#also probably too emotional

[thestarswhim]

So this tweet made a real good point and got me thinking about this scene:

As mentioned in their tweet, "you don't 'beg for mercy' for a job," and here he sounds so scared and desperate, like he's had to do this A LOT before with the directors and it's so... sad.

(more under the cut)

Before he finds out the truth about Eden, he believed they saved him from his former life and gave him new opportunities to continue his dreams, but do you think having to needlessly beg to keep your position as literally being the face of Eden out of fear you'll be replaced and thrown right back out to your old life is a so called dream come true?

Eden even made a trailer for a movie about his life to fame, showing how everyone was rejecting him as a person, which they definitely made it more simplified like I KNOW he was getting way worse treatment than what was shown.

My main point is that despite believing in Eden's motives (before knowing the truth), he still wasn't truly happy deep down. He was STILL getting rejected and slandered by society, and he knew that deep down, so it's not surprising how the possibility of him losing his job made him have a whole breakdown and do the things he did to try and cope.

He quite literally has no one to lean to and hasn't had anyone since showing up to Eden besides the directors (because he probably believed they were treating him fairly and with respect), but... yeah.

He wanted to make a difference, to give hope to hybrids, and he thought he was doing just that. Despite the way the directors and everyone thought of him, despite how alone he felt, he still thought he was achieving his dreams and sharing that onto others

and yet... he was being used this entire time. None of it was true, all the hard work and the things he went through was for nothing.

Everything that Eden has done, and he was the face of it all... it's just devastating.

#another one from my twitter #I've only been a fan of rayman overall for two weeks and now I'm sobbing over him this is a new record #shout out to that one analysis from raygirlramblings #it was because of your post that cemented my love for this character and almost had me cry and get too emotional at a library /pos /lh #captain laserhawk #rayman #cl rayman #cl ramon #captain laserhawk rayman #captain laserhawk ramon #analysis #OH AND ALSO I was watching the show with my sibling who then mentioned to me how rayman had probably been replaced before and #he's just one of the copies and MAN #I NEED ANSWERS GRAHHHHH #anywho if you're still reading this... thank you 🥺💖 and I hope you have a great day!

[un-pearable]

in which zane did not know before he died

remembered this very old au concept i’ve had since i was tiny watching ninjago for the first time… it completely unravels everything i enjoy about zane in the early seasons and i refuse to think of the necessary rewrites atm but i needed to make at least this one scene exist. can an au be naught but a single panel that makes me Sad?

#ninjago #zane ninjago #cole ninjago #tournament of elements #art✨ #loadbearing nindroid #notorious s4 enjoyer makes sad s4 content for first time. this has lingered in the back of my mind for a literal decade probably #lettering makes me too powerful bc now i can get away with all the repetition and exaggerated punctuation that gets clunky in fic form #now it’s Pacing™️ . also why do so many webcomics ditch text bubbles they’re SO fun and emotive #i think i’m gonna play with this quick comic style a little more. all my full comic ideas are more detailed and actually colored but for now #this is fun :] and good for getting the images out of my head and into the world #also why do i keep drawing people from behind it is SO unhelpful #ninjago au #no potential au

[dancingbycandlelight]

so, apparently the finale is called “so long, farewell” which has so many layers and connections i can’t deal with it. firstly it’s another musical lyric as a title (this time unedited from its original text unlike the la cage episode) and we already know that ted loves a musical.

secondly it brings back the julie andrews conversation in episode three which was possibly one of my favourite interactions of the entire season.

but thirdly and (possibly most importantly??) the entire plot of the sound of music is that maria is sent somewhere she originally doesn’t want to go, she gets there and feels instantly out of her depth. the team children try to force her out and the adults don’t take her seriously but gradually, through her unwavering positivity and gentle care she makes an impact on every single person. kids and adults alike, all changed for the better because of her guidance. but then!! maria falls in love, thinks she is no longer needed and she Leaves. she runs, goes back to the convent where she feels safe but then, after a honest conversation and a realisation of her own purpose and the importance of being true to her heart she Returns! she comes back, her role slightly changed but still just as important and involved.

all this time I’ve been worried that ted will be like mary poppins and leave when he is no longer needed, when he’s served a purpose. but this episode title has me feeling (hoping) that maybe he’s like a different julie andrews character after all..

