#It actually still hurts a little a couple days later and I haven't drawn anything since lol

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Obviously I had to make it a thing (Patreon)

Spoilers for Handplates! Make sure you’re all caught up before continuing!

I ended up scene-picking around the timeline at pretty-much-random, whatever I thought fit the lyrics the best in the moment of blinding inspiration (lol), but now that I’ve got the basics down to paper, I think I’d more carefully choose in mostly-chronological order. That also means some would have to be cut, so I want to show them off here! :D I also drew them all from memory so if there’s inconsistencies, that’s why lol

For example this is one of the very early lyrics, but the events take place well down the timeline! I’m sure I can find a good stand in - mostly I just wanted to draw Papyrus from this scene, ugh I love him ♥ And the lyrics do fit!

Looking back to Sans for reassurance haha. I changed a few of the lyrics to be more Papyrus-specific -

- also featured here! He’s got the Gaster pose going on here hehe, and cutting around in time of him in Snowdin and also back at Asgore’s, him reassuring Asgore about Sans’ HP is so cute, I had to make reference to it haha

Happiest little sibling spinnies <3 <3 Probably the cutest panel of the whole bunch honestly haha ♥ Their little faces!! Ugh 💕

One of those instances of the lyrical contradictions, and I think I would keep this jump forward - everything has changed! And they’re really not okay, but they have each other

The one makes me laugh honestly, a bit dark lol. All their safe people, except for the two that take up the rear of each. I mean, technically it’s not inaccurate with Flowey’s, he won’t be alone! Unfortunately. The human, well

Started settling into a rhythm by this point, and rather pleased for it :) Poor Papyrus! He didn’t do anything wrong and he still has all these sad feelings about it!

All catching up to him :( You can only run from and ignore your problems for so long - this line feels so him, dealing with what their world is and all that entails, poorly

I appreciate the fact that Papyrus has this dream several times, it fits lots of places! Gaster look what you did to him even when you don’t exist anymore

Papyrus as an adult! Though he also is in the one with him and Sans dream-sharing. Things start breaking real bad for him, I’m still not over how good this song is lol

I did admittedly go a little over-the-top with these, he was not crying this much but I just jsalfdjfds this scene is so- much. So much! The lyrics goaded me, blame them haha - and also the attention to his neck! Even if it’s not in reference to choking on tears specifically, still drawn to the same place! I love Sans going to comfort him as well as rally him ahhhhh

I got his Soul glitches wrong haha, but seriously! This song, I swear!!

A bit of irony - he’s being heard! So much! Just not listened to. I am so enamoured with his pose callbacks throughout the entire comic ugh, so beautifully done

Handing off the song for a moment to someone who actually can rewind it - I don’t think I’ve ever drawn a Genocide Run human now that I think of it :0 It was so satisfying to draw Gaster kneeling on the ground like that haha, contact points were - on point ✨ for this doodle session hehehe

Originally I had his glow coloured in purple but this was one that I actually went back to look at (because I love this scene so much hhgggg <3 <3 <3) and had to change to his natural colour - he deserves it!! He’s earned it!!

I’ve honestly fallen more in love with this song through him and vice versa haha ♪ It’d be quite a bit before/if I could make a full version, even just with what I’ve got here, but it was so fun to draw at all ♥

#Doodles #UT #Handplates #Papyrus #Sans #Gaster #And a bunch of others but only as cameos lol #Largely unedited because there's...a lot lol #The total ended up being 45 panels over the course of about five hours I think? #This was the project that really killed my hand #Honestly I don't even think it was drawing all of them so quickly - tho that didn't help lol #I think it was going back and forth between writing down the lyrics and drawing the accompanying art #I hold my pencil slightly differently between the two and I was in such a hurry to just get it all Out that I split the difference #Which actually just ended up in it being Just Wrong Enough for both to cramp up my hand pretty spectacularly #It actually still hurts a little a couple days later and I haven't drawn anything since lol #But it was worth it! It's not just floating around inside my head anymore! Phew! #Video-ifying it is a whole other thing tho... #But y'already know about that lol #I'm still going to give it a go but I don't exactly have a lot of hope lol #More than anything I'm just glad to have these down :) They're a very raw expression of the chemical soup Handplates made in my brain haha #Comparing the inspired-bys to their originals is interesting to me :0 These being like the shadow-print reading left on my mind hehe #Some things are more intense! Some less so - mostly to do with my ability to recreate them how they ''feel'' haha #It was a lot of fun :) Got a lot of Feelings out all at once! And all it took was my right hand hurting for a few days! Pfft #It's also kinda nice to edit a bit less - especially now that my paper is playing nice! Sheesh #Everything just out all at once hehe ♪ #I do love to make in the same breath that I think up a concept! It keeps me energized! Keeps me moving forward! Feels good :) #So much better than just sitting on an idea until it's ''done right'' :P #I want to make pretty things of course! But sometimes I just want to Make

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❛ MARRIED AND SHOCKED ❜

❚❙ REQUEST BY ANON: Hi babes! Can I request the “I remember kissing you. Why do I remember kissing you?” Prompt for Hank? Maybe reader gets hurt on a case and has a little retrograde amnesia and doesn’t remember (just for a little while) that her and hank are actually together?

❚❙ HANK VOIGHT MASTERLIST.

❚❙ WORDS: about 650.

❚❙ A/N: this writing hasn’t been edited, you may find some grammar mistakes, I’m sorry about that. If you find a description about body or a word out of place, or something that makes you feel uncomfortable / unrepresented, let me know by a private message and I will change it delighted.

❚❙ GIF credits: to the author.

❚❙ General tag list: @melblacc @rebelwrites @skyofficialxx @sesamepancakes @scarletsoldierrr @mondefantastique @that-chick212 @enbyamaro @inlovewith3 @destynelseclipsa @miahelen @jadakiss13 @mcgreads @graniairish @teller258316 @i-love-scott-mccall @tclaerh @rawrlittlepanda-95 . Hank Voight tag list: @sophie-writes @trinityisbored. If you wanna be added to my tag list, send me a message! ⚡

The doctor said the hit on your head wasn't something to worry about, but you know there's something inside you that isn't working as it should. You have tried to talk about it with Hailey and Kim, but every time you're about to ask about it, your boss appears in scene. He's always staying nearby, helping you to grab things, accommodating the bed and the pillows for you, bringing you food from the snack machine. You couldn't imagine him like the kind of boss who takes care of his officers like that, and you feel somewhat bad for making him lose time when he could be working in another case.

The first night you have the weirdest and random dreams ever. Short flashes with Hank doing things. Dates, sleeping together, caressing the back of his head in his car, furtive kisses in his office. Short flashes of a life with him. Waking up barely breathing and covered by sweat, you earn more attention than you want. You can see a lot of nurses surrounding your bed trying to calm you down, while Hank is set apart to a corner to let them work. Before you can say anything, the sedative makes a quick effect on you.

Your eyes open slowly, getting used to the white lights on the ceiling, as you tilt your head over the pillow to your hand wrapped among another two. Feeling somewhat sleepy, you raise your orbs to the concerned brown ones. You can see him wanting to say something. How are you, do you need something, what you dreamt about.

“I… remember… kissing you”. You whisper feeling your throat dry, swallowing before continuing speaking. “Why do I remember… kissing you?”

You aren't sure if you want to know the answer by the gesture of confusion drawn on his face. What if it has been just a dream? What if is it part of your imagination? But then, something changes on his grimace. It's the first time in eight years that you see tears in Hank's eyes, racing your heart as his reaction squeezes it. Sitting on the bed with some difficulties, you don't know what to do, nor what to say.

“We… We are… married, (Y/N)”.

“We what?”

“If this is one of your… jokes, it isn't funny”.

As soon as he sees the surprise inside your eyes, he knows you aren't kidding. And Hank doesn't say a word, stepping out from the room to come back a minute later accompanied by Doctor Halstead and Doctor Charles. They call it retrograde amnesia, and it means you have forgotten a couple of things like five years dating your boss. Nothing significant, if you see the sarcasm here.

There's not medicine to bring back your memory. The only thing you can do is continue your life as if you haven't had the accident, and bite by bite you will remember experiences till completing the puzzle of your memory. But the sadness that has invaded Hank is killing you and you need to do something for him.

“Have I… ever told you that… I've been in love with you since I was in the Academy? Like… I don't know… eight years ago?” Your husband is now looking at you fascinated. So, probably, you have never talked about it and this makes your cheeks feel like they're burning. “I… used to fantasize about… you know, having dates, working together, traveling…”

“We will do whatever you want when you are discharged. I promise”. He replies kissing the back of your hand once and again, feeling more relaxed now that he's aware he's not going to lose you.

“I'm sorry I forgot it, Hank”.

“But you still love me”.

“Sounds like you wouldn't make me fall in love with you again…”

“I've done it every single day for the last six years, and I will do it till my last breathing”.

#lemme know what you think in a comment! ⚡ #chicago pd #chicago pd imagine #chicago pd x reader #one chicago #hank voight imagine #hank voight x reader #hank voight

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RNM 2X13 - Echo Download

I've been having a hard time trying to put my feelings about the Season 2 finale into words, so I've been sitting on it for a few days, reading everyone's metas, and trying to organize and separate my actual thinky thoughts from the angst and heartache. That… is not something I am particularly good at. But I'm trying.

I LOVE this show. The writing is a mess. There's plot holes all over the place. The pacing issues alone make me want to tear my hair out. And dear God do I want them to give these characters and relationships (including friendships) the time and space for the big moments to land properly. I don't know if we'll ever get any of that though. And in the meantime, I love these characters and the story, messes and all.

Everyone knows my biggest love is Echo, so I'm gonna start there.

"I don't know what you thought love was gonna be like when we were 17, but it's not all sunsets and horseback rides."

Back in the OG days, there was one consistent criticism I had with the way they wrote Max and Liz's story: the breakups always felt like bullshit. Max breaks up with Liz because she was afraid of some weird alien shit. Liz breaks up with Max because he's "supposed to be with Tess" and meanwhile he's like, "um… no?" We had "it's too dangerous" when it was dangerous regardless. "We're just different" but not in ways that actually mattered.

Echo's breakup mattered. There were issues and they were not dealing with them. Both of them were sneaking around behind the other's back. Neither was being fully honest with the other.

The unwavering honesty was something that stood out to me in S1. Yes, Max was hiding the truth about Rosa's death. But when it came to the present they were almost laughably open with each other. Liz didn't lie about it when Max asked if she told Kyle the truth. When Max asked what she was doing in the lab, she told him the truth. Once Liz knew the truth about Rosa, she knew everything. It seemed like with that truth out there was nothing left to hide. And once they got together they were a team. Immediately. There's a reason that we had a joking headcanon in the Echo world that they had their first kiss and then they were a married couple.

I really think Max's death not only put that to a screeching halt...it also put them on this path to the breakup. Liz has abandonment issues, and Max made a choice, without her, that resulted in him leaving her alone. It wasn't openly discussed in the depth that it should have been this season, but I really do think it was issue #1. Liz loves Max and she was very happy being with him...but after he came back from the dead she didn't trust him to not leave her again. It was an issue simmering under the surface from Episode 7 until the finale. Liz channeled it all into worrying about his heart, but the underlying theme was a resounding "I can't go through that again". Which is deeper than just the worry over a physical health problem. And it pushed Max away from her.

He grew irritable with her. He started hiding things from her and lying to her. The season just ended and I have no idea if he ever told her anything about his memory flashes! He was obsessively trying to learn about his past and never once discussed it with Liz!?? Because he didn't want her to stop him from using the serum? This is a HUGELY personal thing to Max and you can see how much it means to him. He had tears in his eyes while telling Isobel about it. I mean, that puppy dog excitement, and yet, he hides it all whenever Liz is around.

I think it was around episode 8 that we started talking about how badly they needed to have a big fight. Us -- the Echo shippers -- the ones who WANT them to be together -- were BEGGING them to fight. I hate conflict!! But the lack of honestly and the aversions were just building and building and I just wanted it all out on the table.

They finally STARTED having that fight in episode 11, but then Rosa and Isobel interrupted. In retrospect, sweet alien!Jesus, I wish they could have finished then. Maybe they would have gotten the air clear between them. Maybe it would have put them on a path to healing their relationship before the finale. But they didn't, so the breakup happened. And the thing is… that ending. It just kind of haunts me. Liz waiting and hoping for a grand gesture that never comes. I mean, did Max even know WHEN she was leaving!?! He sure didn't seem to have it on his mind when they flashed to him in that scene. And their fight...was all about what Liz was doing and Max not taking care of his heart. They never once touched on what he was trying to learn about his past. I'm pretty certain that Liz left without knowing any of that.

And the thing is… I'm sort of skirting around the meat of the issue here. Because the biggest problem of all of this was Liz violating Max by studying his biology without consent.

I really hate saying that in writing, because, to me, it's kind of the most horrible part of all of this.

Max Evans has been referred to in jest in this fandom as the King of Consent. He was so careful with Liz, tiptoeing around her looking for explicit consent in Season 1 until her desire for him was made abundantly clear. He only ignored the need for consent twice: both times in the S1 finale. Healing Michael's hand and healing Rosa. But those things both happened after he killed Noah. After he was high on his own power. They were very clearly set up as out of character for him.

Liz didn't give him the same respect. Consent does not just apply to sexual situations and healing. It applies to studying too. It applies to Liz USING Max's biology without his permission. It also applies to administering the cure to Steph without her consent. Liz was very, very wrong here.

And the thing is… it sure didn't seem like the writers saw it that way. It also didn't seem like JEANINE saw it that way. There's been a little bit more balanced quotes from them in interviews this week since the finale ended as far as saying that both Max and Liz were wrong, but they sure focused on Liz being incredible and strong before the finale aired.

The part that confuses me though...like, a LOT, is that the narrative was pretty clear that what Liz was doing was Bad and Wrong. She looked guilty. She was lying and hiding things from Max. And the MORAL COMPASS OF THE SHOW, Mr. Kyle Valenti, repeatedly told her she was wrong. Kyle called her out on her ethical violations even as he was thanking her for saving Steph.

Genoryx was set up as being bad. Liz herself refused to go work for them in the flashbacks because they were morally sketchy. Although, maybe that's the draw now that she is all full of ethical violations. Sigh.

I'm gonna leave this topic now, but I'll encourage you to go read @latessitrice's meta on the subject here:

Okay...so to sum this up? The breakup was coming. We knew it was coming. But it still hurt my heart so much. I haven't seen anyone gif Jeanine's performance of the "I am in love with you. And I hate that right now." But the delivery of that line broke me.

That being said...do I see it being over? Let's give that a resounding FUCK, NO. I mean, sure, they fought. And it hurt. And Liz ran away. Without saying goodbye. And all of that SHATTERED ME.

But...they still love each other even if they both have a lot to work on individually. That’s part of what MADE it so hard.

I am actually stoked for season 3. Two Maxes? All of the delicious angst once Liz gets home. Liz not knowing there's two Maxes and meeting Jones first and not knowing who he is and being vulnerable to his mindfuckery? Or just his fuckery in general. Whatever. I am here for it.

I am here for Liz discovering that something about Genoryx is Not Right. I'm here for her living a normal life and getting drawn back into the madness. I'm here for Max getting more powerful and more alieny under Jones's guidance. And I am here for what I am certain will be an epic reunion once they are back together again.

As a last more positive comment...I’m stoked that we get to have both Max and Liz alive and facing interesting potential storylines this hiatus. All I wanted from this finale, in truth, was to leave the characters in a place that inspired me to want to write for them for the next year plus or however long this COVID-extended hiatus ends up being. And I am so excited for that.

And I have talked enough now that I will go ahead and post this and leave this post as my Echo Takeaways from the finale. I'll be back again with some more gen/bigger picture thoughts later.

#roswell new mexico #rnm season 2 #rnm echo #max&liz #max evans #liz ortecho #ogroswell #feeling the feels #ouch my heart #rnm echo meta #my meta