#and how ai could very easily surpass me in terms of consistency and quality

[catcactusoww]

today's studies! 2 from classes and 2 x 15 min warmups. (I couldn't get rid of the weird bubble on the portrait studies no matter what glaze settings I used. :/ if anyone has any tips pls let me know)

I haven't posted much in a long time because I was ashamed of having the ups and downs in quality from a lack of art education and experience, but there's nothing wrong with needing work on my fundamentals. I want to be more consistent about posting studies AND finished work. it's hard to work through in my head and heart, but it's ok to not be perfect. I am trying to work through that mindset rather than stagnate indefinitely. looking forward to having fun and having some learning experiences.

#I am in study mode #work is kicking my ass but it's good to learn and fail #hopefully I can post some original work soon #I have requests in a list #I will work through them #even though they are just requests I am so scared people will hate them that it was hard to work at all #I spent a lot of time crying while i worked and fell into a deep depression as I recognized my weaknesses #and how ai could very easily surpass me in terms of consistency and quality #but that's not a reason to quit and I am going to work through this #it scares me and i still cry and feel deeply depressed #but it's going to be ok #i have some original work wips that i want to show that really show off how much i have learned #but i am so afraid of ai that i will not share them until they are finished and glazed #i am not terribly happy with glaze as it still kind of messes up my pictures but it is worth it to do i thin #*think #i forgot to nightshade these but alas #my art