#this is a shot in the dark pinning all my hopes on the wall with my eyes shut kind of theory but god I hope it comes true #the only way ted is allowed to leave is if he comes right back (preferably without leaving the country. don’t even get on the plane ted!) #i have too many thoughts and emotions about this silly football show #ted lasso #ted lasso spoilers #he doesn’t even need to fall in love (although that would be nice 🫡) he just needs to realise his purpose and Stay!!! #you know who also loves a musical?? nate! who is also probably returning

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!! #anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would -> #wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag. #and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!) #update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

[puppyeared]

its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously

#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to #im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i can’t do literally anything else until thats done. but #because I don’t want to do it I’m just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of #exec dysfunction.. I’ll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something #and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh #and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing #because BOY id love to know too. I’d love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant #even my period can’t decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still #its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damn…. #if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally won’t die. it’ll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about #I know this but I’m still stressing myself about it so my thoughts aren’t really connecting to my body. weird #maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I don’t really feel #a strong attachment to it I guess? it’s been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just don’t #I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but it’s not very fun when it feels like I’m going to #be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol #idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week #had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting #yapping #does this count as vent #vent #Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

heyyyy who wants some lowish-resolution Lights Out angst scribbles before i go sleep!!!

(gonna put this under the cut bc im not sure if it can be considered spoiler-y or not? does this au even Have spoilers if there's no shared cohesive plot yet? who knows! i'm doing this impulsively i don't know what i'm doing ever! ! i like drawing characters in distress and anguish! thank you!)

#also if i dont share them now i just Know i never will #i like scribbling distress but Especially when its barnaby. he has the face for it. sad puppy <3 #i mostly scribble these to help myself Think and Visualize #who knows! in a week some or all of them could be rendered non-au-canon by Evolving Ideas #scribble salad #wh lights out au #the last wally one is probably my favorite of the bunch #i like making myself sad by playing the Scene its from in my head <3 #wail in anguish puppet boy... wail and sob.... #going back to my roots with these babeyyyyyy #kind of. mildly. #its been too fluffy on this blog #i need to remember where im from... what im about... Who I Am.... #also 'why is wally so small' bc all of the puppets are there physical sizes #also im Terrible at scribbling consistent size differences <3 #i will Always overcompensate <3 #anyway this au is called lights out aka I Torment Barnaby On An Intensely Emotional Level #what can i say? i have cuteness aggression <3

[babacontainsmultitudes]

*breathes* Okay I finally listened to the teen talk proper, no longer just specific clips and reading other people's summaries of things, and can I just say I wish I'd done this a week ago, cause I definitely feel better about some things now, and it's a pretty entertaining teen talk overall (since this episode is available on the site anyways I'll probably clip some specific bits soon to highlight!). Regarding Sparrow and Norm specifically there's definitely more nuance to what is actually said than what a lot of the recaps/paraphrasing I've seen here had me thinking (for one as a Sparrow freak with a lot of Opinions, knowing that Will immediately follows the bit on Normal's interpretation of the love wolf scene with "but that's not necessarily right cause that's not necessarily what Sparrow is feeling" would have spared me a lot of psychic damage, personally, but also on the topic of Normal's future I mean I'll still be picking and choosing from what was said I won't pretend I love all of it but I think the whole discussion and depiction of it is more nuanced and optimistic than much of what I've seen on that front too). You might expect that I, Baba "I like overtly disagreeing with popular fandom opinions" C. Multitudes would think twice before taking fandom interpretations of something for granted, but I didn't, so honestly fuck me I guess. Still side-eyeing a lot of fandom takes but Will Campos you are free to go 😌. Otherwise Matt's discussion of the gothcleats in the epilogue and everything Will had to say about Nicky gave me life, but I'll clip that stuff soon like I said and *maybe* say more on some of that then lol.

#I guess I won't tag this even though part of me wants to? #It's still too much of a ''this is just me voicing emotions'' kinda post to tag I think lol #okay *edit* I will tag this and then probably take it out later lmao in and out #dndads #but anyways yeah this is mostly otherwise for friendos who like me maybe haven't had to heart to listen to it! #(thank you Mack for being the reason I finally did) #also cookies if you're reading this I haven't forgotten about that thing I need to clip for you sorry I haven't done that yet! #that is all folks :] #Boy I am so so sleepy hrrrnnnn

[strangerstilinski]

i know its hard but close ur eyes and picture this for me… ✨ just imagine ✨ stranger things.. but with a single female character who wears literally anything larger than a size 2

#i'd specify size 10+ but i guess that would probably be asking for far too much huh #also they don't get killed off for the emotional development of a thinner character 😁 #Amazing Concept #stranger things

[stuffedsand]

As an alternative to my last question post, hello again milgramblr, who are you entirely certain you Will Not vote guilty in trial 3, no matter what is revealed?

