#Jay had to save me back there! Jay! 😨

[jalluzas-ferney]

WAIWAEAITIWIAA CAN I TOUCH ON THE SUBJECT OF SOME PPL THINKING KAI IS SOME KIND OF BULLY TOWARDS JAY OR SMTH AND HOW STUPID THAT IS

like tbh lately I haven’t seen really any of that LATELY - but I remember some time ago someone had posted a gif of like the fight between Kai and Jay in Crystallized and like I think specifically the part where Jay starts the fight by fucking kicking Kai across the room (for accidentally dropping a glass of water and who btw gen apologized for immediately 😁)

Okok so some, if not a lot of ppl, in the comments/reblogs were like “ouh yeah way to go jay 🤗🥳” “It doesn’t surprised me that he’s finally standing up for himself after all that bullying from Kai after so many years 🥺” “oh Kai deserves it for always teasing-“ yeah yeah BLAH BLAH BLAH you get the GIST

and OOHHH that RREAAALLY pushed some buttons for me cuz WHAT💀💀💀💀💀BAHAH BE SO FUCKING FR IM SORRY BUT WHAT😭😭😭

Y’all the ninja have always made fun of each other like- the whole series. And if it looks like Kai goes especially after jay or whatever- yeah- it doesn’t surprise me that he would be poking even more fun at the man dating his sister 😭😭ESPECIALLY knowing him? Like hello 💀

But he’s even SUPPORTIVE of their relationship - are y’all forgetting how he literally helped Jay practice to propose Nya to be his Yang 😭😭😭😭

And OHH - have we perhaps forgotten ab how when jay was fucking DROWNING while he was trying to get out of the situation- he LITERALLY thought to himself “what would kai do?” LIKE BRO HE LOOKS UP TO HIM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 BEFORE THINKING- “oh what would master Wu do or Zane do” -he was like- “no- what would Kai do?”

And YAALLLL wanna erase this bond they have 😨😨 NUH UH NONE OF THAT - y’all are not about to pretended Kai is some kind of huge bully towards your “little baby boy jay “or whatever as if they don’t love each other at all (as brothers/bsfs)

(I’m kinda scared of posting this cuz I don’t wanna come off as aggressive but this legit makes me laugh so damn hard cuz of how STUPID it is 😭😭)

#I get that Kai can be an arrogant little piece of shit at times srs 💀 #but dude it was never that deep 😭 they obviously care for each other and support each other #like I get it- that one hoje for example where he was like #Jay had to save me back there! Jay! 😨 #and jays like #well that’s a strange way of saying thank you 😃 #but y’all it was never that deep 😭 #No one’s saying he’s in the right cuz like damn way to say that u think he’s the weakest 💀 #but overall their whole banter is…normal…it’s normal older younger siblings behavior in way uk #like just admit Jay just kicked Kai across the damn room cuz he was actually convinced Nya was in that damn glass of water #and that he overreacted at kai doing one small mistake 💀 #not because #oh he has finally snapped at him after all that teasing 🥺🥺🤯🥳🙂😣😣 #like I’m so sorry but that is NOT THE CASE💀💀💀💀💀 #ninjago #lego ninjago #ninjago kai #kai Ninjago #kai smith #kai jiang #jay ninjago #ninjago jay #Jay walker #jay gordon #Lego #rant

[lunarifie]

Rewatching Ninjago

(With no context other than the episode)

The Tournament of Elements episode 7-8

Speed man: The ninja were right this wasnt about us winning. This was something sinister 😨

Shadowman: What gave it away. His cult following or his giant snake head.

HFJDJFBDJNF

Kai: Tell me one thing. Was it his plan to make me fall for you, or yours. Because it worked.

DAMN KAI THAT WAS SMOOTH AS FUCK

Goofy side character cult activists my beloved. Who are their voice actors because someone needs to get those two a lead job

Kapow and Chope my beloveds

Jay: its not work if you love what you do 😌 the power of positive thinking

Jay nerding over Zanes new look is adorable

Jay: a roto jet? But arent we underground?

Cole: THATS WHAT IVE BEEN SAYING

Metal man(karloff): what happened to positive thinking huh?

Why does Chen have Zanes pink gi

How does chen have zanes pink gi

Headcannon that Zane or Kai steals it on their way out

Kai YAWNED during Chens evil speech

Idk if that was adhd or audacity but i love it

Chen you manipulative asshole stop using lloyd and his parents to fucking persuade Kai

The cliche ‘GO! ILL HOLD THEM OFF!’ Leaving the most important character to fight for himself

I dont remember what happens at all so im excited

Goddddd

Lloyd: you, you turned Kai against me!?!?

He must have felt so betrayed.

Kai: itll all make sense when this is over.

Ik you have a plan Kai but you better have an apology

So tempted to draw this exchange

Dont the og anacondrai actually get pissed that Chens trying to be a poser or smth

I keep forgetting Lloyds a kid and then his voice actor drops the most child-like line ever and a piece of me breaks inside

(Nya and Garmadon tied up to a pole surrounded by the boned remains of Chens pet snake)

This…. Is fucked up.

I think I would quite literally go insane after this

Kai's guilt. Nyas hurt.

The rbg siblings are splitting apart and it's killing me.

Garmadon is so worried for his son, for Lloyd that he went as far as threatening Skylers life, but even then, he can't because he’s changed.

He's such a good character and I wish they didn't just revert him back to his evil self.

Also, the fact that Chens daughter was in potential danger and he let Garmadon man-handle her is just

I'm glad she's not under his care anymore

Kai: I had to! He said he would let you free Nya

(Proceeds to walk away as Chen doesn't set her free)

At least he has a plan

Nickname 1: tiger

I Like this one bc im pretty sure tiger is Coles symbol and the tiger sashay is the move that he accomplished when he unlocked his true potential

So it makes sense

I'm so glad ninjago hadn't formed it's expressive animation style yet bc I know Lloyd would have looked helpless instead of vacantly angry as kai stood in front of him and that would have destroyed me

Ik Kai had a plan but he didnt know that Cole and zane would come to save Nya and Garmadon and it would have been tragic if he was able to save Lloyd, but came back to another sibling as bones

Nya: Zane! Youre back!

