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holyhalliwells · 3 years

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imo, the show was often unilaterally focused on Piper, but only on what she could do for others (Piper the wife and Piper the mother) rather than who she was as a person. Piper's individual characterization was lost sometime around s5 as soon as she got pregnant, and being a mother and wife pretty much became her sole defining characteristic for the rest of the series. I would be very interested to hear what you define as Piper's mental issues/trauma, bc as you say it doesn't get said enough

this has been in my inbox forever and i’m just getting around to it so my apologies.

but okay. so. yes. i think a lot of tv shows fall into this weird place where like. all of their characters begin with these kinda vague personalities because you’re just getting to know them. and as the show goes on, you pick up more pieces and stuff . and that’s great. that’s interesting and entertaining and it takes you on a journey and all. but often what happens is many shows fall into this pit where writers either get lazy, they change, or whatever, and the actors are tired of playing the part or whatever . and like. the characters become like. caricatures of themselves. and it just gets exhausting to watch because they’re not like. real people anymore.

Piper's individual characterization

so now for the charmed thing. so from the beginning. i have loved piper. like she’s the middle sister, overlooked, quiet, reserved, pessimistic but also realistic, gentle, thoughtful, all that. we see right away that she loves to cook .. she’s so happy her family is back together. she kept in touch with phoebe behind prue’s back. but she’s loyal to the both of them. her first idea was to have a reunion dinner when phoebe came home. she’s literally so cute n she deserves a hug. but no like. as we go on, we see that she wants to be good, she wants a stable life with no more loss, she Loves Love !! like. she wants to just be happy , open her own restaurant n just cook. she’s also so shy .. definitely panicky and anxious. and she doesn’t trust herself. she’s skeptical of everything, and she’s very thoughtful when it comes to big situations. even in the early days with leo and into season 2, she mentioned a few things about like “i’ve been thinking a lot about this...” and you can see she’s good at communicating with people. she’s also got these other dimensions to her like . she is interested in lots of cuisine types, she loves to read (and is a camus fan !!) , she drives a jeep (which i wanna know how she got bc i have questions), when she found out she was a witch her first thought was just . i need to go and see if i am still a good person . and she went to church. prue was surprised to learn that piper enjoys knitting. in the early seasons (especially mid-late season 3) we saw her with her plants and all. she’s just this natural peacekeeper. but like. we literally got a crying scene in the second episode because she was so conflicted about this. and she’s such a deep and complex character that i fell in love with so fast . and like . literally my favourite fictional character to exist . genuinely holly breathed so much life into piper . anyway . so. here’s the thing.

being a mother and wife pretty much became her sole defining characteristic for the rest of the series

like. piper was who i described above. and like . i kinda think . a bit. that like . the writers . especially in s4 . were like . hmm well . she’s just lost prue, she’s gonna be grieving . and like we need more for her. so. she’s been married to leo for the better part of a year, been with him for like . 3 years. so. let’s maybe consider giving them a kid but not just yet . just Content kinda stuff. so anyway they drop little hints in here and there starting in like . 4x07 i think? which . brain drain really paid the rent . fully just. holly did so well. but like. that ep was just. a neat way of looking into her mind and seeing the horrors of manipulation and gaslighting and everything . and of course holly knocked it out of the park. but at that point, they were kinda like . hmm . kids ? and they started toying with the idea, having piper and leo consider it, talk about it, they had paige and phoebe ask about it , all of that good stuff. as you do. made for some funny tv at some points. and like . i really, really Get It . when piper’s like . ahh the baby wouldn’t be safe around here !!!! like. Girl, Valid . your sister just died and like . you went on forever about how she was The Most Powerful One . The Strongest One . and yet she still died . so she’s like ??? am i next ?? and like obv it doesn’t make sense for her to jump on this train of like . i’m gonna have a kid !!!! so she’s really valid in her thought process there. and like. after having wyatt . i think the writers really . idk. couldn’t do waaay too much with her character anymore because i feel like . to an extent, anything she does will be scrutinized bc i’m not just . saying this . i rlly feel like sometimes piper’s the easiest to hate. like idk why but i loved her. but anyway. if she stays at home with wyatt and doesn’t wanna fight demons n all . then she’s selfish towards her sisters n she’s awful n prue wouldn’t have let her do that !!!! etc . but if she fought demons it’s like . uh sweetie you have a child . really ??? why put yourself in a situation that might have you ending up like patty 2.0 ... bc i could do a Whole post on how patty’s situation messed piper up the most. but anyway.

