#SORRRRU

[jaymesdoodles]

idk how to talk about this but like. I love /r c!beeduo and stuff like I think more people are totally becoming more and more okay with realizing that cc!beeduo are okay with it. It was never really a problem. but there's the thing. I'm scared Shitless about what could happen if twitter ever found out. I'm not like other creators with a platform where if they get attacked or have callouts people WILL back them. They have a following. I've seen big artist get (wrongfully) called out and get back on their feet but someone small? yeah they don't manage as well. So I'm scared. Like you might be like "well stay on tumblr" and I am! I only ever talk about /r c!beeduo when I'm here but that's the thing too. I'm a content creator. As much as I'm a fan. I'm a content creator too. I am working on becoming a streamer and stuff. And one wrong move could jeopardize all of it. Like when the whole knifetrick stuff happened... I deleted everything on here which sucks now bc the art I made isn't on here. But I was so nervous about being added to a thread or something... Like I remember drawing c!beeduo on my twitch like two months ago and a bunch of you came over and I loved it but I was less nervous about the amout of people watching and more about if the wrong person would watch. People are fucking vicious on twitter and they don't discuss ANYTHING they make a thread or something and next thing you know everyone hates you. Like you think it wouldn't happened to someone small but I had a friend make joke dnf art (around the time people were doing it for likes and shit on purpose, it was a bit) and I commented "get your clout" Then someone in the fandom we were in before made a post saying me and my friend were sexualizing mlm/nlm (me and my friend were bisexual and liked men and literally nlm, besides that) we were both blocked by mutuals and Friends, kicked out of gcs and lost over 20 followers... it sucked. like a lot. That was over DNF. YEAH. DNF. so I cant imagine the wrong person finding out I interpret c!beeduo romantically and just decided to have a heyday...

tdlr; I don't want to get people mad at me or get a callout post because I decided that someone's minecraft roleplay characters are in gay romantic love. And I have incredible amounts of anxiety so Idk of this is even logical or just me being paranoid

#THIS IS SO LONG #IM SORRY #ive been thinkin about this for like 6 months #SORRRRU #jaymes talks