#Milgram #personally its gonna be kazui and shidou. Shidou cuz he makes me sad enough that no matter what i will at worst abstain #Kazui makes me so inconsolably sad that i just. I can’t. I would cry i think. /joke but i will not guilty him no matter what that im sure o #Also amane. As much as she isn’t a favourite of mine she doesnt deserve a t3 guilty #I’d also say probably yuno? Im most likely gonna abstain cuz i dont really feel a strong enough emotion about her but i do think she deserv #S to be innocently yippee #Answer my questions boy #im tagging it with that now #bonus answer hihi this is an edit #im plannin for everyone inno personnalllyyyy? these r just the ones i will never press guilty on no matter what #im too attatched yo them hahaha

[ofdreamsanddoodles]

camila, next to a chalk board with far too many papers taped to it: so hunter is a.... grimwalker? and that means he doesn’t have a bilesac, which is... bad? eda (expert in palismen & being chronically ill): right, but you said that little bird of his healed him, it lit up his chest, right? and a bilesac is supposed to be attached to your heart, so there might be something like it he has that can ward off infections, and with that extra bit of magic his palisman gave him, I’m sure it’s stronger than ever lilith (historian): i don’t know. i’m still worried about the possession. i can’t imagine a near death experience was great for his heart. then again, i suppose someone with an galdorstone can’t really suffer from a heart attack. raine (former teacher, mainly here for emotional support): didn’t you say luz got the mold once, too? i’m sure whatever his biology is, it’s strong enough to at least handle that darius (the only one of them who’s ever met two grimwalkers): he’s been living in the castle his entire life and he’s worn a mask the entire time! who’s to say he’s even had a mold before? i’m sure it would have been fine before, but even with a palisman’s help, a possession isn’t something you recover from easily. what if he doesn’t even have--what’s the human word for this, again? camila:.... antibodies? darius: YES!!! WHAT IF HIS IMMUNE SYSTEM IS FUCKED UP!

hunter (can hear them yelling from the other room): do you think i should tell darius this isn’t the first time i’ve gotten sick? luz (has watched eda have similar freakouts about her being human): let’s just give them some space for now

#ever since the end of ttt this conversation has been rotating in my mind #im manifesting it #the owl house #hunter toh #toh s3 #eber should probably be here too. a beastkeeper would probably be a good addition just to be safe #also bc theyre darius' emotional support buddy #aster speaks

[rosalinesurvived]

HOTD 1x07 was where I knew I would be Team Hightower forever. Team Green. I wanted to get my opinions out about That Scene.

Lest we forget, Aegon and Helaena were in the room there. Aemond's eye had been ripped out and nobody gave a fuck. Those children watched their mother, the Queen of Westeros be forced to cry and beg their father for some sort of justice, beg for their Father to give a shit once in their lives. Those three were confronted with the fact that their father not only let the one who ripped out Aemond's eye go free but defend their older sister's mistakes. They had to listen as he threatened to rip out the tongue of people who spoke the truth. The king of Westeros would mute people, his own family who spoke the truth. Imagine what his children would've thought of that? What would Aemond think, who refused to rat on his mother? What would Aegon, with alcoholism already, who had just been blamed by Aemond, screamed at by Viseys and slapped by Alicent think, after he too showed a brother's solidarity for the first time and also refused to tell on her?

For the first time we see a correlation between the Green brothers for their traumatised, gaslit mother against the king in the face of this Injustice. They alongside Helaena realised that in this world they could only trust themselves, as they watched the proof of their mother willingly drawing blood from the Princess for her children. Aemond's step into power here and his calmness sets the way for his role as the family's protector in the future, comforting his mother after she fought for him. You could feel that this was the moment the Green Siblings stepped away from their childhoods, however unwillingly.