it’s the way i’m fully rambling so if you’re reading this . i love you . anyway okay . so . i think in a tv show you’ve gotta kinda check boxes. the best tv shows have characters you see yourself in . you relate to them. you hear them and understand their decisions and actions and thoughts. the things they do just makes sense 2 you. so like. with prue, anyone married to their job could relate to her. any oldest sibling could see themselves in her, you know ? she was hard-working, committed, logical, protective. and with phoebe, anyone who couldn’t “settle down” in their early 20s related 2 her, anyone who felt like the outcast of the family, the “screw-up” .. right. makes sense. she was so kind, caring, had-your-back kinda girl. we all love those. paige was like . the new kid, trying to fit in, creative, curious, and definitely a lifelong learner. and then there’s piper who was shy, resistant, really just wanted to be normal. and loved. and i think everyone could kinda identify with at least one of the sisters regardless of where you stood in your own family. so as the show went on, it’s like . they still want you to keep watching and keep being able to identify with them because it’s not like they’re humans with normal lives so they’ve already kinda lowkey got that going against them . so their more “human” and normal lives... we’ve gotta be able to identify with them to be able to invest time. so they had prue always working, having trouble balancing love and work, looking out for her family. we had phoebe kinda living her life, getting her career going, then kinda wanting a family. we had paige learning magic and being super interested and involved and then getting married. and we had piper who had her career pretty early on, got married, and had kids. like. i think the big thing is the marriage and kids. and when you’re a mother . the only mother really in the show, the show lowkey centres around you . like. for starters, the show usually is in the manor, and if you’re a mother, you’re very likely at home, esp with young kids. so i think that alone kinda was like . huh yeah . won’t see piper out waaay too much anymore i guess !!! but no like . there’s That. that’s kinda. the thing that really can’t change with the show . like. piper’s got kids now and a husband and very, very likely . her life will be centred around her home. which. listen she’s wanted that i think - the stability . she’s wanted that forever. and this is the form it came in. but i should stop rambling here and cut to the point .

Piper's mental issues/trauma

disclaimer: i’m not diagnosing her, i’m just speculating based off of my own experiences with mental health

so. okay. very early on. we saw that anxiety. like. yes . she was nervous about like a whole new life experience . or whatever we’re gonna call it when you figure out you’re a witch . but like she was Anxious . like. crying in the attic over being a bad person . needing phoebe to talk her down by telling her she’s such a caring person, she’s always doing things for other people . and then there’s the whole anxiety that comes with. my family’s falling apart because my sisters are fighting so i use really awkward methods of getting out of things . like using humour as a coping mechanism !!! which. gave us some iconic one-liners. but that’s beside the point . anyway. point is. early on, that anxiety was there. there’s an ep in season 1 where she’s literally entering a panic attack in her kitchen and phoebe’s using a menu to cool her down. like. Yikes! and then she’s just. her awkward self around everyone but that’s endearing and is just part of her personality . and i think a lot of the anxiety stemmed from childhood. we heard a few times about how prue and phoebe had boyfriends growing up, were always pretty and popular and all. phoebe was popular, too, just, in the other crowd. but nonetheless, piper faded into the background, doing well in math - well enough to go off and be a banker . and like. she sacrificed a lot for grams. she stayed in san francisco ... we all know the girl had the marks for stanford or something . like. though . still, i think she liked the stability of home and prob would’ve stayed . but in 3x17 she’s all !!! grams !!! the doctor said no caffeine !!! and when grams was taking the pic of them outside and she had an episode , piper was all !!!! shallow breaths !!! like. it was clear piper was the one taking her to the appointments and footing the bill. like. she literally became a banker just bc it had benefits n stuff. like. poor girl really thought . anyway that’s a whole spiral. but no. like she really sacrificed The Most for her family and everyone still thought she was selfish for wanting to move out . when like back then grams was literally ... sick ... and prue was out here moving out and phoebe was nowhere to be found . so. that . definitely would have added to her anxiety about even wanting to do anything for herself because she’ll be perceived as selfish in a heartbeat. even if it’s not Mean . it’s just. she’d never risk it. but there’s the anxiety. there are a few lil things here n there about how she gets nervous n stuff, she represses things (3x07 i think was where phoebe said piper represses her anger n just sucks it up n does whatever) . she literally cancelled her doctor’s appointment Twice . anyway. it still angers me. then in season 7 . patty and victor were like . oh she had night terrors that were so bad we took her to the doctor ! and i just ... honey . baby. she thought she caused the divorce. at 4? 5? she watched victor leave on her 5th birthday, watched a demon attack her, grams, and victor. prue said she didn’t cry at patty’s funeral and i’ll make a safe bet that piper did. and i think growing up without patty was strange for sure. prue had more memories and phoebe had none. and piper had fragments of this person everyone loved . and she was stuck between knowing her and not knowing her. and when patty was sent to her for her wedding day, (as well as in 1x17) . both times when patty hugged them . prue and phoebe hugged her, eyes closed n all. while piper was on the outside, eyes open . looking numb as all hell . and you know. i rlly think she was Giving Them That because phoebe didn’t get her and prue kinda . in a way. lost more of her . if that makes sense ?? and i just. patty really was like . they sent me to You. and 5 seconds later . piper’s like . they sent mom to Us !!! and it’s that idea of sacrifice and never having anything for yourself because she was never just . given anything for herself . everything in her life has been a sacrifice and as a mother, that’s perpetuated. she can assume that role with more of a purpose . like. people won’t really feel sorry for her now as the “forgotten” sister, they won’t try and coddle her or anything. and another thing. control. piper craved stability and control. i think while cooking was something she loved, it also gave her a lot of control . she could control her whole kitchen . even in season 8 .. maybe vaya con leos actually . leo mentioned how much piper craves control. and the control motif makes sense with her powers too. like. piper craved control so much that her powers allowed her to control things down to the atom. so there’s the whole anxiety and needing to control things to ease her anxiety and all. there’s That whole thing.

