#and i remember warning him that my hands are the clammiest of mankind to hold (true facts)

[cynicalmusings]

i genuinely had the best dream ever last night. it was basically heizou and myself getting into shenanigans in inazuma—sort of a pining best friends thing—and. AND. we held hands at one point. we held fucking hands and after i woke up from the dream (5:11am) i scribbled it down onto my phone because no way am i forgetting a gem like that.

#it’s embarrassing how vividly i remember the feeling of holding his hands #but on the other hand (haha) i don’t care at all #like yeah #yeah i held a fictional character’s hand and lost my mind over it so what #but listen #because this is forever going to be how i headcanon his hands to feel #larger than mine (for the record my hands are minuscule so no surprise there) but not big #soft and cool skin (very nice since my hands are usually on the warmer side) #quite skinny fingers which are long-ish but not super long #and most importantly the way he was so so gentle when holding my hands… you don’t understand #he sort of closed his palms around mine but as i said very gently #and i remember warning him that my hands are the clammiest of mankind to hold (true facts) #and kept to myself that they’d be EVEN MORE so because the guy i was head over heels for was HOLDING them #and then he was like ‘hah no problem it’s fine’ #and i just… cannot emphasise how comfortable his hands felt #my ones were practically on fire by that point and his were so nice and cool and gentle #and! he fiddled with them a little later on so i was like ‘maybe he isn’t the only one who’s nervous huh’ #anyway #there’s my shameless tangent #i love heizou if it wasn’t obvious enough and i will treasure this dream forever #thank you for coming to my TED talk #r’s random thoughts