#this probably makes no sense #im filled with emotion over them they make me sick #they love each other and they hate each other and theyre the reason their lives are ruined but theyre the only ones who care for each other #their family roles are so wack though like #otto's the grandfather but he's the conspirator and manager so hes almost another father #like his and alicent's fight for aegon in 9 also felt like a marriage spat over their son #aegon and helaena are siblings and married obviously so thats weird and freaky and they have kids #aemond was shoved into maturity too early and hes more ridgid so hes almost like the older brother but also the protector as he has vhagar #and is a master swordsman mirroring criston #and criston and alicent are the image of courtly love and clearly dear to aemond and halaena #hotd #house of the dragon #team green #pro team green #alicent hightower #aemond targaryen #aegon ii targaryen #pro alicent hightower #anti viserys i targaryen #otto hightower #helaena targaryen #anti rhaenyra stans #anti rhaenyra targaryen #rhaenyra stans dni

[moeblob]

I unfortunately picked up Bravely Default 2 again (I bought it back when it released) and then started over since I last played it in June 2021. And. You know what. I like these silly beans. And then I saw concept art for Dag's expressions and I am not the same. Why did they decide to give him huge fangs in it.

(also I'm trying so hard to avoid spoilers less for plot but more for characters so if you know anything that happens to characters shhhhh. also the expression concept is below the read more so you can see what I mean.)

#bravely default 2 #dag rampage #selene noetic #i only just recently reached ch2 in the game and i may have a problem #someone was like wait how have you not gotten farther in 25 hours #and im like im sorry its a problem i have an obsession you dont understand #and then he found out i had three of the four party members with two jobs capped at 12 #and then the fourth only had one capped but a bunch high up #and then i told him i was trying to get the gambler asterisk and that meant i had to play a childrens card game #and then i had to do side quests when they popped up #and he was like wait at that point you probably dont need jobs at 12 omg #and im like i know its a problem i cant stop it #so anyway chapter 1 took me forever because i committed to the grind too much #the emotions i feel for silly lil side characters ................ its too real #like even the fact that you beat these two up in the prologue im like teehee funny lil blonde guy #then you dont interact with them in a ch1 quest but they show up again at the same time doing the same quest #and guys i am FEELING EMOTIONS theyre just funny lil mercenaries doin funny lil mercenary things #also please do not tell me anything about the game past ch1 because i want to continue to enjoy experiencing it #which is why i have my ask box closed bc its a game from 2021 and i know im really behind the times #but i managed to not know anything until now and i wanna keep it that way #also i dont really know how to properly draw noses especially when i doodle #but his nose is important and i already struggle with his big jaw so i had to include it somehow #and in the concept art it looks like he has a lil stubble but in game i dont see it so im like ... squinting at he

[henrybelly]

honestly when i tried to figure out why some fans are so mad at ivypool these days i was looking through avos and. the scene where ivypool apologises to twigpaw for not supporting sending a patrol for skyclan is genuinely very sweet??

i actually saw someone characterize this as "ivypool forcing twigpaw to forgive her". is it crack you smoke. is that what you smoke. you smoke crack?

#she apologises THREE SEPARATE TIMES #she acknowledges that dovewing and tigerheart's situation made her ignore twigpaw's feelings #she reassures twigpaw that this is the right thing for the clans. she tells her she's proud of her & tc is lucky to have her #you guys do understand that to apologise you have to Do Something Wrong?? or is that the part that's so unforgivable? #i am fASCINATED by the treatment of dove and ivy by the fans in recent years #i'm still pondering it but i think there are a few root causes #1) I think a lot of people read oots as kids and hated dove & identified with ivy because of the underdog storyline #maybe this fandom worship of dovewing is kinda part of that? wanting to feel like you've grown out of fandom misogyny? #but i also feel like 2) tigerdove has really increased dovewing's popularity #and i think because ivypool is so staunchly opposed to their relationship people then have to villainise ivypool #3) is maybe too spicy of a take but to be honest #i think people are subconsciously way more comfortable with a woman whose story ends in heterosexual marriage and childrearing #dovewing's mom role in TBC to shadowsight probably helped her popularity #so ivypool whose relationship w Fernsong & her kits is much less of a focus. and is mUCH less maternal #and who still exhibits Ugly Female Emotions like anger and hurt #and who God Forbid now holds a position of authority... #is too complicated to fit into :) she's such a good mom :) she's such a good mate #dovewing is easier to like because she tends to be a victim of circumstances (🤫 and often lacks agency in her storylines) #since ivypool regularly uses her agency to Fuck Up #fans revert to idealising dovewing because not only is she too good to do bad things. she also doesn't do Things in general #never mind that ivypool is the one who sacrifices and apologises #anyway <3 i think if i made a full analysis of ivy and dove post OOTS i would get too many spicy anons so i will cower in the tags

