#and i think he hasnt done a proper self check in for a while and he let things get out of hand

[sterlingarcher]

I love seeing your posts about like bandom history and just discussion and reflection from a more mature adult's angle, it's really relatable to me at 29. And while I have not involved in bandom before late 2015, I have studied a lot myself, and Panic! and Brendon were my first faves and still high up there. It really disappoints me how brutal antis are as I have figured them out to a T, treating minor errors as hate-crimes from Brendon but not anyone else. Are we not all human?

i havent checked my messages in so long so im not 100% certain when this was sent but this was a really nice thing to stumble upon today 😭😭😭 it makes me feel good to know that there are people out there who can sort of ~smell what im stepping in~ so to speak and that when i talk about this stuff its not always falling on deaf ears. ive always rejected the term “anti” because it feels so immature to say, but honestly what other word is there to even describe most of these people? haters? bullies? assholes? they dont have any actual critical thought behind why they came to hate brendon, they just know it became the cool and popular thing to hate him and “blame him” for shit and they couldnt bear the thought of not following the crowd and fitting in. youd be hard pressed to find me anyone whos life has been documented and scrutinized for as long as and as harshly as brendons since they were a teenager who HASNT stumbled or fucked up or put their foot in their mouth at some point. its wildly hypocritical because these people act very pure and righteous, and like theyve never done or said anything wrong or questionable or problematic in their lives which is just…. quite literally patently untrue for every person on earth. to assert moral and ethical superiority over a person like brendon is to be horrendously disingenuous, and it grossly highlights the efficacy of social media fandom war smear campaigns, lack of proper journalism, and the terrifying degeneration of peoples ability to engage in critical thought and perform unbiased fact-based research. these people act like brendon singlehandedly committed genocide or some shit, and honestly i find these people spend far more time thinking and talking about him than we as fans do. like he quite literally lives in these peoples heads rent free, and these are the same people who call us pathetic for still enjoying him and his music after all these years and not dropping off and following the crowd of sheeple like they did. like these people have the nerve to behave like 13 year old lunch-room bullies and then turn around and call people cringe and pathetic for *checks notes* … enjoying someone and their art and music. like honey the call is coming from inside the house. they love to use the classics like “jeez its just a joke” or “its not that deep…” when the reality is that if it was truly not that deep they wouldnt spend so much time obsessing over him and talking about him more than his fucking fans do. they quite literally troll his and panics tags and quote retweet and reblog almost everything they see with a shitty snide remark that they truly think is soooo clever and original (🙄) like its their fucking 6 figure paid career path. they constantly poke the bear, go swinging at a hornets nest with lead pipes, and then they get confused and pissed when they get bit and stung. like literally dude what did you expect? you come into a space specifically to cause trouble and piss people off and then act like the victim when you actually accomplish that??? call people cringe and fail and annoying and strange when they get emotional over something they clearly care deeply about??? as though if the tables werent turned these people wouldnt immediately start screaming crying throwing up and playing the victim. honestly though at the very end of the day i truly believe these proudly self-proclaimed “haters” are more miserable than ill ever be no matter how bad my life circumstances get. because ultimately i only spend a few hours, maybe a day or two at most being pissed that these bullies and mean-girls exist and love to invade our spaces for shits and giggles. but they apparently spend entire days, weeks, months… YEARS of their lives being bitter and vile and mean for the sake of maybe 10 likes on twitter and 5 minutes of internet validation. what a sad fucking existence. i prefer to be someone who enjoys things and engages with and consumes things that make me happy and joyful thank you :) anyway sorry for the ramble! if you read all of it i appreciate and love you for it!! 💕

[piplupod]

[dont rb thanks]

hm ok i dont think anyone actually cares and i dont wanna get pulled into discourse sbdhdjsl but travis has NPD and its a personality disorder thats got a lot of shit associated with it and its not very well understood

and like. some of the things he's been doing makes sense when u know that.

BUUUT

it doesnt excuse his behaviour (on that stream and in some other instances as well) at all bc u gotta work on ur shit when u got issues. like i COULD just be an asshole who doesnt think abt others feelings or thoughts of me, bc i have autism, but im not gonna because thats a shitty thing to do lol! and if i ever lash out at someone during a meltdown, thats not excusable just bc of my disability/disorder! etc etc etc

i think ppl can say whatever the fuck they want to abt him, they can make fun of him for being annoying or whatever, bc ultimately i dont think he's rly gonna see most of it (if ur straight up commenting in his twitter replies then that's shitty tho lol, but here on tumblr? probably fine), but also just check urself for ableism i guess.

idk I've seen ppl making fun of his VOICE??? which is REALLY shitty bc 1) he can't change that, and 2) he had a speech impediment or smth when he was younger and worked rly hard to deal with that so it's kind of a nasty thing to make fun of his voice. i just dont like it when ppl make fun of smth that someone cant change (appearance, voice, etc), but thats just my own opinion

but uhhh yea i just hope he works on his shit, and i hope ppl check themselves for possible ableism when theyre making fun of him! i think maybe quarantine is exacerbating some of his issues and he's been enabled a bit lately bc of his growing platform so hopefully he gets help and works on it like he said he would on his twitter!

just wanted to ramble into the void sbdhfjsll these are my thinkin thoughts from the past couple days

[dont rb thanks!]

#i dont rly agree w either side of rabid ppl lol #i see ppl going off and saying 'i KNEW he was shitty and a disgusting person' and i also see ppl saying 'uwu travis can do nothing wrong!!' #so :/ just... wanted to toss my two cents into the hat i guess dbfhdjskl #i do see a lot of the Mental Disorder Getting Out Of Hand bc of enabling thing happening w him tho #and i feel bad bc ive been there lol #its a constant battle of having to check urself to make sure ur still acting okay and thinking right and all that! #and i think he hasnt done a proper self check in for a while and he let things get out of hand #and like... idk i dont think he should be cancelled for that #he was cringy and acting very self-mighty around ppl and that's... understandable considering his NPD but definitely not excusable #and i think maybe he'll fix things for himself.... hopefully anyways! #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #im just WAITING for some nasty to see this and think of me as a rabid fan lmfao #nah bud! just... trying to be a good person and see all sides of things! and also i get how travis mightve got to the point hes at #so. it sucks! but i hope he works thru it! if not then yea i will be Not Impressed w him