#an stable job either

[yvesbuprofen]

feeling guilty for not talking to my irls for more than a week, I was trying to feel better after having to socialize with thousands of people for two weeks and I kinda forgot

#I talk with my best friend everyday but like 5 messages only #and then online I answer to everyone like a day later #but still #It's kind of idk #I feel anxious about talking to them because they will want to go out and I really don't have any money I have like 4 dollars on my bank- #account and it's so embarrassing to go out and just look at them eating and drinking stuff #like my dad has cancer #we have medical expenses. the house. my brother's school. all services and I can barely keep a job because I get sick. my mom doesn't have #an stable job either #so I can't just ask money for some overpriced food #no one in my family (even the extended one)) has money #it's humiliating #because I know I'm an adult and I should have money #most of my friends don't have an stable job either #but their families can still help them #I don't even have money for public transportation and it's very cheap considering evrythjng

[roseverdict]

parents are gone on a cruise. time to tear through my room looking for the tatting shuttles i know i bought years ago and am 95% sure are not lost to The Old House

#textiles #tatting #rosie babbles #*red string corkboard voice* you see if i can get good enough at tatting i can make little bits of lace jewelry and such #which i can THEN see if the cutesy little coffee shop that makes a point to sell local artists' works would be willing to buy from me and #then sell or straight-up sell for me or however the fuck it works and THEN on the slim chance that everything has gone to plan so far i #CONTINUE DOING THIS until such time as i have Wheels™ and then KEEP GOING SOME MORE until i either have a stable non-craft job #or i'm stable enough doing This that my parents will stop treating me like a ''lazy entitled asshole'' #anyway. it is after midnight and i am feeling the mental illness in this chilis tonight #it's either this or feet pics. and late-night-deranged me and daytime-deranged me are violently clashing over whether or not to do the feet #pics thing but they're in complete agreement over the tatting thing

[ortanthaig]

Mother in law has been telling us for months that her and father in law can’t wait until we move out. Told her yesterday that we’ll be out in a month, three months max, and are already planning inspections.

Now she’s trying to deter us from moving and wants us to stay 💀💀💀

#‘you need stable work to do that don’t forget that. you’ve quit your last few jobs so’ shut the fuck up bitch 🤡 #I’m in corporate retail now and am praised on my team. even though I’ve only been here two weeks. like wow yes so unstable #it’s literally just because she’s realised that my bf and I have been paying for all of her stuff LOOOOL #so now she needs to find a way to come up with $1100+ a month and that’s JUST for bills. not food or anything else #just watch in three months time she’ll either be a) begging for money or b) begging us to move back in #art.txt

[freebooter4ever]

holy shit for the first time in ten years i forgot nicks birthday

#and ironically it was my friends video talking about march that clued me in #like fuck march passed and i didn't even notice it.... feels weird. very. weird. #jrnlsht #yikes he turned 40 this year #oh that makes me feel old lmao that makes me feel so old #i thought i had everything figured out when i was 25...of the two of us i was the one with the stable job that i loved #making art all day... and then staying up till 4am making art with nick #and like sadly literally not euphemistically #although those after hours set painting sessions did include some making out #he was such a mess back then #now we've swapped im the mess and he's the one with the stable job he loves #funny how life works out #i remember his 30th vividly his sister bought him this ridiculous bunch of balloons #which of course he hated #and he was forcing a smile cause he was trying to play nice and act like his life wasnt a total mess #and i just sat there giggling at him in his sisters kitchen with the balloons cause i could tell he was faking it #anyway it was fine i made it up to him with a much better present later that evening when we were alone :P #i dont think either of us ever imagined being this old #i certainly didnt #i remember the last time i touched his face a few years ago #it was the first time i realized that - oh- i could love wrinkles #bald with lines around his smile... it was still his face :) #but forgetting is a good thing #sometimes i need to let memories go and move on

[deermouth]

there's an invasive moth survey tech position open in the area i live in and oh god. i gotta learn how to drive man

#i wanna do shit like this so bad!!! like yes it's seasonal and temporary so i'd have to quit my stable job to do it and it pays less #so i know it wouldn't be practical either way #but this is the kind of stuff i wish i had known i wanted to do before i went to college #txt

[greatlordfluffernutter]

While I do agree on some level with the new wave of arguments that a "problem" with AI art is that you're skipping all the long and difficult steps of honing a skill and training yourself to improve, I do think it's important to point out that

1. This is basically just a more grounded articulation of the whole "it has no soul" thing that isn't really solid enough to be useful for anything beyond saying why you think some people are cringe (i.e. this isn't grounds to start engaging legislation or break out the Bad Person lables) and

2. Last I checked when people used this exact same argument as to why games like dark souls don't need to compromise their artistic integrity to add easy modes, a lot of you got Big Mad. Including the same people using this argument against AI art. I guess devoting effort to develop a skill is only necessary when it's your own hobby? Strange.