[ygodmyy20]

sometimes we feel like we're drowning

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #teruki hanazawa #tagging Shigeo cuz yep that's his hand #shigeo kageyama #and yep terumob too because yes #terumob #i'm on a art spree tonight which means I'm avoiding things #drawing emotions #matraca draws #also my body is just not keeping down food #so i feel so lethargic #also over drank yesterday #that probably didn't help #my art

[let-roman-bite-someone]

there’s something to be said about the fact that janus is the most professional out of all the sides. i genuinely think that he’s the only side playing his part because it’s his job, and not because he has any personal feelings attached.

virgil showed signs of genuinely wanting to be accepted and loved by thomas and the other sides. logan definitely values thomas’s validation a lot and becomes sad when he doesn’t get that validation. remus.. might actually be the second most professional side. but since he seems to work under janus (janus sending him over to thomas and telling him what to do), i guess a lot of that professionalism comes from janus himself. remus isn’t as stupid as he seems obviously, but he doesn’t have a clear-cut agenda like janus does.

i just think it’s interesting to see a side who is only concerned with thomas’s well-being because it’s their job and they want to do a good job. even janus’s frustration at thomas not taking his advice and later his excitement about thomas acknowledging his points came off to me as someone dealing with their kinda shitty boss (no offense to c!thomas, i just imagine that’s how janus views him lol). of course, janus has some fun at his job but i mean, i would too if no one ever listened to me and i’m automatically labelled as the bad guy.

all of this is slowly beginning to change since janus seems to be getting closer to patton but i guess we’ll have to wait and see if they actually become friends or if they’re more like coworkers on friendly terms.

#as thomas’s self preservation janus knows that if thomas is doomed they’re all doomed #i just like characters like these okay #ofc i like emotional characters too #but i LOVE a mf who just shows up and absolutely OBLITERATES everyone and exposes all of their insecurities.. because it’s his job #janus is such an interesting character and i REALLY hope they keep him in character for the future episodes #instead of continuing the whole wine mom aesthetic #it’s funny in more lighthearted episodes which is why i’m not complaining so far #sanders sides #thomas sanders #janus sanders #janus sanders sides #tss janus #ts janus #janus ts #janus tss #deceit #deceit sanders #tss #sasi #thomas sanders sides #sanders sides meta #btw this is also why i dont vibe with janus in a found family setting #i know we all love that trope #but i just cant imagine him being on close terms with ANY of the sides. not even remus #remus is just his somewhat annoying coworker who has some of the same morals as he does #virgil was probably also that when he was a dark side

[marinetteplztakeabreak]

“Adrien made Kagami realize she’s a lesbian because she was not attracted to him” is boring and overdone.

Kagami made Adrien realize she’s a lesbian because she called him her “boyfriend” and he flinched and she was like “oh shoot what’s wrong” and he was like “i dont know, boyfriend is a really weird word for some reason” And because she’s Kagami, instead of being like “oh he clearly doesn’t want me” she just sat him down immediately and started googling Other Words and trying All of Them, and then she tried “do you want to be my girlfriend?” on a whim and he was like “holy shit this has awoken something in me.” And then kagami was like “oh huh i may be a lesbian.”

#adrigami #adrimi #im alive sorry for not posting for like a year #time to go back into hibernation love u all #kagami tsurugi #miraculous ladybug #i am still here with my very specific interpretations of adrimi #they are so important to me #i love them so much #love their season 5 dynamic love that theyre still friends #projecting sooo much onto them #its about being allowed to still be friends with someone even after the messy breakup #but also being allowed to be mad #and being allowed to Wish for something Else with them but to still be okay #i am probably not making any sense im jusy #i love them too too much theyre my emotional support undefined mess of a relationship #and also theyre gay #idek in what way but in Some Way #the ‘secret hidden queer romance’ to ‘secret hidden queer friendship because the romance didnt work for them #but they are both now super commited to helping each other with their secret queer little relationship endeavors #this is why kagami is trying to help adrinette happen #because gay rights #hope this helps #and they can be queer so many different ways i just #clutches heart #incare about tthem #theyre sooooooo not normal in some kind of way #both when they are dating and when they are not