#and I just can't handle the pressure

[flower-zombie-rob]

Welcome to day one of how many times can my mother tear me down and destroy my confidence in one go. How many days will this go on? Im not sure! Tune in next time for a brand new episode of Taking Advantage Of My Kids Rejection Sensitivity, youre watching the disney channel.

#Sometimes I really do just honestly kind of hate her. I know it's a horrible thing to say about one's parents who care for them but it's #true. With the way that she treats me and criticises me and takes every advantage of a chance to tear me down it just really hurts all the #time. I can't criticise her because she ll fly off the handle at me and say how many things she does for me that i dont apreciate enough #But for her she can say as many times as she wants that she doesn't like my hair and she doesn't like the way I dress and she doesn't like #This the way I look and she doesn't like the way I stand and she doesn't like the things I say and she doesn't like my beliefs #She can say she doesn't like my tone of voice and that she doesn't like the way i stress out about things and im not allowed to say #A negative word about her in edgeways when she's allowed to tear me down on a constant basis and make me hate myself. As someone who really #Struggles with a lot of self loathing problems and self hatred she really does just rip into me with no restraint constantly. She knows #That I suffer with some serious rejection sensitive dysphoria that I am trying to get therapist help for and she still has no restraint #When it comes to criticising me and everything I am and everything I like. And she has the goal to do this thing where she is kind of peer #Pressures me into agreeing with the things that she says which in turn just makes me consolidate those horrible beliefs about myself in my #own head. If I don't agree with her criticism of me I can't just say so I have to not along with her and affirm to myself that those #Things are true. That I don't like my own hair that I don't like my face and my makeup and my clothes. That my preferences are wrong and #That I dress too androgynously. That I could never experiment with things like pronouns or gender and that I have to agree with societally #Homophobic undertoned things that she says because I can't bare to have her criticise me again and again and again for critisising her. #I can't do this anymore it makes me dread every time she comes into my room to talk to me about some new thing she doesn't like about me. I #And constantly stressing about how much people dislike me and how annoying I am #And the fact that I'm literally hiding the things that I want to wear from her so i can put them on when i get away from her and yet she #she will still get upset if I criticise her for making me literally hate myself on a regular basis. she wont beleive me and she'll be #Confused if I have a belief that doesn't match hers and she'll get so excited when I even possibly hint at doing something to my appearance #that she likes and knows I don't. I worry wake for comic corner she wouldn't shut up about how much my hair looks really good in a style i #dont want to cut it. If I dress in a way that's openly queer she ll act like I'm going to get #and i quote “the wrong kind of attention” Because she thinks that me even possibly being misgendered because of my clothing is a #disgusting crime and that I should be the perfect Barbie doll pink pretty princess she always wanted her children to be. She wants me to be #Someone that I can't be comfortably and she's essentially forcing me to fit this mould of her preferred child. Which obviously makes me #Despise who I am and hate my own interests and style. And as horrible and hurtful as it is to say this #I can't wait to get away from her. #sigh #vent #harsh morning

[licorishh]

Hey as a super introverted but not shy person I'd just like to say the jokes about extroverts "adopting" introverts to "get them out of their shell" are actually completely unfunny and it just goes to show how little respect a lot of y'all have for the fact that we genuinely don't want excessive social interaction and that y'all are forcing us to do something that brings us extreme physical and mental discomfort because you perceive our introversion as a failing rather than as purely a difference in personality.

We don't need your "help" to socialize. We're not children. We're simply not interested in spending every waking second of our lives talking to people and being talked at in return.

