plate and it took me forever to eat a meal, so they started to leave me alone after they finished eating. That lead me to put food back in the pots or give it to the dogs because no one was watching. Also, I'm very 'picky' with food, I don't like certain textures, appearancs or smells because I know it'd make me gag or make my stomach hurt.

Also, if my emotions or my head are all over the place I forget/avoid eating. I hate cooking, the whole process stressed me out and by the time I finished cooking, I'm no longer hungry or I'd eat without 'joy' and my stomach would be annoying me the entire day. What really amazes me is the fact that I'm healthy even though I have terrible habits when it comes to food. I know it's bad but i wish I could fix this problem or have someone to get me through this process, understand my struggle with food and not point at me for being 'picky' or 'spoiled:(

Sorry for dumping my traumas with food to your blog, ly<3

Omg, I TOOOTALLYYYY get this. Especially the texture part. Like, there’s this middle eastern dish my parents always made cuz it’s my dad’s favorite and it involves a lot of, like, different textures. There’s rice and stew and gravy and it’s all kinds mixed together and I could never eat it. And I have such vivid memories of being yelled at and not being allowed to leave the table until my plate was empty and stuff like that.

So I know what you mean. My relationship with food and body image is still kinda fucked up to this day. I feel like anyone who grew up in the 90s and early 2000s walked away from childhood with bad body image issues lol. But yeah. Sad.

#tw: ed

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