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waiting game

fandom. law & order: svu

characters.. amanda rollins. sonny carisi. mia halstead. mentions of jack mccoy.

summary. The walls were a warm taupe color, at least they looked like a warm taupe. And the only reason she knew this was because she had been looking at the walls for the past half an hour, or maybe it was a couple of hours, she didn’t know anymore, time didn’t really seem to matter in this room right now. She and her husband had recently been looking at paint samples the last couple of weeks for their new house, and warm taupe was one of the colors she had been considering for the study. But now she wasn’t so sure about it. Not wanting to use a color that would remind her of this moment. Of a hospital waiting room.

a.n. SVU Summer Hiatus BINGO 2023 - Waiting Room square

Madeleine ‘Mia’ Stone is the younger sister of Will and Jay Halstead. She now lives and works in New York with Peter Stone, they've been together about four years and got married six weeks ago.

Although this is just a one shot written for the SVU Summer Hiatus Bingo 2023, I have plans to write a multi chaptered fic where a slightly altered version of this will appear. And will explain everything going on. So apologies for the cliff hanger, but it's necessary.

https://archiveofourown.org/collections/SVUSummerHiatus2023

*gif doesn’t belong to me.

The walls were a warm taupe color, at least they looked like a warm taupe. And the only reason she knew this was because she had been looking at the walls for the past half an hour, or maybe it was a couple of hours, she didn’t know anymore, time didn’t really seem to matter in this room right now. She and her husband had recently been looking at paint samples the last couple of weeks for their new house, and warm taupe was one of the colors she had been considering for the study. But now she wasn’t so sure about it. Not wanting to use a color that would remind her of this moment. Of a hospital waiting room.

To Mia it felt like they had been sitting there for days, and realistically she knew it hadn’t been that long, that it was hours and not days. It still felt that way as they waited for news. Waiting to be told that he had made it through surgery okay, or that he had died on the table. She tried not to, but she couldn’t help but picture the worst and feel it. The doors opening and the doctor stepping inside, sitting down in front of her on the coffee table. A look of maybe sympathy or sadness on his face as he delivered the bad news.

The feel of someone’s hand on her elbow startled her and she turned to look at the man sitting in front of her, his voice sounding familiar, half expecting to find a doctor sitting there. Except it wasn’t a doctor, it was Sonny Carisi, and he was looking at her in concern. It was then she realized he was talking to her, saying her name. She didn’t answer him at first, taking a couple extra seconds to examine the look on his face and in his eyes. There was something else there, other than concern, maybe guilt perhaps but she couldn’t be sure. He has nothing to feel guilty about.

‘’....I’m sorry Mia, I should have done something….’’

She finally found her voice then, cutting him off before he could finish. ‘’ Don’t….don’t do that. You have nothing to feel guilty about or apologize for. It wasn’t your fault, and I know he won’t blame you or want you to feel guilty. And neither do I. ‘’ The only person responsible for this, for putting her husband in the hospital and his life in danger was the person who pulled the trigger. Not Sonny. Mia hoped that he would take that in and accept it. That he would stop feeling guilty for something he wasn’t to blame for.

No, he would never blame Sonny for what happened.

Mia reached out, taking both of his hands into hers and giving them a gentle squeeze before letting go of them and offering him a watery smile. “ Are you okay? “ He had been standing next to her husband on the front steps of the courthouse when it happened, and while the gun hadn’t been pointed at him, and he hadn’t been hit, it still can’t have been easy to have been there and to watch it happen.

“ I should be the one asking you that, “ he told her, offering her a smile in return. “ But I’m okay. Are you alright? “

Was she alright? Part of her wanted to lie and tell him she was doing okay, but the moment the words left her mouth she knew that no one would believe her, they would see right through her lie. Because she was definitely anything but fine. She felt like she was falling apart a little inside every minute and hour that passed with no news.

‘’ I’m scared, I…’’ don’t want to be a widow. The last part was left unsaid, but perhaps he already knew that. Maybe they all did.

Six weeks. They had been married for six weeks, and while not the shortest marriage it wasn’t enough, she wanted more. She wasn’t ready to say goodbye to it or to her husband. Maybe she wouldn’t ever be ready to say goodbye to him. No matter how long they had been married for. She wasn’t ready to become a widow six weeks into her marriage. There were so many things they still wanted to do, places they wanted to see together. Children. They hadn’t had any in-depth discussions about children, but they had spoken about it a little, and she knew that he wanted them and he knew that she wanted them. They just weren’t ready yet.