#again i scream from the rooftops that there is a monumental chasm between being shy and actually being an introvert #a shy person is someone who's afraid of social interaction. an extrovert can be naturally shy. #a shy person can WANT lots of social interaction but simply have not learned to feel comfortable in social situations. #people who are just very introverted simply have little desire or capacity for excessive human interaction. #we're not “afraid” of it. we just don't enjoy it and it wears us out. #you don't need to swoop in and save us because we can't handle ourselves. we're perfectly fine thank you #extroverts are constantly demanding that we get out of our comfort zones but few of you are willing to make the alternative more comfortabl #if you're a very extroverted person please do not take it upon yourself to jokingly “adopt” introverts you meet. #it's not funny and it's not helpful. it's irritating that you perceive our quietness and low social battery as something that needs “fixing #we won't miraculously learn to love and be comfortable with excessive human interaction. that's not how we're wired and that's OKAY #i'm honestly getting so sick of the “the lonely introvert and the extrovert who adopted them” memes #i can guarantee you that if you are an extrovert who operates this way then your introvert “friend” is actually probably very uncomfortable #and just don't want to say anything because they think it would be rude to bring up the fact that they don't want what you want from them #this does NOT mean extroverts and introverts cannot be friends nor am i saying all extroverts are annoying or that they all do this #i'm simply saying that if you are very extroverted and you have a friend who's very introverted #then it's on you to be aware of your introvert friend's limited social battery and STOP pressuring them to just “put up with it” #don't spend every second with them constantly talking. be willing to spend some time just in the quiet. #be willing to let them bow out of something if they're exhausted and are low on social energy. #don't expect them to want to come to every meeting or party or get-together because it WILL drain them completely. #be willing to let them spend time alone when they need to to recharge. #letting an introvert cool off and recharge when they need to is ALWAYS going to make social situations less stressful for them. #PLEAAAAASE take their feelings into account and understand that they do NOT perceive social interactions the way you do. #most very introverted people do not find socialization relaxing or invigorating. they don't do it to unwind #they have to unwind AFTER lots of social interaction #that's about it. thank you and good night

[enchiladajolie]

Kendrick just posted a club banger 🤣😭😭

#kendrick lamar #drake #2024 #my blood pressure can't handle this beef anymore #it's taurus season i just wanted to rest

[wereh0gz]

The absolute horror of slowly losing yourself, forgetting where you are, why you're doing what you're doing, who you are...

And then thinking you'd gotten back to normal, that you were back to your old self and that everything would be okay, only to realize you'd lost so much more than you thought and might never be able to get it all back...

Your friends miss you, but you don't even know who they are. You can't remember when you met, what they're like, what you did together. Their names and faces are nothing but a blur in your mind. They talk to you about the adventures and the crisis and the tragedy that brought you together. Things you knew about, once. Things you experienced, once. Things that you can't recall anymore.

You can recover from anything, they tell you. You always bounce back. They have hope that the you they once knew will return.

And even if you don't know them, even if their memory is barely a haze... you can't bear to extinguish that hope.

Even if it hurts. Even if it seems impossible to go back to how things were. You have to bounce back. Because you always do. At least, that's what they say.

So you have to recover. You will recover.

... Right?

#ramblings #sonic frontiers spoilers #more amnesiac sonic thoughts yippeeeeeeeee #this whole thing has consumed by brain holy fuck #i feel like sonic would feel a lot of pressure to recover #bc like. almost everyone he meets he knew at some point #and he can't remember them. and obviously when they learn he lost his memory its a big deal #and it happens over and over and over #and it hurts. it hurts so much #to the point where he just starts avoiding everyone #probably the only one he doesn't feel this pressure with is big #because big doesn't push him. he doesn't make as big of a deal as everyone else #he's still sad about it obviously #but he gives sonic space to just. breathe #and lets him fish to get his mind off of things #in a way he lets him handle this at his own pace and isn't constantly reminding him that something is wrong #he doesn't have some complex history with big that he should remember #he's just a friend he sees sometimes #and they fish together and look for froggy whenever he runs off #and that's kind of it #he finds it easier to reconnect with big because he's more chill about it than his other friends #it's nice to have someone like that when you feel like you've lost everything #helping you get back on your feet #but at your own pace

[givemewallywestorgivemedeath]

It's so unmistakenly Wally that when faced with a civilization like Savoth that idolizes Jay Garrick and Barry Allen as gods and based their entire constitution & democratic system around Jay and Barry, Wally just goes 'Sounds about right. Carry on 👍' but when he's faced with the exact same situation but he's the one being worshipped, he starts throwing books at them and freaks out.

The parallels between Savoth and the 64th century and the differences in how Wally handles them are just so him.

Savoth is a planet whose civilization was rescued by Jay Garrick. Jay helped free them from their oppressors and later Barry did the same. As a result the residents of Savoth regard the Flash family as gods and have entire religious ceremonies based around them. They even attempted to connect their people to the speedforce. Everyone there wears Flash based clothing and the buildings are all decked out in red and yellow and lighting bolts. The people of Savoth originally accidentally called the Flash to them with a speedforce machine.

