#and im feeling a bit better now so im like fuck u give me challanges. ya kno?

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#hm. some choices to make tomorrow #bc i could ask my advisor if thr lab needs a tech this summer so i could get paid to make media and do transfers #but then im at risk of getting sucked back into school stuff #but if i dont then i have to find a different job which is scary. i mean im sure i could find something but ya kno #but i would be getting a job i could just not think abt it when i leave. which ive never had before #and im feeling a bit better now so im like fuck u give me challanges. ya kno? #my counselor thinks i should just go back to ohio for the summer and i could but i dunno #i feel like it would b harder to live with my dad all summer. i dunno. maybe i should. maybe not. i feel like i could do more here #im just sorta lacking purpose rn. ugh. #i mean here i can just walk more places so i could potentially get out more than i could in rural ohio #but that assumes i would actually go out. bleh. i hate this. gotta make annoying choices #but whatever. im just lucky that ive got enough saved up that im not gonna b in trouble not getting paid much over yhe summer #so. could be worse. just wish it was better #unrelated