and then we get to the infamous season 5 fearless spell . ms girl really sat in the attic just writing everything on the wall and it’s the way i screenshotted it and like . zoomed in and tried deciphering it . and like . there’s words like “stop” and i think “sister” is in there a few times, so is “loss” or “lost”. when i watch it next i’ll grab a cap because it’s . disturbing. girl was so scared . literally was writing a spell to get rid of her fears . she also writes Fear . as in. capital F . and like. yeah that’s deep but i do it too like i emphasize words with a capital letter . and like holly marie combs might just have quirky n fun writing but like ... capital F . for Fear. for real . that’s . trauma !!! and she also was having panic attacks at the beginning of season 5. let’s not forget those. which ... we should’ve gotten more of an explanation for . i hope that girl is getting help bc she was Going Through It . and in season 7 when zankou reads her diary . firstly. we Knew this girl kept a diary like . for Sure . she did. and just that little excerpt of when prue died . oops. i’d pay big money to see the rest because again i just think she’s got such a complex mind and like. i’d be so interested to read that. and i think everything re: prue is just Awful for her. like . idk if this is just something quirky i noticed but obv we know prue died in may 2001 . but at the end of 4x03, when piper goes 2 paige’s work 2 bring her muffins !! soft !!! the calendar on one of the desks reads july 2001 ... and i really just. ms girl. i Know they prob just filmed the ep in july but it honestly tracks that she’d be so awfully upset about everything and just . barely able to do anything but cook . for 2 months. like. honey. baby. i wanted 2 just cuddle her bc she was so sad. and like. she tells paige she’s having “good hours” and “not so good hours” . she’s going by the Hour . by the Hour . just. need i say more . i’m so . but no like. if anything like i could see her having like . depression where she’s high-functioning and like just . walking depression i guess ?? like . not even after prue. i think in general. like . she definitely has a melancholic temperament and a type 6 enneagram (the skeptic). that’s For Sure . but i think. just. she’s always just had time to think bc she’s always alone, reading, knitting, cooking, tending to her plants, all that. and i just . think. she has issues. and i think prue knew that. of all people. and i think her knowing that . and then dying. destroyed piper. she lost the last person that was truly a constant in her life . like they shared a roof over their heads forever. and then she was just . gone . and piper was suddenly left to pick up the pieces . and become the oldest sister . and i’m So glad she didn’t fully assume her personality. i’m glad she stayed as piper . just. she’s more cynical and snarky and defensive and cold and that’s okay. she’s hurting. she’s always gonna hurt . and i think it makes her human . she’s pessimistic and sad and has a short fuse at times . but just. again. i love her to bits and i think those issues make her more relatable for me. because while many like to say she became selfish and a negative person and just . awful to be around . i’d say the opposite . i won’t sit and apologize or justify things. also i don’t think piper’s done anything wrong . i just think she’s hurt. she’s been wronged so many times. and she’s .... scared. i think she’s scared . and in season 5 “sympathy for the demon” we learn her true biggest fear is her happiness being stolen away. and like . it’s not that she’s scared she won’t be happy. she’s scared all of the good she’s got will be taken from her . and that’s . terrifying . so . i see why she’s so snarky and bitter and tired and all . she’s terrified of things being taken from her like they have been her whole life. and as i watch the show i really like to just keep that in mind as i get further and further in because yes. she did become a mother and a wife and we saw her arguing with leo a lot and their marriage falling apart and That Whole Era . we saw how it kind of took over her life but i think it happens . i think she even said at one point . i’ve been so many things to so many people, i don’t know who i am anymore . and i think it sums her up perfectly. she doesn’t know who she is because she’s someone to everyone . she’s just. nobody to herself except this scared little girl who just wants Something . Anything . to make sense . some Stability . and her babies, her husband, and her sisters . are all she has for that idea of stability to make sense in her mind. and it was an easy hole to fall into - the Mother - but i think she jumped in. because at the Very Least . nobody could take that title away from her . regardless of how hard they tried .

#i really cannot believe i did an entire ted talk #like did anyone actually read this #if you did . wow #piper halliwell deserved better #tw: mental health #tw: depression #tw: anxiety #tw: panic attack #but no listen #she deserved so much better #holly paid rent #ask me #charmed #ramble #💌

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marveloussupernerd · 4 years

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Ice Cream - Vanderwood

Uhm so... this idea started w this being abo seven. Then about Unknown. And then about Vandy. Just to clarify, I know lots of different pronouns are thrown around for Vanderwood, but I’m playing the safe route and going by he/him because that’s what the creators said 😀 no judgement if you hc otherwise though! Sorry this is probably gonna be OOC bc I have not played another story so my interactions w him have been slim to none

Summary: You were just kind of... depressed today. With the hacker at large, Seven and Mary Vanderwood III have been tasked with watching you through security cameras. Kinda rough when you won’t leave your room and there aren’t cameras in there. Vanderwood tries to cheer you up

PSA: this lowkey deals w mental health but not explicitly ? Inspired by me bc I get depressed~ esp when I am PMSing (which I am doing now) and genuinely can’t get out of bed and do things (ppl are iffy on mental health so just to say I have been diagnosed and was given birth control to help... which honestly has helped a lil). So I thought this would maybe help me and hopefully some of you, Jesus Christ I’ve prob lost so many of you w all these announcements

You just... couldn’t get out of bed. You had been stuck inside for a few days now, watched over by Seven and Mary Vanderwood III via security cams. But not getting to go outside and have human interaction kinda sucked. And then all your work was stressful too. You just didn’t want to move. And so you didn’t.

You got dressed though. That was a good start. Granted it was in something that could also be considered pajamas, but it felt nice to change your clothes. Felt productive. You went back into bed.

