#and then mimi. we were inseparable until we went to different middle schools

[bookwyrminspiration]

tater and i have moved past the emotions and are going down unhinged memory lane for a moment but i WILL say this. kotlcblr in peak pandemic times changed so many people's lives for real. it was THE transitional period. and i may still be here but you and i and everyone all know it's different now... i've talked about it with so many friends. but it was!!!! so much!!! so many things were going on in all of our personal lives and something great was that it was very much a home to a lot of people and like. What We Needed at a time that we needed it, yk? where like. no one was obligated to talk about the things going on in real life but everyone was free to be silly and have fun. and if someone needed some help there was usually someone online to offer it. and then like people do when they grow up & out of something they moved away to bigger and different things with entirely different tones and themes and mediums with wildly bonking back and forth meters of writing quality. JUST LIKE AMPHIBIA i am holding your shoulders like. i am fully aware that the things that i have seen u watch are not nearly as simply animated as this and also that i wouldn't have watched it if not for my little siblings but that show has touched upon something so like. golden. like they Got It, whoever they are.the found family doesn't stay together forever! sometimes u have to grow and change and move away and never speak again but that doesn't mean that the love you had matters any less

It was! It was such an of the moment thing. Both because of the specific people, which is something that applies to this moment of keepblr now, and because of the situations we were all in? Because we were all (or almost all) young and undergoing this massive worldwide stressor with no real control over what our lives looked like--or at least that's how it felt. And so there was all this energy and unrest and comfort seeking that led to such strong involvement and connections with each other.

And then the world started repealing its restrictions and trying to move on (regardless of if it was smart to do or not) and so we had more going on irl again and weren't cooped up seeking connection. And then we were also getting older and so a lot of people joined other fandoms or left tumblr. Which is fine! it's just bittersweet to think about

Which!! Is just like amphibia. As for the style thing, I know I'd get over it and get used to it once I started I just. Haven't started. But everything I've heard about it has been very good! Especially cool to see comparisons to real life. Sometimes people are only part of your life for a brief part of it, and that time has to end and you'll miss it but you have to grow and move on. But it still mattered so so much, even though it ended. Maybe even because it's not like it used to be.

So so many thoughts, this is also making me think about irl friendships and such which is. oof!

#quil's queries #soryasongsaa #long post #thinking about my past best friends #because they're only ever temporary #oak and I were so close as kids until I moved away when I was five #and then I had virginia for a few years. but then I was in the gifted program and they wanted us to become close with /those kids/ #and we kinda drifted. but her mom and my mom were great friends so now I hear little updates about her through them #even though the most our moms do is follow each other on facebook now #i was at her baby brother's ceremony we came over for fry bread we met sitting next to each other on the bus we lived in the same apartment #and then mimi. we were inseparable until we went to different middle schools #where I met abby. we had every single class together in 6th grand and I got her into keeper and that was a /huge/ part of our friendship #but then we went to different high schools. and I was part of a group for a bit but then covid hit and I. did not keep up with anyone #so my partner has been my closest companion since 7th grade #though I'm. also not good at keeping consistent contact i'm bad at responding to messages #anyway. there is my friendship history for u guys I'm being way too open on the internet <3 #those are real names simply because they're common names and they're all very distanced from me now #so I don't think I'm putting anyone at risk