#Ok im holding u.... Only thing saving me is that my energy meter is too low to ever mommy someone with practical things

[mrfoox]

The older I get, the more I just realize that I am my mom

#miranda talking shit #No I'm not she's amazing and badass I could never but.... #Her in my caring ways. I just act more and more like a mom as I grow #Like her... I see a wounded. Lonely and sad person/creature and I am already trying to adopt it #It's a bit of a problem when I consider how I work... Romantically. If I compare her and dad's relationship... Ummm #I always say I don't want to end up in that kinda relationship but then I'm also on the sideline falling for everyone with some kind of #Problems ™. Last crush? Mommy issues deep ones among other things. #The one before that? Deppressed weed addict. The one before that? Um.... #Well we were teens so shan't say but definitely big... Troubles in family #I guess the wounded seek the wounded and whatever but like... Yeah #At one hand it's scary bc my mom just married the man with generational daddy issues #But also I struggle to se myself ever like someone who don't have some sort of... Either trauma or mental problems. #Bc I... Know people without it struggle so hard to understand and I need to be understood #I at least never think I can “fix” those people. It's never been about that for me... More like... Ah you can understand me in this pain? #But I am definitely dangerous for people who look for motherly care bc I'm literally just... #Ok im holding u.... Only thing saving me is that my energy meter is too low to ever mommy someone with practical things #I'll get you a glas of water and tie your shoes occasionally but bitch I ain't cleaning your messes #I barely clean my own... #At one hand i hate being this way bc... I don't have kids like why would I need to nurture. But then someone compares me to an mother and #I'm crying. To me being compared to an mom is like them saying they know I love them unconditionally. They are saying they see I care #I know it's meant as an joke or half insult but each time I'm like (: yeah... Good that my love is reaching you