He’s strong, a fighter. He’s going to make it right…oh god…I need him to make it. Please. Please baby, please don’t leave me.

Taking a seat beside her on the sofa, Amanda reached out and took hold of her hand and gave it a gentle squeeze, offering what support she could. She knew what it was like to be shot of course, but she had no idea what it was like to be in Mia’s position, at least not as a loved one. And she was thankful that she didn't have to wait like this, wait for news on whether her husband was going to live or die. Amanda was thankful that Dominic hadn’t been the one who’d been shot. Yet that meant someone else had, someone who had become a good friend and who she cared about. Mia was the one who was waiting for news on whether her husband was still alive or not, and she wouldn’t have wished that on her worst enemy.

But he was her friend too, and she was worried about him. Hoping that he made it through surgery okay. If holding her hand and offering what comfort to her she could, helped, then she would continue to do that. And maybe it helped her a little bit as well.

Another hour slipped by and Mia found herself pacing the room, probably on her third or fourth lap by now. There was only so much time a person could spend looking at the pictures and furniture around the room, and wonder where it came from. Wonder whether the photos had been done by a professional or an amateur photographer. This wasn’t her first time in a waiting room at the doctor's office or in a hospital, so surely she should be used to this, used to the long waits for news.

The first time her older brother had been injured while overseas serving with the Army Rangers. And then again a couple years later. When her mom had been diagnosed with cancer, one of the worst moments of her life - and she remembered hiding in her room and crying for hours, not wanting anyone to see her like that, especially her mom - and then the subsequent visits to the hospital for treatment. She and her older brother took it in turns to take their mom to appointments, when he wasn’t on deployment, their eldest brother wasn’t around.

The last few years had been rough at times, and more than once Mia had doubted whether she could handle it. Her mothers death, followed a few short years later by the death of her father - her father-in-law passing shortly before her father - she was an orphan now. But it had left a hole that she knew would never be able to fill. She would never get over her parents' deaths, but she was learning to come to terms with it and cope with it, every day. Meeting her husband in between her parents' deaths was one of the things that had gotten her through it. And then to almost lose him in a stabbing.

It was her father-in-law’s death that led to his move back to New York, and she followed him shortly after. He had accepted a job offer from Jack McCoy a couple days after his father’s funeral. It hadn't taken her long to decide to move with him. He had given her the option of staying in Chicago if she wanted, telling her to take her time with her decision, but by that point she had already made her mind up to go with him. And now here she was, hoping that she wasn’t going to be attending another funeral. She wasn’t sure she could handle losing anyone else.

The door to the waiting room suddenly opened, causing Mia to pause her pacing and move toward the door. This time it wasn’t her imagination when a doctor entered the room, dressed in blue scrubs and with a stethoscope around his neck, a serious expression on his face. This was what she had been waiting for, and now that someone was there to give her news of her husband, she wasn’t sure that she wanted to hear it. Oh god….It’s bad news isn’t it…he’s dead. Her stomach turned and she suddenly felt sick as he moved closer into the room.

‘’ Madeleine Stone, ‘’

Mia didn’t even bother to correct him on her name, at the moment it didn’t even matter, all she wanted to know right now was how her husband was. ‘’ Yes. Is he…’’ she trailed off, unable to get the words out. But he probably knew what she was getting at.

‘’ Your husband is alive, ‘’ the doctor began. He could tell by the look on her face that she needed the reassurance that her husband was still alive. ‘’ When your husband was brought in he had already lost a lot of blood from a GSW to the abdomen. The bullet caused damage to his liver, so we’ve gone in and repaired the damage and removed the bullet. He coded while on the table, but we were able to get his heart started again and right now he’s stable…..’’

He was alive and she was so relieved, she was, but she couldn’t help repeating his words over and over in her head. He coded. Clinically, for however long, her husband had died. And she couldn’t stop thinking about that. But he was alive and she hadn’t lost him. She knew that things could take a turn at any point, that he could take a turn for the worse. But for now he was alive, and right now she chose to only concentrate on that.

“ Can I see him? “

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