#and now that Yata doesn't have to worry about people doubting she's a girl she doesn't need Fushimi anymore

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Trans!Yata but she wants to be a girl. and the same with Trans!Fushimi (if its at the same time or not doesn't matter to me) thank you for always making me laugh!

Actually if we go with both of them at the same time that strikes meas another reason why they become such close friends, since at thatpoint I can see them both having never really met anyone else who’strans and then suddenly here’s like a kindred spirit. Fushimi Iimagine has probably been mocked and teased by Niki for years andbelittled by Kisa, both of them insisting that there must besomething wrong with her because she keeps saying she’s a girl whenshe’s not. Maybe when she was younger Fushimi did briefly attempt tobuy more girl clothes and Niki set them on fire in front of her whilelaughing, mocking her for thinking she’s something she isn’t. So bymiddle school Fushimi is even more gloomy and reserved, not eventelling people that she’s a girl anymore because she knows that itwill just cause people to laugh at her and mock her. But then Fushimimeets Yata and they become friends, and it’s as they’re reallystarting to become close that Yata admits to Fushimi one day thatshe’s not actually a guy, like Yata knows she was technically born aguy and her mom and siblings all think she’s a guy but really, Yataknows she’s a girl and always has. Yata’s all worried that Fushimimight mock her for it too or act like it’s a stage, like when Yataattempted to tell her mom that she’s trans her mom just treated itlike Yata playing around, like it’s a phase and Yata will get overit. That’s when Fushimi quietly admits that it’s the same for her,she’s a girl and always has been, and Yata’s head shoots up becauseshe can’t believe that Fushimi feels this way too.

So then when they join Homra I can see Fushimi feeling even moreupset about the perceived new distance between them. Like when theymoved in together to Fushimi it was just like her and Yata againstthe world, they would go out together in girl’s clothes and couldfinally present as female without anyone teasing them for it, theyboth had similar feelings about how like they both know they’re girlsbut they don’t really care much for dresses (Yata says that Fushimilooks better than she does in skirts anyway) and they both struggleover what they can do as far as hormones and such to stop appearingmale to everyone (in this AU maybe Fushimi even decides to actuallyuse Niki’s inheritance money because he figures wouldn’t it piss Nikioff to know Fushimi was using it so she and Yata could get hormonetreatments). When they join Homra at first it seems like a goodthing, no one knows they’re trans except maybe the top three and Anna– and possibly Kamamoto, since he knew Yata when she was a kid andstill presenting male – and no one looks at them funny or treatsthem different just because they’re trans. For Yata this is enough,like everyone at Homra accepts her for who she is and she feels likeshe can finally just be Yata and no one cares about hergender. Fushimi still feels stifled though, like she always felt likeshe and Yata had this one unbreakable connection and it was enoughbut now Yata’s got things beyond that, has friends who don’t evenknow she’s trans and probably wouldn’t care. So Fushimi starts towonder if that one connection was all they had, like  Yata was onlywith her this long because they both had the same struggles but nowYata’s grown beyond that and left Fushimi behind.

#sarumi #Talking K #trans headcanons #okay maximum pain imagine when Fushimi betrays Yata she claims that she's not a girl anymore anyway #like no it really was all a phase Misaki #and starts presenting as male again even though it makes her miserable #but it's the only way she can think of to throw it in Yata's face #like to Fushimi this was something that tied them together and now she's wondering if it was the only thing #like maybe Yata only liked her bc Yata had no one else #and now that Yata doesn't have to worry about people doubting she's a girl she doesn't need Fushimi anymore