#although those are kinda cool too. or i might just be watching too much g0ry dead meat eps on youtube idk :^)

[heffrondriving]

welp, i just had a weirdly stupid dream about the btr gang randomly taking a holiday in my home region and i got to hug kendall and lowkey hang out with carlos and logan as they went to go see the local sights and naturey stuff. also mica and alexa (with ocean + kingston???) made cameos and i greeted alexa with the awkwardest handshake in the history of dream handshakes. oh and james was there bare-fistfighting a donsol whale shark too ig ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#welp make that an important lesson never to pass out from pure exhaustion after freaking out abt them ;/ #there was also like this liminal endless flower field the van was driving through and smth about shirts and some of my family were there? #that dream hug was nice though. ken was so warm and fuzzy and smelled like fresh citrus (yeah kinda weird now @ self) and now i'm sad :'< #even if it ended with action star james montage snarling and trying to intimidate a giant shark in some vacation water park kinda place lol #neway now back to reality where i'm oceans and an entire continent away and will prob never get to see them irl for as long as i live. sigh #i woke up at 8 AM and i'm still mad lemme indulge for a while reality u cruel boring bastard;;; there ain't no forever tour rodeo for me!!! #sorry if this is weird to even admit ahah idk what's going on in my braim but at least it isn't bloody dissection dreams this time so. #although those are kinda cool too. or i might just be watching too much g0ry dead meat eps on youtube idk :^) #do pretty girl don't speak #will delete #i just said i'd stop with the personal infodumping didn't i. shit. sorry once again y'all ;-;