#WAITED THE WHOLE MONTH AND A HALF

[rubiesintherough]

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#(( ooc. )) #venting tw #negativity tw #gonna try to do some writing today but motivation is real low. #i guess that's what happens when you get called stupid useless and lazy to your face by someone who then expects you #to bow and scrape and wait on them hand and foot #and also now im expected to pay the electric bill on top of doing all the housework. literally all of it. in a home of 3 #fucking adults. and bow im also the one having to handle a lot of maintenance work around the place on top of keeping #it spotless bc no one else 'feels like doing it' #and the whole time i get to be insulted and told that im fat. stupid. lazy. while im cleajing up their messes. and fixing stuff for them. #and doing a bunch of cooking bc they get pissy if i dont also feed them on top of doing literally all the housework. and maintenance work. #and also now being expected to pay half the electric bill. again house of 3 people. and im not even allowed to take a hot shower when i need #to in order to get the pain spikes under control from yknow. flaring up my fibro from overworking myself CLEANING AND TAKING CARE OF THE #DAMN HOUSE FOR THEM #bc it takes too much electricity. the electricity i mostly paid for last month #sorry i needed to get that out #suicide tw #abuse tw #not me debating offing myself bc theres no end in sight and no way out and i cant keep going from one abusive situation to another #and just trying to survive. almost 30 yrs old and ive never once felt safe or at home anywhere ive ever lived. not once. in almost 30 #years have i ever felt safe. or like im my own person. or that im valued. or wanted. or listened to. not once in almost 30 years #have i ever felt like im actually loved (wanted) beyond my usefullness. #shit sucks man. anyway sorry for the spam of negativity lately. im not trying to be a downer. #gonna go hang out in my inbox for a while and see if anything pops out that my muses wanna jump on 🤞

[moonpleaser]

i've had rosamund for 2 days but if anything happens to her i'm killing everyone in this room and then myself

#rosamund du prix #dimension 20 #neverafter #body horror #i'm already soooo obsessed #literally know next to nothing about her but i've invented a whole character in my head #she's IS the girl in the maiden-tree by catherynne m valente #to ME #my art #d20 needs to drop more previews before nov 30th because i've latched onto this girlie and i cannot wait #a month and a half

[tmae3114]

*skids into the room and slams a folder down on the table*

SINCE I AM HAVING TIMELINE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS AGAIN, I WANNA ELABORATE ON A THING FROM MY DIAGRAM OF THE MQ/DF/RESET SITUATION BECAUSE IT IS BOUNCING AROUND MY HEAD AND I WANNA INFODUMP ABOUT THIS SPECIFIC ELEMENT OF THIS ABSOLUTE MESS OF A TIMELINE SITUATION (AFFECTIONATE)

SO

I specified in my diagram that “before the Reset is inaccessible by standard means of time travel”. I wanna elaborate on that because I have EXAMPLES. I hope you’re ready to learn precisely how we know that for certain.

1. Clarification of Terms

Okay, so, to be entirely and fully clear here, when I say “before the Reset is inaccessible”, I am referring to intra-timeline time travel. Meaning, from within a Dragonfable timeline, it is impossible to access the Mechquest timeline which became that Dragonfable.

I say “a” because the Artix Entertainment multiverse is A Mess and we know that there are a ton of different versions of all of these timelines. Not only does The Inn At The Edge Of Time tell as much in-game in Dragonfable but AdventureQuestWorlds (relevant here bc we are discussing multiverse) is canonically a result of DF, AQ, and MQ timelines getting merged into one and we know that those timelines all still exist outwith AQW’s existence. For every version of the DF timeline that exists, there is a MQ that preceded it.

However, for sake of clarity, I’ll be using “the” to refer to the DF timeline for the rest of this post, because even if these factors almost certainly apply to all the timelines in terms of mechanics, I am specifically working with The Actual Timeline We Have Experienced (i.e. canon Dragonfable)

The effects of the Reset are, to use a term that @cyraen-ae reminded me exists, retrocausal. If you were to, say, travel back in time five thousand and one years from A Hero Is Born, you would not find yourself in MQ a year before the Reset happened, you would find yourself five thousand and one years in the past of DF. Thus, “before the Reset is inaccessible via intra-timeline time travel in a DF timeline”. (That is too many uses of time related terms right next to each other. I’m going to just say “intra-timeline travel” after this.)

Hopefully that’s clear because I am now moving on to THE EXAMPLES.