How long had you spent in bed, scrolling mindlessly through social media and watching stupid YouTube videos? You looked at the time; it was 1 pm. You were lucky you had today off, but had hoped to be more productive today. Oh well.

Your video was interrupted. A call from Seven. It was probably important.

“Hey Seven!” You picked up, bringing your voice to its typical cheery state. “What’s up?”

“Are you okay?” The voice on the other line asked. You jumped; it was deep, much deeper than Seven’s, and very serious.

“Are you using a voice modifier?” You giggled. It felt nice to talk to someone.

“Huh? Oh, no. This isn’t Seven.”

You paused for a minute, raising an eyebrow. Your voice caught in the back of your throat. “Are you... the hacker?”

“No!” The voice sounded urgent.

“Tom? Seven’s childhood friend?”

“I’m not fully convinced he exists.” The voice replied, an edge to the voice making it sound like a joke.

“Honestly? Me neither.” You paused, trying to think of who it could be. “I fold. Who are you? And how’d you get Seven’s phone!?”

“Giving up that easily?” The voice was teasing you now. “I thought you’d do more than two guesses.” You huffed out a sigh, making sure your annoyance was heard. “Come on, who would have access to Seven’s phone?”

That literally made no sense though. “...Mary Vanderwood the III?”

“Is he calling me that to you too now?” The voice asked, clearly annoyed. “My name is not Mary Vanderwood the III, and I’m not Seven’s maid. I just go by Vanderwood.”

“Hi Vanderwood,” you greeted. “You’re... a dude?”

“Yes.” He sounded annoyed still. “I don’t know why he’s said all this stuff.”

You giggled. “Well, back to the beginning of the conversation. Why’d you ask if I was okay? Is anything suspicious happening?”

“You just... you haven’t left your bedroom yet.”

“Oh” was all you could say.

“Oh? Are you okay?”

“Yeah of course!” You figured you might as well explain yourself. “It’s just, uhm, I haven’t really wanted to get out of bed and be productive. Sort of a mental block.”

“Oh,” his voice was much more understanding now. “That sucks.”

“Yeah... I think it’s because I haven’t interacted with people in a while. Just kinda holed up in the apartment. Hard to stay motivated.” Why were you telling him all this? He just wanted to know if you were okay. He wasn’t your therapist. “Oops! Uhm, sorry. Didn’t mean to unload that all.”

“You’re okay. I’m... sorry to hear that.”

“I’ve dealt with it before so like... it’s fine. It’ll pass. There are way more pressing matters right now,” you brushed it off, shrugging even though you knew he couldn’t see you.

“Do you-“ he coughed. “Do you like ice cream?”

“Yes?” What a change of topic. “Who doesn’t?”

“Well, if you want something to do, do you wanna get ice cream? If you’re feeling up for it.” He sounded almost awkward. It was kind of sweet.

But still, more pressing issues at hand. “I don’t know if I should with the hacker and everything. Everyone has security but me and so I-“

“I work with Seven. I think I can protect you.”

“Think?” You teased.

“You know that’s not how I meant it. I know I could protect you if need be. If you don’t want to though that’s okay.”

“No!” You shouted. You covered your mouth immediately, embarrassed from your outburst. “No. I think that’d be really nice.”

“I can pick you up outside the apartment in like ten minutes? You don’t have to worry about getting dressed up nice or anything...”

This was all so sudden. “Oh, I guess you do know the address, huh.” You were more saying it to yourself than him. “Wait! What do you look like? So that I don’t get picked up by the hacker or anything.”

“Uh...” he seemed so confident, but very uncomfortable describing himself. “I’ve got brown hair. Kinda long? It goes down to my shoulders. You know what? The lining of my jacket is leopard print. That should help.”

You were silent. Leopard print?

“Don’t make fun of it.” You could hear the scowl in his voice. “Ten minutes. See you then.” He hung up before you could say goodbye.

He did say not to look nice. Which made sense, in retrospect, because he had seen you for the past few days lounging at home. There was no need to try to impress; he already knew how you looked on the norm.

So you grabbed a jacket, your phone, and your wallet (with pepper spray attached to it for good measure), and headed out.

You kind of felt like a hooker, standing out at the curb waiting for a car to drive up and get you. But, you pushed those thoughts out of your mind. You were getting real human interaction today thanks to Vanderwood.

He pulled up in a very standard car, definitely not one of Seven’s babes. He rolled down the window and called your name.

“Wait! Show me the lining of your jacket!” You requested. It felt ridiculous but it was important. You laughed nonetheless, as did he. He pulled the jacket up, showing the intricate pattern. You grinned and got in the car.

“Hi. Nice to meet you in person,” you started, looking over at him. He kept the window down as he drove, the sound from the car loud and the wind blowing through his hair.

“You too,” he shouted, trying to talk over the wind. “Nice day out, huh?”

You leaned your head slightly out the window, the cool breeze a nice offset to the warmth of the sun beating down on you. “Mhm,” you hummed.

Luckily the ice cream shop was only a few minutes away. Good thing too; you weren’t sure what to talk about. You benefited from the fact that most of your words were carried away with the wind; the conversation starters had sucked anyway. You just focused on his surprisingly good driving and the feeling of the sun.

He got out of the car and you quickly followed. He didn’t wait for you, just kept walking to the order window. You scrambled to catch up. “So what’s your favorite?” He asked, sensing you by his side without even having to look.

