#alright so im up to chapter 40. over half way through! chapter wise anyway. no idea word wise. what on earth is going to happen

[gayconfessioncas]

I eat cheerios because they're heart healthy. and my heart has been severely damaged. so intothesilentland if you're out there-

#hi hey me again #sophia reads to build a home #i forgot what happened maybe i should reread posts before i make new ones. eh #alright so im up to chapter 40. over half way through! chapter wise anyway. no idea word wise. what on earth is going to happen #if cas already knows that dean is in love with him. how long could he possibly not say anything?? i mean i get why he wont #doesn't mean i like it though. just. KISS ALREADY #feck. n. hocky sticks. okay gonna read now #oh my god. oh my fucking god. we get deans perception of 9 years ago now. PAIN AND SUFFERING. IM DEAD CODED SHIT #okay. okay. writing that makes me cry like a baby. okay #'and damn it if this isn't going to be the night he tells cas how he feels' DJCYDJBKBJCHSYKBKVJGSHFIHKVHDD #'fourteen years of longing for a kiss that destroyed them both.' OH MY FUCKINF GOD. CANT DO IT BESTIES #im... destroyed............ #yeah... think thats all i can do tonight... one chapter......... that fucked me up #😚✌ #jesus. right okay. yeah. and now i have to?? sleep?? and get up?? and go to work???? unimaginable. #pain and suffering #i need to. give the author a big wet kiss on the head and a 10 minute hug #i need to comfort them and be comforted by them. jesus fuck #how am i ever supposed to get over this fic???? same level as 4lw i tell you. same fucking level. different class. im going insane #girl help-