Now, the 64th century has a civilization that was rescued by Wally West. Wally helped free them from their oppressors. As a result the residents of the 64th century regard the Flash family as gods and have entire religious ceremonies based around them. They even attempted to connect their people to the speedforce. Everyone there wears Flash based clothing and the buildings are all decked out in red and yellow and lighting bolts. The people of the 64th century originally accidentally called the Flash to them with a speedforce machine.

Seems pretty similar, right? Seems like Wally should react to them in the same way, right? Wrong.

Wally also idolizes Jay and Barry and he also thinks of them as gods in a way so he had absolutely no problem with Savoth at all. Even when he became the Flash and started receiving the same treatment he didn't mind because in his mind they weren't idolizing him, they were idolizing Jay and Barry's legacy.

He even introduced them to Bart because it was important to him that Jay and Barry's legacy lived on to the next generation.

But with the 64th century, it was just Wally's Flash legacy being worshipped.

And he could not handle that

Savoth bowed to the Flash and that was fine with Wally. Savoth wore Flash clothing and that was fine with Wally. Savoth had Flash symbols and Flash statues everywhere and that was fine with Wally. But make it about him instead of Barry and Jay? Suddenly it's a problem.

Wally threw a library's worth of books at them in hopes that they'd base their civilization around someone else. He told them that he wasn't a god and then ran like hell. He also trashed their speedforce machine on the way out so that they couldn't call him back or give themselves superspeed.

If you worship Barry or Jay then Wally will join you and have a blast. If you worship Wally then Wally will have an existential crisis, break your society/belief system and never return ever again.

#i will say that Jay set up Savoth to thrive as a society #and Jay and Barry set up in the constitution that a Flash can never interfere with Savoth's laws #so Savoth was fairly independent and put together #meanwhile wally just kinda toppled and authoritarian dictatorship and left #then came back to a civilization in shambles that had clung to his legacy like a security blanket #and took his every word as law #so there were definitely differences and Wally was right to be concerned #but ditching them and leaving them with another power vacuum because you can't handle the pressure was not the solution wally #kid flash #the flash #dc #wally west #dc comics

[princesscedar]

Trying to tell mom "hey maybe don't call j ewish people rats even unintentionally" event leaves 10 dead thousands injured

#INCREDIBLE how any time i address mom's casual antis emitism she goes into a tirade like 'oh THEY get to be treated special' like #literally me n the 19 yr old give receipts and she always flies off the handle lol lmao haha #she was referring to the tunnel thing in new york and said 'an orthodox j ewish man climbed out the sewer like a rat' #and me n 19 yr old both 😬😬 and casually lightheartedly say 'hey you probably shouldn't say that abt j ewish ppl' and she took it personal #like we said she said it w/ malice and not the same tone as 'hey don't call a black person a monkey even if you didn't mean it offensively' #and 2 hours later she STILL is on her 'well i think it's an agenda some ppl just try and SAY things are offensive and they're not' mom. #u r LITERALLY black. WHY is this hard for u to understand #she did the same when i said a o t was fascist anti semitic nationalist but she's like 'i read it and i didn't see any of that so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #'if you didn't read it you can't say anything's wrong with it' #same w/ that Witches remake a few years ago and i pointed out the witches were coded as j ewish caricatures in the book #and hopefully it wouldn't happen in the new movie #and she thought it was an agenda to cancel it because the main characters were black now #somehow transferred into talkin abt cops and th3 m ilitary and me saying both should be abolished and now she's like #and how i think it's kinda unnecessary to include blatant mil itary propaganda in a show for 6 yr olds lol #and she's like 'are you saying every cop and military person is bad and evil? should kids w/ parents in those forces never be represented?' #no i literally didn't say every individual is but the organizations need to end at least 90% in my lifetime <33 and no i also don't think #a kid w a soldier dad is the same as a kid with a black dad so no mili tary n cop rep is not the same as poc rep lol she literally said that #and mad that i didn't have THEE solution to replace them like i need to know the exact plan to fix it to point out that they shouldn't exist #anywhooooooo she raises my blood pressure lol <33333 #sentext

[troublcmakcrs]

//i watched "the list" last night and cartman says craig has fucked up teeth, and i know cartman says a lot of nasty things that aren't really accurate, but my lil fucked-up-teeth-having-and-loving ass wants so badly for that one thing in particular to be true 💙

