#alone is fulfilling.. whyyy go through the process of pulling teeth. who needs. to know me?! no one!!!

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local 20 smth is going thru thry the painful ordeal of being known. point and laugh

#i cannot talk to anyone ever. id much rather talk to myself abt my life and only know others but never let thwm know me #i understand that this is unhealthy but i legit hate talking abt my life sooooo bad. i just know others dont get it and don't care #like whatttttt is the goddamn point... ik theres someone out there that would get it if i put in enough effort but i have myself!! and that #alone is fulfilling.. whyyy go through the process of pulling teeth. who needs. to know me?! no one!!! #it will never be disappointing!! all i need is myself.. ik thays not true and i value connection to others but like.. they dint need to #KNOW me.. we can be friends and bever truly know each other. thats ideal #im good with knowing other ppl but ppl knowing me. i refuse. ive tried. its too much. thats why i hate gcs and others social media #i hate talking to ppl. i love my blog that's just a public diary. this is SOOO ideal #god.. sorry. many thoughts. im just gonna be the unknowable single lesbian art teacher my whole life and thats amazing #its funny bc my brother and i are literally the same person deep down.... we refuseeee to let anyone in. like we have many friends but like #no one has unlocked the social link. i refuse