#Sound Real. this is fanfiction city i'm afraid. and shounen manga

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dear google duckduckgo how to love and feel loved because i'm at my wits' end at this point

#shrimp thoughts #i can only assume y'all're lying about feeling so loved and safe and cherished when surrounded by your friends/family because it Doesn't #Sound Real. this is fanfiction city i'm afraid. and shounen manga #if anything when someone does something for me that i didn't ask for i feel Great Discomfort because i don't deserve it #like this is genuinely wonderfu of u and thank you for this gesture but a/ again i am not worthy and b/ i will never be able to repay this #kindness because i am both an asshole AND an idiot who can't read people for shit AND i have no cool skills such as cooking #or being a good listener. my listener experience is saying 'wow that's fucked up' and 'want me to kill them for you' and thatse it #recently 've been told 'why do you think everyone's your enemy' incorrect! i don't! i don't think i'm interesting or important enough for #people to even think of me! i just don't want to bother anyone! which in return prompted a comment that This Is Severe Depression #no it's not. i dont think everyone's my enemy i just dont know how to make Allies. or what they Are in the first place mkay