#anyways the actual key issues with AI are people vastly overestimating the accuracy and competence of LLMs #and stealing jobs from artists #and I think any of The Disk Horse that's not about either of those two things has kinda lost the plot #and is just people trying to find someone to be mad at #and by all means feel free to call cringe on people who posture themselves artists when their only tool is stable diffusion #but unless actual harm is being done theres no reason to get on someone's case for using those tools

[panthermouthh]

Starting a new job next week 🫣

#sooo much paperwork but it’s OFFICIAL #im hoping some routine will help me untangle my brain and I can be creative again #im really excited #no more night shifts or factory work thank GOD I am SO OVER IT #im happy abt what routine usually does for me #any piece of work I’ve written or drawn that I’m really proud of #could only be done w the routine of a stable job #either writing during lunch breaks or when I got home #fingers crossed it can help me 😭

[kozidraws]

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#irl rambles #dunno if y'all remember but my work had been saying for months they were going to offer me a part time job #they just kept it back saying they have to work out the roster #anywho because I was so sure i was going to get it I told one of my friends who recently bought a house #he said that he can't rent out in the first year due to government requirements but he'd be more than happy to move in with him #but then work took back the contract and on top of that have cut my hours back #like theyve taken 2.5hrs off each of my shifts #that adds up! #so i told my friend i don't have secure work and how upset I was about it #he would prefer I have a stable job but if I can start saving now I could move in next June #the problem is saving until then #the bills are so high at my current house #my housemate owns the house and he works from home #and he has the air con on all the time #takes hour long showers #and leaves all the darn lights on! #so by the time I have a bit of savings the bills come and practically take what I've saved #legit the reason I was on hiatus for so long is because of money struggles #i don't feel stable rn #i don't have family to help out either #it got to the point I was strongly wondering why I'm atill living when I could barely afford it tbh #but at least i have a goal in life now #I'd rather cut back on food now so I can afford moving out #hopefully work won't screw me over further #or another job actually hires me #ahhh I hate capitalism

[straykats]

sometimes i entertain the thought of like. everything ending up okay and then i get even more scared and anxious and idk why

#like what if i get a stable job what if i dont have to worry about everyone the way i do rn #what if i do manage to move out what if i do come out and its okay and what if i do get the #confidence to build new relationships and stuff and what if i can cope with my friend moving interstate #and what if my parents splitting becomes the new norm for me and i can manage it and dont break down every second day #and what if i manage to actually work on my original wip on the side #and what if idk i can get published as well #and what if i can come to terms with and move on from all the things that happened in childhood #and what if my brother and i are okay and we can actually have good conversations and what if #im able to reconnect with my cousin and maintain our relationship despite all #and what if my parents are civil with eachother and i can see them in the same room and not worry about whats going to happen #and i can be in their presence without wanting to rio my skin off and i can relax and not mediate every single conversation #and what if i can hug them and what if my friends are right and im not actually a burden #and what if i can still be friends with them and or be at peace with changing relationships #and what if i do manage to pay off all my student debt and other loans i'll probably incur #and what if its like. okay. like. #its such a scary thought and it kight be because it seems so far off and the possibility of it being okay means #that i need to survive this and get through this and thats just another expectation put on me and maybe its scary because #i dont know if i'll be able to meet this expectation either yknow like #its. its a good thing but it seems so stupidly out of reach #you cant imagine what you dont know etcetc #anyways. assignments first existential dread or whatever later #kat talks

[daz4i]

i am so confused and terrified by the idea of marriage fr. how can you commit long term to just one person. how can you know you won't get tired of them at some point, possibly even pretty soon. and like it's one thing to emotionally commit but doing all the bureaucracy bullshit? or worse, those expensive extravagant weddings that cost like a new apartment would? why go through all this. and how can you

#maybe i'm just too aro to get this 😭 #tho i wouldn't get platonically married either. love my friends but i would never commit to anyone long term #we can't know what'll happen tomorrow we can't predict what curveballs life will throw our way to change our worldview. #and some might say 'it's worth the risk for love' well i just cannot get it at all. that's way too big of a risk for too small of a reward #hmmmm i really sound like a hater. apologies. this whole ramble is out of fear not hate. much respect to any married person reading this #can you tell i have commitment issues 🫠 (in any field not just romance) #a dream to one day be rich and mentally stable enough to move around the world perhaps... never stay in one place for long #work in a job that's never the same thing every day (i mean. performance is my go-to after all lol) #but now i'm rambling in a different direction.

[sunshineandlyrics]

*Women linked to Harry over the years, and don't forget Taylor, Kendall, Olivia and Emily Ratajkowski.

(I was initially curious which of the women linked to Harry got these 'get to know' articles. Turns out all of them unless they're already well known)

#these intro articles are part of the stunt playbook #I went down a Harrys dating history rabbit hole and one or two I didnt even know about #I found out that most news publications have an article on Harrys dating history #usually titled 'the comprehensive dating history of Harry Styles' #I know that this is part of harrys closet but it also seems like Harry the walking billboard either promoting some brand or some woman now #isnt it about time he finally has a stable relationship image and loses the womaniser image #sad that these women who have jobs and talent need to stunt to improve their career #Harry Styles #stunts #closeting #pr relationships #Harry image #mine

[septimus-heap]

Okay okay wait I know I talk abt this all the time but I am once again thinking abt how marcia was the one to offer septimus a home. She offered him an apprenticeship when hed spoken like 3 sentences total to her and I am INSANE over it

#sep talks #septimus heap #marcia overstrand #like the heaps were nice to him #they were friends I guess #if he hadn't been one of them he'd probably have stayed in touch with jenna and nicko or whatever #but. Marcia had offered him a home before that. She basically guaranteed him a home+stable job for the rest of his life if he wanted it #ALL THIS WHEN HE'S BARELY SAID 3 WORDS #and marcia says in the magykal papers that #she hadn't found anyone with enough talent yet along someone she could spend all that time with #and then she meets boy 412 and practically immediately decides that she is willing to spend that time w him #and that he is talented enough #and I've said this before but she's not stupid!! She knows this is basically adoption #bc at this point sep has no family no home she'd be basically raising him alone #and he is TEN and his only family drowned one night and obviously he doesn't know abt why marcia hadn't taken an apprentice before #but she has standards and they r HIGH and either he meets them all without having to try or she decided to ignore them #for the sake of helping this one child #OR BOTH. It could be both!!!! #I just. Hhhhhh it drives me crazy stupid insane #do u think sep had seen an adult that happy that he'd Done Something before he met marcia

[noianoranoia]

imagine you are cranky and sad and not even hungry when you come home from work but are still forced to sit at the table with your parents and then get roped into the umpteenth discussion about how your mother is controlling and constantly unsatisfied with how her children are trying to live their life and predictably end up welling up after 1h of trying to deconstruct her dangerous and hurtful viewpoint because she told you you clearly have issues because you have no friends and she knows this has been a fucking sore point for you for your whole life and you know all of this will be wasted breath because she will never change the way she sees the world and you will always be the one paying for it. that's how my night is going

#noia.txt #either i find a way to move out which would involve finding a new job which would involve being more stable mentally #or i'm sure I'm only going to get worse. and my relationship with my mother is gonna grow more and more sour #and i'm never going to disclose anything personal to her ever #and also hurtful that my sister said “yea yk how she is but we are adults and it's time you learn not to be affected by these things” #honestly i always get the worst of it and it hurts so bad...... i'm fed up!!!!!!!!!! #now watch me vague post about this on my close friends insta stories looking for human connection only to be ignored as usual #eventually confirming my suicidal ideation (: and tomorrow we start all over again!!!!

[brunetterightsactivist]

I’m trying to channel 90s/2000s romcom female lead these days like I am not a girl I am a grown woman with a real job and a real life

#I swear the romcom lifestyle is dead like nobody I know is living in such a way #everyone I know either seems 20 years older than they are OR is a perpetually struggling teenager-esc 20 something #the movies told me by 25 I would have a stable job and be living on my own. what the hell

[izzy-b-hands]

Got some filming and prolific done to distract myself from the looming Work Shifts this evening and im just.

Why can't another place give me a try. at least let me interview

#text post #i literally have no idea what im gonna do for my shift on Monday when they want me in office #bc getting there will be An Mess and they revealed today that we can't use headphones without a mic there #and that's all i have for rn so like. #but whatever that's Monday i can panic abt that then right #I dont know what else to do tho im applying to things at least every other day and checking job sites and boards usually daily #i just want to crawl in a hole and emerge with either stable finances or a job that will get me to the point of more stable finances

[loverboybreakdowns]

god i hope i end up working on a farm again next summer i miss manual labor

#library job is over now ofc #but like. i dont have anything much physical to do at home either #and i think i need some exercise to keep me like stable #plus i felt like i was actually doing sth yk? #rambling