#and how they're living in the good timeline and we're not LMAO. but we try

[ambitionsource]

I found ambition when looking for Jack and Eric fanfic on ao3. I genuinely thought it was it's own show with characters who just happened to have the same name as my two bmw favs (I didn't watch gmw and for my own sake I probably never will because they do my babies; jack, eric and angela, so dirty, and I knew of certain things namely Lucas Maya Riley I didn't know enough for it to make me click). I had no clue what I was getting myself into but then I started reading. I'm so beyond glad I did, I've loved every second, every laugh and every tear. Ambition is the show I wished I had as a teen (instead I had glee... and Riverdale... that says enough...) but I'm glad I found it when I needed it, as I face the same challenges the gang has been facing in season 4 as they move on from triple a and onto life in the real world. I like to believe the stories we need find their way to us, the characters we need to meet come to us, thank you for bringing all the characters but especially Jack, Charlie, Nigel, Asher and Jade to life, joining them on their journeys throughout the show and seeing parts of myself - good and bad - reflected back on me has helped me in ways I'll never be able to put to words so I'll simply say thank you. That's the power of good writing, it leaves the reader changed, the writing in ambition is incredible. I've been invested at every step, hooked by every twist. Ambition feels so real, so poignant, the characters feel like real people, it is so true to life in all it's complexities and in all it's ugliness and beauty. It's raw and it's human and it's about community and hope and it's about flawed people who make mistakes but are still worthy and deserving of love and who are trying to do not only do their best but do good and it's the story I desperately needed. I just wanted to write a wee note to send some appreciation to you all for your incredible work and everything you do to bring us this brilliant piece of work.

If the multiverse is real there's a universe where I follow Dylan Orlando on yt and TikTok and debate and jokingly bicker with Nigel about Shakespeare and am mostly likely a techie, I'm kinda sad that I'm not in it lmao but I'm glad and so grateful in one where I found your story. Looking forward to the rest of season 4 and in time season 5, it's going to break my heart to say goodbye but that's how you know that it mattered, if it hurts to let it go.

{backpedaling to bmw for a sec, BLESS YOU FOR WRITING THE WRONGS. I loved the Shawn Angela storyline in season 1 and honestly it healed a part of me that bmw/gmw broke. Without a doubt ambition did it better. I love when they pop in and they have some of my favorite lines. Shawn absolutely kills me, to paraphrase ; "oh yeah I could be jack, authority baby" destroys me every single time. I adore his dynamic with the techies too and Jack. Speaking of Jack, I am on my knees praising y'all for Jack and Eric, so rarely are older couples in teen/ya shows given such depth and it's even rarer to see a queer relationship between two men in their 30s/40s. Their relationship isn't perfect, it's flawed and complicated and there is so much love, their journey so far has been beautiful. It's rare for older characters especially teachers and parents to be treated as three dimensional and as complex individuals, they're typically just the joke or unreasonable antagonist, not in ambition. They are just as complicated and as real as our mains and I love that}.

omg hi! hello!! welcome welcome to the ambition family! full disclosure when i got the notification in my email that i had an anon on this blog i always lowkey dread it's going to be something harsh -- because internet -- but this message was the absolute opposite and the most lovely of surprises. i don't even know where to begin, but you wrote such a thoughtful and packed note here so i wanna address it all in turn -- please bear with me for the long response!

(though if you've read all of ambition up to this point, you're probably used to my writing being way too long. ahaha.)

first off, i wanted to highlight, underline, emphasize in bold what you said here: "I like to believe the stories we need find their way to us, the characters we need to meet come to us..." because you quite literally put our mentality about creating the show into words (beautiful words at that). that is near word-for-word the approach esther and i have taken with this show basically since its inception when we started writing it for ourselves -- we never ever expected it would reach as many people as it has. and we think of it that exact same way, that those who are meant to discover ambition will find their way to it (and its never too late to dive in). so it's so special to me to see you say that, to reflect that sentiment back to us, as like... proof that it is true. this series has brought a specially strange and wonderful cohort of readers together and it is always amazing when another one pops in to make themselves known. so thank you, thank you, for taking the time out of your day to share that with us. and again, welcome!

