#and it mustve felt unpleasant. and thus. the yowl.

[orcelito]

It really is So. Very inconvenient. As a cat owner. To have a cat-based trauma response.

#speculation nation #negative/ #animal illness ment/ #shes ok i think. i woke up to June yowling That specific tone #bolted out of bed. she threw up and then started acting totally fine again #couldnt see anything off about the puke color-wise. it looked like she'd just eaten some hair and puked it back up. #and it mustve felt unpleasant. and thus. the yowl. #no blood. no suspicious objects. and shes currently darting around chasing tally like normal. #i took her to the vet Last Week and they ran tests and said she's overall healthy. just allergies. #and then she started sneezing but i think she's been sneezing less since ive been making an effort to clean. #changed to non-clumping litter at the vet's insistence so theres no extra dust. swept up all of the floors. #and i think she's sneezing less. i think it's getting better. #so for today's thing. i just need to clean up my room. get things more orderly in There like it is in the living room now. #so she cant find random things on the floor to eat and then throw up about. #i think things will be okay. i think she's okay. she's acting okay. she's been eating just the same as normal. #it's just... that specific tone of a cat's voice. it brings back some really unpleasant memories. #of the end of sammy's life. when he was in so much pain he was just Screaming. and it was 3 am and i was so so alone. #and there was blood in his puke. i dont ever want to have to clean my own cat's blood off the floor again. #june bug's okay but that specific noise she made just sent my mind Running and im just hunched trying to tell myself its ok #at least she's acting totally fine now. i just need to cling to that. #animal death ment/ #sorry for the trauma dump lmao i just. needed to vent this somewhere. so onto my tumblr blog it goes lmao