#misc :: ( ooc ) #//''can't he get braces?'' #//spoken as someone whose mom always pressured him to take better care of his teeth so he could get braces #//but who did not want them at all and has never gotten them in all 27 years of his life... NO!!! 😊 #//if you can't handle craig at his snaggle-toothed overbite you don't deserve him at his piercing blue eyes #//i just LOVE characters with imperfections especially when it comes to dental stuff #//tweek in his older verses is missing a few teeth due to his meth mouth #//he never gets them replaced either bc he embraces his imperfections and the signs that his body has been lived in #//similarly he never gets tattoos to cover up his various scars #//characters who don't just embrace but ADORE their imperfections got me frothing at the mouth t b f h

[misclogarts]

love how CoA and HapiAra were faced with the same problem but HapiAra didn't break up because they talked to each other lmao

(tags ended up being pretty long so watch out lol)

#itlogthoughts #THIS IS AN EXTREME OVERSIMPLIFICATION I KNOW but there are some similarities #imo if peaky and photon weren't there i feel like hapiara would've taken a similar route to CoA #bcs CoA had to handle a sudden amount of popularity in like. their entire school as TEENAGERS #and shano and toka already had reservations with an agency beforehand so there's that extra pressure #but i still see the similarity that half of the unit wanted to go professional; while the other wanted to stay as-is #if peaky weren't there to take the brunt of the popularity then maybe hapiara would've gone the same way as CoA did #imagine; a unit formed by first-years (one of which who had JUST transferred into the school and had no idea what a DJ let alone a DJ unit #could be) who had gotten popular and climbed the school ranks in just MONTHS #BEAT a group curated by shano (who was a former member of a legendary DJ unit) and collaborated with #THE biggest unit in school (peaky) and fought to the top of the D4Fes. rookie stages #and THEN got invited to D4Fes. AGAIN but as a MAIN ACT THIS TIME #i'm a little murky on the details and idk if CoA was invited to D4Fes. as CoA or as ScarNa and L-Eyes #(and how shano and airi's performance together shown in first mix was the result of a shuffle unit) (i think that's it?) #but my point is! HapiAra could've had the opportunity to become a “professional” unit if dj mash (can't say her name tumblr will block me) #and muni decided to push for being pros #and it could've created a rift between the group since both rei and rinku wanted to stay as-is #but neither dj mash nor muni had reservations with an agency AND they were willing to hear each other out #so since they didn't have a ton of external pressure on them; they were able to compromise as a group and keep going together #idk this post is a mess but i hope whoever's reading understands what i'm saying here HAHAHA

[monstermoviedean]

i always feel like any emotion i feel is so juvenile. like if i were a real adult i'd be above emotion. what the fuck is that shit.

#it might just be me but i feel like there is societal pressure to 'grow out of' emotions #when really i think all we need to grow out of is forcing other people to handle our emotions for us #that's not to say we can't or shouldn't have support in handling emotions just that we should always do the best we can for ourselves

[splashporpoise-moved]

I understand why it's like that but having to go off anon to send media is literally the scariest experience in the world

#please i'm actually just a guy who's been stuck in a wet sad puddle since he was 11 i'm literally just a sopping wet kinda guy #i can't handle this kind of pressure

[bylertruther]

very interesting how will is unfortunately considered this fandom's uwu soft boy (even if many claim otherwise) bc going from reading 8373663373 fics where will is talked over, not taken seriously, doesn’t believe in himself at all, or is even considered for a conversation on supernatural events is sooooooooo .... not canon at all LMAO. in s2, he's their spy. in s3, will speaks his mind abt the mind flayer, explains their situation, corrects them when they make an incorrect assumption, and says NO we ARE GOING TO and HAVE to kill this fucking clown srry max 🤚 and doesn't back down whenever someone has doubts. they don't look to el to explain things or to strategize an atttack, they look to will. like ur little soft uwu boy is the one grabbing these thick ass chains saying "yeah these'll do 😤💪" and confidently talking about boiling someone alive ffs. and they all go with it, ESPECIALLY mike who backs him up and shoots anyone down if they have any concern or doubt. it doesn't matter bc these are fictional characters, but like .... i just think it's Funny is all i jus think it's Fascinating how some people perceive him in ways that the canon material itself clearly disproves but like 🤐

