#and see who answers. or like a fictive ig

[mushtoons]

Uh oh, no anons! I will ask this then with. My face. I've been doing reading on DID as it's incredibly interesting to me and I just. Like to learn more about what people can experience, and I've read about different types of alters. I see on your system blog that you have non-human alters, and I'm interested in how I would talk to them. Basically all that I read online is just "Ask them how they'd like to be treated" type of thing with most DID questions and I know you guys like to answer them but I still feel like a poor little sad thang coming to your doorstep with big sad wet eyes like "How do I talk to. Some of you." Sorry if it's an awkward question!

DJDJDJRK yeah we're thinking about giving anons back cuz we have a few friends who like to use it and we know people get nervous but ahh maybe keeping them off a little longer 👉👈

and genuinely we love hearing that!! like frfr to have people educating themselves and wanting to learn more is amazing and very helpful to systems and it just makes us happy in general 💕

as for our headmates yall actually talk with some of them without even knowing fjdjr a few of our fictives are nonhuman, so ig just keep talking to thek how u do! but we think what you're actually referring to are the nonfictive, nonhumans and as sweet as it is to see you wanting to talk with them, its more likely none of yall will never talk to them, we only have two, echo and safety they're very cautious and reserved and dont front often, if at all, echo is our gatekeeper and safety is a prosecutor and mainly like to keep to our system than talking with anyone outside of it but its real sweet of u anyways!!

#echo is very protective and safety just hates people in general #theyre both some of the oldest in the system and are kinda just set in their ways #djdjd #but we really appreciate the attempt 🥺 #wood wide web #system stuff

[chroniclecollective]

i guess a life update lmao? where do i start exactly.

well for one, more stuff about my ex has been coming up for me, a lot of them being things she was doing to me or making do that were very controlling and manipulative. the fact that ive dealt with all this nd i Completely ignored it for so long until 5 months later after the breakup? why did it take me so long?

ok uh two. ive been in quarantine for 41 days since my job officially shut down due to covid19. i miss my coworkers so much, they were the only steady ppl i had in my life nd being able to laugh with them nd crack jokes nd see each other after work hours to hang out, smoke, jam out to music nd just. be ppl in their 20s yknow? ive been able to see one previous coworker who i hold dear to my heart a few times but it was only for a short time nd we social distanced. weve been stuck at home with our families the same amount of time nd just desprate, we ended up sitting in the parking lot of our job nd just talking for a while. i miss her a lot

three, the old host came out of dormancy after 4 years. i think he made a post or two on here already but that just rlly was a lot for me? bc originally he was host but then i formed like. fully? i existed but i called myself jimmy as well bc i didnt have a name for myself yet. once i chose the bodys name i kinda started fronting more solidly nd finally was host, nd jimmy still fronted but he was spiteful nd angry that i was taking over his life. i do regret that nd i regret pushing down this stuff nd denying him nd everyone else existed. hes doing alright for now, he doesnt front as often but hes active again.

four, i split abt two weeks ago. im still not 100% on if thats true, or if she was just dormant, but theres a new part whos very. how do i put this. thing emo girl in middle school but shes in high school. shes nice though, which is cool. but she deals with missing people frm where she says shes from? i dont believe shes a fictive or factive at all, she just seems very confused as to whos life she basically got dropped into since shes a cis girl. i can communicate with her pretty well surprisingly? cecile says thats bc she split frm me which ig makes sense but yknow. just weird

five, after consideration, once quarantine is over nd my job opens up again nd i can work, im going to save up for as long as i need to nd hopefully ill be able to pay for my first car nd save up for rent. the friend i mentioned earlier said she wouldnt mind rooming with me nd one of my supervisors, nd i was thinking abt asking my close friend abt if he would be interested in splitting rent. he wants to get out of his house, he just needs to find a job once quarantine is up nd i think he can do that

oh yeah finally thing thats rlly nice actually...i have a boyfriend now! im not gonna talk abt him in specifics, but hes a system host as well nd i love him dearly, nd he loves me just the same nd its very. refreshing frm all my past relationships so im cherishing him a lot ahhh. ill probably give him a code name of some kind if i feel like it.

alright so yeah, thats a bit of catchup for yall. also i know theres asks in my inbox, but i havent had the energy to answer them. know that i saw them nd ill get to them eventually. some i may delete if im uncomfortable though.

edit: oh yeah, with ceciles approval finally, we have a system journal of sorts. i only wrote in it once, nd apparently the new split off part did too, but ive been very. nervous to read it. idk what she said

- lee

#lee.txt #dissociative identity disorder #dissociation #actuallydid #actuallydissociative #splitting #tw covid 19 #tw coronavirus #lmk if i need to tag anything else #please do/nt re/bl/og

[devlinstridekid-blog]

i was only going to ask a few but honestly i want your answer to all of them im so sorry

aaa nah dude its chill, this is hella exciting for me and sorry if this is kinda mostly on dave

🆔 How closely do you usually identify to your kins?: it depends a lot tbh on who or what it is, but the more uh “out” one of us is, this is kinda hard for me to answer cuz of the way i/we work??? uh sorry if that came off bad🎅 If you could receive anything from a past life, object or not, what/who would it be?: personwise dirk probably or jade, i miss them a lot, objects uh my old mixing gear would be nice, the bed karkat and i had, actually does an entire house count? does eye color count?💇 Do you look like any of your kins?: yeah, but its taken a hell of a lot of work👣 What steps have you taken to grow closer to your kins in some way? (Past life regression, taking up old hobbies, etc.): ive taken sewing back up (kanaya/porrim), im trying to get back into music stuff, but im poor as shit and cant afford anything i want👀 Have you ever seen a kintype and just though suddenly, “that’s me?”: yeah💔 Heartbreaking memory?: im gonna put the rest of this under the cut cuz this one gets kinda dark

so uh: throwing myself off a fucking bridge, my whole childhood, seeing my friends die, actually dying, oh yeah and this one gets me at the worst of times: decapitating my own fucking brother👍 Theories about your kintypes that you enjoy?: theres a lot of very cute dave stuff out there, most of which i agree with, a lot of the roxy ones are also good that actually address her character

✋ Theories about your kintypes that you hate?: a lot of dirkjake opinions get on my nerves for some personal (i.e. jake fictive, actually witnessing them fixing their relationship) and other reasons, certain fics get on my nerves cuz they are very *wrong* to me, it kinda sucks since a lot of those fics are popular, weirdly enough that one thing about dave knitting? like shit dude idk why even it just rubs me the wrong way

👖Do you ever dress like your kintypes in some way?: lol yeah and kanaya fuckin hates it🔮 Have you ever used divination to find or understand your kintypes?: yeah, i do a lot of pendulum readings for that kinda stuff or send asks into blogs to double check��� Do you keep a kin journal?: a what?👪 Have you told anyone in your family about being kin?: my sibling... after like three years⌚ When did you discover you were kin?: eighth grade i think, a lot has changed since then and ive p much dropped them by now (i think) 🎂 Do you celebrate or honor your kin’s birthday(s)?: i tried to bake a cake last year and it didnt go well, but its generally just like “happy birthday to me ig” not too different from growing up tbh✏ Do you write about your experiences?: uh /sweats (warning theres nsfw shit there)💭 Ever had a memory in the form of a dream?: on occasion, not good ones normally🏠 Do you miss home?: more than anything💎 What does being kin mean to you?: uh, i have did and idk i kinda classify it differently than kin, but i say im kin since its easier than explaining a poorly understood mental disorder i dont like to talk about cuz the terms people generally use make me feel like not a person🚫 What topics do you disagree with regarding kin?: any of the mean ones