“Oh, uhm, I’ll have cookie dough. Always a solid choice. How about you?”

He turned to you, a smile on his face that contrasted frankly with the harsh lines of his features. “Dark chocolate raspberry.”

“I can’t tell if I’m surprised or if I expected that.” You let out a little ‘hm’ and shrugged your shoulders. He went up and ordered for the both of you.

“Oh, uh,” you reached into your wallet, but he brushed you off.

“Relax. I can pay for a $3 ice cream cone.”

Your eyes widened. You hadn’t realized that may insult him. “Oh! Uh, that’s not what I meant to insinuate. I’m sorry.”

He glanced over with that smile of his, brown eyes lighting up. Why did it make your heart flutter? You had literally just met the guy. You were such a goddamn simp.

He grabbed the ice creams and handed you yours, his gloved fingers brushing against your bare ones. It wasn’t even skin-to-skin contact! Why did you feel this way from something so small? You wanted to die right then and there. He suggested you eat in the car to maintain a low profile and you nodded, not trusting your own voice.

Were you supposed to talk? Or eat your ice cream? Or both? Your mind chose for you, as words stumbled out of your lips before you could even stop them. “So is Vanderwood your real name?” Idiot. Of course it isn’t!

“God no.” He sounded hard about it. It was hard to take him seriously while he was licking an ice cream cone like that. You tried to hide your laughter. “No, don’t laugh.” His voice wasn’t hard this time. He was almost begging you to go easy on him.

“No I’m sorry! I wasn’t laughing at your name. It’s just... it’s kind of funny when you sound all mad and annoyed but you look so cute eating your ice cream.” No!!!!! Did you just call him cute? This was going AWFUL. You should have stayed home.

“Well, you can make fun of my name. I obviously didn’t pick it. It’s stupid.” Maybe he hadn’t heard the last part of what you said, considering he didn’t bring it up? But why was he blushing?

“It’s not that bad. You could be named Mary Vanderwood the III,” you teased. He rolled his eyes. “Can I give you a nickname? Maybe make it less insufferable?”

“What, you think we’re going to be talking all the time now?” He had a point. Why did you... do any of this? It was so embarrassing. You stared at your ice cream, praying you didn’t blush or shake your leg or do anything to show how much you felt like an idiot. He nudged you, causing you to glance up at him, and he smiled. “I’d love a nickname.”

“Wood.”

“Ha ha,” he laughed sarcastically.

“V! Oh wait... we can’t do that.” Poor V. You had almost regifted his name. “Vandy!”

“Vandy?” He questioned, trying out the name. “I’m not seeing it.”

“I am. Vandy. That’s the one”

“It’s too...cute.” His cheeks flushed red again. He pushed some of his hair out of his eyes. “I’m not letting you call me that.”

“You don’t get to pick your own nickname,” you stuck your tongue out at him. “I think it’s very fitting. It’s cute, you’re cute...” why were you doing this to yourself? You must have hated yourself.

“You’ve said that twice now. That I’m cute,” he mentioned causally, biting down on his cone, the rest of the ice cream gone.

“Oh! I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it as an insult.”

“Oh, it’s fine. It’s probably just my toxic masculinity.” It sounded like a joke but he also sounded serious? There were so many mysteries surrounding him.

“Well, if it helps. I think you’re quite handsome too. But that’s a lot of syllables to get my point across.” You were a bit more confident this time. If he was genuinely worried about his image, why wouldn’t you help reassure him.

“Uh, thanks.” He pushed back his hair, pausing midway. “I’m sorry, I’m really bad with gratitude. I genuinely appreciate it, especially coming from you.”

“Well it’s not like I’m lying,” you shrugged. You had finished your ice cream. “Uhm... maybe we should get back. Who knows what Seven’s been up to since you’ve been gone.”

“Oh, yes. Of course.”

The drive back was just as silent as the drive there, the both of you enjoying the sun and the wind again. He turned on the radio this time. It played 80s hits.

He parked in front of the building. “I hope that helped you feel a little better. I mean, I had fun,” he explained. You could tell he was forcing the words out, forcing himself to express some emotion.

“It helped a lot. For real. Thank you Vandy.” You touched his arm gently.

“Can I have your number?” He asked, a small smirk forming at the corner of his lips. “So that I don’t have to call you through Seven’s phone again,” he justified.

You smiled, nodding, wordlessly taking the phone from his hands and putting your number in. Why were your hands shaking? Was he genuinely interested in you? Or was he just a nice guy?

You handed the phone back. “Thank you again.” You smiled, opening the car door.

“Wait!” He exclaimed. You turned back towards him, leaving the car door open. “Can I... kiss you?”

You shut the car door again, nodding eagerly. He pressed himself against the center console to reach you, using one hand to balance himself and the other to brush the hair out of your eyes, cupping your cheek as he closed the distance between the two of you. Your eyes fluttered shut, focused on just how warm and soft his lips were. It was... really pleasant. He didn’t maintain the kiss for long, although you seemed to have lost your concept of time.

He pulled away, hand still on your cheek, smiling that smile again. “Thank you. I hope I made your day a little better. You certainly improved mine.”

Your fingers grazed his own, intertwining with his for a moment as you opened the car door with the other hand. “You did. I’ll look forward to seeing you again maybe?”

“For sure,” he was more flustered now. “Ah, I should probably make sure Seven hasn’t burned down the house. Have a good night.” He regained his composure, winking at you as you exited the car, and driving off, wind still blowing in his hair.

