#and I do think jealousy gets a spotlight in a too-large portion of Olivia’s work

[francesderwent]

shaken to my CORE by your thoughts on jealousy not being something that needs a voice. I always struggle with it as one of my flaws and sometimes find that saying it aloud helps me to admit it sometimes. But there is not in fact much to say about it after that is there!!!!! Like we just all have to move on from the thing!

Exactly!!! When I’m feeling irritable and annoyed at a person I do have to stop and say “I’m not actually mad at this person. I’m jealous of them.” But then after that??? What else is there?? Pious meditation on how much they deserve the good things they have isn’t helpful, because what is “deserve” and who of us deserves what we get, and repeating to myself “I’m so happy for them I’m so happy for them I’m so happy for them” doesn’t do anything, because I can be genuinely happy for them and sickeningly jealous of them at the same time!! As soon as you’ve named the direction of the thoughts “jealousy” you just have to head it off at the pass! There is nothing good down that road!!!!

#and I do think jealousy gets a spotlight in a too-large portion of Olivia’s work #like in sour. okay. I get it. it’s a first album and she had limited life experience and she was writing what she knew #but then guts came out and there’s lacy and pretty isn’t pretty and obsessed?? three songs????? #three??????? #and none of them are as good as jealousy jealousy!!! #none of them have the clarity of ‘comparison is killing me slowly’ #because! honestly! I think once you give jealousy the reins you LOSE clarity!