secondly -- HELL YES TO FINDING YOUR WAY HERE BECAUSE OF JACK AND ERIC! as someone who admittedly has grown less than fond of bmw in the intervening years (does our version of ct show that a bit... oops lol), jack and eric as a duo are still who holds my heart because they were that iconic in the source material of yore. i typically just tag them because they are so central to ambition (though as you probably noticed, i don't tag bmw as a fandom -- at this point i wouldn't tag either show honestly since its so like it's own thing but i have to unfortunately lmao), but i had considered not doing so because i didn't want to clog up the jeric tag but now i'm so glad i do, because look what a lovely little happenstance of bringing you to ambition it fostered!!

(also, you're correct. don't watch gmw. i enjoyed my time with it back in the day, it's cute, but there are better shows and the fandom was absolutely horrible. basically everyone who was there will attest to that LOL. that's partially why we emphasize that at this point ambition really is its own thing, because it's so far removed -- and clearly you can vouch for that now 😊)

and thank you for your kind words about how we write jack and eric -- we 100% agree that adult characters on young adult dramas tend to be useless at best and downright vile at worst (hellooo mr schue, speaking of glee), and we wanted them to be fleshed out and flawed and featured just as much in their own right. plus not only do they have a great relationship with each other that we enjoy writing (enemies to friends to lovers done right, if we do say so ourselves), they have such incredibly important dynamics with others (lucas and isa being the obvious ones) that it's impossible to think of the show without them. so it is SO great to hear such specific praise for them from a reader! and i love that you shouted out a shawn line, he is an underrated gem in the ambition story world for sure (and allowing him and angela their due was very satisfying for us, yes, hahaha).

lastly, can i ask, are you a writer too? because the way you phrased this is absolutely gorgeous and i want to just. hang it up on my wall and hold it close to my heart forever: "joining them on their journeys throughout the show and seeing parts of myself - good and bad - reflected back on me has helped me in ways I'll never be able to put to words so I'll simply say thank you. That's the power of good writing, it leaves the reader changed, the writing in ambition is incredible. I've been invested at every step, hooked by every twist. Ambition feels so real, so poignant, the characters feel like real people, it is so true to life in all it's complexities and in all it's ugliness and beauty. It's raw and it's human and it's about community and hope and it's about flawed people who make mistakes but are still worthy and deserving of love and who are trying to do not only do their best but do good and it's the story I desperately needed."

like legit, that means so so much to us. it's so heartening to see readers engage with the material so deeply AND come away from it with exactly the themes we set out to explore -- community, love, complexity, humanity, faith, failure, rebirth. so thank you, genuinely, for taking the time to send us this wee little note. it is incredibly kind of you, and we're so glad you found this series and get to take the journey with us.

enjoy the rest of the season to come, and please feel free to pop in at any time ✨

-- Maggie

#its also So funny you mention the multiverse bc we literally often talk about #the 'aaa verse' where ambition is a real show #and how they're living in the good timeline and we're not LMAO. but we try #also since it has nothing to do with bmw / gmw really... dont shy away from sharing with friends!! #if you think they'd vibe with it -- that's what ambition is all about #and we're opening up a discord server soon for ambition warriors to come together #so keep an eye out if you're interested 😊 #anyway wow. like that just made my entire week #this community really is so lovely and special. thank you all so much #high praise tag #answered #also i laughed at the glee mention LOL #we were all there my friend... i remember it all too well...

[br1ghtestlight]

NOT THE ENGAGEMENT RING STILL BEING IN THE BIRD NEST LMAO

loving this morning routine so far. we rarely get to see into characters lives outside the belcher family (obviously i mean. its their show) but this morning routine feels both painfully awkward and Very real in a way that we don't see with the belcher family in the same way?? their house is always so chaotic and LOUD with so many people and siblings but this is just rudy and his dad. its not exactly missing the love and warmth but its very intentionally different vibes

god rudy's dad is trying so hard :( compared to the natural and fun interactions of the belcher family this is just.... a very stark contrast with rudy's dad trying and failing to relate to rudy on his level