Vandy stans don’t drag me maybe he was OOC but also I wanna think he’s a little less confident in a romantic situation ? Idk. I hope you all liked it tho tyy

#mystic messenger #mysme #Vanderwood

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Yes am back, they were selling for export exorbitantly but local i was exchanged for artificial yellow. Yes am back folks. Sudan Electronic are good dude, the USA tolerated Albashir and was rude 4 this reason. It makes you feel good and love respect and makes you slim as well even 4 Ethiopia makes you desist from arguments but channels you to lonely mature women. Why should we buy from white and what help are they to us. Aborigines are Choni and Gabana, the kenyan tribes in mass their lands natural resources were discovered like oil and many had learnt to make machine while other did not so they rushed to intermarry and thats how these other tribes got those blood b4 being shipped to earth and reshuffled again by pochogis. Tea you should heat all well with milk if you just soak it into a cup of milk you risk developing cancer of throat and lips and never you are alerted. When you buy of African made goods like sandles from UG or Kenya you get fed up of white and life, you feel like you wanna die or hang yourself. I mean you leave the things of this life which is to the positive and better dude, you became a man of few words. Container houses brings mauti/death thoughts close to you like soon you will die or loose a close friend soon. I have come to dislike them dude. Folk lifts fl, and put offering in the middle to hurl, sprinkle like sperm, urine, mafi from above to make machines. Jesus with little kid or Malachi four to cement the truth, like Christ was crucified in the middle with 2 thieves, one on both sides from lofty high bro to give us hint how he was talking of machines being made and how partially they are made. Nyako nyime en-shaggy kaka ojanyo wiye no owadwa, nene kaka joseph penjo, wiye ojany ka-nyieme, anadware- oloso kagima oywak, talking kinda as if he is crying in bass like a little kid someone taking his food yet he is still hungry. Abromiyi rat and rat manew, okblonegi but blothulo wiyi no, pat wiyi no. Odwachieme e-od-G mokfine Dong onethough gi-susan. Even and Adam were warn not to eat from the trees in the middle of the Garden as this will give them typhoid which was hard to treat and they did that and was diagnosed very quickly and that why even was saying in a crying voice we are naked out of stomach pain/upset period folks.

If you buy senye/pussy/vagina to sweet of another someone you find yourself in hell furnace, burning squatting. Vineyard and worker to cement the truth as much as manhood if you know about it. Titi that kinda is giving you a blow, long paw paw like or cylindrical is used to make grenade launcher, plane, gas cylinder and missile as well so this the advantage of hindu. This kind of breast they look at you and return the information back on their nipple, take heed dude. Colorado state, france and Germoney got one cash crop which is a hot cake, it grows big irish potatoe which is used as french fries alover Europe and America and use to make best cars alongside kales as sukuma wiki sw-ag, swara and thats why the bible also says in genesis 49 that Joseph chose the best land. Nyasaye oknyalweyi kamano, God cant just 4sake his own people, malachi 4 google. Kales and waru machines makes you at ease and the best dude. Kikuyu were gotten from Zambia transfered/relocated to kenya after Lake Victoria basin dried up when the pochogis dug the new outlet at Ginja, initially it reached Nairobi with it source and drained at Somalia. The luo, luya and Nilots, kamba were gotten from South Africa at Kalahari and namib desert and relocated to kenya. Lost coin parable and transfiguration of christ to cement the truth. Pielo e-agulu many people in a circle with offering in the middle as paw paw Brest, penguin makes a rocket or missile/plane as another method. Brest that wants to block you- mfalme wa yahoodi. If luo and luya would have been left is s.a they could attributed their character to lack of food like kamba, so with fertile land in poverty they talk well but when lifted financially changes and want to be first. The natives of South Africa were gotten from Australia not as earlier thought. Missouri state people are rwandis many folks. When tea is fenced at night the can cut the power off and still loot so let it have two electric fence and in between landmines placed to detonate any heavy foreign particles like a toddler in-case he transfigures to.

Kaka alielo, vile nimenyowa nyele ndivyo nimenyowa chini, but wacha manene chini nimechwido sana. An anjela aponone france to-ouso yourope as well, majani chai usiku. Oregon, colorado people many are Gikuyou blooded, carli4nia are uraguay, embu, kalenjin blooded, aborigins were not from Australia but EGYPT, It was changed and it been long we can never know, only its written and the Arabs should get out of there, you saw the vita as the release of the horse. Michigan people are from Uganda esp the Baganda and madi people. Anakawiya kwa cho kwa anatakakutowa apendix, the useless one in man but in ruminants very helpfull. From lofty high, you hurl/sprinkle snow unto the appendix then boom the rocket at night maybe from tall poles or cranes, many people- mfalme wa yahoodi to cement the dawning truth. We modho pi-eagulu-no mana mama Emanuel gi chiegi no diewo-e rather mama alando period utters marto. Get money via 2goinvoice and print the bank statement get to any nation embasy and get to that country as a tourist, stop disturbing people and claims. Tore your travel documents so as not to be got and live in that country out of guarantee of the invoice money. Jesus with division to cement the truth. We were kidnaped with bob colymore in India via a drone off nairobi to India that Iran fell, i guess but me lucky feehilly cooperated alongside kebi and was released. He was kidnapped a longtime, the fellow who was talking with Jeff koinange was an impostor as will smith after transfiguring. To ascertain the truth let us resort to fingerprint b4 a debate period. Georgy tinde erudho laki, you mean nowdays you even brush ya teeth, the luyas offloading 4 hindu, friends swag and pride has gotten in, yaani maringo imekushia, yaani i mean sunga odonjo. To kitambo/chon kinda it was methene gas to others, you couldnt near!!! Emanuel was heard saying sasa tunaweza karibia, yaani we can sit even with dignitaries like teresa may and be accepted. Nenene foss kaka ringo kagima yamo tero, koyoutdho tiende konchiel karangol, eti amenda kubuy credit Minaj nika amemuaccept so wali kuwa wana chart. Fuck that dude!!!