We have three specific quests which I will be pointing to today. They are Yulgar’s First Date, Frostval 2014 - A Tale of Two Timelines, and CyseRedux.

2. Intra-Timeline Travel Cannot Access Pre-Reset

We know this because we see it happen.

Hello, Yulgar’s First Date, thank you so much for serving as proof here, I love you for giving us a solid canon example of how this works.

So, during the events of Mechquest, the hero is fully grown. Whether they’re in their late teens, early twenties, or older than that, it doesn’t really matter. The signficant detail is that they are clearly and visibly Not A Child. The hero had a childhood in the MQ timeline and was Not A Child at the time of the Reset. They are Not A Child in the fixed point in time. The hero enters the DF timeline as Not A Child and, if we looked at this purely linearly, was never a child within DF.

But! As mentioned earlier, the Reset was retrocausal. The hero did have a childhood that, as far as they or anyone else can know, they experienced in the DF timeline.

In Yulgar’s First Date, Cysero gives the hero some Time Cake to allow them to travel twenty years back in time. This also equips the Kid armour. While it’s possible that this is a random side effect (it is Cysero, after all), Occam’s Razor would suggest that this is just the age the hero was twenty years ago.

And since we know that the Reset took five thousand years to complete and only ended at the start of Book One, we know that this specific point in time is one in which the Reset would have been on-going, if it were accessible.

So! Intra-timeline travel cannot access the Reset or reality as it existed before it.

3. Wait, But Then, What About The Times MQ Did Show Up Via Time Stuff?

I’M GLAD YOU ASKED. THE ANSWER IS SHENANIGANS.

To be specific, the two instances in which MQ related stuff shows up from Time Stuff are instances of non-standard time travel. One is explicitly inter-timeline (multiple timelines are involved) and the other is...... Cysero Did It (and is also inter-timeline. They are both inter-timeline. Though the inter-timelineness of the latter may not be relevant.)

So, A Tale of Two Timelines. The Artix of an AQW timeline (we do not know if he was canon AQW) got a wand off of a Time Travel Fairy and promptly started trying to bring different timelines together so all the heroes could hang out at Frostval. He also destabilised a bunch of timelines because he was merging them together. During these timeline merges, a bunch of MQ stuff showed up, including various characters having elements of their MQ appearances for periods of time.

However, as established, this was a case of timelines being merged together and, also as established, there is more than one MQ timeline.

Therefore, this was not the before-the-Reset of the Dragonfable timeline being brought forth but rather a separate MQ timeline being brought in.

And that brings us to CyseRedux, in which Sys-Zero shows up in person and shares a bunch of nods with Cysero. This would suggest that they are aware that they are the same person. However, this quest also features Blatant Breaking Of AE Multiversal Rules and Four Other Cyseros, so there’s A Lot Going On.

So. Here’s the thing. CyseRedux features DF Cysero, AQ Cysero, AQW Cysero, Sys-Zero, and Actual Real Life Staff Cysero In A Background Cameo.

It is explicit AE Multiverse Lore that there cannot be more than one instance of a person in a timeline at a time. If you jump to another timeline, your counterpart gets yanked to your timeline until you return. This comes up in A Tale of Two Timelines, for a DF source, but also comes up in the AQW Mirror World plotlines.

CyseRedux is a case of Cysero blatantly and flagrantly breaking this rule. Because Cysero gets to break any and all rules of reality as he wishes and it’s great.

Which means that we have two options here. The AQ and AQW Cyseros are from other, separate timelines. So it would be logical that the Sys-Zero who shows up is also from a separate MQ timeline. However, he could be from the DF timeline’s pre-Reset MQ, without it presenting a problem to the impossibility of intra-timeline travel across the Reset, because Cysero is already breaking the rules.

4. Conclusion

I just infodumped to you for over a thousand words about timeline mechanics in a bunch of indie flash-based video games and it is currently past four in the morning in my timezone. I have Special Interest Brain so badly.