RUDY THINKS HIS DAD IS EMBARASSING OHHH :(

assuming that this Fancy dinner is rudy and his parents getting together every weekend (with tonights dinner being with his mom's new boyfriend) and CLEARLY does not enjoy it and finds it awkward its kinda funny that they keep doing them. like his parents probably don't like each other very much AND rudy hates the dinners and its awkward and uncomfortable like do we really need to keep doing this. is it worth it. are they trying to stay connected like a normal family while also very clearly disliking each other?? who knows im excited to find out

like "you've always been a trooper" IF THE DINNER ISNT FOR RUDY THEN WHO IS IT FOR LMAO???

and we all love you so much 😭😭

love seeing the belcher family in a non-focused setting like you can tell this episode is about rudy so it makes seeing the belcher family feel almost like?? like WE ARE rudy seeing a friend at the mall rather than them being the main characters. very interesting creative choice

gene is such a sweetie in this scene <3 him walking on the fountain edge

ROUDATHAN

gene got a B- special dinner..... god im sorry his family loves and supports him so much its so sweet :( like gene NEVER questions that he's adored by his family and they think he's amazing. they celebrate all his accomplishments no matter how small uhfghh i need a minute

its his day dad. tina is such a good big sister 10/10 love their relationship

"rudy you should come over for dinner!!! i think its gonna be one of the WORST foods we've ever tried" the belchers are so funny and sweet in this episode bcuz the conflict isn't really about Them and its very enjoyable. like they're just hanging out & having fun

our monthly We're Still A Family dinner with your mom. like SURELY there is a better way

MY MOMS NEW FRIEND ALLEN HES OKAYY 😭😭🤘🎶🎵

ohhh rudy's dad passing his own insecurities onto rudy :( this is so fucked bcuz he doesn't MEAN to do this but he ends up passing on his anxiety and neurotic tendencies onto his son and he doesn't build up his confidence like he should vs the belcher family where they hype each other up to an almost dangerous degree and they're all so happy and confident..... the parallels they are paralleling And it makes me upset. painfully real dysfunctional family relationship

you're the guest of honor....... :( BUT NOT A GUEST BECAUSE YOURE OUR CHILD :(

how on EARTH does this boy end up at the belcher's house for dinner 😭😭

I WAS BORN IN 2002 okay this confirms that louise was definitely not a 2002 baby unlike when the show started because that is a Grown woman and louise is nine. we have figured out some kind of timeline here and for this season louise was canonically born in uhh 2014 OH GOD DHES SO LITTLE. what the fuck gene was a 2012 baby

you know who would liven this party right up?? Louise belcher

BABBBYYY RUDY COMPILATION WITH HIS PARENTS WAHH i dont care that its awkward because he is so small. from this compilation i would guess his parents got divorced when he was around six or seven

rudy using his magic tricks to help the awkwardness of the dinners when that was never his responsibility as their kid... wahh

OHH NO RUDY 😭 this poor boy is having a panic attack somebody needs to save him. but honestly he's the sweetest kid im sure nobody is angry at a nine year old

RUDY IS GOING TO THE BATHROOM AND FULLY RUNS AWAY TO THE BELCHER HOUSEHOLD LMAO ZERO THOUGHTS HEAD EMPTY no plan just vibes. louise is his safe space which is not something i want to think about right now because its too much for my tiny heart. god

(fanfic where rudy has a panic attack and louise helps him through it will be incoming shortly)

rudy crying is going to make ME cry 😭😭

okay gene kissing the ketchup bottles goodnight is very funny that got me to laugh. what is bro DOING

rudy's parents about to file a missing person's report and he is FULLY commiting to the disgusting terrible lasanga dinner good for him!!!! BECAUSE ITS WITH A HAPPY FAMILY THAT FEELS SO COMFY AND SAFE GIVE ME A SECOND.... JUST GIVE ME A SECOND

gene saying he loves rudy. great moment

"rudy are you sure your parents know where you are" is the CORRECT reaction thank you linda lol This boy is very clearly not somewhere that his parents know about and she's being a responsible adult. obviously she would but its just nice that they're treating this situation somewhat seriously. good mama <3

EVERY GENE LINE IN THIS EPISODE MAKES ME LAUGH

rudy in this episode is gonna make me CRY he's so anxious and sensitive and they all love him so much god. like linda and bob are such good parents in this episode and louise is a great friend too. he's so so loved by everybody around him not just his family. and of course he is crying again

LOUISE AND RUDY ARE THE SWEETEST SHES SUCH A GOOD FRIEND SHE CARES ABOUT HIM SOO MUCH her staying for dinner so he feels less awkward and uncomfortable because he always feels safe with her :( what the hell

rudy and louise dinner date!!!!

