#also i just read THE stupidest and most unprofessional review of this version

[ride-a-dromedary]

There is never a time I am not thinking about the kiss from the Crimp adaptation or Cyrano, specifically the 2019 filmed version, but it's the way James McAvoy's entire body *freezes* on the second attempt; he shakes his head, his mouth opens and his lip curls like he wants to recoil but he *tilts his jaw up* as Eben Figueiredo continues to move closer. And they both pause in that position where their teeth are slotted together but their lips aren't moving, they just tremble, and then when Christian goes for it and fully commits and grabs his face so he can't run away and can't hide, Cyrano's expression *melts* and it's *bliss* a moment, confliction the next; and for all Cyrano tried to deny the beginning, he's the one who clutches onto Christian's arm to keep him close. *He's* the one who follows after him when he rips away, and when they part it's violent with its reluctance and denial and hurt and *realization*...

And I just think that's neat, you know?

#THE FACT THAT THIS KISS WAS DIFFERENT EVERY PERFORMANCE HAUNTS ME AND I WILL NEVER SEE IT #i'm losing my mind over here #Cyrano de Bergerac #the acting choices freaking SUBLIME #people who laughed at this in the theatre get absolutely wasted i'm sorry you don't get it #also i just read THE stupidest and most unprofessional review of this version #and the way eben just *goes* for it and then the second time he is *also* hesitating because he's so *scared* #because it feels so RIGHT but also so WRONG like this isn't the way it was supposed to go it wasn't supposed to hurt like this