#dragonfable #I really need to get around to having a specific Reset tag #.....actually you know what there's a tag I haven't used for a while that belongs here #tmae overanalyses dragonfable #*looks at This Whole Thing* I've been out of university for a year and a half and apparently I miss academia #oh boy I hope linking to cite my sources doesn't stop this showing in the tag #I specified about the counterpart-timeline-swap thing bc I didn't want to sound like the geochemists in that one xkcd #okay now that I've got this out of my system I am CHECKING OUT FOR THE NIGHT #TIME TO USE THE SLEEP #oh wait midnight happened #happy disability pride month everybody here's me being Extremely Autistic

[relicsongmel]

I'm 25 today

#mel's musings #half of my twenties are over thank god #and i'm the sister iris age now!!!!! which of course i planned for. i have nails for the occasion <3 #might treat myself later by looking through her tag(s) a little bit #and i need to listen to some handel arias too. we share a birthday funnily enough #if i was REALLY feeling frisky i'd pull out my old scores and practice some but i already spent the whole morning belting mamma mia #so i'm a bit sung out. but rest assured i WILL be getting back into my classical repertoire eventually #it's been several months and i really miss doing it. can't wait to get my license so i can do voice lessons again

[stockholmgf]

:)

#feeling good about this year guys #i was jotting down any future schedule conflicts i’d have this year for work #went to put down my family’s birthdays and realized most of them happen after i leave for school #which obviously i was aware was coming up but it hit! still 8 months to go but i’m so excited #went apartment shopping with the future roomie today! #and i am SO FCKING EXCITED ABOUT THAT PLACE #the location on campus is PERFECT and i’m in a stem community that offers me so many resources i am so excited and lucky #and i just miss my campus so much i can’t wait to get back #i’m applying for labs and scholarships and internships #and it’s hard to keep myself focused on present times i keep forgetting i have a whole semester and a half to go but whatever #classes start next week i’m excited! #i only have 4 this semester. 2 of them are 5 credits but whateve #i made a friend that’s gonna sit with me in one of my classes and i think that’ll be nice #someone to hold me responsible #might add a chemistry major? we’ll see how this sem goes! #feelin happy! well rested eating well drinking water and reading more! #happy new year <3

[coffeeworldsasaki]

It's not like I'm not happy that they're publishing more danmei novels in English but if SevenSeas doesn't stop before adding more series how many fucking months will be of waiting between volumes of the same series if they don't stop

#we started with 3 months between volumes which was fine! but now we're at 5 and having to wait over a year and a half to have the whole spl #WHICH IS JUST 4 VOLUMES #it's kind of annoying #I'll be old before i can start reading erha

[thirteens-earring]

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#not to immediately contradict my last post bc I really did have a good year it’s just been a shitty week but #my great uncle died a few days ago and he had a long and awesome life but obviously its still very sucks #90-i don’t even know what sharp as a whip til the end #he was an engineer but he loved to talk art with me #he was very invested in my whole getting-my-academic-shit-together and half of me wonders #if he waited until my finals were over to get the hell out of here just so I couldn’t use that as an excuse. asshole #anyway his funeral is this weekend and it’s gonna be hard bc we lost someone else on that side of the family way too young and way too fast #just a couple months ago #so :// sucks. but he was awesome and his life was awesome

[hopefulqueer]

hey google how do i stop feeling like everything is hopeless and falling apart because of one complicated setback to the point where i cant bring myself to do anything else to progress on the thing even though i absolutely need to

#personal #got incorrect instructions a while ago abt clearing a class requirement for graduation #now i'm supposed to graduate in a week and a half #and they're telling me i fucked up and might not graduate this term #i still need to do my last 2 weeks of schoolwork and finals #but i just cant make myself do anything #and i cant stop panicking and crying. i just wanted to be done with this. #it's been over six years i've been clawing my way towards this fucking degree #even if i DO have to wait another 4 months it's not like it's the end of the whole world #but it really really feels like the end of the whole world #and i dont know what to do

[sanchoyo]

as a little early xmas present to myself I sent my switch in to get fixed…bc the ground shipping time to get to the other side of the country + the estimated time it’ll take to get fixed + the slow ground shipping BACK it’ll be like. Probably over a month right. But I’m rly hoping they CAN fix it 😭 it’s been like a year and I’ve missed my bideo gaems 😔

#the problem was def smth with hardware I think like it would make a frightening popping noise then just shut off … #it would stay on for like 1-2 mins before then and did show it was charging…battery issue?? #idk it’ll just suck if I wait like a month and a half and then get told they CANT fix it yk #I don’t wanna have ot buy a new one I like my lil switch lite it’s cute it’s Green 💅 #at least they don’t charge if they can’t fix it they just send it back #I’m trying to be patient but I am Not 🧍🏻 I miss animal crossing #catch me redesigning my whole ac island when I get it back #sanchoyorambles

[dangaer]

dude how is amnes.ia month almost over.