SWEET GIRL WE GOT THERE SHE IS SOMETIMES ISNT SHE louise is literally the best i dont care if people think she's overrated or too many episodes focus on her. she's amazing and so incredibly sweet and she loves rudy more than anything

ngl when louise smiles and nodded i did think she and rudy were going to hold hands for some reason. roudise week got to me

LARRY MURPHY AS PAUL i knew they would find a way to squeeze him into the episode because he has one of the main credits he has to be in every episode. which is kinda funny tbh Legally contracted to make an appearance as at least one character per episode doesn't need to be teddy

OKAY FINAL THOUGHTS ON THE EPISODE I DIDNT EXPECT THIS TO BE SO LONG this episode was adorable and very stylistically different in a good way?? i loved having a small peak into rudy's home life and his relationship with his parents. loved seeing rudy's mom she seems really sweet and supportive of him :) louise was the BEST in this episode and gene was hilarious as always. bob and linda are great parents and brian huskey did great considering he was voicing about 80% of this episode completely by himself. GREAT episode and a strong start to the season along with episode one!

#LOUISE AND RUDY WERE SOO CUTE AT THE END IM GONNA CRY #i really do want to write a fanfic about them now this episode is one of the best roudise episodes i think #maybe not THE best but definitely top 3 #txt #bob's burgers #episode review

[maddies-chronicles]

my DR brother (jon) <3

okay, so as of when i shift, i won't have any siblings living with me but within the first few months (i decided to change when i originally shift from 13-14 to 15 because of how the timeline works out for me lmao (basically i scripted in my ex for... reasons, but didn't want to shift back to a point where i would have to date him AGAIN for him to be in the timeline... that relationship was supremely uncool) of when i shift, so around when i'm 15-almost-16 my paternal half-siblings will come find me.

jon and clary are both kids of jocelyn fairchild (my DR adoptive mum, who enters my life around the same time these two do) and valentine morgenstern, my biological father, making them both my half-siblings. we never lived together growing up (valentine raised three kids including me- jon, jace, and me, but he kept none of us in the same house as each other so we all grew up as only children with an absent-on-a-good-day-horrible-on-a-bad-day father) and clary grew up with mum, which... unfair. but okay.

okay shit starts to get kinda dark and traumatic below the cut soooo beware ig

basically the whole story is the valentine had jon and started experimenting on him with demon/monster blood while he was still an infant. mum basically realised "holy shit this man is insane" and ran away, but by that point she was already pregnant with clary. she raises clary in brooklyn, new york, and never tells her they're shadowhunters (part angel, for people who don't know the mortal instruments series).

the reason she didn't take jon with her was because when someone is injected with demon/monster blood, it effectively changes their soul to be more "demonic" or evil, for lack of a better way to say it. basically jon was possessed and because the demon blood was, you know, in him, there was no effective way to exorcise him without risking burning his entire body alive from the inside out with heavenly fire. mum obviously couldn't bring herself to do this to her literal child, so she just left him, since, in her eyes, jon was effectively already dead anyways.

valentine raises jon- kind of. for the first few years jon effectively acts like a feral animal, and more or less lacks any sense of human awareness. somehow -not entirely sure, but probably more experimentation and torture- valentine trains him into being a somewhat functional human being. during this time, he's also raising jace (a kidnapped shadowhunter orphan who he injected with angel blood) to be like a super-soldier for his blood purity cult. after jace starts to show promise, he abandons jon entirely. he's already had me by this point, and considers me his "golden-child" despite the fact that i'm considered "impure" literally by his own standards, but that's neither here nor there.

anyways, clary kills our father indirectly because he murders jace (her boyfriend, long story, i promise they're not related emotionally or biologically. it is literally such a long-ass story, that shit could be a post all on it's own). jace comes back to life. confused? me too. no time to dwell on it, we're moving on.

