#My mother's brother was acting like a bitch for almost a year if noy more and my mom was so ruined over it. I wanted to make him hurt so

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My simple view on things sometimes is really a problem and I forget majority of people dont follow my logic....

#miranda talking shit #Best example is blood family/relatives. Imo.. If someone hurts you badly and makes you feel bad etc you dont owe then your #Love time and patience. However many don't... Think its that simple and i understand that though i cant relate. #Met many who thinks its bad im not talking with my dad and that i dont love/care for him etc but im like ??? He never did for me #Why should i put down precious energy and time on a person that haven't raised me or loved me? He should be glad i act civil for moms sake #I think of my friends as family more than my actual family. I trust my friends more than i would majority of my blood family #Only one id die for and do shit for is my mom bc she have always loved me and done her best both to raise and provide for me #Maybe I'll change my opinion as I grow or something but... For me its just ... Simple. I dont want to invest in people who make me feel bad #Or have hurt me. Only one i have started to forgive is my oldest brother but him and me have always had an less bad relationship so #Its easier to spend some time with him. Maybe people think im awful for this mindset and think its unlike me #Bc im generally a loving person who cherish people... But like. Not everyone is entitled to me and my time. I am not going to ruin myself #To try to get approval from people who have hurt me or just haven't tried to love me/know me. Not like i hate them #But i won't spend time to try to fix something that never have been whole to begin with i dont have that energy #Negative #???? Idk maybe #I think i get so mad with otherd people family who treat my friends bad. I understand i dont know that member #Like they do. Im sure theres many good memories involved too but i hear shit they have done and i want to end them #My mother's brother was acting like a bitch for almost a year if noy more and my mom was so ruined over it. I wanted to make him hurt so #Bad. But my mom is so family oriented she'd never want to leave anyone out whos family while i was like... Lol i lost what little respect i #Had for him now :) im the worst mix of extreme sides but also the most middle ground person idk how i function #With relationships and social things im usually like... Either i love you and I'd die for you or i dont really care (not that i hate you #But i dont have the time to use my energy on you so i dont engage) youre everything to me or you're just ... There #I'll talk with people i love intensely for a while then dont contact them for months. Not bc i hate them but bc im giving #Someone else i love attention and i am always so hyperfocused when i do it. The older i get the more i follow my vibe feeling #If someone feel like they take more energy than i can handle even if theg seem nice ... I will distance myself. I am just a tired binch