Zane: what! What is on my back?

I love him

Kai: Hey Chen! You forgot one element. The element of surprise!

The master of surprise from the movie popping out of nowhere: SURPRISE!

And then surprise saves the day

Thats exactly how it goes.

Jk jk lol Skyler fucking totals her dad and Kai steals the staff

Its crazy that Kai held every element and was able to use them

i dont remember the power corrupting him holy shit thats scary

Lloyd looks terrified

Hes fighting the curroptness so hard good for him

HE ALMOST HIT LLOYD

Hell yeah theyre all back babyyyy

Zanes doing the funny switch song again 🥹

Wait why are they sinking all their escapes to leave

BFJSNFJDJF

“We’re not stuck on this island with you, youre stuck on this island with US.”

Oh how the turn tables

Skyler(rattles her chains)

The guards watching her: AAHJSENE

Skyler: … i need, to scratch my face. 🤨

The guards (uses their swords to scratch her face)

Skyler (loudly): thank you :)

Other guards 🤨😠

Okay but the way skyler is so used to her fathers manipulation, that she could easily tell that it was an act to take her power Is honestly heartbreaking

Having to walk on eggshells all the time

Jesus christ they implied the transaction could kill her

I absolutely despise chen now hes such a shit bag father

GO SKYLER GO FUCK YEAH

Pixal: Zane! You have to drive slower! I cant predict the obstacles!

Zane: theres no time!

Zanes really betting on that ‘its not about numbers, its about family’ idealogy

Aaaand he fell. In a cave.

WHAT NO DONT LEAVE HIM WTF.

Kai: Shes more important!

I GET SHES IN DANGER BUT YOU HAVE A SECOND TO HELP YOUR FRIEND

This is the cave in his dreaaaam

Oh shit is he hallucinating?

God poor Zane can you imagine having someone in your head telling you what you see isnt real but it feels real

JESUS CHRIST WHAT ARE THE RUNNING SAWS FOR DONT YOU WANT SKYLER ALIVE??????

Skylers so cool

Clouse (on the roto jet): a bit of a breeze up here! I wonder who will last longer.

Garmadon: How about neither! (Tackles clouse AGAIN)

Okay but Kai and Skyler actually have some chemistry and their legitimately cute

Teamwork and banter always gets me

Okay nvm Kapow and Chope suck

Garmadons not ACTUALLY gonna go to the cursed realm

Right?

THIS.

THIS was a learning experience for Garmadon

I truly believe hes ridden with guilt and a small part of him doesnt find himself worth the same as others. Which is why he always does ‘self sacrificial’ plays, throwing himself in more danger to take the enemy down.

This moment i thought he was gonna do the same thing but instead, he pulled Clouse in the portal and used him as leverage to pull himself out. I think he realized and grew from this.

Pixal: youre not afraid of dragons, you used to have one.

THATS WHAT IM SAYIIING

This is so similar to someone talking someone down from a panic attack, go pixal.

She really just kept using logic and it helped.

I think this was to show that Zane changed and grew. He’s still the white ninja but hes no longer the person he was before his trauma, now hes someone else ‘the titanium ninja.’

If i had a nickel for everytime Zane ‘found himself’ id have two nickels. Which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice right.

Something tells me itll happen more than twice.

Aaaand theyre all anacondrai

Oh shit i forgot Garmadon has the tattoo/worked with chen

Jay: first its four arms. Then you became a dragon! would you mind picking a body and sticking with it please!

jays transphobic confirmed /j

Kapow and Chope: WE LOOK SO COOL!

Kai: youre both still ugly! (Blasts them)

Look! Its skylers snake-jay-insecure arc

Jay: they took the roto jet and all of the blade copters!

Yes jay, thank you, we can see that.

Jay im begging you to stfu rn pls i love u but just stfu

Ohhhhh it was Zanes energy dragon.

Honestly if lloyd was never the green ninja id think Zane would be the most qualified

It seems so weird for all of then to just magically get their dragons rn

WAIT THEY CAN ALLLLL MAKE THE DRAGONS

WHAT

i feel like this makes ‘wtf happened to the other elemental masters after’ a lot more important

Kai: Chen said only one could remain, well, we are one!

Love that

#dw i hc jays trans #ninjago #lego ninjago #Rewatching Ninjago

[punkscowardschampions]

Mattie & Lulu

Mattie: Hey, I ran into your matron and she said she’d had to send you home really poorly; are you okay?

Mattie: I assume you went to grandma and grandpa’s, actually

Lulu: 👋🏻

Lulu: Yeah, I feel terribly seedy, but I went home and Monty’s taking marvellous care of me, you don’t need to worry

Mattie: Oh you poor thing! 😟

Mattie: I can’t believe you had to go off-campus, you must truly be feeling terrible

Mattie: Tell me if there is anything you need, okay, I’ll find time to pop by

Lulu: Bad luck, I know

Lulu: I just couldn’t stay

Lulu: thanks, there’s really nothing I need, but if you can let the rest of my teachers in on how desperately I’ve got to stay in bed rn that would really help

Mattie: Of course I will

Mattie: Plenty of bed rest and you’ll be back in no time

Mattie: I will make sure I get all your work for you

Lulu: You’re a brick 😊

Lulu: I’m so sorry you had to try and force the answers out of the rest of the class earlier, it must have been beastly

Mattie: Yes, I could absolutely tell you weren’t feeling yourself

Mattie: I am dreading some of your classmates' exams in a few months 😨

Mattie: just between us, of course

Lulu: I’ll never tell…

Mattie: I have to ask as I know matron wouldn’t have thought to

Mattie: there’s nothing else, no dorm drama or whatever…?

Lulu: I’m not going to lie and say I LOVE being in dorms but that’s been a thing since I got here

Mattie: That’s fair, I can’t blame you

Mattie: Constant socialisation is a lot to ask of anyone

Mattie: as long as you aren’t having a specific issue with a specific girl, you’re so nearly done, you’ll get through it and you’ll be free before you know it

Lulu: It is, and the engagement party was a LOT too I must’ve caught something there because I’ve been feeling this way ever since

Mattie: Jay was so happy you two came

Mattie: I know it isn’t exactly thrilling as an event, not to mention stressful with all the new people to meet

Mattie: I wouldn’t be surprised if your immune system was compromised from it all

Lulu: I’m beyond happy I did too, things have turned SUCH a corner now

Mattie: I’m beyond pleased 😄

Mattie: it’s great to see you and Jay doing better, selfishly

Mattie: I do hope Dolly will do better too, when she gets to Uni and finds herself

Lulu: Or when she joins the order 🙄

Mattie: I would be happy, if it seemed to bring her peace

Lulu: But neither of us are idiots so we know it won’t

Mattie: 😕

Mattie: it’s such a shame you two can’t make it up

Lulu: I’d tell you to tell her she needs to start being nicer to me, but I also know you hate being put in the middle

Mattie: I will try

Mattie: she’s so hard to reach

Mattie: I don’t think she thinks she’s being anything but nice

Lulu: you don’t really think that

Mattie: What do you mean?

Lulu: you can’t for real believe that’s who she is

Mattie: I think she’s trying very hard to be the person she thinks she has to be

Mattie: but I know that you didn’t ask her too, it’s not your fault

Lulu: Of course it’s not my fault

Mattie: I know, I don’t want you to think I’m attempting to make you do something or make the first move with her, that’s all

Lulu: We’re all well aware it’s her move

Mattie: I told her you’ve gone home, so she wasn’t worrying

Lulu: You didn’t need to do that, I doubt she’s v concerned

Mattie: It’s no trouble, saves anyone having to be concerned

Lulu: PLEASE confirm to me that you don’t mean Grandma when you say that

Mattie: I haven’t had time to talk to them properly in forever, I absolutely must

Mattie: but her homemade soup was one of my favourite things about being sick as a kid

Mattie: you really should take full advantage before you’re back on campus 😅

Lulu: Thank GOD, under no circumstances is it necessary for her to be involved

Mattie: Are you sure?

Mattie: It must’ve been serious to warrant sending you home…

Lulu: it is serious which is why I don’t want her to know, she’d only worry and fuss and I’ll never any get better

Mattie: Okay but I really don’t know if you should be totally alone then

Mattie: Matron said mum was there but I know that can’t be right

Lulu: If I tell you something will you promise to react like my sister instead of my teacher?

Mattie: Go on

Mattie: though that does fill me with slight dread

Lulu: I told a tiny lie to matron because I knew she wouldn’t let me go otherwise, obviously mummy isn’t here, but it’s not as if I need her to be

Mattie: Do you just want the break, honestly?

Mattie: as a sister, not a teacher, who knows how hard you consistently work

Lulu: Jay thinks I need one, it makes complete sense that you’d side with her about it

Mattie: I’m not siding with anyone, and I know she didn’t mean it however it came out

Mattie: we don’t want you feeling burnt out by September so you’re not excited about starting the new chapter in your life

Mattie: A-levels do a number on too many people, it’s not like a personal dig at all

Lulu: she meant it like I’m cracking up, if that’s not a personal dig idk what is, she might as well stamp like mother like crazy daughter on my forehead

Mattie: Oh, Lulu, no, no one thinks that

Mattie: she has a terrible habit of putting her foot in her mouth, always has

Mattie: I know she would never want to hurt your feelings like that

Lulu: And you have an awful habit of constantly running to her defence but it’s fine

Lulu: everything else I said to matron is true, all my symptoms and exactly how I’m actually feeling

Mattie: Don’t worry about that, I believe you

Mattie: but everyone deserves time to rest regardless, that’s fine

Mattie: I just don’t want any of us to fight, that’s all

Lulu: Not being able to recognise what I deserve is a bind Dolly’s in, not me

Mattie: I promise you, I am trying with her

Lulu: I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to turn into a huge bitch, it’s not your fault either, clearly

Mattie: You aren’t, no need to apologize

Mattie: like you said, the party was a lot, for all of us

Mattie: but I’m glad to see you talked to Sekhmet some more, that was a nice surprise

Lulu: It made some things resurface about how deeply she upset me and I’ve been thinking a lot about what it means for the future, so yeah, it’s a sore subject, me and her

Lulu: but like I said, even more good has come of it

Lulu: I love Sekhmet, she’s the literal best

Mattie: Understandably so

Mattie: it was a tumultuous time for you both

Mattie: but I won’t bring it up again without good reason to

Mattie: I didn’t know you would have so much in common, not that I’ve spent a great deal of time with her myself

Mattie: it’s always good to have friends you can do slightly different things with, outside of our school community

Lulu: You’re too kind and understanding

Lulu: Me either, it was an amazing surprise! I can’t believe how much we have in common 🤯 it’s wild…

Lulu: I’d insist you do, because I honestly think everyone should spend time with her, but I won’t, because equally truthfully I don’t want to share

Mattie: 😌

Mattie: it was always a slight sore spot for me, as a kid

Mattie: Jay suddenly having all these siblings and not me…

Mattie: but obviously, over that now 😅

Mattie: It’s great to find that kindred spirit, I’m sure we’ll be seeing much more of them all with the wedding full steam ahead

Lulu: 😄 You can tell me if you’re not over it, I’m great with secrets

Lulu: or if you’re dreading the pre-hen being a bore, maybe

Mattie: No, I’ve got you and Dolly now, if I was still planning to be jealous

Mattie: It’ll be less boring for me, being old and boring now too myself 😊😂

Lulu: You’re not THAT old or boring

Lulu: and this is not me just saying it because I need you to keep teaching me mandarin

Mattie: 😏 mhmm

Mattie: You can stay on my good side

Mattie: Lord knows I’ll need the support when the party isn’t that boring and I get lost in the sea of hens

Lulu: No way, I’m not going to leave you lost

Mattie: Awh 🥰

Lulu: I still love you, despite the fact you couldn’t have been doing more to get on my bad side by bringing the possibility of grandma’s welfare checks into my super needed recovery time

Mattie: I love you too

Mattie: be fair, she isn’t THAT much of a coddler

Lulu: to you, you’re old

Lulu: whoops, I definitely meant older

Mattie: 😱

Mattie: I see how it is, take back the compliment as fast as you give it

Lulu: If you want a compliment from me you have to give me 1 first, I don’t make the rules, sorry ✌🏻💋

Mattie: Oh, I’ll keep that in mind then

Mattie: I did call you smart though, FYI 😚

Lulu: Are you going to miss having me in class?

Mattie: Of course

Mattie: it’s been so nice getting to know you, and that’s helped by working with you every day

Lulu: Do you wish you knew me better?

Mattie: I mean, we have lots of years to make up for

Mattie: but I think we’re doing quite well, don’t you?

Lulu: You know me better than to think I’m okay with quite well

Mattie: We can get to know each other better

Mattie: You know I’ve always tried to follow your lead, Dolly’s too

Lulu: When you’re not my teacher anymore and there’s no professional boundaries to blur, is that going to be the moment for it?

Mattie: I mean, I don’t think anyone has an issue with us now

Mattie: Other teachers have their actual children here

Mattie: It’s not as if I’ll be grading your A-levels or anything

Lulu: such a pity when I’m your blatant favourite pupil

Mattie: You work much harder than your classmates

Mattie: but [the kids who aren’t totally slacking/decently smart enough] should do pretty good 🤞

Lulu: Ew, no

Mattie: Lulu 😂

Lulu: it’s not you, you’re a terrific teacher, it’s all them

Mattie: It wouldn’t look great for me if only one of my pupils passed

Mattie: Doesn’t bear thinking about 😰

Lulu: just your sister getting a perfect score 😬

Lulu: but before it’s fully YIKES, I’ve got you, they can’t accuse you of favouritism or me of cheating if I ace again with different questions

Mattie: There’s no doubt in my mind you will ace all your classes, including the one I do not teach

Lulu: Duh

Lulu: say the word and I’ll for sure help you get all those boys to ace your classes too though

Mattie: Goodness, I couldn’t possibly ask you to tutor them as well as do your own studies

Mattie: not when you’re already needing to take rest before the hols

Lulu: Yes you can, and I can do it

Mattie: Are you sure?

Mattie: I was debating setting up an extra study group, but I was only going to HEAVILY suggest the boys who are really behind attend

Lulu: You’ll see, the quality of their work is gonna go so far up

Mattie: I’ll be sure to write this up, for all your uni apps

Lulu: You’ll have more time to help me with [something mandarin related] if I help you with this

Mattie: I will 😄

Lulu: and to play Sekhmet at chess, she’ll want the practice when I’m done teaching her how

Mattie: Well, you know I love a good game

Mattie: that would be fun, won’t suggest we bring a board to the club or anything though, Jay would probably not be best pleased 🤭

Lulu: Her husband would be, I’m certain he’s imagining all sorts

Mattie: Lord, I hope not

Lulu: bore is better as far as his peace of mind is concerned

Mattie: He’d be mad not to know Jay is totally devoted to him

Mattie: I don’t think a male stripper is going to tempt her away

Lulu: But it might tempt Dolly to leave

Lulu: is there going to be a male stripper?

Mattie: I’m not planning one but one of her friends might think it’s a hilarious idea 🤷‍♀️

Lulu: What are you planning?

Mattie: I’m not sure, she’s pretty low-key

Mattie: I’m not the best bridesmaid, I’ll have to ponder

Lulu: When you’re my bridesmaid I won’t make you organise any party stuff then, you can just chill 👌🏻

Mattie: Still, I do hope you give me some reprieve before that 😅

Lulu: Oh please, I’m too young and beautiful to even contemplate accepting any proposals like that yet

Mattie: Right answer

Lulu: But I am hoping I can meet up with Gabe in the easter hols

Mattie: Really?

Mattie: It feels like you haven’t mentioned him in a long time now

Lulu: I haven’t, but I feel different than I used to, I’m not comfortable with how we left things and all the unfinished business we’ve got, it’s something I need to do to fully move on and be happy, I can’t if I don’t address it

Mattie: That’s very mature, to know that you need that closure

Mattie: just don’t stay with him, that could be awkward, get your own place to go

Lulu: You have no idea how much I need it, I had no idea…

Lulu: Mattie! 😲 I would absolutely NEVER

Mattie: I’m just saying!

Mattie: I’d be a terrible big sister if I didn’t say that that was NOT a good idea

Lulu: I won’t do anything unless I think it’s completely right for me, I promise

Mattie: I know I don’t really have to worry it’s just in the job description

Lulu: you said it, twice, I’m smart, I don’t make bad decisions

Mattie: You’re still a teenager

Mattie: I made plenty

Lulu: Until you really tell me about them in some kind of detail they don’t count

Mattie: Ha! Maybe at the hen 😏

Lulu: now you’re even more not allowed to be lost

Mattie: You don’t think it’ll be tragic?

Mattie: Talking about my glory days like I’m middle-aged and in crisis

Lulu: There’s only gonna be tragedy involved if ALL your stories are sad, I think it’ll be illuminating 👀

Mattie: Oh no, it wasn’t all 😭

Lulu: was it 🥰🌹❣️?

Mattie: Sometimes 😳

Lulu: OMG I’m getting you blotto and getting you to tell me everything!

Mattie: You’re terrible!

Mattie: I’m never getting that drunk, it’d be humiliating

Lulu: 😈

Lulu: You’ve also never had me mix you a drink, which, excuse me, I hate now I’ve thought about it

Mattie: Well I do think the school would have something to say about that 😂 we’re barely supposed to drink

Lulu: They have to make an exception for me, I’ve been raised culturally french, and if they don’t it’ll have to be a secret instead

Mattie: Culturally French is wine with dinner not old fashioneds for your teacher/sister

Mattie: but a good try

Lulu: Fine, I’ll get you drunk on wine over dinner

Mattie: You are incorrigible

Lulu: sometimes

Mattie: 😌

Lulu: Can you do me a favour actually?

Mattie: Sure

Lulu: Penny is upsetting Monty hardcore rn and I can’t deal, can you give her to grandma without telling her it’s because I’m sick?

Mattie: Oh dear

Mattie: Of course, are you going to be able to keep up with Monty though?

Mattie: I doubt they would mind having both

Lulu: I’d feel v bad asking them to do that 😭

Mattie: Well I suppose we could think of a reason they need to be separated but she might be a bit suspect

Lulu: You’re right, I should swallow down my guilt about it and give them Monty too, it’s only going to be for a little while

Mattie: Then we can just say the dog walker is out of town, if you’re deadset against her knowing you’re home

Lulu: I just need some time, please don’t say anything to her

Mattie: I won’t, I promise

Lulu: Thank you, I wouldn’t know where to begin explaining what my life is like at the moment

Mattie: I wouldn’t discount her, she remembers what it was all like

Lulu: not this, trust me

Mattie: What do you mean

Lulu: Nobody else has ever had this experience, not the way I’m having it and certainly not at the same level, that’s all mine, an utterly unique set of circumstances to now and who I am

Lulu: I know what you’re trying to get at, of course, but the fact is, she’d find them TOO extreme even if they weren’t indescribable, to put it bluntly, I couldn’t be living in a more different 🌎 to grandma, or to you

Mattie: I know that’s how being a teenager feels, it’s a vastly different time in your life than general adulthood, or childhood, it’s true

Mattie: but there is still plenty you CAN confide in grandma for, or me

Lulu: We don’t need to try and act like my teenage years haven’t been vastly different from yours, never mind grandma’s forever ago 😂 and my childhood too for that matter, it’s okay

Mattie: Of course, but there’s always shared experiences

Lulu: Respectfully, I don’t agree, not always

Mattie: … Why do I feel like I should be worried?

Mattie: just please tell me I don’t need to be 😅

Lulu: because it’s your default, and Jay’s, you’re both convinced there’s something wrong with me

Mattie: I don’t think that, neither does she

Mattie: the way you’re describing it just sounds serious and serious is always going to peak concern, even if it’s not a bad thing

Lulu: It’s the hypocrisy for me, I can’t help but find it funny that you two think I need to relax when you’re both this unnecessarily stressed, almost everyone alive is traumatised, c’est la vie

Lulu: I feel like screaming, or knocking your heads together, truly, but don’t worry I won’t, not when I can prove you both wrong

Mattie: Now come on, I don’t think either of us is the type to deny our own issues

Mattie: Being a big sister is being worried, it truly isn’t a reflection on you doing something wrong or amiss, but I’m sorry that’s how you feel we treat you, truly

Lulu: Oh god no, of course it’s not about me as a person, how could it be when it’s purely about the two of you

Mattie: I don’t think we’re any different to any older sisters, really

Lulu: Then it’s a systemic problem with all older sisters and you don’t have to take any responsibility for it 👏🏻

Mattie: You’re really upset about this, what did Jay say to you?

Lulu: You think she’d bother to talk to me herself when she can pass along the problem to somebody else? But I’m the one who uncomfortably resembles our mother… 👌🏻

Mattie: She didn’t actually talk to you?

Mattie: well, yeah, that’s not on, I did not realise that

Lulu: She asked Sekhmet to invite me shopping, that’s her idea of a solution to whatever horrors she believes plague me

Mattie: I mean, I’m glad you’ve found you do get along

Mattie: but that is patronizing, I’m sorry

Lulu: I’m not accepting an apology that isn’t yours to give out

Mattie: Okay

Mattie: would you like me to talk to her or no?

Mattie: I assume stopping the game of telephone is your intention, anyway

Lulu: You’re going to talk to her anyway

Mattie: Not if you’re going to, no

Lulu: I’m not going to, she’s got a wedding to plan

Mattie: Yes but your feelings are still important

Lulu: Yes but it won’t change how I feel, it’ll only upset her too and I don’t want to

Mattie: She can handle it

Mattie: but you don’t have to

Mattie: equally but, she won’t know she upset you, or how, if you don’t say

Lulu: I don’t want to cause trouble

Mattie: You won’t, but it’s up to you, don’t cause yourself stress about it

Lulu: forget I opened my mouth on the subject, she already likes me the least

Mattie: Like you said, she has her own hang ups about the whole situation

Lulu: Idc, you like me best, it balances out 😊

Mattie: We all love you, silly

Lulu: Oh I wish

Mattie: Lulu, of course we do!

Lulu: Really? 🥺 Do you promise?

Mattie: We’re family

Lulu: I know, I just hate that we have wildly different definitions for it

Mattie: Do we?

Lulu: yes, all of us do, and if even Dolly’s isn’t the same as mine I can’t expect yours to be

Mattie: Can’t we change the definition if the one we’ve been supplied with doesn’t seem sufficient?

Lulu: I don’t think you want to change yours

Mattie: What do you think is lacking with it?

Lulu: The biggest problem is that you don’t think anything is

Mattie: I don’t know what you’re getting at

Lulu: exactly, it’s a stalemate

Mattie: I can’t do anything if I don’t know what your issue is

Lulu: You do, I told you, there’s a huge disconnect between us, too many differences, and it’s sad

Mattie: We don’t need to be identical to still be family

Lulu: but you need to understand me

Mattie: I want to

Mattie: I can only meet you halfway

Lulu: if you’re saying I haven’t tried hard enough for you that’s even sadder

Mattie: I’m not but I don’t know, it sounds like you think I haven’t been trying

Lulu: No, we both try super hard

Mattie: We can continue to

Mattie: You and Dolly are very important to me

Lulu: I’m sorry, I’ve been dealing with a lot since the party

Mattie: It’s okay, I just hate to think you’re upset with me, or just upset in general

Lulu: not everything that’s 🤯 is upsetting if that makes you feel better

Mattie: It does

Mattie: If you’re happy I’m happy

Lulu: You’re SO pure, I can’t get over it

Mattie: 😏 Okay it sounds cheesy but I’m being sincere

Lulu: You always are, sincere not 🧀

Mattie: Thank goodness 😂

Lulu: though 🍷 + 🧀 is the best

Lulu: if you still need convincing that getting drunk on campus together, or off it, would be amazing

