#and then i'll come home and shower

[portraitoftheoddity]

I hate that I'm genuinely considering going for a sunrise hike. Up a mountain an hour away. Which takes over an hour to climb. Which would mean getting up minimum 3 hours before sunrise to reach summit on time. WHAT IS THIS HOBBY DOING TO ME, WHO AM I????

#lena hikes #I mean I'll come home and shower and IMMEDIATELY crawl back into bed #but come on

[tazmiilly]

trying to convince myself to get up and take a walk.....

#it's always nicer to do it in the early morning... bc I like coming home and showering and still having all my day left #<- adhd thing #but its still dark out... I wanna be able to see the green trees... #maybe I'll get to watch the sun rise

[bunnihearted]

hmmm. im now officially a patient lol!! (idk the terms in eng lol). damn.... its weird. nd im just lying in my bed w iv drip... if i need 2 pee i have to tell them so they can measure it. thats gnna make not wanna pee. nothing more will happen today. tmrw theyll do a cat scan nd then decide if i'll get surgery. since i havent eaten anything im not in too much pain so im mostly bored. sooooo bored. im gnna spend the day nd night here??? doing what?!? i only brought one book nd theres no tv of wifi nd i cant use up my data bc then im gnna be unable to message my mom etc..

#nd like #idk how to get the nurse if i need smth #nd idk if my mom can come visit nd leave a book #idk how i'll change to hospital clothes bc the nurse didnt return to that #also omg i wish i had showered yesterday i havent showered in days i hate this #ughhhhhhhh im not happy!!!! :((((( #just wanna be home w my mom nd pets #i want everything to be ok #i want my body to work

[doom-dreaming]

how do i tell my mother that coming into my room calling me "lazybones" if i'm still in bed at any time past 7 a.m. for YEARS has done near-irreparable damage to my self-esteem and created shame about being able to just fucking relax?

#but she can rot on the couch playing mahjong on her ipad all day it's fine #i don't feel at all angry when i come home dirty and tired from work #and she tells me i'm making dinner #while she sits curled up on the couch with a cup of tea and a book #sure mom. let me just take a shower and i'll get right on that #but please do let me know how hungry you are five times while i'm trying to scrape together some energy #i need to get out of this house #some small part of me kinda hopes she just doesn't come back from vacation #and. and . #as i'm giving her a VERY NICE vacation pedicure last night #she goes 'hey could i maybe use your hardcase on this trip? it'd just be easier in a customs search' #oh the brand new really nice hardcase suitcase that you got me for my birthday? that one? #not one of the four other suitcases you own? #sure. go ahead and take it #anythign else i can get you queen? #my belongings are not my own #my life is not my own #my time is not my own #yes i know i have control issues but i think i've earned them a little bit #i never learned to set boundaries and could never say no to my mom without being reprimanded #and i feel like a shell of a person because she's belittled my individuality if it doesn't conform to her worldview #and i feel like i'm dangling this husk in front of people and saying 'yep this is me. my whole essence' #all because i can't say no to her taking my fucking suitcase like it was never really mine to begin with #like she's just entitled to all my shit #i'm fine. i have a meeting with my therapist next week. i'm fine.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

universe of constant spinning, every end a new beginning

“So, do you have an umbrella? That was like, your thing, right? At Claw?”

Ah—not again! He can’t keep zoning out while talking to people—especially his boss.

But… why was Reigen still here? It was late and he always got to work early. It wasn’t his job to stay and coddle his employees. “I—uh—no,” he stuttered, fingers twisting anxiously. “Mine was, uh, "is” broken, sir.”

‘Broken’ was a mild way to put it. More like it got destroyed.

[or, reigen gives serizawa an umbrella]

☔️2,651 words | serirei☔️

#corey writes:) #HOLY TRASH #no guys last year i challenged myself to write and post one fic a month so that i made sure i was still taking time to do what i enjoy #and not lose myself to school work right? aND I DID IT!!! so i challenged myself AGAIN this year and none of the stuff i've been working on #is fully done and i had time so i started this last night and worked on this on my down time during student teaching and when i got home! #this prolly isn't Great but it's short and something i've been thinking about since the minute i finished s2 sooooooo #and the brainrot has been SO real and actually tbh i'm pretty surprised that the fic i wrote isn't r.itsu centric lol but this idea would #NOT leave my head and i knew it wouldn't get super long like all of my r.itsu and kiddo ideas ijuhbgfvbhyuio #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #serirei #serizawa katsuya #reigen arataka #mp100 fanfic #serirei fanfic #guys it's about the m.lb umbrella scene okay #idk maybe this has been done before but also i. do not care because Feelings and i diD IT even tho its at the last minute lol #oops i need to shower i'm teaching all day tomorrow and my supervisor is coming to observe me ahhhhh send good thoughts pls jiuhygtfghuijoiu #okayyyyy i'll stop now i ramble when i am sleepy or nervous and i am Both i just don't want this fic to be bad but ig i panic a bit before #posting any fic haha gonna go shower now MWAH love y'all <333

[naomiknight-17]

Freshly showered, feeling soft and clean and smelling of honey. New cozy socks (the kind with non-slip bits on the bottom) I got for Christmas on my feets. The neighbour turned off their obnoxious music. Spooky narration videos on the TV.

