#Man idfkkkkk this shits complicated

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not delusional guy voice. guy who i maybe sort of like liked my birthday story Surely this is a good sign . (He has a girlfriend)

#crushes are weird for me #well obviously considering im probably aro #or at least on that spectrum #i never Expect anything to come from them #and at first it was solely insecurity like Can’t imagine them dating me (which . still true) but its more than that #its like people who i find funny and cute and enjoy talking to but when i think about Dating them? its a void #like i cant Imagine it . and its not even what i want like i want to Talk to them #so maybe i just want to be their friend? #but its a bit more like its clearly different than from other people i want to be friends with #its like i want to banter/bully them but. Not date them . does that make sense #in middle school when i fantasised about my crushes we didn’t go on dates we faced a zombie apocalypse together😭😭 #and even jusr dates and most romantic stuff doesnt feel appealing to me but . Having someone you can be intimate & sorta flirt with does #Basically what i want with these ‘crushes’ is like. a friend that i banter/flirt with and also bully #Man idfkkkkk this shits complicated #especially when you have absolutely 0 experience bc youre chronically undateable so theres not rly any reference grounds😭😭😭