jon is a homocidal maniac for a while because of the demon/monster blood, until jace cleanses him with the sword of heavenly fire. i don't think he was trying to cleanse him, usually that sword kills people, but basically it gave jon a stab wound but also effectively made him human (well... shadowhunter. not precisely human) again. he remembers veryyy little from his time being possessed. he also has a son with the seelie queen. does not remember him at all. i'll come back to him in another post.

anyways, jon reconciles with mum and clary, and they start going through valentine's stuff. they stumble across my birth certificate and find out i went missing three years ago. they make it their mission to find out what happened to me. they find a warlock, who tracks me down in the demon realm, and they fuckin teleport into my living room and scare the shit out of me. i fight them on instinct and they're like "yeah this is probably a shadowhunter at the very least" and tell me he was their father too. i stop fighting them. we get to know each other.

jon is about five years older than me, and despite having been through hell (both literally and figuratively) he's a really kind, gentle person at his core with a lot of empathy for other people, me in particular (he might not remember a lot of stuff... but he remembers valentine being a pretty fuckin shitty dad lol). he's extremely protective of me, blames himself for not being able to protect me despite being a child and also possessed and also having no frickin idea i existed. we're able to reminisce about how awful valentine was, but we also share a sense of understanding what it's like to miss him too, knowing that he didn't always present as a monster, and occasionally had a moment or two of being gentle and loving. it definitely messed with our heads, but we have each other, even if no one else really understands what we went through.

he kinda hates all my s/os and exes on principle until he actually meets hunter. gives him like. a mild shovel talk. immediately loves him because hunter is very loveable and also kind of has sad, pathetic, wet kitten energy (im sorry bby i still love u). hunter and jon are like best friends after that because they've been through shockingly similar situations (abuse from a father figure, threat of being "replaced" by a better model, not quite human, lives with crushing guilt of their brainwashed actions, etc). should i be jealous? maybe, but i'm just glad jon doesn't hate his guts because hunter would have cried.

#SORRY FOR THE FUCKIN LONGEST POST EVER JESUS CHRIST #i love my big brother tho :) #shifting #reality shifting #shifting realities #shifting community #desired reality #shifters #shifting antis dni #reality shift #shiftblr #shift #scripting #scripts #script #shifting script #shifting motivation #shifting scenarios #shifttok #shifting to the owl house #shifting to tmi

[vic-chaos]

I’m curious about this vampire au 👀

Oooohhh yes!!! OK imma put this one under a readmore because I already know it's gonna get long as fuck sjjsfjsdf

So @dusksmote is actually my really good friend and we've developed a totally ridiculous number of aus together (mostly my fault bc I'm like addicted to making elaborate aus and he indulges me every time I come up with some random idea for one lmao) in some alternate timeline we're both superpowered writing machines and they all exist as full fics 😭

But this was one of the first ones we came up with, so it has a TON of backstory and detail by this point... And also unfortunately since its pretty old, I have forgotten some bits and pieces as well.

To try and get the basics out though, Kyle and Butters are both vampires and they're both semi runaways from abusive families/institutions. Butters was training to be a priest back in like the early 1900s or something, he left the day he was meant to be ordained (hence the cassock) because the church and his parents were suffocating him, and was then turned into a vampire the same night. He's obviously not a priest - or even a catholic - anymore, but he still wears an adapted version of the outfit he "died" in purely for the theatrics jdfjsjds

Kyle is much older, and much more powerful too. He's also very tall and strong in this au. He comes from a super old lineage of "high society" vampires who would hold him to a very high standard, he was like their golden child before he left. The main reason he split away from them was over a big scandal involving Stan, who he was secretly sheltering and then fell in love with. His family were super unhappy about this and considered it him dishonouring their name and whatever else because Stan is a ghoul (he needs to drink vampire blood to survive and is very sickly when he hasn’t fed, Kyle feeds him with small doses of his own blood) and ghouls are thought of as inferior and corrupted monsters.