Let's just call this a fresh start to the day

#i don't usually like socks much but these are nice and soft and my slippers got wet when i wore them out of the shower #and the floor is cold so. one of the rare occasions where socks are good actually #mod post #i was woken by loud music today and it continued to haunt me through my wake up/breakfast routine #but during my shower it stopped #so new day now. new day without annoying things. so i declare jt #i have a lot of dishes to do (was too tired to do them last night) and the fridge cleaning is unfinished. so i'll try to work on those today #but for the moment... just gonna enjoy this little bit of peace #not counting Leon screaming in the hallway because he heard Duck come home

[carbonateddelusion]

I hate having my routine interrupted. if you interrupt my eat breakfast and watch minecraft time I will kill you

#i like when things go a certain way i like planning out my day and when things don't go like they're supposed to or someone comes home a- #few hours late it destroys EVERYTHING #right now my brain is locked up because i'm trying to get myself to mow the lawn #but if i mow the lawn i'll get dirty and sweaty #and i bathed yesterday so that means i can't bathe again today #but also i can't wait until tomorrow. do you see it do you understand #the lawnmower was broken a little bit ago and i didn't shower for a week because i can't until after the lawn is mowed.

[birdmenmanga]

okay I think I'm gonna have to accept that if I don't sleep I will also not be able to do anything productive tonight

#just thinking thoughts... #I am allowed to not be productive for one night #it's for fixing my schedule. I'm going to explode. I can do it #I'll like. play games to pass the time if I can't draw #I just want to get my silly sleep schedule back ok... #anyways I'll go get dinner now.... #and then I'll play slay the spire. and then go dance. come home. shower. #and probably pass out #but even more likely become insane with the illness and somehow suddenly find the energy to draw again #(this always happens. and my plans of fixing my sleep schedule are thwarted. however I am TRULY REALLY tired today.) #(maybe it will be different this time.)

[celeryw]

i wanna write the proper isekai this time

#i was thinking abt it in the shower like #i don't actually want my character to be hit by a truck w no way home lol #and also there's that one post or smthn i'll have to find it that was like affirmation-y #and it was something abt how every time u go to shower u come out to an alternate universe or something #i can't remember #cel speaks #i'll figure it out tho

[likesummerrainn]

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#i am gonna be so honest with you all babes. i'm fucking exhausted. #and my back hurts and my head hurts and my heart hurts and i'm just. #trying to take it day by day i guess. i don't know anymore really. #like yeah we have help and it's fine but. everyone leaves and goes home and they don't have to do anything about it anymroe. #im still here i'm still the one that wakes up in the middle of the night i'm sitll the one that gets called to do it all #i literally have done fuck all for work today because i've been the one doing the running around #and everyone keeps saying 'oh we're all worried for her and we're all pitching in to help' #and yes you all are! but that doesn't change the fact that she lives wiht us. and that when anyone comes over she still calls for one of us #it's not her fault she's just used to us #but my goodness gracious i have not felt this tired before and i'm just. i'm trying to remind myself i'm doing it for her. you know? #that there is no other reason it's getting done except that it's all For Her. and it makes it a little better. #but it doesn't change the fact that anyone time i step under the shower i just start crying again. or any time i'm alone for ten minutes #i'll just cry really quickly to get it out of my system before going back. #i've never felt more disconnected from reality than i have in the past week you know

[onepiexe]

well i left 10 min early. lol.

#logbook #my coworker and i had to redo the tables. and THEN the gc supervisor said she wanted smth else. fuck her. #we had to redo yalls shit that yall didnt do correctly both ways you were told and then ask the ppl who fixed it to do smth else? GENUINELY #fuck you and fuck no. #we were just trying to get smth up that looked semi decent so the tables could be filled bc i had 30 min left of my shift to do that. #and then she made my coworker take all the nonsellable houseplants and put them outside and found the plant an employee wrote #down to $1 for me and took it for herself. i was so tired and irritated i let it go. #cwnt wait to tell bt what happened tmrw in the morning b4 anybody else comes in. #and im working like. a 2-3 hr shift on thurs to make up some hrs. and then i'll stop by nl. and then i'll have the rest of the day to mysel #myself* #ans then fri at hl and sat/sun at ml and then?? #idk maybe mon at hl and then off tues/wed. #idk im irritated and my coworker was like 'im going to get rattled' but not unkindly. she was also irritated i was just more high strung. #im home now. warm cider and ac time. #maybe a shower too idk

[rxkuyo]

I miss winter I miss cold temperatures I miss shorter days/longer nights I miss having the energy to do things because I'm not miserable and hot and sweaty and suffering from migraines like 80% of the time because everything is too fucking bright for too fucking long every fucking day