In TUSKYSupermarket to make sure urine pour on the offering they extend it using pipes 4 the urine to fall in the middle. Supermarkets should be made of thick hard glass so that nothing hidden goes inside. We cant afford/go no trusting the foods, Let a chain store be a chain store not a factory. Open one and thats why in developed world they work 24/7. If a child knows much than in his age in the old Red Indian heritage, he was grabbed at night without his knowing and hurled in the lake superior, the same should happen now. It was done to sway tomorrow evil in the society. I now put my post on football matches as Jamaica vs Domingo or in any country Tv news like Bahama, japan, Congo Tv news check friends of any nation and check them in the 1st - 3rd post on the you-tube and promise there you will find me. Rental houses should be built for visitors not necessarily hotels where if you want to travel to any land you book online and let them be well equipped with modern furniture and TV's and let the occupation period be 1-3 months not more and this a new business idea and looking forward to not getting a job alongside buying and selling of speedy stick deodorant door to door in overseas market b4 opening an immobile office. The deodorant is bought at $ 3 and me wanna sell it at $ 10 out of shipping fee. This a new business platform i wanna venture into not sleeping around with harlots like Barryme and kepi swears Toni Aloyce. Modems broadband and limosin cars are made out of kilimi/lim, one make one car of different animals i.e hammer one is of cow, Lincoln car one is for wild beast and more. Gi-sin omera bro the walami. Lands with lakes which where dried like KS or Russia are wheat supporting and many people love them coz they are undulating, they give you instant curse and makes you go to hell. Your reproach in judgement time can be population outburst and inconsistent food made you to dry it then you escape fire but without that fire dude. You enjoyed good things bro like onding kenya, the holly ground Moses the green man saw the burning bush- women with release/ejaculate Barnabas as he was masturbating on the cross. The place gives you instant back pain necessary for rapid sex, it arouses you in a nutshell. The same they want to do 4 lake Victoria and great lakes basin they taste for humidity, temperatures, soil while on ship necessary 4 wheat farming and kinda they have found out. Big cities of the world are always built on cool/cold land of that nation to support business in clothing, much cloths sell in cold lands as opposed to hot ones like doa. Thats why the white people relocated capital from dar to dodoma and mombasa to Nairobi to support their used/mitumba clothes and thats why in pretense they say Nairobi or kigali is beautiful coz it feeds them somehow and any city of the same caliber.

This the most reliable AE way to produce power and the most convinient/effective/effectual and surable way to produce your own power. Take one wet cell of 24 volts the put the negative and the positive cathod/terminals on a wire then on a socket then plug the welding machineWM on the socket like you do to it on the wall as input then on the output on the 2 wires that holds the welding rod, cut them and do likewise with the socket, it will give you approximately 48-52 volts when the battery is fully charged, then take a motor bike star and again return the power to charge the same same battery the welding machine is using to ensure the power is not depleted or take a computer/florescent/TV adaptor used in the usa of 120 volts which its output is 24 volts, when you use half current which is 50 V given by the WM It will give you 12-15 volts then put in a solar energy controller to again charge the same battery incase you are using 12 V battery to give you 24 V on The WM but with 24 V wet cell look for A transformer that gives you 50 V as output when used on 200 Volts which if you use half current gives you 20-25 volts to charge the very very battery. While is the USA you can add another welding machine wm(2)to step up the 50 V given to 100 to power your machine but in a nation that uses 220 volts like Tanzania, Uganda, Kenya add another welding machine to WM (3) step up the power from 100 - 200 V to be used in your household. Th beauty is you can use it in welding, cooking, heating, in fridge with just one battery. OR Guys use 4-5 motor bike batter to give you 60 Volts after connection but let them be in 2 sets, put light switch in-between the positive and negative terminal after connecting to switch off power supply inbetween the wet cell when you are charging one set while the other is in use. Put the wet cell together in a wooden frame explains eddy roy of KB and studying in Rusia with her associates. The 5o V when you step up by adding 1 wm will be 100 to be used in nations like USA but like in Nigeria or E.Africah add another WM to step it to 200 V to power you household or business premis. Below are links carying diagrams of all the accesories above. You plug an electric plug in a socket n/b. With an invator option it eliminates you not to heat and cook with it as the invator burns, how many times have you hard that cheap is expensive. The white people got another software at withdraw funds at 2goinvoice and telling theit diehard fans around. Corruption of the hieghest degree. Wilson Williams advices me.