Mattie: Agreed on the 🍷 + 🧀

Mattie: but I definitely never agreed to getting DRUNK

Lulu: You will 😈

Mattie: 🙅‍♀️😆

Lulu: Adorable, but not at all forceful enough of a no

Lulu: maybe because it’s lacking your IRL serious teacher voice

Mattie: You’ll have to imagine my arms are folded and I’m tapping my foot rn then

Lulu: okay

Mattie: 🤭

Lulu: I don’t understand why it doesn’t work on the rest of the class the same way

Mattie: Hmm, it’s almost like I’m totally unintimidating or something

Lulu: It’s not a bad thing and you can easily use how you are to your advantage

Mattie: I would hope being an approachable teacher is a better idea, for sure

Lulu: of course, there isn’t wildly different definitions of approachable for me to accidentally bring the drama with, it’s a undeniable positive

Mattie: Most of us try, it’s just the very old-fashioned types

Lulu: Like [drop the name of your not hot male maths teacher lol] 🤭

Lulu: he’s v resistant to me

Mattie: I can agree his style isn’t mine, that’s not unprofessional

Mattie: Good thing you don’t really need his tutelage to do well

Lulu: I want it though, all the help I can get

Mattie: How about [another maths teacher we know/like better]?

Mattie: I’m sure she would do a study group

Lulu: it would be horrific if she thought I was in desperate need like the boys you were going to drag to yours 💀

Mattie: Not at all, you aren’t the first student to feel incompatible with a teacher and their style

Mattie: she’ll understand

Lulu: You’ll talk to her for me?

Mattie: Yep, can do

Lulu: it would be nice to come back to

Mattie: All I can do is ask but I can’t see her saying no, so, consider it sorted

Lulu: I don’t know what I’d do without you at school

Mattie: The feeling is mutual

Mattie: It will certainly be very strange come September

Lulu: 😭

Mattie: Come on, you’ll be the one living your best life, whilst I wrangle the new little ones

Lulu: Which IS you living your best life, and you’ll have new favourites, it’ll be as if I was never there 💔

Mattie: You’ll still be my sister, silly

Lulu: as long as I’m your favourite sister, I guess

Mattie: I’m sure the others will be okay with that 😌

Lulu: They’ll have to cope because I refuse to with not being

Mattie: 😂 You’re cute

Lulu: I know

Lulu: but I still like hearing it from you, that’s not going to change, ever

Mattie: It’s that or delirious with fever but I have my fingers crossed no more emergency calls need to be made

Lulu: No emergencies, I meant what I said

Mattie: Alright, just sweet then

Mattie: And in need of a nap, perhaps?

Mattie: I better start my marking, meanwhile

Lulu: How did you know? 🍼

Mattie: Call it a hunch

Mattie: or an educated guess, you never stop

Lulu: Or me a 👑 too

Lulu: I can’t stop, there are too many demands on me rn

Mattie: It won’t be this bad again

Mattie: maybe your dissertation but at least that’s one subject, lots of people think A levels are harder

Lulu: Wow, I can’t wait for when I get to do mine, sincerely

Lulu: such dedicated study to one thing is going to be… indescribably fun

Mattie: It’s wonderful you feel like that, not many people do

Mattie: You’ll have the best time, it wouldn’t surprise me if you ended up working in academics and staying forever, honestly

Lulu: See, I am built different, you’ll believe everything I’m telling you is true eventually

Mattie: I don’t doubt you for a second

Lulu: Hm, no, sorry, I can’t return the favour until it’s way more believable, give me some conviction, please

Mattie: You aren’t demanding at all, are you 😜

Lulu: only in the ways everyone loves

Mattie: Oh really? 😄 Well I admire the confidence

Lulu: You should have more

Mattie: I’m quite confident… or quietly confident, perhaps

Lulu: you should be louder with it then

Mattie: I’d be a poor role model if I was discouraging any girl having confidence in herself so I’ll take that on board

Lulu: Jolly good

Mattie: 😊

Lulu: we can have 🍾 in that case, to celebrate

Mattie: I’m sure it will be order of the day at this pre-hen

Lulu: True, you literally can’t say no to me if I come at you 🥂

Mattie: You make me sound as if I’m completely dry 🤣

Mattie: it’s just inadvisable to be inebriated and in charge of children, that’s all

Mattie: The time that’s mine, I enjoy 🥂 as much as the next

Lulu: THAT I believe, and already begged you to tell me about

Mattie: Oh God, I don’t even know what scandalous details you THINK you wanna know 🤦‍♀️

Lulu: Everything, no less than that

Mattie: it’s too late to use it against me, it’s all a long time in the past now 🙏

Lulu: relax, you’re completely safe with me, you know I’m a brick, there’s 0 to be scared about

Mattie: A little too convincing, my dear

Lulu: because I’m speaking with complete honesty, you can trust me

Mattie: You could always be a lawyer, or work for the police

Mattie: do feel slightly like I’m being interrogated 😳😆

Lulu: Putting people in handcuffs is your careers advice for me? Slightly unexpected but sure, why not

Mattie: Well when you put it like THAT

Mattie: sounds very dubious

Lulu: 😄 and v devastating you don’t want me to be like you, obviously

Mattie: Gosh, how tragic if I was trying to mould you into a mini-me

Mattie: Not that type of pushy older sister, I hope, ever!

Lulu: Mummy would be so proud of and so cross at you if you succeeded

Mattie: Well, she does tend to swing between the two

Lulu: violently, there’s a deliberate whiplash effect to it, for sure

Mattie: Have you spoken to her since they arrived in [wherever they are]?

