#Katie is rambling 2k24

[tundrakatiebean]

Ok y’all can keep a secret right? I’m gonna tell you something

I’m making a dice bag for my boyfriend as a gift and I got this apple fabric so I could make a pun but now I’m making one of the apples into an applin because applin has lore to it where you give one to someone you like :3 yes I am excessive thank you for noticing

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #I’m SEWING

[tundrakatiebean]

Ok things I think will happen if AI actually trains on tumblr text:

Text programs will start autocorrecting to Capitalize Words in the middle of a sentence

Car will start suggesting car door hook hand as a common phrase

“Read More” will be suggested as a break in text

Ingredience will start being an accepted spelling for ingredients

Georg becomes a common spelling of George

Punctuation is GONE she has left the building

We single handedly undo like 70% of the weird self censoring that’s all over the rest of the internet. Sex makes a comeback.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #tumblr the dumpster fire

[tundrakatiebean]

I just really don’t think I’m cut out to be a person lol I think I was meant to be some sort of moss and there was a mix up

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #another one of those days #it’s wild to me how I’ll go like two solid weeks thinking I’m doing pretty well #and being well adjusted #and then something unexpected will happen #and I just deflate like an overstretched novelty balloon

[tundrakatiebean]

I am a lava lamp right now. I do not know how to describe that further at this moment but I’ll get back to you.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #something about two very separate liquids reacting different warm and cold #and the fun part being congealed and useless when the lamp is cold #but the clear boring stuff stays the same #having to do with masking around difficult people #I’ll figure it out better than that if I think about it hard enough

[tundrakatiebean]

Every single artist I follow on threads: wow this place is so supportive and nice 🥰 let’s keep it that way and not let any of the twitter drama in here!

The same artists:

And like a TON of other artists are in the notes giving tips about how to not get caught dumpster diving or speculating wildly about this poor person whose only crime is existing where someone else can see them.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #this is WILDLY inappropriate #both on like a fundamental human level #AND on a professional page for an artist #like I get I’m not perfect all the time #and I’m more open than is normal often #but at least I’m not forming roving internet bands of gossip hounds #I made a comment and I think I’m gonna unfollow the people that I follow who are being gross in the replies #I do not feel comfortable with that kind of behavior

[tundrakatiebean]

Do y’all remember that very attractive guy with the sexiest voice in the world telling off a guy on tiktok for dismissing fat women?

He sings I guess. I need to go lay down.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #tiktok

[tundrakatiebean]

Not me getting frustrated I didn’t know where I set my pen and then stabbing my chin on it because I shoved it down the center of my bra

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #I am going to turn into the joker #there are too many noises #everyone keeps talking at me #and there’s lawn work #and something on the tv #I was not built for society

[tundrakatiebean]

Me, pulling small pieces of fuzz off my face trying not to cry: I am stronger than this velvet. I can sew it. I’m smarter than the velvet. I can sew it.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #gonna be worth it but oh my god #only buying upholstery velvet from now on #it’s sooo much easier to work with for this #sewing #sewing problems

[tundrakatiebean]

Man my serotonin pls file has gotten so fat this week. Everybody being so niceies to me.

(I have a folder where I save screenshots etc of nice things people say to me so I can prove my depression/anxiety brain is lying to me when it says all my friends hate me and I’m unlovable. It’s called “serotonin pls”)

#Katie is rambling 2k24

[tundrakatiebean]

Am very happy :)

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #trying to actively document good things #to balance our all the depression venting I also did on this blog #ship name applesauce #ever have 30 italicized oh moments in a week? because hooboy I have been

[tundrakatiebean]

I made a maybe bad decision we’ll see lol and made a horny side blog finally. Mutuals and pals are welcome to DM for the username but I’m gonna try to keep it separate from this username since it is kinda business related now

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #I’ve only been saying I should for years lol #the username is fucking stupid lol but it’s what I thought of that wasn’t a connection to my username #this is the problem with using the same username for almost 20 years lol

[tundrakatiebean]

Alright I hit my limit. Today is gonna be the day I have a meltdown.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #I am going to chew through the walls

[tundrakatiebean]

We are going to play a dangerous game today lol I’m gonna wear a crop top (with a lace tank underneath) around my dad who has said if he sees I have a tattoo I’m out of the will. The tank top says “bad genes” on the front and “terrible dna” on the back :)

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #I don’t think my tattoo is really visible unless you know it’s there to look for it #so it’ll be fine lol #I just need to act out

[tundrakatiebean]

Saying it again - despite all the bullshit I’m dealing with I’m still very happy. I have so many great people around me that I may be temporarily frustrated but I get to have pops of happy throughout the day talking to people who really care about me and get to end the day swapping memes and compliments with someone who means a lot to me. I’m gonna be ok 😊

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #also everyone bully me about drinking water tomorrow #my usual routine is busted so I’ve been really bad about it

[tundrakatiebean]

Invented a new way to hold my mug because my thumb still hurts lol bets on how long before I just spill all my coffee down my front?

#mah face #Katie is rambling 2k24

[tundrakatiebean]

Alright I’m just gonna say this because I think saying something might help? Instead of me just hiding everything and pretending I’m fine because I don’t want to bother people

I am full on in a depression spiral that started last night around my dad coming to visit. I’m safe. I’m not gonna do anything in the harm realm. But I am having a very rough brain time rn. I know I can get through this, I know I’ll be ok, but I’m having to fight my brain extra hard. So just like call me out if I’m being really mean to myself please. It helps slow the spiral down a bit.

#Katie is rambling 2k24 #also feeling weirdly guilty about some stuff which is mildly connected #but like it’s fine #it’s not actually something I need to feel guilty about #just life stuff and my brain being mean