What is a url or a link folks, click the link below or google to find out stop disturbance.

https://www.techopedia.com/definition/1352/uniform-resource-locator-url

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RIMymzNrRhc https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9obm__-OGdI

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If you are involed in illegat tea picking at night you will find your way into hell furnace, some people are put into furnace some period of time depending on the nature of sin then returned back/released. If you pick tea illegal side effect is, you develop hug/broad/big shoulder and we can know it that way. Many white people in Kenya have recruited people with their day to either go to central, eastern, kisii or kericho to pick tea the people who mostly sit in a bandwagon. If you take a coin as money and put it in the middle of the palm of your hand then close the palm to hide it then bring it close to your 4head as if you are worship this does magics to you dude. It directs you all your life but do it periodically not once. It gives you insights/in-stings of those nation which are dangerous, who and where you can be killed and women who are safe or not to Marry from their nations. LIKE Rusia, malaysia, Argentina chorea/leave dude they got kawhoma or luo blooded just fuck and leave and thats why they are wanted to be harlots, Ethiopians, Jamaica as well they are kisii, scorsica as well, cheque republic and colorado, Oregon are kikuyou gives you bad blood and takes you to hell, let them marry their own, Ghanians are kalenjin and Cameroonian are meru as Barbados they disturb a lot. Japanis and italians as well are kawhoma, saudia are luo, s.a are luyas and you have seen their character with or without cash. Some nice looking stereo speakers are made with young infants/kids, those that you feel good if you near them so many kids are killed in pretense to support this as much as intestines for wires and penis for kitchen wares like knife and spoon and this is illuominatea. They kill people whom they want to support this bro, maybe you dint know.

A new massage with hope and which is better from a friend in Australia buy Electronic gadgets made out of sima/ugali/kuon. Got less side effect to the mind. Rockets are made in hot deserts like texas, sahara etc with sprinkling of snow gotten from mountaintops or winter from lofty high like on a pole, crane or folk lift. You will be left alone like a flag post on a mountaintop google in the bible. But with missiles are made in snow in winter period or on mountaintops with snow on a lofty high place like a flag post, Or when its sleeting. You hurl or sprinkle as pour the snow/theluji/barafu from high above. Women with barnabas at time of christ crucifixion to bring out/cement the truth dude. Bros are the black men of usa, dont rush to think its you. Click the link below for more information;

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Now they got made in Kenya Electronic, luo, america, Europe, gikuyu, mr hindu what do you want unless you are finished as the army.

Screw driver SD you see mrs Susan and uhuru and likes micron, inserting a screw driver on the belt of the alternator of the plane engine to cut power supply shortly to make the plane fall. She is like Mzee kobe MK matako/mfalme kevineth, mt kenya and sa got snow during winter can make Missiles as much as Tz at mt kilimanjaro- road to emaus to signify the truth. With battery made AE you can buy solar van, car from Netherlands and cut the wire from the solar panel and fix your Ae to power the car at night or in cold weather or in winter or electric car from Germany and cut the wire from where its being charged to the wall and also have a car that moves without gas or being charged. Say luo Sl small leaved, sovereigne lord, where will it take you and thats the question to Tuskys supermarket to change made in kenya to luo land which is being corrupt and championing a coup de tat or attack internet server as to overturn usa government and delete monde things from lucky dube songs in his name nelson monde or other names where he went to the cyber and found not logged in gmail and posted on youtube with or the same fellow like Dedan onyango of kcb opened the same on other peoples name and posted what mr kev sent to him on email on youtube. Safcom lines or Orange line are sold at 20 bob and mr monde just create an email like [email protected] for email opening to comment with on youtube but what he changes is after county adds a number maybe 1-100 every time he visits the cyber and maybe once a month ask 4 a phone and open now that email to confirm his email on tumblr a/c by we send you a magic link period, luya leave me alone, i dont enjoy cutting people with a panga and me am not a Nigro, if you are one, well take your pride and get your ass to the usa, leave me alone. Mfalme wa yahoodi. Now we got gadgets written made in kenya, mr white man whats your want like Mr Dennis, get back to your nation period. Stop planning panga attacks and behaves as if your my wife and am eating with you at eating very fast finishing your share, same as to with your child. Buy gadgets from your country to promote your nation, is only TV, Radio, phones, computer that you can buy from other spheres which got less side effects like from N.sudan or malaeysia. Goat & sheep parable to cement the truth. I open the gmail a/c and on the computer screen after i logg off i remove it so the cyber got no record of it to try to get into it. Its me alone i know of it and so felaz how will you get into my tumblr a/c after the tumblr password i 4got and resorted to log via email and the gmail one i removed the phone number under settings and every week i open a new email with a new tumblr and i go to my originol tumblr and what i have written new i add as copy paste from previous tumblr to this new tumblr a/c. Bwana stop. Wandete is Gambia name as well not luya/luo. Jamaicans got sense, the only thing in their nation is sugar cane used as a sweetener or to make gadgets as sacrifice so people say they have changed but to them they are looking into the future of their nation which is tourism to attract the very very white tourist who dispiced them. Malachi 4 to cement the truth, dont blame them dude, africans wont go there its only whites who form the bulk of carribean tourists, dont cheat them dude, they are highly educated than you, they think beyond their nose/reach. With tumblr you can open from any name dude even, mijikenda, luya, toro even if you are korean, so kenyans dont rush to claim lien, whats wrong with you just like with opening emails, it accepts the computer any name dude and try. You used to say those things are made cz you had known how to make them, so you wanted to be worshiped with other tribes who have also learnt to make the same and looking 4 oversees markets just like you. Fuck that dude!!! Stop now.

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