#Nikolai; hurting with love: (kiIIs the people he loves; consciously hurting himself even worse than he was hurting beforehand)

[yeonban]

How do you view love?

DAN HENG: Soft.

Love that is welcoming, one that encompasses you in its warmth. The feeling of a warm mug after a cold day. Familiar huffs of laughter respond in the air as you lean on each other for balance. The feeling of falling on a soft bed of clouds on a nice sunny day. Of waves lapping at sand on a beach.

NIKOLAI: All encompassing.

"The enormity of my desire disgusts me." It consumes you. Thoughts that trace the same memory every waking second. Body engrained with muscle memory at even the slightest sound. Everything that is the earth reminds you of it. Courses through your body like fire, keeps you afloat and wanting, always wanting for more.

Tagged by: @scrtilegii MERSII!! Tagging: @oneireth (Caelus, Ratio and/or Youta), @quirkthieves (Nobimaru and Mioara), @skilledsenses (Ranpo), @antinomos (Fyodor) & @achroanimus, @gonguji, @rikyos & whoever else sees this and wants to do it!

#muse: dan heng. #muse: nikolai gogol. #* dan heng. / development. #* nikolai gogol. / development. #Blu... mă înnebunește faptul că DH și JY văd iubirea în același fel =))) ăstia doi sunt ca două boabe de orez frfr #NIKOLAI THO... (proceeds to take significant poison damage over time) #Thank you uquiz for proving me right once again in that Kolya feels everything INSANELY deeply and that's the reason behind his downfall #Nikolai; hurting with love: (kiIIs the people he loves; consciously hurting himself even worse than he was hurting beforehand) #Nikolai and his fake persona switching places every half a second: I want to love. No I don't. Yes I do. No... I Really Don't. But lowkey I #Narrator vc: He wants to love so badly but he knows the second he does it's all over for the other person. Bad ending moment