Lulu: No, but if I manage to see her pre- [the next place] I’ll send your love

Mattie: Please do

Lulu: it’ll give me something to say

Mattie: If you can get a word in with her going into great detail about the resort and all the treatments she has whilst there, of course

Lulu: If daddy lets her get a word in before he’s demanding she gets off the phone

Mattie: That’s not nice at all, I’m sorry Lulu

Lulu: It’s nice for him, assumedly

Mattie: He doesn’t need to be number one priority at all times, pretty unfeasible

Lulu: he’d disagree on both counts

Mattie: Yes well

Mattie: definitely unfair

Lulu: He doesn’t play by the same rules you do, that’s all

Mattie: You can’t think it’s fair, though

Mattie: on you and Dolly

Lulu: They’re being unfair to Dolly in ways that are much worse than excessive PDA

Mattie: She won’t talk about it much, but she has a bit before

Lulu: she won’t acknowledge it much, or at all

Mattie: I do wish she’d take up the offer of counselling

Mattie: she’ll work out her own ways of coping

Lulu: You should tell her starving the elephant out of the room is never going to work as one, she’ll still have to bury the giant bones, and if she thinks she’s exhausted now…

Mattie: It’s very sad

Lulu: Après une journée comme ça, t’es forcément crevé

Mattie: It’s hard, to not be able to help someone until they help themselves

Lulu: It’s going to be hard for her forever

Mattie: I don’t think so

Lulu: well, you barely know her

Mattie: I just have faith in general

Lulu: You have to give her hope, it’s your literal job

Mattie: Why do you think otherwise?

Lulu: because I know her better than anyone else does

Mattie: And that makes you feel hopeless?

Lulu: She can’t handle pain, she should’ve let me protect her

Mattie: You didn’t fail her

Mattie: She was groomed, neither of you can blame yourselves for any of it

Lulu: No I didn’t, she failed me and, in turn, herself

Mattie: It wasn’t her fault, Lulu

Mattie: She was obviously struggling and then she was preyed upon whilst in a already vulnerable state

Lulu: she kept those struggles to herself, that’s her fault

Mattie: I can understand that that hurts, her not sharing that part of herself

Lulu: If you understood this wouldn’t be how you were trying to soothe me, because you’d know I can’t be

Mattie: I know I’ll never understand your bond exactly

Lulu: you don’t have to, it’s gone

Mattie: Not forever, not if you don’t want

Lulu: It’s too late for her to pretend she cares what I want, pretending is all it would be after destroying everything I wanted

Mattie: I’m sorry, I literally just said I wouldn’t bring it up again

Mattie: Don’t upset yourself, please

Lulu: I’m not, you two are upsetting me

Mattie: I’m sorry, I’ll stop talking and leave you alone

Lulu: You’re just going to leave? As a teacher or a sister how is that the move

Mattie: I just keep upsetting you and that’s not my intention

Mattie: but I don’t know what I could say that wouldn’t right now

Lulu: your intention is to remove yourself from a situation that’s making you uncomfortable ASAP, clearly, so go ahead

Mattie: That isn’t true

Mattie: at all

Lulu: Thank god I only need you to fulfil an academic need and not an emotional one

Mattie: Okay, I understand I’ve upset you, you don’t need to lash out to even the score

Lulu: Yes I do

Mattie: Do you feel better?

Lulu: Yeah, I’m really into you patronising me

Mattie: I was asking genuinely

Lulu: it’s not too late for you to call your sister for tips on how to, for when you do want to, I’ll wait 💅🏻

Mattie: I’m fine, thanks

Lulu: How nice for you, I can’t relate but

Mattie: I apologized

Mattie: What do you want me to do, actually?

Lulu: I shouldn’t have to tell you what to do!

Mattie: I never said I was an expert

Mattie: I’ll be able to make you feel better if you just tell me

Mattie: Where does guessing get us

Lulu: Why can’t anyone just work it out?

Lulu: I have to do everything for and by myself all of the time

Mattie: I’ve offered so much help in this conversation alone

Mattie: a lot of the time you have no interest in accepting, I’m not about forcing you

Lulu: It’s my total good luck that I don’t need that from you either then

Mattie: Right, this conversation isn’t going to go anywhere productive now

Lulu: Oh my god, did you really just say be productive or don’t bother at all, what happened to my feelings being valid?

Mattie: They are but you’ve said whatever you need I can’t give it to you

Mattie: I’m just going to say something I don’t mean or hurt you further if we continue this

Lulu: Say it, you know I wish you would

Mattie: I don’t think you have any idea what you want right now, okay

Lulu: I want you to stop holding back

Mattie: Do you want me to berate you?

Mattie: This entire situation with you and your sister and us is complicated

Mattie: Of course I don’t have the fucking answer, I’m just trying to be here for you

Lulu: If you’re going to be here, actually show up, as yourself

Lulu: you’re so scared to do the wrong thing you can’t do anything right

Mattie: Thanks, Lulu

Mattie: heaven forbid anyone tries, right

Lulu: I’m not patting you on the back for this, you’re an embarrassment

Mattie: You can stop now

Mattie: I’ve had enough

Lulu: and that’s supposed to stop me why?

Mattie: Because you’ve said enough, you’re just being cruel

Lulu: I can be more cruel, you just want there to be a limit to it for your own sake, it doesn’t benefit me in the slightest

Mattie: It does because I’m not going to get involved in this tit for tat and give you more to rally against

Lulu: You not giving me what I want is an established pattern so

Mattie: You giving no indication is as much

Lulu: I am, you can’t or won’t pick up on it

Mattie: If you just asked you could have it

Mattie: this is very childish

Lulu: Don’t you like it? We never got to do this when I was

Mattie: I’m too old to pull your hair and tell you to get out of my room

Mattie: we have to accept that we were robbed of those years

Lulu: No you’re not and no we don’t, you can do whatever you want

Mattie: Don’t be ridiculous

Mattie: You think having a bitch fight is going to make this better?

Lulu: maybe

Mattie: Don’t make me laugh, I’m upset with you

Lulu: It works for mummy and daddy, that’s all I’m saying

Mattie: I think we can aim a little higher, I’m sorry

Lulu: Do you? That’s such a sweet thing to say considering you’re sulking

Mattie: You’re sulking

Mattie: I’m an adult, we don’t sulk

Lulu: I’m an adult too and I’m not sulking, I’m forcing a confrontation

Mattie: Why?