Stan was originally human but did have some vampire bloodline from his father... Randy is from one of those same high society families, but was exiled a long time ago. He's also the one who turns Stan into a ghoul. I won't go into details rn but this is one of many kind of "side stories" that also have a whole bunch of details in themselves jsdjsjdsd

So anyway Kyle left and took Stan with him, eventually they join with and sort of adopt Butters... Originally, the plan was to have Kyle be the one who turned Butters into a vampire back when he was still living with his family (and then he'd also take him along when he left since Butters would essentially become his responsibility). But we were uncomfortable with the implications of having a jewish character turn a white/aryan christian into a vampire, considering blood libel and all that. It's kind of bad enough having him already be a vampire, but vampire Kyle is inspired by his halloween costume from the show and we both love it too much to resist jgdhfsjfd. So we were considering other possibilities instead.... like maybe it being someone else who turned Butters, and Kyle just finds him wandering alone not knowing what happened to him or what he is now. After trying to help he ends up taking him under his wing, and Butters has nowhere else to go so he just never leaves lmao.

This is all like the long ago backstory...... can't believe I've typed this much and I'm only here LMAO 😭 At least I warned you guys sdfjsjdfsfd

Now we're at the present day (and if this was a fic it would start around here too). Cartman is a human, who Butters turns into a vampire by accident. He climbs into his bed at night with the intention to kill him and bring him back home as food for him and Kyle, but he had already started developing a little crush from following him around when he was trying to find a good target. He's super repressed as I'm sure you can imagine, and stops halfway because he starts having a gay crisis over how intimate it feels (this scene of course is based on the one in the ungroundable ajhsbfjsdf) then Cartman wakes up pushes him off. But because Cartman was bitten and not killed, he turns.

Butters actually panics and runs away after this, but he comes back the next night and Cartman manages to grab him and make him explain what the fuck is going on. After a bumpy adjustment period Cartman does eventually come to terms with it and the fact that he can’t really be a part of human society anymore, so he leaves to go live with Butters. Though he will always come back to visit his mom of course.

There is a whole complex worldbuilding thing around the types of vampires that we based off what I think was a book Dust read, I can’t remember for sure? But essentially there are like “pure” vampires who were never human and just manifested out of the darkness eons ago or something (pretty sure grandpa marsh was one of these jdhfbjsdbjsdhb), anyone turned by them is true blood, anyone turned by a true blood is mid blood, and etc. down the ladder.

So since Cartman is like 3....4....?? steps removed, his vampiric traits are all very weak. Vampire high society would regard him as very inferior as well, not much better than Stan. He does need blood occasionally but he can survive off of mostly human food, and of course he’s never going to give up KFC and junk food even though the others all think its disgusting sdjsdfshs. Since his blood is closer to a human-vampire mix, he offers to Stan once when Kyle is gone for a long time and Stan immediately throws it all up 😭

I just want to say...... Butters basically bringing home the worst stray of all time and the mental image of him standing in the doorway with Cartman behind him trying to bashfully explain what happened like “so ummm.... 🥺👉👈” (as well as Kyle’s face) is so eternally funny to me and one of my fav things about this whole au honestly.

Cartman of course was already not exactly a normal person, when is he ever 😂 and he comes with some really unusual baggage... and YES... I finally got to Kenny.

Kenny is a ghost in this au. He was Cartman’s childhood best friend who died, but his soul got attached to Cartman after he accidentally drank his ashes (lmao) and now he’s the only person who can see and hear him. He continued to age alongside Cartman too, and then also stops when he does.

Butters believes he’s real and tries to talk to him, even though he can’t see him so he’s usually speaking while facing the wrong direction jdfgjdgjsd, but everyone else just fully believes Cartman is insane. On Cartman’s part, he’s been haunted by Kenny for so long that he completely gave up trying to act normal years ago and just walks around openly talking to himself sdjfsjhfdsfjd. Kenny has been in love with him for a long time too, but never said anything because his situation made it seem futile to try when they can’t even touch each other. Actually, Kenny is my favourite part of this whole au because his storyline is both extremes of really funny and really heartbreaking, and I do love that combo......