#I miss having the energy to do thiiiiiiings hello ????? #is there such a thing as like reverse seasonal depression or w/e because I swear #my mental health is declining RAPIDLY starting like mid-late spring #with the days getting longer and warmer #and then summer just leaves me with zero energy barely able to force myself out of bed <3 #like remember when I didn't have to hype myself up for like 7 hours to go see the pony ??? #remember when I came home from the stable and still had the energy to play videogames and make gifs and do the things I enjoy ???? #fun times #I literally haven't played a videogame in almost 3 months ???? #everyday I tell myself tonight I'll make gifs after coming home from the stable only to then take a quick shower #and lie down in bed to mindlessly consume media on youtube until I fall asleep #like girl help I'm literally burnt tf out from doing nothing all day <3 #personal

[mrfoox]

Okay it's offical, Jonathan is changing work and I won't see him any more 😔

#miranda talking shit #Janathan is such a special guy like... Truly dog vibes. He can be a little ... Prone to messing up simple things but its impossible to be #Mad at him. And always happy and kind. Hes helped me so much... Like i love oliver and Magnus a hecking lot but Jonathan has been a stable #Help for me and i could rely on him (even if he messed things up haha). I really wish him the best #Im kinda anxious bc hes one of my 3 favorite people who i prefer to come by to help me... Now im down to 2 again and i assume it'll #Lead to having more strangers come by to fill his place /: ive met quite a few different people obviously but none of them ive clicked with #Like oliver/magnus/Jonathan... I mean wilma was my girl but she quit last year 😔 but outside of my worries im glad for him #He deserves good things. I think hes one of the ones that actually like this job a lot. Hes been in the homecare business 80% of his work #And hes said more than once he likes it. Working with people is one of the rewarding things. I hate that its so badly paid though and #So stressful and demanding. They deserve double the pay at least. Ive only worked as a student with my mom for 3 months but even by only #Seeing that i can tell how hard the worj is. And then i hear all the shit they have to deal with its insane. People working in homecare #Especially. Like you need the social skills to deal with all kinds of people. Some are dement some are aggressive or other things. Then you #Will have to be cleaning a lot and you'll have to know how to do it decently. Making food is also common. You'll be dealing with medication #Heavy lifting is also not uncommon. Some people will need help to get up from bed and get showers. Not uncommon for their homes not to be #Installed with lifts or such to help with the lifting. Like its in my opinion one of the most demanding jobs around . And the people doing #It gets paid shit... For all thats expected and frankly demanded by the workers the pay is not even close to being fair #I know all healthcare workers have that issue basically but man homecare/older care... Those are extra unfair imo #Anyone who doesnt have respect for those workers I'll personally beat with a bat :)

[depresseddepot]

his name is bodie

#in other related news: i took him to the vet and saw a cat years to human years sign and it said that a 6yo cat was abt 40 human years #and toby. my special guy. is 6 years old #ive been in a downward spiral ever since lol so im not trusting myself to make decisions abt whether or not we're keeping bodie #i don't think i have the time or headspace to spend as long as i did with toby on him but its a baby and im doing it a disservice if i dont #hes so lonely and sad and tiny but i am Comorbid and hate change so so so much #this poor baby #its past my bedtime so im sure ill feel 100% different in the morning #but im just. toby is getting older :( #i don't know what to do after he eventually passes away one day. like frankly i dont think ill be doing anything else for very long #ive loved pets before but. not as much as i love him :( #he could be starving and would run past food if i sat down to pet him #he sits and waits for me to get out of the shower upstairs (a place he's afraid of) #he knows what times i get home and wakes himself up from naps to wander upstairs to see me #he gets lost sometimes and meows until i talk to him so he knows how to get back to someplace safe #he's a HUGE cat but he's so gentle and sweet. he was even nice to the baby #not to be dramatic but i don't think I'll recover once he passed away. like i think that's it for me. #honest to god need to have my affairs in order come my mid thirties because. well. #he even comes over to lay w me when I'm crying :( #sorry abt all these tags #vent

[lordsardine]

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#something about coming home which is a blessing and a curse #like the break from having to be social in boston is nice #but now my stupid brain is like 'OMG how are we going to survive boston again' #and like i know as soon as i come back it'll be literally fine . my dumb brain is just having a tantrum #but alas. #miscellaneous #just need to take a shower. then do a bit of writing. that'll help #also made in abyss season 2 tomorrow #and my yearly review #and i'll hear back whether i got #the job #there's.. a lot going on

[that-was-anticlimactic]

hahahha what if i pulled an all nighter tonight to catch up and get a head start on homework hahahahahahhah unless...

#i'm so stressed #i'm starting to like Feel the weight of all my classes and all my final projects that are coming up and ow little time i have and practicum #job and wanting to have a life outside of homework i feel like i can't do this anymore hhahaahhahhaha it's all so overwhelming #not to have a breakdown on main but like #a part of me just wants to tell my family that i can't come home for thanksgiving break but they'll get so mad at me and my dad's #fiftieth birthday is on thanksgiving and he wants me to be there but imma have to spend the whole time driving back and forth from mom's to #dad's when will i have time for homework and edtpa and senior seminar and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #i have bible study tonight but i really don't want to skip it since i didn't go last week and i know i need the Jesus time like Really need #it but then i don't have as much time for homework and i need to shower because practicum and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #sorry #i'm stressed #i'll delete this later