#WOWWWW this got venty. whoops my bad LOL. cathartic tho. sometime u just gotta talk abt grief. you know.

[mauxanhduong]

idk if it was growing up and having to deal with shit or losing someone rly close to me and not getting much support but i feel like i’ve just been getting angrier and pettier and meaner !!! i feel like i’ve been becoming more bitter and a worse and worse person. but idk LOL

#might just be the like night woes. but. idk #death mention #but like. after her death i was like. so so desperate for like. comfort. and my entire family just. didn’t ever talk about it again #and like. i get wanting to move on!! and like they genuinely did!! they were happy and stuff but. idk. i got left behind #and like. neither sibling was an option bc. either away. or too young to talk to abt shit. so i just felt so alone. ugh #yeah like. i’m glad they were all able to make peace with it and move on. like for real i’m happy. but getting told by everyone to like. #not talk about grief. you can’t be sad. you can’t cry. move on. it’s been months why haven’t you moved on yet. this again? right now? #idk LOL it was so isolating and i got so pissed at everyone and kind of. in a rly bad spot mentally LOL. and then now i’m here. still not #idek. still wish i had support back then. kind of just bitter now but. i guess i’ve moved on. kind of. i still. don’t feel a lot of closure #with it tho. i still want someone to talk to. but like i don’t NEED it anymore. yknow. i can kind of just rely on myself now. idk #WOWWWW this got venty. whoops my bad LOL. cathartic tho. sometime u just gotta talk abt grief. you know. #umm let’s see. tagging #death cw #grief cw #xuân says stuff