Kenny will eventually start to slowly become corporeal, first being able to move small objects like make pieces of paper flutter or blow out candles, after a while the others will start to catch fleeting glimpses out of the corner of their eyes. Stan is the first one to see and hear him in full when he walks into the kitchen one day and Kenny is standing there, though he vanishes quickly after. Stan describes him as a “tall, skinny blonde guy who looked around our age, wearing a dirty orange parka”, and it completely freaks him out. (When Dust and I were first coming up with this part he made a joke abt Kyle later that day just sighing deeply like “Kenny’s not real Stan, go back to sleep” and I’ve been laughing about it so much recently I needed to include it here somehow jsjfhsjdhsdjsd)

They will eventually also find a way to cure Stan so that he goes back to being human, then after a few months of enjoying human life and eating junk food with Cartman, Kyle will turn him into a vampire too.

Most of what we talk about with this au is just the 5 of them living together as this really weird mix of supernatural beings, and all of the various shenanigans that come along with this. Though we did have some vague plans for a big ending involving Kyle going back to his family and bringing the others, and them all rightfully fucking up vampire high society (who are honestly just evil and deserve it) and using whatever method they found to cure Stan to do the same to all of the other ghouls who are imprisoned there.

It’s also style and bunnyman, which I somehow forgot to mention until now gjsfhsdjs but most of our aus are since we’re both obsessed.

#x #this is so long I really feel like I wrote an actual fic jJSFJJF #emetophobia tw #I'm going to pressure dust into posting the comic panels he drew here too so hopefully I can rb them soon!! #vampire au

[bluelokk]

good afternoon I was thinking about cousins!shuuake alternative the whole night because I still can't believe I live in this horrible no good timeline

(please bear in mind that this is my headcanon though seeing how it probably doesn't really correspond with canon it might as well be an au)

if you've been here for like five months or so you'll notice that i support the akai-hondou ties so much, and before this my headcanon was that ethan and tsutomu knew each other because ethan got caught by the mi5 when he's investigating the org in brittain. I was planning to make this a fic and my brain produced high-pitched noises when i tried to write that scene, so i concluded that No. this won't work

and then when I was brainstorming with my sister (it's more like we're ranting tbh) i thought about hidemi-akai's and eisuke-shuukichi's resemblances, and THEN one post of @masterdetectivexx 's came to my mind!!! I paraphrase here that mrs hondou is akai tsutomu's sister, and that ethan met her because tsutomu was a cia agent- but now that we know tsutomu was an mi6 agent instead, i will offer you one alternative:

mrs hondou actually worked for the org.

LIKE ive been wondering for ages how did ethan met mrs hondou because this is the guy who's been investigating the org for three years before his marriage and only visited his family once a year after. my guess is that she provided ethan information on the org and probably about this project she's working on and yes you guessed right! the aptx4869 itself.

i say this because what vermouth said to mary on that bridge at that time; "how does it feel to die of your own sister's creation?", suggested that mrs hondou was involved in the making of aptx. so yeah. she's one of the organization's scientist, and was also ethan's intel, until they fell in love or whatever

i am still thinking about the reason why the got married because I feel like it's an important plot point but i haven't figured it out yet maybe I'm gonna at the end of this post lmao

but yeah they eventually got married and had hidemi not long after. now here things are getting kinda sketchy because

if mrs hondou married ethan 27 years ago, had a kid, still continued working until like ten years later (since she eventually worked for that rich family), the org must've known about hidemi too and now that they know that ethan was a noc, seeing someone who looks too much like his kid would've pretty much decided hidemi's fate, and the hondous sending her to the us would be pretty sus because like... why

THAT'S how i came to the conclusion that maybe mrs hondou was trying to find a way out from the org, and in return would give ethan any information she'd got on the organization

(HOO BOY THAT DO BE SOUNDING A LITTLE BIT TOO FAMILIAR)

so. she had worked as a bo scientist, and escaped with ethan's help.

THINGS ARE GETTING DARKER HERE LADS HERE WE GO

so mrs hondou was basically a traitor right. I was rereading clash of red and black and not only does that arc raise more questions than answers, it also gave me some horrible ideas :D

so there at the mother's memento case, eisuke said that his mother died ten years ago. and it's not only his mother's death that happened ten years ago! :D

ethan also started infiltrating the org deeper on that very same year.

damn me to hell for thinking about this fucked up thing but yeah it's not entirely impossible that ethan killed his own wife.

