#and it wasnt tommys fault for emulating his father

[s0fter-sin]

thinking about ghost protecting tommy from their father just for tommy to scare him with the skull mask. how much it must have messed him up to be tormented by someone he’s protecting, someone he loves, just for him to keep protecting him anyway

#how it could turn into an expectation #that his love will always be returned with pain #how many relationships and one night stands treated him like shit and reinforced that belief? #hes never seen healthy love in his life how would he know any different #and it wasnt tommys fault for emulating his father #but how tragic that simon has to mirror his mother #imagine him waiting for johnny to be the same #for this facade of happiness and gentleness to crack #for him to become dismissive and cruel to /hurt/ him #hes opened up enough that it would be so easy for him #to take advantage of the vulnerability and his soft underbelly that hes shown him and tear him to pieces #he keeps waiting and waiting for the other shoe to drop #winding himself tighter and tighter until he just cant take it anymore #he begs soap to stop pretending and just do it already #‘yell at me ridicule me tear me down /hurt me!/’ #and how johnnys heart breaks that ghost feels so unsafe in love #so he promises to show him what love is supposed to be #knows words wont be enough to dig that pain free #he shows him its not just about protecting but being protected #from enemies and from the world but also from himself #and ghost finally gets to realise love isnt about fear #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #we’re a team- ghost team #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap