#THE WAY I GOT SO SHY WHEN I SAW UR ASK WILLOW OMG JSHBDGJSADF I ASSOCIATE BKG WITH U SO MUCH 😭😭😭

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SEL SEL I AM EYEING THAT EXES TO LOVERS BAKUGOU WIP SOOOO HARD RN 👀👀👀👀✨️

based off this post i made on my wips!

hELP the way you all went 😳👀 at the bkg wip 😭 (tbh i get it... he's so cute... i miss him all the time...) @willowser @kedsandtubesocks @acerathia

i consider this fic my love letter to bakugo 🥺

i say that because, i think this fic will bear a lot of how i view bakugo under the themes of regret and reconciliation (something i really want to explore with him!) & i think the exes to lovers trope lends well to that!!

it's set in canon, so pro-hero!au (because idt i'm very creative with au's 🤧) & takes place around his mid-20's! you start dating fresh off ua after working together during an internship. there's definitely a connection, and bakugo definitely has a crush, but of course he's not going to say anything—even when everything about your dynamic is shifting into something more than just friends.

you admit to the feelings first, but don't put a label on it, convincing him that nothing really has to change anyway from how you've already been acting. bakugo can't take the ambiguity though, and probably says something like 'so we datin' or sum shit?'.

then he breaks up with you 2 years later. it's a lot of things piled up til the trigger point and what sucks is that it's all him. there's nothing really wrong with the relationship—in fact, it's good. but there are a lot of things he still regrets, and even more things he hasn't fully forgiven himself for. he projects that a lot onto the relationship and where it's going, and he just thinks, he won't be good for it, or you.

you respect it, and the saddest part is you still work closely together so you see each other a lot and the dynamic is still so good. as in, he passes you by the hall and his shoulders relax, the creases between his brows smoothening by memory—your habit of flattening them down with your fingertips. and it goes on like this for a few years as he attempts to work through things on his own (in a way, he's kinda forced himself to confront everything) until it's an achingly slow realisation that there's still something missing (you).

sidestory! i was actually just contemplating on scrapping this entire thing, bc i didn't feel super confident with my grasp on him and the direction i wanted to take w his characterisation (especially since i think he'll be mellower, maybe a bit sadder and frustrated instead of angrier?). but!! i think, there's a lot to unpack with him, and i feel like i tend to gravitate towards the softer parts of a character when i write them anyway 🥺🤧 i am hoping!! crossing my fingers!! that i bring justice to writing him this way 🥺

this idea came from a set of songs i put in a playlist bc they felt very ~ex-bkg (whatever that meant at the time 😭) but this is probably what's influencing the tone too sdjhgbadj

and a very small snippet!

#THE WAY I GOT SO SHY WHEN I SAW UR ASK WILLOW OMG JSHBDGJSADF I ASSOCIATE BKG WITH U SO MUCH 😭😭😭 #AND ERIKA. THE WAY MY JAW DROPPED. HELPPPPPPPPP the gojo server is going into disarray over light haired men #and ru! how sweet of you to come by and ask abt it too 🥺 #i didnt want to get super into the nitty gritty bc its a lot of character analysis that i am still hashing out in my head!! sdjhgbsajd #but it's regret and reconciliation with himself as much as it is for the relationship !!! #omg i am so nervous sharing this rAI NAO sadhfbasjdf everytime i think abt my characterisation of him i worry its ooc.... #I feel like this is a bit self-indulgent that way sdhbsadj #anyway thank u to augustine for reviving this sjahdbgsajd if i didnt talk abt this with augustine i think i'd have trashed it #and dilly and soph for reassuring me 🥺 #and niku for being there everytime i have characterisation worries jhsdbgajsd #ask #rep #willowser #kedsandtubesocks #acerathia #willow.🌱 #erika.🦇