LIKE the cia as we know it has been investigating the org for at least seventeen years at that time and there's probably been barely any progress on their investigation and they're getting desperate and ethan, knowing that the org was hunting his wife down to the end of the earth MIGHT just think of killing her to gain the organization's attention.

christ this is horrible i need to lay down for a sec

(oh also another parallel: both ethan and hidemi killed a family member and gained the org's attention, though the latter was done on purpose.)

but hey tsutomu and mrs hondou being siblings doesn't explain why hidemi and ethan and akai didn't seem to recognize each other when they're in the org??? i thought the same too until i remembered ethan and tsutomu and mary all worked for an intelligence agency and I assume they're not gonna tell their kids about their crime-fighting-behind-the-shadows(-sometimes-we-also-do-the-crimes) uncles and auntie

and about mrs hondou, she did work for the org but like i guess there's nothing too suspicious for tsutomu and mary? since it seems like only seventeen years ago from the current timeline that they're aware of the bo

maybe the reason why ethan and hidemi didn't recognize akai and vice versa was because. like. there really wasn't that much photo of his uncle and his cousin at his home (if there's even any), and though hidemi eventually knew about rye's real identity, i think I'm gonna go with ethan and mrs hondou telling her (and eisuke too probably) only tsutomu's alias, hence why she didn't recognize him as her cousin or anything because

even if akai's cover has been blown for two years and hidemi investigated it just to make sure, she'll only be provided with the name akai shuichi, and not the name her parents told her.

also like it's possible that they never really crossed paths in the org

though. I think akai might recognize ethan when he saw the picture eisuke took accidentally from one of the photographs back in his home or something, and remember that we still have no idea how akai knows for sure that ethan hondou was a cia agent.

I thought that since akai is assigned to investigate the org he might have an access to the files of investigation, the kouji case included, wait i haven't explained what my hc about this case is have i jfjdhfh the main thing is that the fbi+cia noted that there might be a sort of meeting between a haneda and someone from the org. so like i thought akai might found out about ethan from that file but when I think about it... it's not like they're gonna put their agent's name on paper BUT there is another solution! which is!!

akai asked mary about him!!!

it's something like hey mom found a pic of uncle ishikawa while investigating, care to explain what's going on? or something

oh and vermouth telling mary about dying of her sister's creation means that she actually knew about mrs hondou and the akais' familial ties (bc unlike ethan with his fake identities mrs hondou was just a scientist and tracing her family tree shouldn't be that hard), which means.

she probably also knows about mrs hondou's kids.

eisuke, most likely, since hidemi spent most of her time in the us (conan and heiji had difficulties trying to track down her history, whether it was about mizunashi rena or hondou hidemi) (also. like. she's a secret agent)

though vermouth must be familiar with the name hondou hidemi. the org is probably on the lookout for her since she's 27 now and hasn't been seen since ten years ago and so they assumed she also gets involved with the black org

but this is probably limited to vermouth's knowledge only? because if she knew about mrs hondou and her husband which turned out to be a spy, and eisuke is still alive even though he's rather easy to track, that means she hasn't told the org about this information

also if she's bothered to investigate, she'd find hidemi's pic and so that's how vermouth came to the conclusion that rena is a mole

the person taking care of eisuke being tsutomu would seriously be so funny because that means tsutomu wasn't ignoring eisuke's investigation. hes encouraging him

i mean like mary is doing exactly the same to sera. this is totally something an akai would do fjfjjdjfjf

oh and. hahah. the parallel between rena and keynes' quotes became more painful because speaking of sacrifices ethan didn't mention to her, he must haven't told her about the true nature of her mom's death.

man how cousins!shuuake denial has brought me here...........

#dcmk #detective conan #ethan hondou #gosho aoyama sir can i please get mrs hondou's name.......... is that too much to ask for......... #vermouth #akai tsutomu #mary sera #akai shuichi #hondou hidemi #hondou eisuke #black org #hondouke #akaike #:h #wrote a whole ass essay about the hondous and thd akais instead of getting my responsibilities done! :D #having this hc is like completely ignoring all the akai-miyano hints gosho's given for the past five years or whatever #there's the confirmation too but that's just an ugly mass hallucination