Lulu: because I can’t bear everyone walking on eggshells anymore

Mattie: Okay, okay

Lulu: I don’t want to hurt you

Mattie: I know

Mattie: I’m just trying to be the sister you didn’t have and I didn’t get to be

Mattie: Sorry I’m so crap at it

Lulu: Not to sound like the boyfriend I have no idea if you did or didn’t have, but it’s not you, it’s me

Mattie: Oh God, you can’t break up with me

Lulu: I should

Lulu: the family function was too exposing, I can’t be the sister you want

Mattie: You’re my sister no matter who you are

Mattie: I don’t expect anything from you

Lulu: But I did from you, and I know it’s too much

Mattie: I understand

Mattie: we were both new girls

Mattie: you’d lost Dolly, you needed someone, I’m not mad at you for that

Lulu: It’s still true, I’m still new and I’ve still lost her, but I promise not to need you like that

Mattie: Please don’t say that, Lulu

Mattie: you’re allowed to lean on me, that’s what I’m for

Lulu: I’m not allowed to do anything I want to the degree I want to, not with you or Dolly or mummy and daddy or grandma and grandad

Mattie: Oh darling

Mattie: you’re allowed to be whoever you are, or whoever you need to be in the mean time

Lulu: if it’s palatable

Mattie: You feel too much but you’re perfect, I know our family unit is not but we all love you, however much we can

Lulu: Don’t be nice to me 💀

Mattie: Is it so bad

Lulu: It’s because it’s not bad, I don’t know how to handle it

Mattie: You deserve love, Lulu

Mattie: that’s consistent and reliable

Mattie: I know you haven’t always had that and it makes everything all the harder to handle but believe me, you do

Lulu: I want love

Mattie: I know, that’s human

Mattie: we need it to survive, it’s not shameful or embarrassing

Lulu: no matter what, you believe that’s true, right? I don’t have to feel bad about it

Mattie: It is, it’s a fact

Mattie: of course you don’t, it’s a good thing, a brave thing

Lulu: Okay

Mattie: Okay?

Lulu: I’m going to accept all the love I deserve from everyone who I know loves me

Mattie: Good!

Mattie: It will get easier, everything, I know it

Lulu: It already feels easier now I’m 100% that you’re on my side

Mattie: I’m always on your side

Lulu: I had to test you, I’m sorry, Dolly didn’t mean it

Mattie: But I know she loves you too, still

Lulu: she doesn’t love me the way I deserve to be

Mattie: Alright

Mattie: there’s time for that relationship to heal but we don’t have to focus on that right now

Lulu: I know where my focus is going

Mattie: 😌

Lulu: the relationships I need to build on too

Mattie: Good

Lulu: It will be, I’ll take my own fantastic advice and not hold back

Mattie: Maybe having a blowout every once and a while isn’t all bad

Lulu: Since you’re converted, I’m not going anywhere for yonks if you do wanna fight me, I’ll be in a weakened state and everything, p perfect timing

Mattie: 😂 Don’t worry, you’re safe, no need to get carried away

Lulu: I do have my guard dog for now, that’s very true

Mattie: Obviously the only thing stopping me is that ferocious beast Lulu: and the utter scandal of pulling a student’s hair 😶 your best student no less!

Mattie: You’re pulling a sickie, you’re just my sister currently

Lulu: Excuse me, the matron was convinced I was about to end up in A&E

Mattie: Well you also convinced her you were going home to mum so I’m not sure we can trust her judgement any more

Lulu: I told you that in confidence as my sister, you’re not allowed to throw it back in her face as a bad bitch teacher 😅

Mattie: Ah well, me and her will have to find other reasons to continue not to see eye to eye 😏

Lulu: It’s so annoying you won’t be convinced of things

Mattie: Is it now

Lulu: you’re supposed to play along not make up a new game

Mattie: I’m out of practice

Mattie: Now Jay is oh so mature, of course 🤭

Lulu: 🙄 Don’t get me started on her life choices, I’m trying to behave

Mattie: Yes I am tempting fate there rather

Mattie: we’ll pretend I didn’t say it or see the eye roll 😉

Lulu: Do you like him? For her OR as a person

Mattie: I don’t know him very well

Mattie: most of their relationship and their lives took place in New York

Mattie: but they’ve been in each other’s lives for a long time, they’re obviously devoted in that sense already

Lulu: SURE, but that isn’t what I asked you, it was just an extremely tactful non answer

Mattie: I can’t help not knowing him!

Mattie: he’s given me no reason to dislike him but what you have to understand about Jay is that her relationships were not a talking point, just a sore one

Mattie: it isn’t like I have the whole decade of intel to go on, she wasn’t spilling like that

Lulu: But you have your instincts, come on

Mattie: I can tell you have plenty of opinions on him already

Lulu: and if YOU wanted to hear them, I’D tell you, I guess I’m just a better sister than you, sorry to have to go there again that quick 😘

Mattie: You bitch 😂

Mattie: Fine, I think they’ve made it this far, no reason they can’t go the distance

Mattie: I just hope they’ve dealt with the resentment from an on/off relationship before settling down

Lulu: I’m calling it in advance, they absolutely have not

Mattie: 😕

Mattie: perhaps I’ll have you bring it up with her

Mattie: as you pointed out, it’s not my forte

Lulu: Oh so you want to watch and not participate 👌🏻 I’ll be bad cop ready for it to go on my CV

Mattie: You haven’t made it sound like a terrible idea

Mattie: though all I want to see is a successful wedding, obviously 👌

Lulu: We need to work on making things your forte that would let you be unstoppable

Mattie: Is that part of your plan

Lulu: it could be, it’s totally up to you

Mattie: I’m not sure what unstoppable means to you

Lulu: It means there is none of the stuff I was cruel to you for

Lulu: if you want everyone in your class to pass, or to bring up with Jay that her future hubby’s vibes are completely off, you can do it

Mattie: That sounds great in theory, I grant you

Mattie: but you can’t control other people like that, all I can do is all I can do

Lulu: It’s great in practice too, try it

Lulu: controlling most other people is ridiculously easy, but I didn’t say it if you don’t wanna hear it 🤫

Mattie: I already do all I can do to make sure my students pass my classes

Mattie: but you’re right, I do need to have a conversation with Jay, I was only joking about sending you in for me

Mattie: I just know it won’t be particularly easy or pleasant

Lulu: I’m sorry that it’s going to be horrible

Mattie: At least I’ll know I did the right thing, that’s what’s important

Lulu: Always, you have to for her and for you

Mattie: Thanks, Lulu

Lulu: Any time, I love a good row

Mattie: 😂