#and I think perhaps even the ability to hope/wish/manifest/pray/etc something into existence

[sanguinaryrot]

I’m so excited. I know how to have one (1) extremely specific interaction in Irish now. someone ask me how I’m doing and what the weather is like quick /j

#looking into tapping into things I have been curious about in the past #(this happens every once in a while) #again. my family is Irish so I decided the learn the language #but I’m also exploring spirituality #I don’t think I believe in any of the major religions (though I’ve been standing from afar gazing at Judaism #I am extremely fond of a lot of their ideas and culture. beautiful stuff #and frankly I feel like I’ve been getting signs that I should convert for years now #but I’m not in a place where I feel like I can commit to it so I am just admiring from afar #while I foster what I think ‘god’ is #there’s this concept that some people have that like #god is not a dude who has a beard and lives in the clouds #but rather is the feeling you get when you connect with another person #the sense of wonder you feel when you see something beautiful #and I think perhaps even the ability to hope/wish/manifest/pray/etc something into existence #my mom calls this ‘energy’ but I do not vibe with this term #idk how to explain it other than like #when you’re watching a movie and you see those lines they draw to represent wind and it’s blowing around leaves #or snow #and it’s meant to represent this idea that there is Something affecting the word but it is not corporeal and incredibly vague #that’s what I believe in #it is unknowable but it can be influenced with good intentions #and it permeates your body when you connect to another human in a meaningful way #that’s what it’s like for me. doesn’t have to be for you! but that’s what I’m working with right now #there’s this prayer that saint augustine wrote that I edited lightly to more suit my needs #and I try to say it once a day #I believe it is called Watch O Lord #I edited some of the words to more suit how I view the world but I really like the intention #anyways #Tá sé fuad ach tá sé tirim. It is cold but it is dry. thank you New York!!!!!!