#❛ 𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐒𝐓𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒 ⧽ — ooc. #ME CRYING BC I DIDNT GET TO DO HALF OF WHAT I WANTED BC i am a.) a fool and b.) easily distracted #i was going to post hcs and maybe one drabble of a day if i got enough muse for it #i was originally gonna play a route for the whole of the month and match up to the days but even then ... my switch is dying #i think i might play amnesi.a later next month instead. i gotta give it a shot but also .... ive had it for a year omg #maybe ill do a non shin route but knowing me: my unfinished shin playthrough sitting on the og game on switch #anyway i will save up to my next amnesia holiday. shins birthday #november ... just you wait #TBD #sorry for being rlly neg on this blog recently!! ive got a coupl of things i wanna do on my other blog but then im going back on track<3

[pinkseas]

girl help i started thinking Too Much about the fic avert your eyes

#im doomspiraling #or w/e the fuck youd call it #it feels Boring and mediocre and like none of the plot is actually captivating #its not mysterious or weird it just feels predictable #half of the scenes are repeating themselves its just the same stupid shit #its Flat theres no real emotion no stakes nothing youre waiting for its just. something you skim over and click away from #ugh. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i dont do this too often anymore but the further i get into the fic the worse its gonna get #because ill be rereading my own shit over and over and itll feel less impactful and more predictable #and then its So Hard To Tell whats GENUINELY bad and what im just bitching about #im going to explode #watch me spend months talking about this and writing it and then i FINALLY have it done and its just. neutral face emoji through and through #<- too braindead to find the right words to describe how im Feeling and the emotion or lack of such the fic will invoke #god help me fr #ughgghhgghghhghgghghghhhgghghghghgh #itd also be So Much Easier if i didnt have that whole Thing with lying and constantly assuming ppl r lying to spare my feelings :sob: #like i could trust someone to the moon and back but if they read it over and liked it my brain would just. #'theyre lying its awful its so bad theyre embarrassed for you and they dont even know where to start which is why theyre lying abt it' #'its so fucking indescribably awful and no one will ever tell you and youll live in ignorance of the fact' #like girl. GIRL. #GET A GRIP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #ive gotten soooooo much better with so much of my shit but that one has persisted through so much #gonna try talking to my therapist about it in a couple days bc its Been a problem #like fr my writing will get complimented and i jump instantly to 'theyre lying and it sucks' GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!! #i am Not Special Enough that people would go THAT far out of their way to lie to my face and make me feel better #<- exact same thought i had last time when a bunch of ppl spent months lying to my face to spare my feelings abt Really Important Things #praying that no one reads this far down the tags and if u have ermmmmm dorry im having a hashtag girl moment u know how it is #ill delete this in the morning when i am Sane again

[escapism2k3]

So if any other autists have the cheatcode on how to continue your day when the morning went totally awry and ruined your routine lmk

#i had the whole day planned out and even the rain wouldnt stop me #and then strangers had to enter my apartment to work on windows they just installed last month bc they didnt do it right the first time #i hadnt even had breakfast yet and now im sat in my room while they make weird window working and painting noises and im stressed lmao #ajckrlalxlwwoforpqjdwkwpfkdjflsiwannakmsskckaspfwir #not art #personal #im just stuck waiting for whatever a half hour means to them bc its clearly not 30 minutes 🥹😭😭😭😭

[biancabelairs]

man i'm so ready for forbidden door to be over and for it to hopefully never happen again lmao

#it's not even that it's not for me to begin with #that i expected #and i know the injuries stuff has fucked with them but GOD that still doesn't justify how dogshit the booking has been for the past month #like the will okada be there or won't he stuff culminating in a fatal four way #when hangman/okada and cole/white singles matches would have had actual storylines attached is fucking bizarre #and all the 'haha hangman and cole won't be my opponents' jay white promos. only for them to be two of his opponents lmao #okay???? #also #the way jericho keeps throwing himself in the sparse as it is build for matches he has NOTHING to do with is BIZARRE #and so much of that card are just nothing matches lmao like???? the FUCK at the bucks one #they're not even the tag team in that faction that's been feuding with sting and darby over the past month lmao #like godddddd this whole half assed build to a half assed card has just led to the three worst dynamites since i started watching tbh #and it's just. a bummer lmao i can't wait for shit to hopefully go back to normal #ANYWAY at least christian was very sexy and very evil. KING. #aew #text post

[danzafila]

u ever just. cut off half a foot of hair and feel like an entirely new person afterwards

