#and my brother has to play that game which makes so much noise and makws me not want to sit downstairs and instead be all alone upstairs

[ethernitty]

once again feeling mildly shitty on a day of celebrating my birthday

#because its fine when my brother asks people to not do things because hes had a seizure and naturally feels shit after it #but when i ask him to not do z because it causes me to tic painfully i am being unreasonable #and also mom HAS to bring up the fact that oh the neighbour doesnt get any friends to visit for her birthday so she may be autistic #which like i know i dont have any irls but you bringing it up will only make me feel like shit #and how am i supposed to make any irl friend when i don't have work nkw and whne I do get work there prolly wont be much kids my age workin #and i do not go to the sports anymore because dysphoria #and there arent any other clubs here i wanna sign up for #i dont think texting my friends who aslo graduated months after is such a good idea because most of them are also in school now and they ha #vent once texted me after #just ugh let me be and have a fun birthday for once #and my brother has to play that game which makes so much noise and makws me not want to sit downstairs and instead be all alone upstairs