#u think bc a bitch be crying n understandably scared of a big flesh monster as big as a multi story building that he can't handle himself? #will who was all in on pressure cooking billy? will who said no ur wrong abt the mind flayer? will who speaks up whenever he has an issue #with a plan? will who other people DO look to and listen to in these conversations? #just because he's sensitive and gay doesn't mean that he has to be treated in ways that are not canonically supported #and like. anyone can do anything with their headcanons but it gets to the point where some ppl are just so far removed from the source #material but speak about and construct analyses and theories based off of their headcanons that are not supported #and it's like. headcanons =/= source material analysis #if tht makes sense? im on mobile which i hate typing on but like. idk. hopefully im at least a little coherent with my jumbled thoughts #like him being gay =/= no one else respects him #idk where u guys get tht........ #and him being doted on =/= no one respects or listens to him it jus means they love him lol #he and mike were working as a team as a unit and the party LISTENED #they looked to HIM to explain everything not eleven and he didnt doubt himself and his own experiences #idk.

[dragongirlcloaca]

I finally realized that the reason I love the Sylvia route in Mice Tea so much is because I want a hot snake therapist gf who will hypnotize me to fix my weird personality issues! Hypno for sex reasons is cool I guess, but therapy? Hell yeah!

#Mice Tea #Musings #I'm a little miffed today to be honest #We've been disgustingly busy as of late and while Em thrives under pressure I just can't handle it #So I've been fronting half as much as I usually do #A8

[caffeinatedopossum]

Tw rant

My greatest fear is my own negligence. I'm so scared something will happen- something to someone I love or something important to them. And I will watch it destroyed, frozen by fear or not having the knowledge or reaction time to do anything.

I feel like people I love are going to die. I feel like I have to prepare myself for it even. Sometimes I almost think I *want* them to die just because the fear is too much. Of course I desperately don't want that, that's the whole point. It's a vicious cycle and I just feel so trapped and helpless.

#the only thing i can do is try to be useful #i think to myself 'if i can make things easier on them then they wont die' #the first thought that comes to mind is that they will die specifically from being over worked #so i try to do everything to lighten the load #i clean the house and help with shopping and try . #and try my best #ill even try things like exercising because i think its my fault and i shouldnt be disabled and i can just get stronger #but i keep hurting myself and that just makes the fear worse #it just solidifies that i am helpless #maybe i cant handle the pressure of being a human being #to have things inevitably beyond my control #i can't stand the gray area there. where there are things tgat can be done but no one expects #because i dont care who expects it. i NEED to prevent these fears in any way i can #i dont know what would happen to me if i didn't #im just so so scared all of the time i fucking hate this

[ellraiser]

he hungers................ for spaghet....

#i spent far too much time trying to design some monsters #and in the end have given up #they're all being blob monsters now #thats why so many indie game monsters are blobs we just can't handle the pressure #anyway enjoy this guy #his name is G'hordhaan Rham'say #just dont say it three times in front of the mirror #gamedev #indiedev #indiegames #game development #spaghet

[gumheel]

now why on earth would barry and brad do that

#sorry i found this an dlost my mind. hello? #(barry voice) hmm... wesker has brought me out here and threatened me into killing jill... rocket launcher useful probably #and brad just going with it. ajgrkesfdjgd. did barry TELL him or did brad just see it while he was desperately trying to get in -> #contact with either team and go ooh...ok #i like how everything describes brad. #chickenshit asshole. scared. falters under pressure. can't handle the apocalypse #rhghrghe he and marvin in re3. grips my head #barry didn't even get to be the one to use the rocket launcher. SAD

[trashpremiium]

i hate knowing that i’m going to have to reign myself in and make myself palatable for anyone to like me and there’s nothing i can do to make anyone love me in my natural state

#textpost #like. #idk. I have this persona of being very quiet and serious and put-together #and it makes me incapable of forming close friendships #but if i DON'T have that persona up #i am loud and abrasive and very jokingly mean #and i don't mean to be #and every once in a while #i'll meet someone who shares enough special interests with me #where i'll unmask some #and then i can't put that mask back on all the time #so people are like 'you're so loud today' 'i haven't seen you speak this much' 'you're so aggressive' #and i just. idk i can't trust myself to rely on anyone #because i'm going to put too much pressure on them #because i don't know how to stop! #I never had the opportunity to learn! #i was alone my entire childhood and now i have to accept i'll be alone forever #i just can't handle the fucking. silence after i say anything #knowing i broke a social rule but idk where #sitting here doing hw while my roommate and his boyfriends hang out in our room because they're all normal fucking people #and i'm a monster #vent