#GOD i've been waiting a whole month bc i don't like having short hair for races and it took forever afterwards to get an appt scheduled #truly. freeing #i actually do it all the time bc my hair grows so fuckin fast lol #mb not always 6 whole inches (i think it was actually only 4 this time) but my hair's so damn thick/there's SO much it still feels like it #ANYways. glad to see the local resident bush family FINALLY pulled down their fuckin youngkin sign #god republicans are both such sore losers AND winners. they had that damn thing up for half a year past the election #anyone wanna go egg their gate we can hit up the local scotus's houses while we're at it #sto parlando #poste personale

[florida3exclamationpoints]

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#i didn't get spotify til i was 17 in college with a job #bc the student plan was cheaper and i finally had money #i had asked my mom for it like once or twice over a few years #but also i felt bad asking for a monthly subscription #so i waited til i could get it myself #well then i lost my student plan but i kept payong for it anyway #and then there was a few months sale for a 2 account plan #and even now that the sale has ended its still cheaper for me to pay for half of the 2 person plan than the whole personal one #so my sister (it was indeed her idea. bc she was getting along perfectly fine being logged into my acc on her phone. #which was a better deal than me using pandora or free spotify or youtube music til i was 17 but) #my sister asked my mom to pay for half of the 2 person plan for her #so now every month. i get a bill from spotify. and i request half of it from my mom #she just asked me if you can pay for the whole year at once #and i said idk man but i dont wanna do that bc i dont have a job rn!!!! im not trying to drop 50 bucks #and she said . she might be willing to pay for all of it . just bc she doesn't like the extra 8 dollars monthly #which. whatever. that would be nice ig #but the way..... i barely wanted to ask and was told no ... and waited til i could pay for it myself... and dealt with the inconvenience #....... for years . and never complained #but now that My Sister. The Youngest. wants a precious spotify account. #my mom will pay for a year for 2 accounts. . for Her #:) alright

[foone]

I see a lot of people joking about the adhd thing of "I have a appointment/phone call at 3pm, guess I won't do anything all day!"

But no one seems to make the connection that it's a time blindness thing. One of the symptoms of ADHD is not having a good and accurate sense of time. And not doing stuff prior to an event with a hard deadline is an obvious coping mechanism for that.

Can I go to the store? It's 10am and the appointment is at 3pm. How long does going to the store take? An hour? Three hours? Five hours? I DON'T KNOW!

I get anxious trying to do things before appointments because I'm aware that I don't know how long those things take, and that if I think I do, I may be very wrong. Too often I've been like "hey I can walk to the corner store and grab a drink, that'll take like 15 minutes!" and then an hour later I get back and whoops my rice has burnt.

Plus there's also the fact that ADHD people know that motivation and focus is a two-edged sword.

Like, let's say you decide to play a video game. You've got time, you can pause/save whenever, so this should be a perfect fit to make good use of your waiting-time. So you start playing and WHOOPS you get really focused for some reason today (because people with ADHD do not get to pick when their brain decides to focus) and the next time you look at the clock it's 2:49 and you haven't showered or dressed and the appointment is 30 minutes away. Fuck. (you could have set an alarm, but now you're asking people with the forgetting-things-and-time-ignoring condition to remember it set alarms)

And with motivation, it can be almost worse. Instead of playing a game, you so something useful or creative. You clean your room or fix your plumbing or write a story or draw a picture. And suddenly it's great. Your brain is firing on all cylinders. You've got all the motivation you can ask for, and you are FLYING. the ideas are brilliant, your hands are nimble, you're getting stuff done you've been putting off for weeks or months. And then the alarm goes off. Time to go to your appointment. Fuck.

You drive there, your brain still full of ideas and plans. But by the time you get back, the motivation is gone. You may still have the ideas but you don't have the drive to write them down. You can't force yourself to do it. Your sink is still in pieces. Your room is half-cleaned, and you have to shove all the sorted clothes into one big bin just so you have somewhere to sleep. You've left things half finished again, in a cycle that has been repeating your whole fucking life. It seems sometimes that nothing ever gets finished.

So next time you don't even start. There's not time. You've been burnt too many times. Why add another half-completed project to your pile of shame?

My point is that people seem to be going "lol I can't do anything all day if I have an appointment at 3pm" like this is a quirky "oh I'm so scatterbrained!" weirdness they alone have, and not a major complication of a disabling mental illness.

(and that's not even getting into the secondary effects. If you know that having an appointment ruins your whole damn day, you're going to avoid them. Even when it's things like "going to that party" or "meeting your friends for a drink/game" or "going to a movie with that cute girl from your math class". Things you should enjoy. Things that'd help you be social. Things that make you feel human.)

#ADHD